Hey guys, thanks again for all the comments and views. I was thinking after I finish this fanfiction I will write one about having a girlfriend or a family. Anyway I hope you enjoy this chapter and I will try to update soon:)

chapter 14: Funeral, part 1

Reid awoke with a start. His head was banging and he felt cold and shivery. Looking over at the clock he saw that it was 8 O'clock. This instantly put reid in a bad mood, today was his mothers funeral and he had only got 4 hours sleep. The whole night he kept waking up in shivering, sweaty states due to nightmares about his mothers rotting corpse. The final nightmare he had before he finally drifted to sleep, lead to Hotch coming into his room waking him from his screaming state. After assuring Hotch that he didn't need to stay the night, Reid drifted off into a dreamless slumber. Although he had managed to get 4 hours sleep that didn't stop him from feeling dreadful. He desperately wanted to go back to bed but he knew he had to get ready soon as the service started at 11. The service itself wasn't going to be a big event, his mother didn't have many friends so not many people were going to be there. Afterwards there was going to be a small reception at the hotel the the team were planning to fly back to Quantico on the jet tomorrow. Reid felt bad enough that he was keeping the team from getting home especially Hotch and JJ, who had Jack and Henry. Reid was just about to get out of bed when he heard a knock.

"It's open." Reid said, his voice heavy, he felt to tired and ill to care if anyone saw him in his pajamas.

"Reid." Said Hotch's stern voice. "I came to see how you are this morning. Are you okay you look a bit peaky?"

"I'm fine I just don't feel to good, but it's probably just because I got barely any sleep last night." Reid said, seeing no point in lying.

"Just do your best today okay. If you feel that you need a breather just say so okay. I understand how hard this is." Hotch said speaking from the heart, he remembered how overwhelmed and lost he felt at Haley's funeral, but he had jack to keep him together.

"Thank you Hotch." Reid said genuinely.

"We'll we were all going to go down to breakfast I think you could do with some food." Hotch suggested.

"No thanks, I'm not that hungry." Reid politely refused. Food was last thing he wanted right now. He was feeling ill enough and he just wanted to be on his own so he could gather some of his thoughts.

"Okay, well I'll come check up on you after breakfast. I think we all agreed that we should plan to leave the hotel at around 10 so we're not in a rush. If you need anything reid you know where to find me okay." Hotch said fatherly. Reid nodded in response and watched Hotch leave the room. Reid just sat in his bed and looked up at the greyish white ceiling. Thoughts raced through his mind, he was dreading today but he knew the sooner he got it over and done with, the sooner he could go home and try and start piecing his life back together.

"Reid, wake up. Reid!" Morgan shouted shaking the young agent.

Reid's eyes fluttered open, his vision was blurry at first but when it cleared he was shocked to see Rossi and Morgan standing over him.

"Reid you need to get up its 9.30." Rossi said softly but urgently.

"Sorry I must of feel asleep." Reid said slurred, he still hadn't quite gathered his senses.

"Are you okay? Pretty boy, your really shaking and you look awful." Morgan said concerned. Thinking about Reid was feeling awful, he felt baking hot and his head was throbbing badly.

"I'm fine." He lied, remembering that he needed to get today over and done with as stress free as possible."I'll get ready." Reid jumped out of bed and headed to the bathroom.

"We'll come back in fifteen minutes and you better be ready." Rossi warned, however Morgan and him were both not convinced that Reid was alright. Reid jumped into the hot shower. The droplets rolled down his skin giving a warm sensation. Showers always seemed to relax reid and he allowed himself to let his mind zone out to the patter of the water. After washing his hair and body, he got out the shower and wrapped himself in a hotel towel. When entering the room he realized he'd been in the shower for ten minutes only leaving him five minutes to get dressed and ready. Reid quickly slipped into his black suit and tie and ran a brush through his hair. After putting on his signature odd socks on and shoes, Reid lay back on his bed. His headache hadn't subsided and he felt cold and shivery.

"I hope your decent." Came Morgan's voice from behind the door.

"Yeah." Said Reid, his voice was heavy.

When Morgan and Rossi entered they were happy to see Reid dressed and ready,however he still looked ill and not himself.

"We should get going, you ready?" Rossi asked kindly. Reid didn't know how to answer this question, of course he was not ready, but the truth was he didn't know if he would ever be ready; so he just nodded. Reid slowly followed Rossi and Morgan to the lobby where the rest of the team was waiting for him. They were all looking very smart in there black suits and dresses. Even Garcia was wearing all black which was a rarity. Reid suddenly panicked, he felt grief,guilt and anger all at the same time and on top of that he was feeling physically awful.

"You okay?" Garcia asked quietly so only Reid could hear. Spencer just nodded, his voice seemed to have failed him.

"The cars are here, it's time to go." Hotch announced. Images of his mothers rotting corpse filled Reid's mind and he felt the little color in his face drain. Feeling numb all over Reid forced himself into the back of the car with JJ, Emily and Hotch. The image of his mother was still floating vividly in his mind and he felt shivers run through him.

"Reid, are you sure your okay." Hotch asked. Not wanting to lie anymore Reid shook his head. He was not okay.