Chapter 14

I Love Him

'How are you feeling today, Lady Nody?'

'I'm feeling fine, thank you.'

The weather was bright and sunny; an ideal weather for a lovely stroll in the garden of the Holy Castle. It was like the walks she had in her dream in Hell. Walking through the beautiful garden was so peaceful and calming. There was a lovely breeze and the sun caused a pleasant temperature. There was the mixed smell of Heaven's Flowers and roses. Petals gently danced in the wind, some of them flew right into Nody's new pair of wings.

As soon as she regained enough energy, Dawn thought it was time to perform the toughest spell she had ever known. It all happened in Nody's bedroom. Nody was lying on the bed while Dawn narrated the spell from her book. The spell was written in a strange language that Nody couldn't figure out. It was different than the spells from Courtney, but Dawn spoke the language with ease. During the narrating, Dawn touched Nody's shoulder. Suddenly, Nody felt a divine magic surging through her body. She could feel the bones of her wings grow and the feathers growing back. Within seconds all her Archangelic powers were returned. But this spell took nearly all of Dawn's energy; she fell on the ground and panted heavily, sweat pouring from her forehead. This spell was very powerful and she had to use all her power to restore Nody. She was so tired, but her work was done.

Nody took a deep breath and smelled the flowers. It felt so good to have her powers and wings back, she was herself again. It had been three days now and her recovery had been going well, from psychical aspect. She had been gaining a bit of weight, so her ribcage was less visible now. During Dawn's spell her bruises had disappeared and her eye lids were normal again.

But from mental aspect, it was a whole different story.

Talking with Dawn about all the painful things that had happened to her in Hell helped a lot, it made her happy that she had a friend to talk about it. A lot of tears were shed during the conversations, but it was relieving. Dawn was there to help her. The memories of the torture and abuse seemed less painful now, but she just couldn't talk about one certain memory. The memory of Scott. Nody had the courage to tell about the torture and abuse, but really didn't want to speak about the Archdemon. Her heart was still broken. She tried so hard to forget him, but she couldn't. She couldn't stop thinking about him and each time she thought him, her heart would break even more. She searched for as much distractions as possible. Flying through the skies, taking strolls through the garden, designing her own clothes, everything that could make her forget about him. And that was damn tough.

This time she was taking another stroll in the garden. But now, Dawn had joined her. It was nice to have company.

'The flowers look beautiful!' Nody said. Dawn smiled. 'They are, aren't they? I have always believed flowers were Mother Nature's jewels... Such a shame some people don't think the same way.' 'Hey... Dawn...' 'What is it, my Lady?' 'I... I want to thank you for all the support you have given me during my recovery. It really means a lot.' 'You're welcome.' Suddenly, Dawn frowned and gave Nody a confused look. The Archangel noticed it, it made her feel slightly uncomfortable. 'What's the matter? What's the look for?' she asked. 'Your aura...' Dawn mumbled. 'What's with it?' 'I see... dark blue. Grayish. Is something wrong, Nody?' Nody was getting nervous; could she see her secret? If she discovered it, what would she do? Would she turn against her? Would she tell the other Angels about it? She had to keep cool.

'No... I'm okay, really.'

Dawn stared at her for a few seconds. 'Alright then.' she said. 'Maybe I've misread your aura. My apologies, Nody.'

'It's alright.' the Archangel replied, feeling calmer.

But the small Angel knew better. Her aura readings were a hundred percent accurate. She knew Nody was lying.

What was she hiding?

The nights were the hardest.

It had started since day one. Nody knew she had to sleep, but she couldn't. She tried so hard, she closed her eyes for hours, but still, she couldn't fall asleep. Even closing her eyes was hard, because every time she did, she would see his face.

Scott.

Her dear Scott.

His face looked so real, she nearly wanted reach out her hand and touch it, even though her eyes were still closed. Then she would open her eyes and the illusion was gone. She felt horrible. Even though she was able to get some sleep this night, this night would cause her heartbreak to hit rock bottom.

She was back again.

Back in the icy cave.

With Scott.

His arms were wrapped tightly around her hips, pulling her body close against his. Nody felt so happy, so calm. Scott ran his fingers through her short brown hair. She touched his muscled chest, making sure she would touch every place there. This was the body she fell in love with. It was perfect, it was the body of her dream man. She rested her ear against his chest and heard his heartbeat. It was like listening to the finest music. She looked up and looked him in the eyes, those warm red eyes. She smiled at him and he smiled back. She touched his cheek and he closed his eyes, placing his claw on her hand. Nody wanted to touch him so bad, she wanted to him everywhere.

'I love you.' Scott whispered.

Nody nearly giggled at the statement.

'I love you too.' she replied.

It was now or never.

The two leaned in for a kiss, but just as their lips were about to meet each other... Scott faded away in thin air.

