A/N: No heading for this chapter…little song thingy at the end kind of fills that in. This chapter was really HARD to write for some reason and I wasn't planning to update it for a few weeks…but yeah that would've sucked so I gave it my best shot…so… cut me some slack if you hate it! And yeah, I'm up late and I'm frickin' tired so that adds to it…so enjoy if you can!
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"So…the report's almost done." Kairi said nervously, looking around Riku's den just to have something to do.
"Yeah…" Riku answered bored. He was trying to think up a way to make asking Kairi out a little easier. He felt like gagging right now at the thought of even being her date for a few hours.
"I think It's pretty good…we should get an A." Kairi stated, looking him in the eyes shyly. Hot was the only word going through her mind right now.
"Hey Kairi, who are you going to the Christmas dance with?" Riku asked suddenly.
"Um…no one right now." She answered blushing in embarrassment. Almost everyone at school had a date; Selphie probably had one for all she knew.
"You know the dance is in like…one week."
"Yeah um…I don't think I'm gonna go. I'm not really one for big gatherings." Kairi said looking down at her hands.
Riku gulped softly and forced himself to say the words he dreaded saying. "How about I be your date for the dance?"
Kairi looked up suddenly and blushed tomato red. "M-me?" She managed to stutter out.
"Yeah you." Riku replied, putting on a false smile. This was too easy.
"…W-why?"
"I don't know, you seem like a pretty nice girl, and now that Namine's not an option I had to pick someone. So I picked you."
These words didn't even faze Kairi. All she heard was "I picked you." Kairi could swear she was on cloud nine right now. Her life suddenly looked so much brighter.
"O-ok…I'll go with you." Kairi said smiling softly. Riku actually felt guilty for a second when she did.
Sora who was leaning against the stairway upstairs also felt guilty. Kairi was so gullible and lonely. She didn't know she was about to end up broken hearted. Sora decided he would give her a warning, a small one. He wouldn't say anything about the prank for Riku would literally beat the crap out of him, but he would warn her. She was the closest thing to a friend he had and even though they weren't friends he felt as if he owed her this for being friendly towards him. It was the least he could do.
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"Hi…I'm Roxas Donaven. A social worker named Cecilia Vanderval said I could stop by and talk to her for a few minutes."
"Ah ok, she's busy right now, she'll be done in about ten minutes." The woman at the front desk said smiling softly at the boy.
"Ok, thanks." Roxas said quietly taking a seat in the lounge. It was a three hour drive here. Roxas knew he would be in trouble when he got home, serious trouble. But he didn't care; he had to know the truth. If the birth certificate wasn't his, at least he knew he'd reach the end of the road. If it was, well then he'd fine some answers to his life long questions.
"Roxas Donaven?" A woman from inside one of the office rooms poked her head outside the door, searching the lounge.
"Right here." Roxas said giving her a small smile.
The woman smiled softly back at him and nodded her head for him to come into her office.
"I'm Cecilia Vanderval, nice to meet you Roxas." Cecilia said shutting the door to her office. "Please sit down." She said as she made her way around to her desk.
Roxas at down nervously and looked at the photos that were sitting on her desk.
"Those are pictures of the foster children I'm in charge of." Cecilia said smiling at the pictures. "They're great kids."
Roxas nodded looking closely at one of them. It was of a spiky chocolate haired kid of about eight, he was frowning and looked like his childhood innocence had been sucked out of him. His face was familiar. Very familiar.
"Ah, that one is special…it was taken about eight years ago. He won't let me have another picture of him." Cecilia said quietly, looking at the photo Roxas was looking at.
"I'm sorry…just a little curious." Roxas said looking her in the face.
"That's all right. Now, for what you came for?"
"Yeah…here's my social security number." Roxas said passing her a piece of paper. The woman looked at it and sighed softly then looked up at him slowly.
"I have your birth certificate Roxas…though I thought your parents would have shown it to you."
"They won't let me see it for some reason."
"They have their reasons as to why."
"I need to know…I need to see it."
"There are…there are a lot of things that I cannot tell you. Things that your birth certificate will bring up that I cannot explain to you."
"I don't care…I just want to see it."
"Very well." She said quietly, handing him his certificate.
Roxas looked at it and gulped. The certificate confirmed his beliefs. He was adopted. But what he didn't understand was his last name, Donaven, was the same, yet his parents names weren't. It was all too confusing.
"...I know it's shocking…" Cecilia said quietly.
"Was…was I adopted or…?" Roxas asked his voice wavering.
"I cannot tell you. That is your parent's job."
"They're not my parent's."
"They are your legal guardians. Your parents."
Roxas looked back down on the certificate. Everything else was accurate. His birthday. Where he was born. But then something caught his eye. Roxas gasped and felt as if he couldn't breathe for a second. Under the Type Of Birth section the space for twin was checked. He was the firstborn.
"I have a sibling?" Roxas asked looking up at Cecilia.
"You had a sibling."
"He or she is dead…where is he…?"
"I cannot tell you. That is your parent's job."
"Why can't you tell me?" Roxas asked angrily.
"It's confidential."
"I have the right to know!" Roxas yelled standing up.
"No you don't. I told you before we even started that some things I just can't tell you." Cecilia said standing up as well.
"My…guardians…won't tell me." Roxas whispered.
"Well then I'm sorry. You will find out when you turn 18. I have a meeting in five minutes; I need you to take your leave."
"May I take it…my birth certificate?"
"I'll make a copy for you, hold on a second." She said walking out the door.
Roxas slumped back into his chair and buried his head in his arms. This was too much. His parents weren't his parents. He had a sibling that was somewhere out there that he desperately wanted to meet. His whole world had shattered. Who was he? Why was he here? And why wouldn't anyone tell him the truth?
