Hello to all my beautiful readers out there, here I am again for a new update. Thank you so much for your comments, for following this story and for being out there sharing this adventure with me. You are amazing
Now, I have to explain a couple of things before you read this chapter. The first one is that, this is kind of an intermission for the story, that means that is a little slow but for me, completely necessary to make a move on what the characters are about live. And second; this a "real life" story from MY POINT OF VIEW, wich means that in contrast to any Paily story, some events are going to go a little bit faster
Ok... I leave you a new chapter here. Enjoy
Spread the love. No Hate. No Cyberbullying. Just Lindshay's love.
Shay's POV
The bright light coming through the window made me stir and I couldn't keep my eyes shut for much longer. I felt confused at first, I couldn't bring my mind to remember where I was or what was happening but once my brain registered the place and every memory of the night before, everything changed. I turned my head slowly to my right and realized that all the events of last night weren't just a beautiful dream, it had really happened and I couldn't be happier about it.
Is unbelievable how everything has changed since the day we met; our time at work, every simple meal or even those difficult moments of doubt have brought us to this point; to this amazing and beautiful moment. Just a few days ago I was sitting on my bed at my parent's house, dreaming about this, on how beautiful it would be to hold Linds on my arms and kiss her senseless, without fear or regrets, just us in our magical bubble, enjoying each other's company. And last night everything was exactly like I dreamt it and more. Linds is the most amazing woman I've ever met; her tenderness and sweetness are two of the amount of things I love about her and last night wasn't the exception; she knew exactly when to be soft, when to be sexy and when she should give the right amount of roughness in the perfect moment.
God… I feel like the luckiest woman in the world and I wouldn't change myself for anyone right now. I've never felt like this before; so alive and so happy. I don't exactly know how to explain it, I don't think there are actually the right words to do it but this feeling is amazing and unique and I want nothing but to feel like this for the rest of my life.
I can't even stop looking at her; her perfect body now half cover by the soft sheets, her smooth skin expose only for the delight of my eyes and her now longer, brown, curly hair was spread all over her face. It was adorable to seeing her under the current circumstances; so calm and peaceful. I wish we could stay here like this forever.
"You're so beautiful" I whispered, caressing softly Lind's hair.
The movement made her stir in her sleep but I couldn't wait for her to open her eyes so I tried to push my luck a little bit further. I started by following a path with my finger through her face; first her forehead, then that beautiful button nose that I love so much, the form of her lips and the line of her jaw. But that wasn't enough, the caresses were only working for her to make the cutest faces ever but that wasn't what I wanted so I changed my tactic. When I reached her neck I replace my finger for my lips; leaving a soft trail of kisses there, that's when I heard her sigh for the first time (since last night, of course), stirring again on her side of the bed. At that point I couldn't stop; I kept going directly to her throat, then nipping the soft skin down her chest until I reached the valley of her breast and that's when I got what I wanted.
"Uhm… that feels great…" Linds moaned in the sexiest voice ever. If her voice was already a little hoarse and deep, hearing it just when she was waking up sent a jolt directly to the pit of my stomach
"Good morning" I whispered, still with my mouth on her chest
"A really good one" she sighed, this time a little louder than before. I slowly started to kiss my way up until I reached her mouth
Linds took my face softly between her hands and crash our lips together. It was amazing how great it felt just to be so close to each other; the mix breathings, the hot skin, the impatient hands, everything was so new but it felt as we had been doing this forever
"Hum…" Linds hummed breaking our kiss that was quickly becoming very intense "what a beautiful way to wake up on the mornings" she gave me a soft peck "I can get use to this"
I smiled at her words. It was funny because I was thinking the exact same thing
"That's the plan" I dropped a final kiss on the line of her throat and let myself lie flat over her body, resting my head on her chest, my hands wondering the length of her strong arms.
We spent a few seconds like that, just enjoying the silence of our surroundings, though I was able to delight myself with the soft sound of her breathing and the strong beat of her heart. I could definitely get use to this.
"Everything ok over there?" Linds asked in a low voice, breaking the silence and bringing me back to this moment. I was so lost in the greatness of our current situation that I hadn't even noticed she was leaving a random pattern in my back with her fingers. The sensation was amazing
"Everything is… perfect" I heard her let out a content sigh and I raised my head up to look at her "You're not… having second thoughts about us, do you?" I had to ask. I know I'm probably being paranoid but my history with past 'relationships' has taught me that things are never this simple
"What!?" she looked at me intently; there was something in her eyes that was making me feel safe and secure "of course not… I told you yesterday that this is what I want and this is where I want to be; with you and no one else. We know is not going to be easy but I believe that our feelings are strong enough to overcome whatever it comes between us. I just… want to know if you believe it too"
"Of course I do" I barely let her finish what she was saying, I have to prove that I want this, probably more than she does "I can't even put into words what I'm feeling right now or everything that's being crossing my mind since the day I decided to take that plane and came here to see you. All I know is that this feels right and I wouldn't change it for anything in this world. Anything"
She looked at me; probably looking for reassurance and whatever she found in them make her claim my lips with an intensity I've never felt before. I've never been kissed like this, with such force and such passion. We were suddenly immerse in the hottest make out session ever and about to go back to where we left it last night when a knock on the door made me jump from my place and I automatically took the sheets to cover myself; it was an unconscious reflex. I was petrified by the idea of being caught under our current situation.