With a loud gasp Nody woke up and sat up. The frozen walls of the cave were gone and were replaced with her bedroom. It was dark, the only source of light being the full moon. Her eyes wide with shock, Nody looked around. 'Scott?!' she yelled out loud. Then it sank into her. It was a dream. It was a damn dream. But it felt so real...

Nody had never felt this miserable before, not even in Hell. Tears burned behind her eyes. She had tried to forget, it's true, she really tried. But she couldn't do it.

It was impossible to forget Scott.

She couldn't take it anymore. She bend her upper body forwards and covered her face with her hands. Tears rolled down her face and dripped upon the sheets. Nody cried hard enough to wake up the entire Holy Castle. It was too much, way too much. She just couldn't take it anymore. She was an emotional mess; for the first time in her life she found a man she was attracted to. And that man just happened to be her brute, yet he treated her with such kindness, not even an Angel had treated her this way. Without him she felt so empty... without him, she was nothing. She couldn't stop crying, so much sadness came out.

The door opened and Dawn stormed into her room. She didn't even knock before coming in. With a worried look on her face she sat on Nody's bed and rubbed her hand over her back. 'Lady Nody, what's the matter?' she asked. Nody knew she couldn't lie about this. She had to tell it. She took a deep breath and exhaled to calm down, which didn't have much effect.

'Dawn... I can't take it anymore...' she sobbed. 'I... I have to tell you something...' The servant nodded and continued rubbing on her back, trying to calm her Lady. Her aura was now dark grey; she was absolutely miserable.

'I... I am in love...' Nody confessed, wiping away her tears.

Dawn nodded again, but said nothing.

'With... the Archdemon. Scott.'

It was completely silent in the bedroom.

Dawn stared at Nody with a slightly shocked expression on her face. This is what Nody was afraid of. Now she was disgusted by her, she would turn against her. She would tell everyone about this and she would be banished from Heaven forever. Or would there be an even more worse fate?

'Your disgusted by me, aren't you?' Nody said softly.

'No. Not at all.'

Nody looked up in surprise. 'Really?' she exclaimed. 'Really.' Dawn replied. 'It's just that... well...' She giggled. 'You have a rather interesting love interest.' The Archangel wished she could laugh about that, but that didn't happen. Instead, she burst into tears again. 'It's so wrong, Dawn!' she cried. 'I know he was my main tormentor and it's because of him I have suffered. But still, I can't stop thinking about him. Just thinking about the consequences if they'll find out what he has done drives me crazy! What if they have already found out...? I never thought I would ever say this, but... I love him.'

'Sssssh, calm down, please...' Dawn whispered. Nody stopped crying, but still softly sobbed. 'You won't tell anyone about this, would you?' she asked. 'No, I'm not like that.' Dawn replied and shook her head. 'You know Nody... I have always believed that Mother Earth wanted her children to be free in every aspect, even it comes to the aspect of love. Everyone should be free to love who they want, even if it's someone from the same gender... or even the enemy, in your situation. But if there's true love, opposing sides don't matter. The love between the two of you has to be true. I believe everyone should be free to make their own choices. If you don't want to stay in Heaven and choose for him, I'd understand, but perhaps the others won't. But you should be free to choose your own destiny, it's your life and nobody can take that away from you.'

Nody didn't know what to say. She just stared at Dawn, trying to look for words to say. Dawn had such different, but beautiful thoughts, she never met an Angel like that before.

'I know this might be an inappropriate moment, but I want to give you something. I'll be right back.' Dawn stood up and left the bedroom. After a minute or two she came back, holding something in her hand. Nody's couldn't see what it exactly was, until Dawn got closer. It was a necklace. The chain was made of pure gold, but what interested Nody the most was the gem. It was bright blue and illuminated a blue light. As if she was hypnotized by it, Nody stared at it.

'I have made this just for you,' Dawn said. 'It's not just a normal necklace; it contains special powers. Use it wisely.' Nody nodded, took the magical necklace and hid it under her pillow. 'Your aura tells me you are tired. Try to get some sleep. And please, Lady Nody... try to think about what I said.' 'I will... Thanks Dawn.' the Archangel said. 'Good night, Lady Nody.'

Dawn left the bedroom, closing the door behind her.

Nody was sitting upright in her bed, staring at nothing, if you considered a wall as nothing.

She was right.

Every word she said was right.

For as long as she could remember, she had been serving her Lord. She was controlled by Him, she was loyal to Him, but when she needed him the most, He wasn't there to save her. She had been praying until her tongue felt numb during her captivity and yet he didn't send one single Angel to rescue her. Did He even care about her?

Did she even mean anything to Him?

Even when she arrived in Heaven, she didn't even hear a thing from Him. He didn't even care reacting to her return.

Suddenly, anger clouded Nody's mind. If she didn't mean anything to Him, then why the fuck should she stay here any longer?

Nody fell back on her back. After tossing around for an hour she finally managed to fall asleep.

'It's my destiny.' was her last thought for the night.