Mandy
It was 9 that night. I was in a stall of a bathroom of a store. I'd had some salt water. It wasn't too long before what I'd eaten came back up. This went on for 20 mins. After I felt cold for a few mins. I stayed there for a few mins. before leaving. I then left the store and went outside.
I was there alone in the cold darkness. I thought about the binge.
'you're so strong,' I thought. 'you can eat. And then binge. No one else does that. Yeah food is ewy but you eat anyway so they think you're healthy. When they couldn't be more wrong.'
I pulled out my friend and texted my sister Louisa's friend pansy who'd become my friend; 'hey you doin anything?'
'no and I could use some company,' she texted back.
'ok'.
I headed to her place.
On the way there I wondered why, if Lia was at least 16 and I was 15, we shared a locker. And where in the northeast she was from. And how her friend had died. Her anemia was the reason she'd gotten winded earlier today. I'd had the same thing before I became bullimic over the summer. I wondered what kindof music she liked and why she didn't sing but I'm guessing it had to do w/ her friend.
When I got to Pansy's big house the big wooden door was closed but unlocked. She often left it unlocked. Since her mom Margo was on tour a lot Pansy had the whole place to herself. We didn't know where her dad was. he didn't have any siblings to contact to get this info from.
I opened the door and stepped in closing it behind me.
"Yeah?" she asked from the medium size living room.
"Hey," I said.
"Oh hey come in. you know where everything is."
she'd sank into the black rectangular chair she'd been sitting in.
I went to the white fridge and got a soda. They kept it well stocked. Then I went to the living room where pansy was drinking a soda watching tv. It was 10.
"Hey what's on?" I asked her looking at her.
"um not much. 'The office' which I'm not a big fan of," she answered looking at the tv.
"Yeah it's ok."
I sat down on the rectangular sofa.
"I got pizza," pansy informed me.
"Yes I see," I said looking at the box on the black square wooden coffee table: "even though I just finished."
Pansy knew I purged.
"How was your day?" she asked looking at me.
"Ok long. Um I met a new girl in school Lia. She seems nice she's pretty. She's anorexic too."
"oh wow. Well bring her by sometime."
"Ok I will. Adam's worried of course Louisa came home drunk. Um Brittany's sick. Rose made this big dinner for everyone you should've come. They would've liked to see you," I said looking at her.
"Yeah. I like your house. But then I might've had to you know. Eat."
"Yeah. But you're always so polite."
"Right. Here no one expects me to eat. That's why I like it."
"Well you know you're welcome anytime."
Pansy smiled: "thanks yeah I know."
"Oh hey Rose gave me iron pills. Here. You need them," I told pansy giving one bottle to her.
She put it on the coffee table. I knew she wouldn't be taking them.
"How's Kate?" pansy asked.
"She gave Anna a transfusion and when I came home they were still at the hospital."
"Oh. How's Jessica?" she asked, about a friend of mine.
Jessica was dianna's younger sister.
"don't know."
"Oh."
"How's your mom?"
"She's in the production of 'Dracula' they do every yr. so busy as usual."