Short and sweet.
The words that come in mind when I think about our first kiss. It was only a peck on the lips, but, it meant everything to me. In that short moment everything felt right, like the world had finally decided to be on my side. Like we defied gravity.
I just wish Jacob and I could go back to those times where words like "I missed you" or "I love you" made everything okay. I wish we could go back to the times we had silly fights and pretended we couldn't stand each other only to play footsie under the dinning room table.
But here I sit in this huge house,
in this huge room,
drinking from this huge wine bottle
in this huge cup
...by myself.
I've felt lonely before but after what transpired today, for the first time I feel alone.
Ring, Ring
Ring, Ring
"Hello?" I said quietly into the phone
"hey baby" he replied softly, "I'm sorry"
"okay"
"okay?" he answered not believing what he just heard
"what do you want me to say Jacob?" I replied a bit irritated
"It doesn't matter I'm just glad everything's okay" he replied happily which pissed me off
"that's just it, nothings fine, we are not fine, stop pretending that everything peachy, its not!" i shouted hysterically
"why are you always doing this to me? Its diving me crazy. I don't know what else to do. PLEASE... just tell me what to do to make it better." he answers defeated
"Nothing will make this better!" I shouted at the phone ,wanting to get a rise out of him
"it wasn't your fault okay? It wasn't your fault. Shit happens!"
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" I scream into the phone and hung up
I grabbed my huge wine bottle and huge cup and made my way to the movie room.
okay so i know i havent exactly updated in a while. okay maybe like a whole year, and to be honest the only excuse is laziness, but im back on track and ready to roll.
so as always review!