Hi again, sorry for my lack on updating, I'm really sorry, I promised a sooner update but I couldn't deliver, lot of fatigue 'cause of work, really sorry guys. Here the 5t chapter of the 2nd arc: NY, next one will be the last one of this arc.
NOTE: Everything in bold italics, it will be an internal dialogue, I mean, like, their thoughts in their mind. And everything between parentheses () it's to describe the scene.
I hope it's clear and thank you in advance if you have the time to leave a review! Have a great day!
NY - 5
*** Hanna's narrative ***
Have you ever thought about how many things in our lives are all about timing? We met as strangers, 1st I hated you, I found you annoying but then, with time, I found you less and less annoying, I stopped hating you… we grew up together like persons, side by side, you became my friend, someone very important for me, and everything was looking perfect until feelings changed… you made my feelings for you to change… and I hate you for that…
(In the roof)
Alison smiles. – "So, what do you say Hann…. Would you be my friend… or better, my best friend?" (She notices a tear in Hanna's eyes and she clears it with her hands) "Hann?"
Hanna pulls back, her face sifts from sadness to anger…
Alison gulps. – "Hann…?"
Hanna yells. – "I hate U!"
Alison. – "What?! WHY?!"
Hanna doesn't reply Alison's question, she just rushes to leave with tears in her eyes and, Alison gasps, surprised of what just happened. Alison has no clue what was happening, and she wasn't going to figure it out any soon….
Some days later…
(In Jason's apartment)
Jason looks at his sister, pouting sad on the sofa…
Jason. – "Something wrong, Ali…?"
Alison sighs sad. – "Hann is angry at me…"
Jason. – "Why?"
Alison. – "That's the worst part, I don't know why!" (She pouts sad) "I miss my friend…"
Jason takes the time for the food which is in the oven and, sits at her side; he wraps his arms around her and the blonde smiles, feeling protected into the arms of her dear brother…
Jason. – "Don't worry too much about it, you're smart, you can figure it out…"
Alison. – "And, what if I can't…?"
Jason. – "Have you tried to ask her why she's mad with you…?"
Alison sighs. – "I've tried to communicate with her but, she completely ignores me each time I try to reach her…" (Sad sigh) "What I did wrong, Jason…? How did I lose my 1st and only friend…?"
Jason doesn't know what to say, he just hugs his sister and tries his best on cheer her up…
(In Hanna's workplace)
Hanna was coming back from an errand when the girl of the lobby says to her that someone was waiting for her.
Hanna. – "It's a girl? A blonde?"
Before the girl in the reception could say something, someone else answers Hanna's question…
Jason. – "I'm blond but I'm not a girl…"
*** Hanna's narrative ***
Love doesn't make sense, you really don't always have a choice when it's about love… you just fall for it… without asking for it, you just hopeless fall in love. And, the more you hide your feelings, the more it shows…
Hanna. – "What do you want DiLaurentis…?"
Jason gives her a lunch bag and says. – "I got used to cook extra food; even if you haven't been around the past few days, I keep cooking for more than 2 people… it will be a lame to waste it… so here…"
Hanna hesitates on taking it but, it smells so good, that she quickly takes it and runs away. Jason follows her.
Hanna. – "This area is just for employees…"
The blonde tries to push him out but, Jason doesn't move, not even a mm…
Jason. – "What are you doing?"
Hanna sighs while she keeps pushing him. – "I'm pushing you away… you shouldn't be here…"
Jason. – "I'm not talking about what you're doing right now, I'm talking about Ali… what are you doing with her?"
Hanna stops her tracks and blushes, just hearing the name of the girl she doesn't dare to face, it makes her blush…
Jason sighs. – "I don't know what happened between you two, but she's sad, really sad…"
Hanna gulps hard, looking down without being able to see him into the eyes…
Jason. – "It's hard to apologize, especially when you don't know what you did wrong… could you at least tell her what she did wrong? Could you please talk with her? She misses you…"
Hanna looks up and blushes. – "She misses me?!"
Jason nods. – "Yes, she misses her friend…"
Hanna sighs with a bitter voice. – "Friend…"
Jason notices how Hanna didn't like to be called 'Alison's friend', he doesn't know why but, he hopes his next words will help to repair their friendship…
Jason. – "I'll be honest with you, I wasn't thrilled with the idea of you two, becoming friends because I always saw you like the nasty girl of the building…"
Hanna pouts. – "Hey! I'm not nasty…!"
