Chapter 13: Her Diary: Natsume's POV-
On our way to Imai's house, Mikan lost consciousness. I immediately became worried, nearly driving Imai and Ruka crazy. However, when we got to Imai's her brother was there. He had the healing and pain Alice's and checked her and said it was simply because of shock. He said whatever happened today finally caught up to her and her mind needed a rest.
This was understandable. I was actually quite confused how well she was taking everything. I guess her mind just blocked everything out until she started thinking about it, then she lost it.
Now I'm laying in bed with Mikan burying her face in my neck, as she sleeps. I was a little fidgety because I could fell her warm breath on my neck, but I brushed it off and reached into my back pack that was next to the bed and pulled out her diary.
So maybe it was an invasion of privacy, but she shouldn't have left it around. I can't help but be curious about her thoughts. She gets quite and her eyebrows pull together creating a small dent in between, and her lower lip pouts attractively. I decided to read her first entry.
Dear Diary,
Hi there! First off my name is Mikan. My best friend Hotaru gave you to me for my eighth birthday, it's small these like these that show me she really cares ^-^ !
Now to start off my full name is Mikan Sakura, I don't have a mother or father because my father died before I was born, and my mother died when I was young. I live with my Jii-chan, and my best friend is Hotaru Imia.
Hotaru is rather cold and mean, but she cares about me. She's so smart, she's always creating weird inventions as if it's making a cake!
I go to school and have lots of friends, Hotaru says my smile is my best feature and my classmates always say I'm really cute, but I don't see it.
Well I guess that's enough for now, Ja!
I read the little entry and sighed. She was this childish when she was 8 and she's still this childish. It's as if she never grew up. I couldn't help but smile slightly.
Each entry was pretty similar to the first one, they just talked about unimportant things that she would talk to with any other person. But when she turned ten they changed.
Dear Diary,
I'm so sad! I've been crying all day and I just can't seem to stop. I'm even crying now! Soon enough I'm gonna dry out! Ahh! What will happen after that!
Anyways the reason I'm crying is because Hotaru left. She went to this genius school in Tokyo called Alice Academy. She didn't even tell me until today! The day she left! Wahhhh!
How am I gonna get by with out her! It's not fair! And I'm not a genius so how will I get into a school like that? It's hopeless! Well, I'm going to try to sleep, ja.
The next entry didn't come until a 6 months later according to the date. This was confusing but I quickly found out the reason why.
Dear Diary,
Sorry I haven't written in a while, I've been writing constant letters to Hotaru, but she only wrote once. I decided to take matters into my own hands.
Here I am, on a bus, heading to Tokyo, so I can see Hotaru. This wasn't planned, I over heard Hotaru's mother talking to the school principle. She said Alice Academy paid them money to go to the school and Hotaru wanted it to go to our school since the school was going to close down.
With that, even though I'm not proud of it, I took money from grandpa while he was sleeping and ran away. Soon enough I'll be able to see Hotaru again. Good night.
"That Baka, she could've gotten killed" I thought as I flipped to the next page. The entry here was rather long, it surprised me. I didn't think she could sit down and write this long before getting bored. But then I realized it was because things happend.
Dear Diary,
So when I arrived at Alice Academy, I was about to try to find a way in when two men approached me saying they could get me in. I believed them right away and we were about to leave when this blond man who looked rather girl like came over.
It turns out those two men were trying to kidnap me, and the blonde man whose name was Narumi-sensei worked at the school. He said I had an "Alice" which apparently isn't a type of genius, but instead is a special power! We figured out I have the nullification Alice.
I'm now a student at the school with Hotaru and a bunch of other kids! Some are familiar, they moved away from our town long ago, Like Sumire Shouda, Koko, Yuu, Anna, and Nonoko.
This school sure is weird. We aren't allowed to visit family, we have to stay on campus. It's kinda like a fun prison. Everyone at the school is really weird. I met one of my senpais today! His name is Tsubasa.
Tsubasa is a cool guy in middle school. He had dark blue hair and blue eyes. He also has a star tattoo under his eye. He's dating Misaki. Everyone seems really nice, but something is missing and I can't point out what it is.
Narumi-sensei told me he wants to turn this school around, so that we can live with our families and attend school like normal children. He says the reason we have to stay on campus is because the academy is fighting the AAO which stands for Anti-Alice Organization.
That one went on just talking about how the academy use to be. It surprised me how reserved they were, but as I read more entries I found out why they changed.
When Mikan was 13 there was an Alice war between the academy and the AAO. The Academy won and they opened up more. They had strict rules like the ones now, but people finally got reunited with their families. I decided to skip ahead to where she met me.
Dear Diary,
Today was the first day of high school! To say it was like any ones first day would be the understatement of the century. Here I am running because I'm late, and BAM! I crash into someone. When I opened my eyes I see I'm on top of that person. I start apologizing like crazy, then he called me Polka Dots because of my underwear!