"Linds… come on girl, time to wake up" It was Alice at the other side of the door and she was probably about to walk into the room. I was on the edge of a panic attack
"Hey, it's ok…" Linds must have noticed my reaction because when I turned to look at her, her eyes were full of concern "she never walks into the room. I'm probably late that's why she is here" she was trying to calm me down with soothing words but at this point they weren't having effect on me.
"I'm sorry… I just…" I was barely breathing. I don't understand why I'm feeling like this; I should be happy to be here with the woman I love but instead I'm a bunch of nerves.
"Just wait here" Suddenly, Linds stood up from the bed, took her sleeping gown and walk into the door's direction, stopping only a few inches away "Thanks, Ali. I'm awake now, though I'm really hungry, could you send some breakfast for me, please"
"Sure thing, babe. Your usual?"
"Of course… just, imagine it's for two" I heard Alice laugh at the other side
"You got it" I heard the sound of the steps decreasing and just like that, the silence came back into the room
"See… it wasn't a big deal" Linds was walking in my direction, though she wasn't showing a sign of going back to bed. Instead she walked into the closet and looked for a fresh towel
"Where… are you going?" I asked almost in a whisper. The panic attack was almost gone but 'feeling better' wouldn't be a term I could use right now. This episode was leaving us in a very awkward place and even when I knew it wasn't Lind's intention, I could see the disappointment in her eyes.
"I'm going to take a shower. You heard Ali, breakfast will be here soon and someone has to be ready when they show up" she turned around and started walking into the bathroom's direction
"Linds wait!" She stopped in her tracks after I call for her and turned around to look at me "I'm really sorry about what happened. I don't…"
"It's ok…" I tried to explain myself but she cut me off "I understand. Don't worry about it" she tried to show me her best fake smile possible, maybe to try and make me feel better but it certainly didn't work out. I just stayed there; seeing her walk into the bathroom until she disappeared behind the door.
Man, I'm so stupid…! How am I supposed to prove that I want this if my first reaction in front of the possibility of being caught was having a panic attack? Just when I told Linds that I was going to be strong for the both of us, that I was going to work hard for this relationship; things like this happen. I was on the edge of tears. This is a freaking disaster; this isn't the way I wanted for this day to start.
"Great job, Shay… What a way to ruin what it was supposed to be the best night of your life. Idiot!" I told to myself, sinking into the bed and covering my face with the pillow. I wanted to scream or punch something just to get this frustration out of my system. I can't believe I ruined everything.
All I can do at this point is, lie here and think on a way to solve this mess, and I was in the middle of it when I heard my phone beep. I took it from the nightstand and look at the ID, wanting to know who would be the unlucky person I was going to release my anger with. Lucky for me it was a person who knows me too well to pretend that I was fine. There were 3 messages, all of them from Blaney.
-How's my favorite person this morning? - The first one was at six in the morning. I guess she couldn't wait to know all about last night. If only she knew…
-Are you still busy? You go girl!- six thirty in the morning. She was definitely curious about it
-So…? How was it? I want details…- at seven a.m. And I couldn't hold my rage anymore; at some point her enthusiasm was very encouraging but under the current circumstances it was very annoying.
-I screw it up! - It was my only answer before I threw my phone again over the nightstand. I was so mad at myself for such stupid behavior that I didn't want to talk to anybody right now.
I was drowned in my thoughts when my phone beeped again; I knew it was a new message from Blaney, probably wanting to know what happened. I took it from the nightstand again and I was about to read it when the bathroom's door got my attention. Linds was walking into the room again; her hair still damp and only a towel covering her body. It was amazing how even after a simple shower she could look that stunning. She looked at me and let out a soft smile and, though I wanted nothing but to take that as a good sign, something inside was telling me that things were not ok.
"Linds… Can we talk?" I had no idea what to say but I knew I had to say something, anything to make this awful feeling disappear
She looked at me confused "sure… what about?" she asked, picking some clothe from the closet
It was pretty clear that she wanted to avoid the elephant in the room, maybe thinking that it was the best for the both of us, but it wasn't. I couldn't leave things the way they were
"Listen… I…" but then again, just like the rest of the morning, good luck wasn't on my side. Just when I wanted to try and explain my odd behavior, someone knock at the door
"Miss, room service" it was the butler with our breakfast. My heart was yelling 'panic' again but my brain was helping me to control myself
"Thank you" Linds answered to the butler, never taking her eyes out of me. She stopped for a second before she talks again "just leave it on the door, I'll be out in a minute"
"As you wish. Do you need anything else?" he asked again
"No, that will be all for now. Thanks"
"You're welcome. Have a good day" and just like minutes ago, I heard the steps going away from the door. I let out a sigh of relief that certainly didn't go unnoticed by Linds.