Jason chuckles. – "Not anymore but yeah, you were… but, you changed… you changed for good and I think that change in your person has a lot to do with your friendship with Ali…"
Hanna doesn't deny it, she just avoids eye-contact and crosses her arms above her chest…
Jason. – "Don't ask me why, but she's good for you and you're good for her… you're good for each other… you bring out the best in each other and let me tell you something, you don't find that kind of bond with everyone…"
Hanna can't argue what he's saying but she can't see Alison, she can't face the feelings she's feeling, she doesn't want to feel this way, but she can't stop it. Scared of those feelings, of how strong they were becoming; Hanna did what she thought it was the best for her: cut Alison from her life… even if that hurt more of what she will ever admit…
Jason sighs. – "I'll not insist you any more, you're free to do whatever you want but I really hope you two can make peace with each other before she leaves…"
He starts walking away, but he stops walking when someone grabs him from the arm. Jason turns his head towards the person who's grabbing his arm, and he gulps hard when he sees the scared look of Hanna…
Hanna says with watery-eyes. – "She's leaving…?"
Jason. – "Probably very soon, tomorrow she has an appointment with the doctor, if the doctor take off the plaster of her leg; she will be able to go back to work very, very soon…"
*** Hanna's narrative ***
Do you know how hard is it to just walk away from you? Hide my feelings, act like I don't care, like I'm fine…? Why am I so afraid to lose you when you're not even mine? Why… why I feel like this?! It's so dumb! It's so stupid! (Sighs) I don't want to hurt myself but, I keep doing it… because it hurts… it hurts not to have you like I want… you're a pain that I try to give up… but I'm falling doing it… and you… you're not helping at all…
(In Mona's birthday party)
Mona opens the door and she happily hugs the girl who's arriving at her party…
Mona. – "Ali! I'm so happy you could come…" (She looks at the blonde, up and down, and smiles) "Look at you, without crutches… nice…"
Alison smiles. – "Yeah, it's very nice to finally walk like normal people…"
Both girl giggle
Alison gives her a present and says. – "Here for you, happy birthday…"
Mona. – "Thank you…" (She points out towards a table on the middle of the apartment and says) "You can put it there, with the others…"
Alison sighs. – "I… I wasn't planning on getting inside…"
Mona frowns. – "What? You're not staying on my party? Why?"
Alison looks down and says with a sad voice. – "I… I don't want to ruin your party…"
Mona chuckles. – "What are you talking about?"
Alison knew that Hanna was the BFF of Mona; with Hanna angry at her, the last thing she wanted to do, it was to put Mona in a difficult situation. Mona deserved to spend a happy birthday without drama or fights, so, Alison was reluctant to just give her the gift and leave before crossing eyes with the other blonde but sadly, Alison's plan goes to hell when a person from the party approaches…
Aria. – "Alison…?"
Alison. – "Aria…?"
Mona. – "Do you know each other…?"
Aria smiles. – "Yeah, on my trip to Havana…" (She hugs the blonde and says with a happy smile) "OMG! I'm so happy to see you again!"
Alison hugs her back and smiles. – "Yeah, me too… I'm happy to see you…"
Aria holds Alison's hand and pulls her inside while she says…
Aria. – "Come on, you've to taste my little pigs…"
Alison frowns. – "Little pigs…?"
Someone else approaches and answers Alison's question…
Mike. – "She means the little snacks she did with sausages and puff pastry… it looks disgusting, but it actually tastes really good…"
Aria playfully hits Mike's arm and whines. – "Hey! I worked hard on making them…"
Mike chuckles. – "Sorry, I know…" (He looks at the blonde and says while he stretches his hand towards her) "I think no one has introduced us. Hi, I'm Mike, Mona's boyfriend, and Aria's brother…"
Aria corrects him. – "Little brother… even if you're taller than me… you'll always be my little Mikey…"
Mike rolls his eyes and, everybody chuckles. The introduction is made, a happy unexpected encounter happens and, someone who was hovering at the distance, doesn't look happy. With a sour expression, Hanna narrows her eyes on Alison, especially when she sees her happily talking with Aria…
*** Hanna's narrative ***
They call it 'jealousy', I call it 'fear of losing something precious to you' and there's no worst pain than fear to lose something it has never been yours…
On the balcony of the apartment, looking at the stars, Hanna sighs hard, lost on her thought she doesn't notices she's not alone till she sneezes, and someone puts a jacket over her shoulders…
Alison says while she covers Hanna with her jacket. – "Put this on, it's getting cold…"
Hanna avoids eye-contact, she refuses to wear Alison's jacket and says while she throws the jacket on Alison's face…
Hanna says with a bitter voice, filled with jealousy. – "I don't want your jacket… I don't need your jacket… why don't you go and, give it to that fucking little brunette… you looked so happy with her, why don't you go with her and give her your fucking jacket…"
Alison frowns. – "Why you're so mad at me, Hann? What did I do?"