You might be wondering who this is. Natsume Hyuuga. He is a cold, mean, guy with dark raven black hair, and bright crimson eyes. He's perverted and a jerk and I don't even know how to describe him! And guess what? He's my partner.
He had a sister named Aoi, shes nice and outgoing and is really cute! and her friend Youichi is scary and seems like a mini Natsume. And then theres Ruka, he's nice and kind and I don't know why he's Natsume's best friend. Anyways, for some reason I can't stop looking in Natsume's eyes.
I forced Natsume to eat soup today and it seems like he got really angry. I completely forgot about asking what their Alices were. Anyways after lunch I skipped class :/ I'm not proud of it but I was so confused on why Natsume hated me so much! I talked to this girl named Nobara and she thought that I liked him!
Then I talked to this teacher. He was really scary. He said his name was Persona and he gave me really weird advice. Anyways after school me Hotaru, Ruka-pyon, Natsume, Aoi, and Youichi went into the city where I shoved Howalon into Natsume's mouth. That made him hate me more...
After that I talked with Aoi for a while then I noticed Natsume disappeared so I went to look for him. I never found him. Instead I found a guy in a alley with a gun! He was acting like I was some race of deer and said "I know what you are" and stuff and was about to shoot me when this guy with raven wings, dark purple hair, and golden eyes flew down and took the bullet for me!
He said that I should think he was a monster but for some reason I didn't, he reminded me of Natsume, so I thought he could help. After I stitched up his bullet wound, he answered some questions then left.
it was so weird. well Ja!
The next and last entry was completely about me. The date said it was written last night, most likely after I left her house as Honou.
Dear Diary,
I still haven't been able to stop my heart from beating this fast ever since I saw Natsume smile. I don't understand it. He denied it completely, but he looked at me with this strange look in his eyes. No one has ever looked at me like that, I don't even know what it's suppose to say.
I almost told him about Honou today, but that Persona guy was around so I shut my mouth, I may be slow sometimes, but I knew that he should definitely not about Honou.
Speaking of him, he visited me tonight, I found out he had the fourth type of Alice. Also, when he smiles he looks a lot like Natsume, and he had the same expressionless look as Natsume. I started making a list of similarities between Honou and Natsume. So far I came up with 12 similarities.
But today when I was talking to Natsume, I was really self-conscious because of the dress I was wearing, and my heart was beating like crazy. Why did Natsume's smile have to make him look so innocent and cute and charming and UGH here we go with these thoughts again.
What are my feelings towards Natsume? I feel like I should hate him, I mean he was perverted and a jerk and called me mean names, yet I can't help but want to get closer to him.
These aren't normal feelings are they? I really wish I was smarter so I could figure these things out quicker. It would make it a lot easier. Well, Ja!
I grinned. She really was a strange girl. I placed the diary back in my backpack and looked at her. She was sleeping silently so I decided it would be fine if I moved a little. I turned so I was facing her and was on my side and wrapped my right arm around her waist.
In response her eyebrows pull together and she moved herself closer so her face was buried in my neck again. I buried my face in her face and smiled slightly. She smelt like a mix of oranges and strawberries.
"Natsume..." she murmured softly making me wonder if she woke up, but being as she stayed where she was I guess she was asleep. I kissed her lightly on the top of her head and closed my eyes.
"Good night Mikan" I murmured before falling asleep.
When I woke up, Mikan was still sleeping silently. When reading her diary, I didn't learn as much as I wanted, she was very poor at writing constantly. But I then realized something. Two days ago, she didn't cry when Honou was coughing up blood, but she was very worried, but when I was coughing up blood as Natsume, she started sobbing.
What did that mean? Is it possible because she was worried about Honou she'll accept it if I tell her he's me? I shook my head. She's in danger and I still can't stop thinking about that.
"Look what you turned me into" I muttered, before sitting up a little and pulling her hair slightly. Might as well get a good laugh out of her. When she started to wake up I flicker her forehead. "Get off now" I said coldly and her eyes shot open and I felt her skin heat up like crazy before she sat right up.
"Pervert!" she screamed and pointed her finger at me while her face stayed a flushed pink. I rolled my eyes and stood up before pulling a black t-shirt. I looked at her and saw her searching through her clothes. She finally pulled out a spaghetti strap dress that had pink floral design.
"I need to change" she said and grabbed a few other things and we left and headed towards the bathroom. After she finished changing, we went back to her room and she started to brush her hair. She gathered some of her hair and grabbed a ribbon before bringing it to her head but I stopped her by setting the ribbon on fire.
She screamed and dropped the ribbon on the ground, so I let the flame snuff out while she combed through her hair checking to make sure it wasn't on fire.
"Leave your hair down" I said plainly and she looked at me. "It looks better that way" I stated and she blushed before brushing it again and taking a pink ribbon and pulling some of her hair back and tying it leaving most of her hair flowing over her shoulders.