"Here Roxas…" Cecilia said handing him his certificate. "Have a nice day." She said closing the door behind him after he left.
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"Sora?!"
"I'm right here, Riku." Sora mumbled closing his biology lab book. Studying was over for now.
"Whatever. You have to do my math homework, I'm busy."
"…Riku I'm kind of busy with my own homework, and you're a grade ahead of me."
"I've seen you do this kind of stuff before besides, your only in that grade cause I said so." Riku said throwing him his math book and the homework to go with it.
"Riku I'm busy and besides, I'll get in trouble if I do your work."
"Who the hell cares?!" Riku yelled angrily.
"I do. I'm the one who's going to get in trouble if this gets out."
"You know what? Fine. You can just answer to Dad." Riku yelled stomping out of the room to tattle like a three year old. Sora shuddered angrily. He was going to get it. Badly. And it was just because Riku couldn't sit his ass down and do his own homework.
Sora waited a few minutes for the loud bellow that was sure to come. And indeed it did a few seconds later.
"Sora! Get your lazy ass down here now!"
Sora cringed inwardly and quickly got up from his bed and began the long dreadful walk to the office. Upon arriving he shuddered once again when he saw that both Riku and his mother were there. This was going to be humiliating.
"Yes?" He asked quietly, glancing around the room nervously.
"Why won't you do Riku's work." The man asked in his eerily quiet voice. The voice only meant one thing: Sora was most definitely going to get a beating out of this one.
"B-because...it wouldn't be right." Sora whispered biting his lip.
"Oh? So you suddenly know right from wrong eh?" Sora didn't answer this. It would be a useless attempt to save his butt. Sora braced himself for the impact that was sure to come. And as he expected, a fist came flying and punched him square in the jaw. Sora gasped and fell back against the office wall holding his cheek. It hurt like hell, but then it always did.
"So you think you're better than Riku now? Because you only want to do what's 'right'?" The man yelled throwing another punch, this one hitting Sora's stomach. Sora gasped and desperately tried to get a hold of himself before he started crying. This one hurt much more than the other for the fact that he'd been hit in the same spot three times that day.
"Answer me!" The man screamed grabbing Sora's shoulder and snapping it out of place.
"No…I don't." Sora managed to say between gasps of pain. All he wanted was to die right now. Why didn't he just kill him? Why did he put him through all this hell but wouldn't just put an end to it? Why did he keep him here if he hated him so much?
"Then who do you think you are? You think you're important, huh?" The man asked his voice lowering slightly. He grabbed the shoulder he had just previously snapped and threw Sora across room. Sora landed against the huge ivory desk hitting his head on the corner of the writing table and his arm slamming against the side of it. Sora couldn't help the tears that fell that this time. He held his wrist that had landed harshly against the side of the desk to his chest. It was broken for sure along with his pride. He had to wonder how many times a person's heart and pride could be broken.
Sora looked up for a second and his eyes caught Riku's laughing ones. It was always like this. Riku was always laughing at him like this was some comedy. Riku's mother would always smirk and never stop her husband and Riku's father would just get his daily 'workout' and never feel any guilt. None of them ever felt guilt.
"You aren't worth shit you little piece of crap!" Riku's father spat kicking Sora repeatedly in the stomach. Sora closed his eyes and smiled softly. It was a disturbed smile. The kind you see on a psycho killers face before he kills his newest victim. The kind you see on a mentally confused person when they see the horrors of the world glaring at them on their televisions. It was at this time it didn't hurt. The time when the pain made him feel so high he couldn't feel it anymore. It was about this time he closed his eyes and forgot. It was at this time that he wished that the man's fist was the last thing he'd ever seen. But wishes never come true. He knew that, but he'd enjoy this false happiness while he had the chance.
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Maybe someday this world will see,
Because I'm not going to be around when it falls,
Do let them know I was here,
Let them know I despise my insides,
Roxas laid his head on the steering wheel of his car and sighed. What now? Was the only question running through his head. He didn't know what to do, what to think. His thoughts were haunted by images of the piece of paper in left hand. Who was he? Why was he here? Roxas bit his lip in frustration. All his life he had been trying to fit in, to be a part of something bigger than his low self esteem. Now all of that was to pieces. He didn't even know where he came from.
I'm gonna play the game like the rest,
Life is a speed bump on my way to success,
Drop the lights and grab your shadows,
I need a blanket for the heat of this world,
Roxas closed his eyes as he approached a stop light and turned on his radio to try and block his thoughts. The loud music made his ears hurt but didn't drown out the ramped emotions running in frenzy around his brain.
Tonight we'll dine in starlight,
I'll tell you I'm not worth the sorrow,
Let's sing a song about my image,
I'll get gone before tomorrow,
Before Roxas knew it he was driving past the infamous Bastion Hills. Roxas looked over at the biggest house in the neiborhood. Such a big friendly looking house. It was probably filled with a happy family getting ready for the holiday season. Roxas turned his face back to the road and sighed. Where was his family? Where was his sibling that was somewhere out there either above or below the ground. Was his sibling happy? Roxas turned off the music as he neared his home and sighed as he saw three police cars in the driveway.
So when I vanish tell them I was special,
That I should have remained in this hell,
But don't tell me I was wanted,
I've already painted my image,
Don't let me die in vain for myself,
I'll let denial kill my senses,
For I'm not the beloved friend you seek,
I'm the fallen portrait from the sky,
I'll keep believing my lies.
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A/N: Ok…I'm not really sure when the next chapter will show up, I'm pretty dead at the moment…not getting enough sleep…doing too much work…yeah. I'll try to have it up soon. I'm starting a new story soon so I'm trying to write a couple of chapters for each story here and there. Anyways…here I go going on about un-needed stuff. Till the next chapter-
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