Hanna doesn't reply, she just gives her silence treatment, just like the past few days and, the other blonde sighs sad, really sad. Alison starts walking inside but she stops her tracks and she looks at the other blonde when she says with sadness reflected in her voice…
Alison. – "I miss my best friend…"
Hanna. – "I'm not your friend, neither, your best friend…"
Alison. – "For me, a best friend is someone who makes you laugh even when you think you'll never smile again…" (She looks at her with deer eyes and says) "Because of you, I smiled, I laughed again when I believed for sure I wasn't going to feel happy ever again…"
Hanna looks at her and, her heart quivers when she sees how Alison is looking at her and expressing her feelings for her…
Alison. – "Hann, because of you I laugh a little harder… I cry a little less and smile a lot more… you're my dearest friend and you'll always be… even if you say you're not, for me… for me, you'll always be my BFF…" (She sighs sad and walks away) "And, I'm sorry Hann, I don't know what I did to make you mad, but I'm sorry… I truly sorry…"
*** Hanna's narrative ***
How you'll know if it's the right decision if you never make it? How you'll know it will never work out, if you never try it? Against the odds, against your fears, against the little voices in your head, you've to risk it… you've to take chances… make mistakes… that's how you grew up… that's how you live without looking back in five years and think 'I could have it all, but I was too afraid to do something about it…'.
(In Jason's apartment)
It was 2am when someone knocked the door…
Alison mumbles with a sleepy voice. – "Who could be at this hour?"
Dragging her sleepy body towards the door, the blonde wildly opens her eyes when she opens the door…
Alison. – "Hanna…?"
Hanna says with a tipsy voice. – "Hey you…"
Alison frowns. – "Are you drunk…?" (She leans a little toward the blonde and sniffs) "OMG! You stink on vodka!"
Hanna throws herself towards Alison and she smiles when the other blonde catches her into her arms…
Hanna sniffs Alison's hair and mumbles. – "Vanilla… I don't like vanilla, but I like it in you…"
Alison. – "Ok…"
Hanna almost loses balance, but Alison's holds her tighter and the drunk blonde doesn't fall…
Hanna says with a tipsy voice. – "You're so strong…"
Alison. – "It's late Hann, let me help you to get inside your apartment…"
The blonde thinks Hanna is so drunk that she might tried to get inside the wrong apartment, but, truth be told, Hanna didn't knock the DiLaurentis' door by mistake. Alison tries to guide Hanna towards her apartment but, the blonde sneak inside, rushing towards the sleeper sofa…
Hanna says while she jumps into the sleeper sofa. – "Wyyyy…!"
Alison sighs. – "Hann, that's not your bed…"
Hanna rolls over the sleeper sofa and says. – "Tonight, it's…"
Alison rolls her eyes, she's too tired to argue with a drunk Hanna…
Alison sighs. – "Fine, but don't you dare to throw up over me, ok?"
Hanna goofy nods and Alison helps her to take off her shoes…
Alison. – "Hann! Stop kicking! You can't sleep with the shoes on…"
Hanna teases. – "You're trying to see me naked…"
Alison frowns. – "What?! Off course no! I'm just taking off your shoes…"
Hanna sits on the expanded bed of the sleeper sofa and says while she starts taking off her clothes…
Hanna. – "I'll help you to take it off…"
Alison sighs. – "Hann… stop…"
The drunk blonde tries to pull off her blouse, but she gets stuck with it with the arms up…
Hanna pouts. – "I'm stuck…"
Alison giggles…
Hanna pouts. – "Don't laugh! Help me!"
