Xianja climbed the multitude of stairs entering the living area. The room was silent as the boys were sleeping on the couch. She shook her head and climbed the stairs to the balcony and walked down the corridor to her room. Grabbing a towel, she opened the door in her room that connected to the bathroom next door. She ran a bath and step in calmly trying to calculate her next move. Once she was done she noticed it was night time already.

The fullest moon she had ever seen illuminated her room through the window. During her manic episodes she would look to the moon for guidance, now looking back she realized how absolutely mad that was. Xianja had forsaken what ever god was around, and openly mocked the Christian god, but was crazy enough to worship a rock that orbited earth. But form time to time she would still use the moon as an anchor to collect her thoughts; she would stare at it with a semi blank mind until a solution was found.

She needed to find the Hatter. The moon of wonderland was a lot different from the one on earth. It held a more blue hue to it and was so large it took up about 1/3 of the sky. It was really insane how close it was, kind of scary and overwhelming, but soothing like a blanket or an embrace from a person you never thought existed. She knew Hatter was most likely looking at this same moon somewhere where he could get a good look at it. His studio was an Idea, but its window was a bit small. The living room had the colossal window, yet it didn't capture the essence of it. The roof top garden was most likely the best place he would be too look at the moon.

Xianja rummaged through her wardrobe and found a black and white striped silk nightgown that came down mid thigh. She put it on and fluffed out her big hair letting her afro loose for the night. She opened her door at set off in search of the Hatter. She came to the elevator and pulled a few levers causing it to move.

When the door opened she saw in front of her hundreds of fireflies all over the garden, dancing amongst the flowers. She trekked barefoot along the grass and around the corner until she saw Hatter's silhouette illuminated by the moon. He was leaning against the balcony, fully dressed with his hat atop of his loose hair. Xianja stalked closer to him and leaned against the balcony as well. He didn't notice, but she wasn't offended.

"I'm named after her you know." Xianja said breaking the scilence. Hatter glanced over and saw Xianja looking at the moon with him. He was confused to say the least as to how she was still here; he was so sure she had gone back to her world. In fact that's why he was here; he was trying to find a way to bring her back, if not for him, for the cause, now he was sure his mind was playing tricks on him.
All day the voices were tormenting him at such a level he started to beg them to stop. They were still tormenting while he was up here and when they ceased he thought the moon was the cause, instead it was her. She spoke to him yet he had no words to say, instead he asked

"who?"

Xianja grinned slightly and pointed to the orb in the sky. "the goddess of the moon. I was named after a Mayan princess who was sacrificed to save the people of her tribe. They also believed her to be saving the rest of the world with her sacrifice. My mother came across the name within her travels around the world, she thought it was a nice name. I tried to look it up but couldn't find it any where, personally I think she was high on acid, but it's a pretty sounding name don't you think?"

she looked up at him as he quickly engulfed her in a large hug, squeezing as if she were going to disappear. She hugged him back in earnest.
"I am so sorry" he whispered into her hair. Xianja shook her head and held him tighter. "No, I'm sorry. I deliberately disobeyed you, forcing you to share a side you hade every right not to share if you didn't want to." Xianja looked in the orange eyes she loved so damn much, they looked so sad, so full of shame.

"You were afraid of me. The one person I never wanted to fear me, did."

"Oh, Aleck." She whispered calling him by his name.

"I was afraid because I didn't understand, but believe me when I say I do now. I know what that was, I know why you do it, and I know damn well you enjoy it. What I want you to know is that I accept all of it. I don't care what others from my world may think, I accept you and will NEVER try and change you. I adore you Hatter, every bit, from your madness to your blood lust"

she confessed while her cool hands rubbed his cheek. Tears threatened to spill over his eyes,but he couldn't let Xianja see, yet he looked into her brown eyes and asked "how?" her smile never faltered. "Because Aleck, my mad Hatter, I love you." She said softly.

For the first time in Hatter's life the madness, coursing through his being stopped, even if it was only for a few seconds. He couldn't believe it, yet there it was. The woman with whom he was madly in love with, whose mind he had the honor to be in, the one who shied away from any kind of attention, just expressed love, for him no less! It was mad, even for him. She was the most sensible person he had ever met and out of all the other blokes she could have fell for, she had to choose the looniest one of all who has to kill in order to maintain some kind of social etiquette, which she accepts! Not even Alice accepted him after throwing the word love around. Xianja was a gem among rocks to be treasured for eternity.

