Aww, once again, you're all so amazing! I just wanna give a special shout out to ChiaMarie23 for being such a dedicated reader :) Thank you so much for being there :)
Now, how about that plot twist from last chapter? O.o I know. When I finished reading the chapter for the first time, I just started freaking out at Tianna. 1. For going off plot and throwing something else in 2. For putting Naitlyn in that situation! :O
Okay, not really a Naitlyn chapter, but definitely a Caitlyn chapter.
WARNING: This chapter deals a situation that some people may find uncomfortable and so I just want to apologize in advanced if we offend anybody.
"You're kidding!" I exclaimed, not being able to process the bomb that my mother and father had just dropped on me. Shane looked up at me, alarmed at my comment.
"That's…amazing! Does Pat know?" I asked.
"No. Not yet. We were going to call on Wednesday. We just found out! I never thought that this was possible!" Mom exclaimed.
"What's going on?" Nate asked from his place beside Caitlyn.
"My mom is pregnant!" I exclaimed.
"Seriously?" Caitlyn asked, standing up and running into the kitchen with me.
"Congratulations Connie!" Caitlyn exclaimed through the phone.
"Oh, Thank you Caitlyn!" Mom screamed into the phone. I cringed at the volume, but Caitlyn got the message.
"Well Mitchie, I'm going to have to let you go. I just wanted to let you know the good news!" Mom said.
"Alright Mom. Love you! Bye!" I exclaimed, hanging up the phone. I smiled at everyone around me. I was going to have another brother or sister. Suddenly, the excitement ended when Caitlyn's hand flew to her mouth and she ran to the bathroom. Worried, I quickly chased after her. I heard her vomit into the toilet as her body lurched forward. I sighed and held her hair back, rubbing her back soothingly.
"You okay Caity?" I asked once she was done. She nodded and looked up at me.
"Caitlyn…I think it's time to take that test," I said quietly. It had been three weeks since Vegas and Caitlyn had told me everything that happened; from the mind game to the song to the sex.
"I already told you Mitchie. I can't be pregnant. I've been on the pill," she replied.
"Caitlyn…the pill isn't 100% effective," I said simply. She sighed and nodded.
"So I'll be that "less than one" in 100 if I am?" she asked. I nodded.
"Yeah…but it needs to be done," I said. I pulled out the test that my mother had given me at the start of the tour. I was confident that I wouldn't need it, but it was nice to have it just in case.
"I'll be out in the living room. Just call my name if you need me," I said, closing the door behind me. I felt bad for Caitlyn, but it was her own fault. Well, her and Nate's fault. I walked back to the living room and saw three curious popstars.
"Is Caitlyn okay?" Nate asked immediately.
"I don't know Nate. Is she okay?" I snapped. He definitely deserved it. He had sex with Caitlyn and still hadn't broken up with Ronnie.
"Did she tell you something?" he asked. His eyes narrowed at me in suspicion.
"Tell me what?" I asked, challenging him to tell in front of his brothers. He bit his tongue and sat back. The whole bus had been on edge lately. Caitlyn would have moved into the band bus, but decided against it since she didn't want to deal with Ronnie. We waited in silence for Caitlyn to return. We heard the bathroom door open, but instead of seeing her bright and smiley face, we were met with something that made my heart stop.
"Mitchie…can you…can you come here…please?" she whimpered. I stood and ran to the bathroom. She pulled me in and collapsed, the test in her hands.
"What does it say?" I asked quietly. She lifted it to me. I carefully took it, avoiding the part she peed on, and looked at the result.
A pink little plus sign.
"Fuck," I let out. Caitlyn sobbed harder.
"Caitlyn, you have to tell him," I said sternly.
"I-I c-can't t-t-tell him. We agreed. W-wh-what ha-hap-happened in Vegas stayed in V-Vegas," she stuttered.
"Caitlyn…this isn't about you and him anymore. There's a third party involved now," I said. Caitlyn's body racked with sobs as reality hit her.
"I can't Mitchie," she whispered. I pulled her into a hug.
"You have to."
After about an hour of crying in the bathroom, we wrapped up the evidence and decided to hide it in Caitlyn's bag. We wouldn't let the boys know unless it became crucial. But if it became crucial, that meant that Caitlyn would be leaving the tour. I would be left without my best friend, but being on tour was no place for her.
"Hey guys. We're going to stay with Emily tonight. We're just gonna hang out and watch some movies," I informed the guys when we pulled over for gas.
"Alright. We'll see you tomorrow," they said. I kissed Shane goodbye and pulled Caitlyn over to Emily's tour bus. I climbed on and smiled at my new curly haired friend.
"Hey Em," I said, pulling Caitlyn behind me.
"Hey Mitchie. Hey Caitlyn. How you doing hun?" she asked, pulling Caitlyn into a hug.
"I've been better. Thank you for letting me figure all this out here. I couldn't bear to let the guys know," Caitlyn said.
"It's okay. Just do what you've got to do," Emily said. We took a seat on the couch and watched Caitlyn pull out her phone.
"First…parents," she said. She quietly dialed the number.
"Hey Mom…Hey Dad," Caitlyn started. She began pacing quietly.
"Tour's great. Yeah," Caitlyn said. Silence filled the room as a small smile graced her face.
"Yeah, she is a great friend. Only she would do something like that for me," she said, looking at me. I smiled, but kept my mouth shut. Silence again.
"Actually Mom…I need to tell you something," Caitlyn started. I watched wordlessly.
