Disclaimer-The poem is mine, Glee isn't
This chapter focuses on Rachel and her relationship with Shelby
Chapter 14-Who?
As long as she could remember, Rachel felt as though a deep part of her was missing. She was a smart girl, so it didn't take her long to realise and understand that her family was different from most of the other children she went to school with. Most children had a mum and just one dad. Some of them had step-mothers or step-fathers. There was even a girl named Carla who lived with her grandparents. But for the most part, everybody had a mum and a dad as opposed to two dads who loved one another like Rachel's dads did.
She didn't ask them much about her birth mother as she didn't want to hurt their feelings. But Rachel Berry was desperately curious to know more about the woman who had helped grant her life.
When performing, happiness always surrounded Rachel. Although she took her singing, dancing and acting incredibly seriously, it was still great fun and enabled her to laugh. After a good day she would dream happily about being a Broadway star one day. On a bad day, the ones where Rachel was teased more than usual and found herself thirsty for water, she would cry herself to sleep. On tearful nights, Rachel would have bad dreams and wake up screaming.
Occasionally, she felt guilt for wanting her mystery mother to come and comfort her. Of course, her mother was not in the picture and didn't hear her daughter's cries. It was her two dads who soothed her and Rachel would cling to them, silently hating herself for even thinking of wanting a mother when she had two remarkable fathers.
At times, Rachel would sigh when her fellow Glee Clubbers didn't pick up dance routines or song lyrics as quickly as she did. She would shout a lot when things didn't go her way. She'd smile when things did go according to plan and there were even times when she would pout.
Her mother missed every exclamation and expression. Instead it was her dads who saw them, knowing each look so well they could read her like a book.
Having endured her share of bullying growing up, Rachel was well used to having to stand tall; or at least as tall as her short height permitted her. On particularly bad bullying days, she would return home and end up crawling across the sofa to cuddle up with her dads. Sometimes she would run and sometimes she would fall, literally and metaphorically.
There was no mother figure to save her, but her dads never let her down.
Inevitably, Rachel got hurt. Not just a grazed knee or the odd scratch and bruise. She reached her teenage years and of course the angst hit her full force. Her heart ached for one Finn Hudson and her heart bled for Jesse St James.
As it turned out, Jesse was asked to befriend her by Rachel's birth mother, Shelby, the director of Vocal Adrenaline. More than friendship had happened between Rachel and Jesse but their romance did not last. With broken egg shells littered around her, egg yolk dripping from her hair as her heart broke in her chest, Rachel questioned whether her relationship with Jesse had even been real.
Humiliated and heartbroken, Rachel's spirit nearly left her. It was her dads, Mr. Schue and her fellow Glee Clubbers who helped her recapture her spirit before Regionals. Sadly, they did not prove victorious. It was Jesse and Vocal Adrenaline who won the competition. Rachel looked on as Shelby, her mother, embraced the boy who had so recently broken her heart.
Rachel was truly grateful that her friends, teacher and dads were there to help her heal from the wounds Jesse had created. She needed them to find the strength to make it through. She needed them all desperately because her mother was not there to help heal the aches of her heart.
I laugh
I dream
I cry
I scream.
Who hears me?
I sigh
I shout
I smile
I pout
Who sees me?
I stand
I crawl
I run
I fall
Who saves me?
I hurt
I ache
I bleed
I break
Who heals me?
Because it isn't you.
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