Hatter looked at her with the brightest orange eyes she had ever seen on him. "As I love you and shall never cease." He declared as he wrapped his hand around the back of her neck and brought her close, their lips meeting in a kiss unlike any either had ever experienced, even more so then the ones shared in the garden. It was slow and passionate, making them both quiver. Hatter broke the kiss to allow her to breath. "I want you to know that there is no turning back, you are MINE now." He warned her.

Xianja smiled wide as she heard words that she had always wanted to hear. She leaned in and openly kissed the base of his neck causing him to moan. "I always wanted to belong to someone, although the same applies to you Aleck." She slipped her arms around his waist and looked up at him. He was with out a vest and could feel her hardened nipples thought their thin clothes. Hatter gripped the railing to contain him self.

"Will you sleep in my bed with me tonight?" she asked sweetly. Hatter froze and hesitated. "I don't think that's a good idea" he politely declined, then instantly regretted once he saw the hurt in her eyes. "Why? We won't do any thing." Xianja said with a wounded voice, or at least that's what Hatter interpreted. "I know, its just that…" he hesitated some more, then slightly panicked when she released him from her embrace.

Hatter quickly placed his hands on her shoulders and took a deep breath to calm him self. "I would love more than anything in this world to spend a night next to you, just lying near you and nothing more. The dilemma is that I have certain feelings toward you that are too strong and very hard to control daily when I am just near you. If I were to stay a night with you I may loose that control and hurt you in a way that I could never forgive my self for."

Xianja caught on to what he was saying, and then a plan formed in her head. It was a long shot but if her prediction were correct there could be a compromise that could be met. But that was only if her hypothesis was accurate. "you wont hurt me Hatter, and I completely understand the risks that will be taken, but honestly Hatter you don't give your self enough credit. I know that between the both of us we can find a middle ground to work with that we both can agree to." She grabbed the hands from her shoulder and nuzzled them while trying to be as convincing as possible.

"I don't know"

"Please?"

she looked at him with those big eyes that reminded him of the picture of her he saw in her memory when she was a child. His resolve cracked, "fine, go to your room, I'll be there momentarily." Hatter sighed and figured if he gave himself some extra attention he should be well enough to be with her tonight. Xianja beamed and quickly kissed him before scurrying off to her room.

**************
~so you will sleep with him~

"No not like that! He is just spending the night and you are going to leave." Xianja said as she frantically tried to fix up her room.

~are you kicking me out?~ Q said in mock hurt.

"you damn right I am. As soon as he gets here I want you out."

~would it have any thing to do with this plan?~

Xianja was a bit confused with that question. "How do you even know about that you weren't even there when I thought about it."

~true but I can currently see it running through your mind at the moment and I must say, it pretty ingenious. But can you handle it?~

"yes I'm pretty sure I can, if not then I am not fit to be with him." Xianja said as she went in to the bathroom to brush her teeth.

~well then I guess I'll leave. Besides I don't want to see my baby Hatter's sex face. It's a bad image~ Xianja rolled her eyes and spit into the sink then wiped her face. "You are so lame" she said as she walked out the door and into her room

"I'm sorry, I don't follow" she heard Hatter say. Xianja looked at saw him shirtless sitting on her bed, she stopped in her tracks.

"I, uh, wasn't…um" she couldn't finish, as he stood up looking at her like a wolf to a sheep. His hair was loose hanging over his bare shoulders. Hatter wasn't wearing any thing besides some grey pajama pants. His body was more muscular than she thought, he was built like an assassin with scars covering his body like signatures of past battles, he was beautiful. Light hair covered his chest that progressively got darker as the trail disappeared into his pants which hung a bit low on his hips, making her mouth water and her heart race.

Hatter stalked a bit closer, with a smirk on his face. He was overjoyed that she was pleased with his body. "do you like what you see, love?" he said as he backed her into the wall. She nodded dumbly and reached up to touch a rather large pale scar on his right shoulder that lead all the way down to his chest.