She opened the door and brought the catering cart with her, putting it close to the bed so we could both take the food from there, and it would be extremely romantic if she hadn't sat so far from me, leaving the cart between us.
There was so much tension in the room that you could easily cut it with a knife and the silence between us was killing me, I didn't know what to do or even what to say at this point and for what I could feel just minutes ago, Linds was trying to ignore the problem anyway, so I decided to let the situation cool off
"Ok…" she stood up just a few minutes later, leaving her cup of coffee half full. Either she wasn't hungry or she wanted to get out of here as fast as she could. I bet for the second option "I… have to go. I'll probably be out most part of the day. It's a long day shooting" I just nodded at her statement "Uhm… are you… going to be alright by yourself?"
"Yeah… I'll be fine" I said softly; the sensation of sadness and the need to cry were coming back
"Ok, then. I guess I'll see you later"
I nodded again, not trusting in my own voice anymore. She got close and gave me a quick peck on the lips before she turns around. I saw her walk away from the bed until she headed the door, taking the knob with one hand and making a short pause before she leaves
"I know you want to talk about what happened and I promise we will just… give me some time…" she finally opened the door and left the room
The loneliness that was now settle here was the last reason I needed to finally let my tears fall, there was this huge feeling of emptiness inside me that it was making my plan of 'getting things cool of' one of the worst ever. I can't let things go this way; just a few hours ago we were the happiest women in the world and now we're both crash for such a stupid thing like this. I can't let this happen, I won't let this happen. If I want this I have to fight for it and that's exactly what I'm going to do.
I finally left the coldness of the bed and walked into the bathroom, maybe a hot shower would help to clear my head a little. I need to think about a plan to fix things and I need to do it fast.
"Shay?" the voice at the other side sounded doubtful and confused
The time in the shower was totally helpful; I had time to freshen up and think about the whole mess that was created this morning. So, here I am, following the first step of my plan; talking with the only person that could help right now and trying to convince her that my presence here was just a coincidence
"Hey, Alice. How are you?" I said cheerfully
"Fine… thanks. How… are you…? It's everything ok?" I could tell this was totally odd for her. We don't use to talk to each other, at least is something about the show, and even then Sammy is the one who makes the calls
"Yeah, totally fine. I know you must be wondering why I am calling you but, remember when I ask you about Lindsey's Hotel in North Carolina because I was probably going too, to visit some friends?"
"Uhm… yeah, I remember…"
"Well, guess what…! I'm in North Carolina right now and I was wondering if you could tell me where I could find Linds, at least to say hi" I don't know why but something was telling me she wasn't buying it
"Right now we're at the Trailblazer Studios"
"And do you think it'll be ok if I go visit her there?"
"She is shooting right now but her first break is in half hour, just let me know when you're here and I'll pick you up at the door to take you to her dressing room"
"That will be awesome. Thanks, Alice"
"You're welcome. Do you know how to get here?"
"Don't worry. I'm going to see my friend first, he would help with that" lying was becoming an easier task as the days pass "One more thing… would you recommend that Hotel? I was supposed to stay at my friend's house but I don't want to intrude, you know?"
"Sure, the rooms are pretty comfortable and cozy" Oh, I know that "you would love it. If you want I can make the reservation for you"
"Would you that for me?"
"Of course" thank God she believed me
"Thank you so much, Alice. You're an angel"
"No problem. I wait for you, then…"
Getting to the studio was harder than I thought it would be. After taking a cab I thought giving the driver the name of the place will be enough but I was totally wrong, if you don't give them the right coordinates you can end up anywhere. Anyway, I'm finally here and that's all that matters.
Alice was already waiting for me at the door so it was easy to get to Linds' dressing room. She wasn't there yet; according to Alice the shooting was taking a little longer than it should but that she would be here any minute. Alice excused herself and left the room, leaving me alone to wait for my girlfriend. 'My girlfriend'; it's ironic how proud I sound in my head
"Shay? What are you doing here?" My thoughts were interrupted by Linds' voice
"I wanted to see you…" I said with confidence. I couldn't expose my fears so easily
"How did you get in?"
"A girl can go to her girlfriend's work to visit her, isn't it?"
"Is that what you say at the door?" ouch, that felt like a punch on the guts but I guess I deserve it
"No, I…"
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't say that" she looked at the floor, clearly ashamed for her comment
"It's ok. I know this must be complicated for you"
And there it was that silence again, the damn silence that was making everything harder than it supposed to be. But not this time; this is my chance to say what I'm feeling.
"Listen…" / "Look…" we both said at the same time. I guess I'm not the only one who hates those awkward silences
"You first" I conceded
"Ok… uhm… I've been thinking about what happened this morning and… I think we should talk about us and this relationship…" she said carefully
Suddenly, I felt a knot on my stomach and a lump forming on my throat. I don't have a good feeling about this…
(hollywood and its very short relationships...) Ok, guys... tell me what you think. See ya...