Alison knees in bed, she helps her to take it off and, immediately, Hanna pushes Alison towards her and both girls, fall into the bed. Alison was on top, Hanna just wearing her bra on the top and when they stay, face to face, with a tiny gap between them, Hanna wants to talk from the heart… but she just puffs her face what Alison finds it very cute and chuckles.
Her perfect dimples, the sound of her laugh… everything is so perfect for Hanna that without asking permission, she hugs Alison's by the neck and pushes her towards her; their lips almost crash against each other but before it happened, Alison puts her hand between their lips…
Alison sighs. – "Uff… that was close…"
Hanna pouts. – "Mmmm… why you did that…?"
Alison says while she tries to get free of Hanna's grip. – "Hann, I think you drank too much…"
Hanna pouts. – "Mmmm…. I hate you! Idiot!"
Alison. – "Idiot?!" (She asks with sadness) "Do you really hate me…?"
Hanna can't stand to see the sadness reflected on those blue eyes, so, she lets her go from her arms and rolls on bed, giving Alison the back…
Alison. – "Hann… stop icing me out… please…"
*** Hanna's narrative ***
What do you need to open up with someone? What do you need to express your feelings? What do you need to expose your heart…?
Hanna mumbles. – "I hate you because I don't hate you at all…"
Alison frowns. – "I… I don't understand… do you hate me or not…? It's very confusing…"
Hanna sighs annoyed, she grabs a pillow and, throws it to Alison, into the face…
Hanna. – "You're very stupid! Why you can't see it?!"
Alison grabs the pillow before it hits her face and asks. – "Why I can't see what?!"
Hanna says with a shaky voice. – "That I like you…"
Alison doesn't get what Hanna's trying to say and the blonde misunderstand Hanna's like with when you like someone like a friend…
Alison smiles. – "Awww… I like to be your friend too, Hann…"
Hanna grabs the other pillow and hits Alison with it, while she says angry and frustrated…
Hanna. – "No! Moron! No, that kind of 'like'!"
Alison. – "Stop hitting me with the pillow!" (She grabs the pillow and throws her very far from them, then, she looks at Hanna into the eyes and asks) "Hann, wha…?"
Hanna cuts her off. – "I've a thing for you…"
Alison says in shock. – "WHAT?! WHY?!"
Hanna. – "Why?! What kind of stupid question is that?! Why do I've a thing for you?!" (She waves her hands) "I don't know Ali, maybe it's because I think you're worth having a thing for… because when I was being bullied by my boss, you stood up for me…"
Alison's eyes get bigger…
Hanna. – "Because when I wake up, the 1st thing I want to see, it's your fucking smile!"
Alison blushes and gulps
Hanna. – "Because when you told me someone broke your heart, all I could think it's why this person would let anyone like you go…" (She gets very emotional and tears appear in her eyes while she keeps talking from the heart) "Because you're the best thing that has happen to me in a long, very long time! Because you're my friend! Because I trust you!" (She says louder and louder) "Because you make me smile! You make me happy! You shine my world!" (She throws her fists over Alison's chest and says with tears) "You! You, moron! You make me better!"
Alison stay speechless, she's still processing everything the other girl is saying and, Hanna just leans her head over Alison's chest and cries…
Hanna sobs. – "You moron! You're the biggest jerk on the planet for not seeing how you make me feel!" (Sobs) "That's why I hate you! I hate you for making me feel like this and ruin our friendship!"
Alison doesn't know what to do or what to say, she just hugs Hanna while Hanna cries till there's no more tears to show, till she's so sore for crying that she falls asleep in Alison's arms…
** Hanna's narrative ***
One day, I'm going to wake up, roll over on my side, and kiss the love of my life… I just wonder when it will happen…?
Hanna rolls on bed and says with a sore voice…
Hanna whines. – "My head hurts…"
The blonde rubs her eyes and she stops moving when she realizes she's waking up into the arms of someone else…
Hanna blushes. – "Ali…?"
The other blonde has one arm wrapped around Hanna, she's deeply sleeping and, Hanna doesn't want to move, she just wants to stare Alison's sleeping… forever…
Hanna softly kisses Alison's cheek and smiles till she recalls what happened last night. Hanna gulps hard, she feels a huge palpitation on her chest since she doesn't know yet, what will be the reply to her love confession…
Alison slowly opens her eyes…
Hanna gulps. – "Ali…?"
Their eyes meet, and there's no space for more hidden feelings, or misunderstandings… there's just room for the truth… whatever that will be…