There were so many others like this one on his body and they fascinated her to no end. "Do you not like them?" Hatter asked with a hint of disappointment, telling her that others before her had disliked them or even feared them. Xianja closed her eyes and traced her lips against a few, while tracing others with her hands. "Will you give them to me?" she asked in response. "I wish to have all of you Aleck." She lightly kissed his scars showing him that she did indeed like them, more than he knew.

"you have all of it and more" he whispered as he let his hands roam against her soft body. The silk of the dress made her curves more prominent; he massaged the cushion of her bountiful backside whilst his other hand stroked her sides. Hatter could hear her breath quicken while the smell of her excitement became stronger, he was really pushing it

"Time for bed little one" he whispered and grabbed her hand leading her to the bed. Xianja drew back the covers and slipped in while Hatter turned off the lamp, leaving only the light of the moon to illuminate the room. Hatter followed her and wrapped his arms around her bringing her closer as she brought her arms around his neck to do the same. She knew what she had to do next. She leaned in an kissed him feverishly which he returned with as much fire.

His frame towerd over her, his hand traveling lower to her thighs, hoisting one around his hip and he stroked it in place. He quickly took control, his mouth moved lower to her neck causing her to mewl and buck her hips against him. Hatter licked and sucked harder, growling as he girnded his hips hard against her soft body groaning in pleasure. He wanted this, by the gods he wanted this! She rubbed against his hardened cock over and over, moaning as she did so. She wanted this too; his love wanted it as bad as he did. She could smell it, the sweet scent of her need. She wanted him, all of him, around her, above her, inside her, hard, fast, again, and again, and AGAIN!

Hatter's eyes widened and he rapidly flew off of her, clutching at his head as his loose hair fell into his face. Xianja sat up immediately looking at her Hatter's agony; it was time for the next step and possibly the hardest. He was about 8 ft away from her and she leaned over to head in his direction. "DON'T! STAY BACK!" he barked while an internal struggle raged on. "Its too dangerous!" he warned. Xianja sat still on top of the covers, while she looked at the Hatter, who refused to look at her.

"What's to dangerous Hatter?" she asked

"he wants to hurt you!" he swung his harm hard against the bed post at the foot, shattering it. This made Xianja jump abit but she wasn't going to give up. She inched a bit closer. "Who wants to hurt me?" She said in a soothing voice to try and calm him down, in hopes to talk him through it.

"He wants to do things to you, nasty things!" he roared. "I'm trying to protect you!" His fists now were clutching the blankets, and she moved closer. "Who are you protecting me from sweetheart?" she moved a bit more. "ME!" he yelled "the other me!"

"The other you?" she asked getting a little closer. Hatter nodded, still not looking at her, breathing heavily.

"The me I become when I do horrible things, when I kill people. He wants me to do things to you, I want to do things to you, he tell me you will like them. But I know you won't!"

Xianja was close enough to put a hand on his shoulder, he was tense all over. She place both hands on his shoulders and turned him around to lie him back down. She stroked his face as he blankly looked up at nothing. His eyes were a battle field of orange and red.

"What does the other you want to do to me?" she asked.

"He sends images of what he would like me to do when you're around. I wish to act upon these desires but I can't. Too precious" he mumbled.

"Who is he?" she asked again in order to understand. "He is me, I am him. He is I when I have no filter, no control over emotions." He said. Xianja nodded knowing enough; despite his protest she straddled him and bent down to his ear, hoping this would work. "Aleck, can you hear me?" he nodded.

"good. Now I want to talk to the Aleck I saw this morning, in the basement" before he could say a word she clamped her hand down on his mouth. "I meant it you little fucker! Be a real man and talk to me" Hatter's body started to shake with laughter.

With lightning speed Hatter quickly grabbed her by the shoulders and roughly pinned her to the bed. His eyes were now a garnet red that held the same unbridled lust she saw that morning, and he held a smile that was wide and menacing. "you really shouldn't taunt me" he said, his voice a little deeper.

"Eat my dick, and suck on my balls, you cum gurgling ass fuck!" she replied. Hatter laughed then yanked her hair roughly, pulling it tight between his fingers, making Xianja wetter by the second.

"Watch what you say, beloved, you may give me a hard-on." He said against her ear. Xianja could feel it against her stomach. "you already have one numb nuts, Ah!" she shouted lightly as he pulled even tighter, he then grinded his pelvis against her and moaned.