She looked beautiful. She went outside the door so I could change into my jeans, and also put her diary back in the spot I found it the day before, then we both went into the kitchen where Imai and Ruka were sitting, and eating breakfast.
"Good morning!" Mikan yelled and Hotaru immediately shot her with her baka gun. Mikan pouted and crossed her arms. She looked child like but it was strangely cute.
"Shut up dummy, it's too early" Imai said and Mikan looked at Imai who handed her a digital clock that read 6 am. Mikan's eyes widened before she mumbled sorry.
"I think it's best if we stay home while this person is after Mikan" Imai said and turn to Ruka. "We've been discussing this all morning, it's safer if we stay hidden" Imai said and took a bite of the eggs in front of her.
"Hm" I simply said, knowing Ruka would take that as an agreement. It was the best idea, if we go walking around through the festival, it's easier for one of us to get separated. That's why I was staying so close to Mikan, I didn't want her to get taken away from me.
But what I told Ruka the day she sang at the festival was true. This is dangerous, she is dangerous. Why? That's because she already changed me so much. I prided myself on keeping up my character, but when she's around and I look into those big brown eyes, I just lose everything.
It seems like my world revolved around seeing her smile now. I always wanted my world to never be revolved around anything, but now, I couldn't help but get pulled in. What a nuisance.
Mikan went over to the cupboard and pulled out a boil and some other things before going over to the fridge and grabbing eggs and milk before setting them on the counter.
"Natsume do you want breakfast" she asked sweetly and I noticed I was actually very hungry. I didn't eat anything yesterday since I felt so weak, and then the shit with Ren and Persona happened.
"Whatever Polka Dots" I said lazily and she smiled and rolled her eyes before starting to make our breakfast. The question that Imai then asked, completely threw us both off guard.
"Why do you call her Polka Dots?" she asked in the most nonchalant way. Mikan dropped an egg on the floor while Ruka tried to suppress a laugh by throwing both his hands over his mouth.
"Don't you dare answer her!" Mikan said as she blushed 10 different shades of red. Imai took her baka out and aimed it at her making her flinch. "Fine.." she said and looked down.
"I call her Polka Dots because of her underwear print" I said nonchalantly and Imai raised her eye brow before looking at her best friend that back at me.
She didn't even say a word, she just shook her head and went back to eating. Ruka on the other hand wouldn't hold back his laughter, he burst in laughter and clutched his stomach as if he was going to burst.
Mikan pouted her lip and then we heard something strange. Imai's shoulders were shaking up and down and her eyes were closed and there was a smile on her face.
"Hotaru are you laughing?" Mikan and Ruka asked at the same time and Imai's eyes widened in before she looked up and put her stoic expression back up.
"Wow!" Mikan said, dragging out the world before smiling brightly. Ruka starred at her with the same look I give Mikan and a smile tugging at his lips. Mikan went back to cooking and Ruka went to change so I sat down across from Imai.
"It sucks having someone whose laughter can break the character you've held for so long by simply smiling huh?" I said and she looked up at me, for once speechless. She cleared her throat and glared at me.
"Hyuuga, if you dare say anything to Ruka about my developing feelings, I will slowly and clearly tell Mikan everything about your feelings" she said I returned her glare.
"Breakfasts ready! Hey, why are you two starring at each other like you want to kill eachother?" Mikan asked and Imai straightened up before looking at her friend with a very stoic...unreadable expression.
"No reason, Hyuuga and I just came to an understanding about an important matter" she said and with that, got up joined Ruka in the living room.
"That was weird, anyways heres breakfast" she said brightly and placed a plate in front of me. She made eggs with toast and bacon to my surprise, I was too busy to notice she made all of this.
We ate in silence, and I could hear Imai and Ruka talking about me and Mikan's relationship in the other room. When I finished eating she broke the silence.
"Did you like it?" she asked and I saw a bright sparkle in her eyes and she leaned forward waiting for my answer. I stood up and placed my dishes in the sink before taking her dishes and started to wash them.
"Not bad, Polka" I said and when I finished doing the dished I turned around to find her eyes wide in shock. "What? I'm not an invalid, I know how to clean up" I said, slightly annoyed that she was so surprised that I did the dishes.
She smiled and shook her head before laughing. I finally realized why she was shocked. She wasn't shocked that I knew how to do dishes, she was shocked that I helped her, and to top it all off I helped her without having to be asked.
Also I didn't insult her cooking. She was shocked that I was being nice. Talk about someone being able to change the character you've built up for so long easily.
Hey Everyone! Thanks a bunch for all the reviews :D Now, I may not be able to update that quickly for the next two weeks. I'm going on vacation! But I'll try hard to be able to update! Sadly the computer where I'm staying is SOOO SLOWWW *sigh* grandparents…they don't realize how a fast running computer is mega important to a writer! Lol anyways, have a great Fourth Of July!