14.

I woke up and reached for my phone. I immediately shot wide awake when I saw I had 2 missed calls and 4 messages. Both calls were from Tom, so were 3 messages. The other one was from Harry. I opened Toms messages first.

"Why didn't u tell me Danny is in hospital? I heard from his mum"

"What room does Danny lie in? Forgot to ask"

"Why are u ignoring me?"

Wooow, someone's cranky..

"Sorry, just woke up. Danny lies in room 235. When R u going?" I texted back

Then I read Harry's message.

"Hey, wanna hang out 2day after school?"

Guess he doesn't know about Danny yet.. I felt a little guilty for not informing them about what happened yesterday.

"Sorry can't. Danny's in hospital I'm going 2 visit him" I texted back to Harry.

He immediately texted back.

"Just heard from Tom. We R going 2 visit him after school. Will u B there?"

"Yeah, m going asap."

I threw my phone in my bed, took a shower and practically ran downstairs when I was ready.

'I'm ready, can we go now?' I asked inpatient

'Honey, you have to eat something first' my mum said giving me a sandwich. I looked at it with disgust. I really wasn't hungry. My dad saw my face.

'We are not leaving until you eat that mate.' He said

I rolled my eyes and quickly pushed the sandwich down my throat.

'Alright, I'm done' I said with my mouth full while putting on my jacket and gesturing my parents. They shared looks with each other. I swallowed the rest of the sandwich.

'I would like to go TODAY!' I said a little pissed off by how slow they were. The drive to the hospital was long and boring. It couldn't go quick enough for me but time wasn't on my side, again.. When we finally arrived at Danny's room, his parents just came out.

'Oh hey Dougie. We're just going to get some breakfast. We won't be long.'

I nodded and turned to my parents while Danny's parents went to the cafeteria.

'Alright, thank you for dropping me off..' I said but because they didn't move I added. 'You can leave now'

I know it sounds harsh but I wanted to be alone with Danny. I love them especially because they allow me to skip school today but they don't have to hang around all day. My parents got the message and left but not before telling me to do something about my attitude.

I entered Danny's room and saw he was still sleeping. I took a seat next to the bed and let out the words I have been holding in.

'I wish I could tell you something to take it all away. It's hard to force that smile when I see you lying in that bed. If I could switch places with you I would happily take your place. Because I know I wouldn't be missed by a lot of people unlike you who is loved by so many. ' I sighed

'I'm scared of the future. I'm scared to live without you. Sometimes I just want to burst out in tears but I can't. I have to be strong for you. You don't need people having a break down right now.. I don't know how you do It, really I don't. I don't know how you keep yourself strong. I think it's harder for me than it is for you. Stupid isn't it? I'm not the one that's sick, I don't have to lie in that hospital bed and I'm not the one who's dying.' I felt my voice break during that last sentence.

Dying.. he's dying.. just the thought of him not being with me scares the hell out of me.