"mmm, want to see it?" he asked smugly as he forced her against the bed by her hair, then moving himself so that he was poking her against her core. she trembled and lightly whimpered. "if you flash me you dick, will you stop tormenting your self into this state of mind and spend a nice, sex-free, night with me?" she asked, trying to be as level headed as possible.

Hatter just laughed. "You know nothing about this side of me and yet you're trying to negotiate, how commendable. But why should I stop? I can see you like the way I pull you hair, like a naughty girl, and if it wasn't for the fucking voice in my head screaming at me not to I would take my cock in my hand and cum on your face and make you clean it up."

He moved him self up so he was sitting on her chest, putting her only a foot a way from his erection. Xianja's eyes widened in fear, "Why would you do that?!" she shouted. He held up his hand.

"Two reasons, One: because its sexually gratifying and I would love to see your face of gratitude after I did it. And two: judging by the copious amout of pre cum your little virgin cunt has just produced after I had said such, I'm guessing you would enjoy it very much and that matters. Please don't think me to be a selfish lover, because im not."

Xianja's brown face was starting to turn red. "How do you know that?!" Hatter simply tapped his nose. "let me explain a little bit about this situation here and about who I am exactly, well this part of me anyway. As you know, from some source, with my powers of insanity come my bloodlust, which is the current state I am in now. To understand what that really means and what it has to do with this, all you have to do is look at the word.

"It is comprised of two equally powerful words, Blood and Lust meaning, I am not only a psychopath I'm a horny psychopath!" he laughed.

"Yes, not only do I have to kill people I have to fuck as well! Although finding sluts to sleep with isn't that hard, neither is seduction." He looked at her with a leery gaze.

"But, then there's you. As soon as your sweet little arse pranced into my studio with my hat on, my bloodlust only increased and an emotion I had kept locked away broke free, I was in love with you the moment I saw you. As much as I wanted to fuck you were you stood, I had to control my self, I couldn't treat you like any other whore. You were special and I hade to take things slow, earn your love as well, but gods was that difficult!

"Every bloody moment I saw you, you just made it harder in every way. And that little stunt you pulled in my office, I was so close and you were damn lucky you left when you did, hell you were lucky every time you happened to leave it the nick of time. Do you know how many times I had to pleasure my self to you!? Too many times! I haven't had to do that in over a century, all those times I only wished you were there to do it for me. But no matter, there will be time for that now." Xianja sat back and listened to his rant, knowing he had probably been holding in that frustration for a long time, and she somewhat sympathized with him.

Hatter composed him self and released her hair, and got up from her chest, now towering over her on his knees with his arms folded against his chest.

"Now the problem here is this. Due to my powers I have heightened senses, including smell. I can literally taste that mouth watering scent of your arousal in the air every time you're excited, especially now. This tells me one thing, that you want to be pleased. I want very much to please you in every possible way. This in turn causes me to give in to my bloodlust and the only thing on my mind is pleasing the woman I love and my self as many times as possible.

"Here's where the fun part comes. I need to get you off and eventually my self, although it never used to be this way before, but I wasn't in love then. So question is how do we do it? There is sex, which I am never opposed of, but you are, fair enough. But there are billions of other possibilities on how to go about this. Now, this is where you come in beloved. You must decide now, either I must leave and sleep somewhere else to night, I stay and you try and get a hold on your lust, or I stay and satisfy the both of us." He smiled.

Xianja raised her brows, this wasn't exactly the compromise she had in mind, but she really didn't have much of a choice. "do you promise to stop when I tell you to?" she asked sitting up. "don't worry little goddess, you will remain pure after tonight," he chuckled then his voice became darker "But that doesn't mean I wont dirty you up a bit." He propped her on her knees to face him. "take off your dress" he commanded.

Xianja hesitated, she had never been naked in front of any body before. "Do I have to? I don't think you'll like what you see." She looked down refusing to look him in the eye.

With out warning he grabbed the colar of her dress and ripped it off, tearing it into two. She gasped at the abrasion and covered her nude body. Hatter roughly yanked her arms away and bonded them back with the dress scraps.
"Don't EVER cover your self, you have no right to hinder me from what is mine." He was authoritative yet gentile when he spoke. "look at me" she did. He looked at her with adornment; the nights he fantasized about what her body would look like did absolutely no justice.
He remembered the self-conscious issues she had to face in her past and understood her worries. He kissed her slowly, "you are beautiful, and you are mine." He nuzzled his face against hers. "relax little goddess, let go" he laid her down gentily on her back kissing her neck while progressively traveling lower. He licked the vally between her breast causin her to moan. His large hand encompassed her breast, kneading it, while his mouth devoured the other. His tongue teased the brown bud, suckling and nipping it till it turned an angry maroon. With a loud pop he released it, looking her in her clouded eyes, she didn't even notice that her panties were gone.

He sat up and spread her leg wide, causing her to make a noise and blush. He could see that she was dripping at this point, and he notice that only her mound was covered in silky black hair, the rest of her was smooth, making he arousal more prominent.

"when did you do this?" he asked stoking her bare thighs. She blushed harder. "I do it every month, it was the day before I came her I got it done." Hatter squeezed her thigh alittle harder. "where you trying to impress someone?" he asked darkly. "oh, God no! I do it for my self, fuck other people!" she answered righteously. He nodded accepting this answer, with his fingers he scooped up some of her cum, making her shriek.

"you are very wet" he commented mostly to himself. He then placed his whole hand on her, rubbing her clit ever so slowly, she screamed at the contact, "you like this little goddess?" he said moving a bit faster, making her squirm. "Yes! Fuck!" she cried trying to buck her hips against him, but he moved his hands. "Ah, Ah, Ah— my foul mouth little girl, vocalize you want" he said condescendingly. "Harder please!" she sobbed. His eyes grew darker; "with pleasure" his hand applied more pressure moving faster, and faster.

Xianja was going to cum any second, but then he moved his hand away from her. "What the hell!" she growled, he just smirked swiftly thrusting his finger inside her, making her wince in discomfort. He probed her insides, enjoying her uncomfortable whimpers. "you are a lot tighter than I had anticipated, you are going to need some prep work in order for there to be less pain." He said adding another finger. Xianja never liked the feeling when she did it to her self, but it felt completely different when someone else was doing it. She moaned as he worked is fingers in and out of her. The feeling made her tighten her self around his digits and hump his hand on instinct.

"Good girl, make that pussy tight and fuck my hand" he instructed watching her with interest, licking his lips. Her moans where loud, making him want to bad to impale every hole in her body, to show her utter ecstasy, but he couldn't just yet. He moved his fingers around, making her shriek when hey hit a spot Xianja didn't even know was there. "There it is." He grinned then bean to rub the spot furiously.

Xianja didn't know what to do, she knew she was on the brink of orgasm, but she felt like she was going to wet herself. Although the faster he moved the less she seemed to care. "Please…Aleck, stop! I can't, I'm going to die…stop!" she pleaded panting hard, she knew she was on the edge. Hatter glared at her. "Die Then!" she came hard on command, screaming his name, her fluids came flying getting all over his hand, pants and the bed.

Her screams ere music to his ears and he looked down at her mess and laughed. "You, my dear are a very messy girl." He delighted examining his pants then licking off the sweet liquid form his hands like a parched man joyously. Xianja sat up slightly, and stared at both the soaked sheets and a soaked Hatter, she was mortified. "Oh, my god did I jus—"

Hatter shook his head "Nope" was all he said as he scooped more of her juices on to his hand. Xianja sat up fully. "Aleck can you un-bind me?" he licked the last of his fingers and brought her close, kissing her as he untied her, Xianja could taste her self on his tongue. "Wait," she broke their kiss but he just ignored her and moved to her neck, she could tell that he was very pleased with himself. "Aleck, I wish to—" he stopped and looked her in the eyes.

"Return the favor?" he finished for her. "Are you asking for permission?" he asked coyly, she nodded. He chuckled. "I appreciate the courtesy, although for future references you don't always have to ask." He leaned back pulling her into his lap while he relaxed against the head board.

Xianja was nervous, but tried to get over it. She had somewhat of an idea of what she was doing, only because she had knowledge of human anatomy and she remembered the "pointers" friends have told her in the past. Xianja straddled his waist and pulled him in a kiss the she was facilitating.

She slowly traveled to the juncture of his neck sucking and nibbling. "Bite" he groaned she obeyed biting the spot making him moan. "harder!" he commanded ad he strung his fingers through her hair. She did as she was told, but bit alittle too hard, fealing the copper liquid explode on her tounge. "FUCK!" Hatter yelled, yanking her up by her hair and kissing her roughly, tasting his blood in her mouth.

"keep going!" he his voice was rough as nails. "But you're bleeding." She said worried. "I know, keep fucking going" he growled his eyes red and hazy. Despite what her mind was telling her to do she did. She scooped the blood on to her finger and brought them to his lips, where he licked them clean, giving her new knowledge of his preferences.

She came to his chest leaving bites and bruises while licking along his scars, enjoying the sound of her mans moans. She moved her hear to his nipple, flickin it with her hot tongue, making him hiss. She bit down and his hand griped the sheets. "Oh, gods!" she leaned over and bit the other, licking it afterwards to sooth it.

Her hot mouth traveled to his abdomen, licking the trail of hair. Her head was between his legs while her ass was in the air. His little vixen was becoming shy and looked up to him for guidance. He grinned and pulled down his pants, freeing himself in front of her. Xianja's eyes widened, and for the second time that day she was genuinely afraid. "Oh no!" she squeaked. It was huge, just insanely huge. It was about 10 in. long and at least 4 in. in circumference. That, she was sure of, was a monster. How was he able to think with the blood loss?

Hatter noticed that her face was not of desire at all. She was obviously over whelmed and for a good reason. She was a virgin! Hatter mentally face palmed for not even taking that into consideration, she was just doing so well, he completely forgot. "Xianja is this the first time you have ever seen a—"

"No" she cut him off. "I mean ive seen pictures, videos and other things but this is just insane!" she tilted her head examine its head. There was fluids driping from the tip and it twitched slightly. She ran her fingers along the shaft, causing Hatter to hiss. It was still Hatter, and from the look on his face he could very much feel it. "could you show me?" she asked sweetly, spreading his fluids. Hater smirked "No," he purred "you do it, that's what I want."

xianja swallowed as she grasped the base and stroked it slowly, Hatter's breath has sharp. She used her other hand to work the top half, her thumb massaging the head. Hatter's eyes rolled back and he relaxed against the head board. "Shit! Xianja, so good." He moaned loudly. Her confidence peaked, she bent down and put as much of him as she could in her mouth. His taste was amazing! Like sugar and tea, she needed more. She took in a bit more, relaxing her throat to accommodate, while thanking her lucky stars that she had her tonsils removed when she was twelve.

Hatter's eyes bugged of his head when he felt her taking him down her throat; he looked down as her perfect lips wrapped around him like they were made for just this. Her tongue moved against him; he griped her head. "Oh gods suck it!" he roared. She sucked harder, taking him in and out, her hand stroking the rest while the other cupped his balls. He couldn't take it any more, he didn't bother to warn her and shot a load down her throat, barking a string of curses.

She pulled her head up as the last of it filled her mouth; a small bead of cum and saliva connecting her lips and his cock. Xianja looked him the eye and he watched her as she swallowed the rest of his cum. "you taste good." She panted out of breath. He too was panting and brought her to him as kissed her deeply. They broke the kiss to get under the blankets. "thank you, that was amazing." She whispered against his chest, before falling a sleep. Hatter kissed her fore head. "No, thank you." He whispered. Once he was sure she was in a deep sleep he disappeared.

She is in the red throne room again. The woman dressed in red on the throne is listening to a young woman bowing at her feet. The woman in red smiles "you are doing well, my traitor." She complements the young woman. Its impossible to see who the woman is or what she looks like, the young woman leaves making way for a man. it was the same man from last time. "the alice is here my queen, she has the vorpal." His words anger the queen. "What! That can not be!" she exclaims. The man in front of her grins, "but it is your grace, she is here, in this very room in fact." He informs. Panic strikes her heart. The queen looks perplexed. "where?" the man keeps his head down low. "Every where, she is dreaming" The queen raises her head with understanding, her face one of authority.

"well then, Miss alice, I wish to speak with you. It is no doubt that you have been staying with filth, which is no place for a person of your stature, so I can see this will be difficult. I will arrange for an escort to meet you in two days in candy valley. If you fail to show I will not hesitate to sacrifice my men and stage another attack and I will be sure to kill the Hatter this time, although I do not wish to associate you with my more difficult side. You have my word as monarch no harm will come to you if you choose to come." The queen says blindly to the air. Her vision fades, the dream is done.