"I'm…Mom…I'm pregnant," she said quietly. I watched Caitlyn pull the phone away from her ear as her mother's voice reached mine and Emily's ears.
"No, but Mom-" Caitlyn tried. We listened as we caught a couple of words, none of them being too nice. Whore, trash, slut, bastard. Those were just a few words that came from her family's end of the line. I heard her mother tell her not to bother coming back home before the call was cut off. Caitlyn stood there, not moving for a moment, before bursting into tears. Emily and I quickly rushed to comfort our friend.
"I can't…this can't…what am I going to do?" Caitlyn sobbed. I bit my lip. As she looked at me.
"Make the phone call Mitchie," she instructed quietly. I felt my world begin crashing around me. I wanted to scream at her. Tell her that she was crazy and that she'd be able to figure all this out without resorting to that…but I had promised to respect her decision.
"I'll be right back," I told them, before walking to the back of the bus. I silently dialed a number and a familiar voice answered.
"Hello?" the voice asked.
"Brown?" I asked for confirmation.
"Hello Poppet! How's my favorite camper?" he asked.
"I'm good Brown. I'm good. I'm um…I'm actually calling for a favor," I said.
"A favor?" Brown asked.
"Yeah…not for me…for Nate actually," I said.
"Then why wouldn't Nate call?" Brown asked.
"Because…Nate doesn't…know," I said. This was the hardest thing I would ever have to do. It went against all my morals and values…but I knew it was what Caitlyn needed. I made my way out to the living room so Caitlyn could tell him what was going on and what she needed.
"Explain it to me," he said. Caitlyn quickly told him everything that happened, from the concert to the sex to now.
"So…Caitlyn…you really want this? Because once you do this, you can't undo it," he asked. I looked at my friend who looked determined.
"Yes…yes I want this," she said, her voice hoarse.
"Alright…I'll set up the appointment," he said. I felt my heart reach out to my best friend, knowing how hard this must be for her.
"Do you want me to go with you?" I asked. She shook her head.
"No…I need to do this by myself. I know that the phone call was hard enough for you," Caitlyn said. I nodded in agreement.
"Alright…let's…let's put on a movie or something," Emily suggested. We all agreed on a movie and stuck it in, but nobody watched it. We just thought about what was, what would be and what could have been.
I couldn't breathe. I'd never done a concert without Caitlyn and now I was beginning to doubt whether I could or couldn't handle it without her. I felt so lonely without her...I couldn't even imagine what she was feeling right now. She would be all alone, going through one of the hardest things ever. I couldn't believe that I didn't talk her out of it. Maybe that's because I knew it was the best thing.
"Mitchie...it's time," Shane said through my door. I nodded and stood up from my small couch. I quickly wiped any traces of my tears away, but Shane saw them.
"What's wrong Mitch?" he asked, wrapping his arms around me. I melted into his embrace.
"Everything," I whispered. Shane's embrace tightened.
"What's going on Mitchie? Where's Caitlyn and why are you and Emily walking around like somebody died?" Shane asked. I processed his worlds and suddenly I was bawling into his shirt. He didn't know. Nate didn't know. Nate would never know. All this information hit me hard.
"Mitchie?" Shane asked, alarmed of my reaction. He quickly pulled me over to the couch where he held me until my sobs turned into hiccups and my tears ran dry.
"Alright, so…how many of you have been put in a situation where…you don't know what to do?" I asked. The whole audience screamed, knowing that I was about to start another song.
"Yeah, that's how my week has kind of been," I said. I choked back a few tears, knowing where Caitlyn was right now. I wanted to go into a corner and cry, but I knew I couldn't do that.
"Well…my best friend, Caitlyn-" I said, but was cut off when the cheers became deafening. I choked back a sob and focused.
"Yeah…ya'll remember Caitlyn," I said. I looked out.
"Well…Caitlyn wasn't able to be here tonight and I just want to dedicate this song to her. This one's for you Caitlyn," I said. I heard Emily strumming her guitar behind me as I prepared to sing.
"Caitlyn comes home from school,
And grabs on to her daddy's hand.
He says 'Baby Girl what's wrong with you?'
She says 'Please don't make me go back there again.'
She said 'I wish there was some way to make them stop it'
So he drives down to that principal's office and says.
I didn't bring her up,
So they could knock her down.
I didn't bring her here,
So they could shut her out.
I live my whole damn life,
To see that little girl smile.
So why are tears pouring down that sweet face?
She wasn't brought up that way." I felt the tears fall down my face, thinking of how alone Caitlyn was. I looked to see Nate trying to pull answers from Shane and Jason. He didn't know that they had no clue what was going on.
"Caitlyn's home late again.
He sees that boy drive away.
Oh, but something's different this time.
She doesn't have too much to say.
She says 'He tried but there's just some things I won't do.'
And through the tears she said 'I couldn't do that to you' and he said.
I didn't bring you up,
So he could wear you down,
Take that innocent heart,
And turn it inside out.
I live my whole damn life,
To see my little girl smile,
So don't let nobody take that away.
You weren't brought up that way." I heard the crowd cheer and listen intently to the lyrics. I knew Caitlyn would probably get on my case about writing such an emotional song for her, but I knew that this song was perfect for her.
"The phone rings on a rainy night,
Says it's officer Tate.
He says 'Sir there's been an accident.
You'd better come down here right away.
A drunken driver missed an overpass.
And Caitlyn, she's fading fast' He said God,
I didn't bring her up,
To watch them lay her down.
Nearly killed me the day,
They put her mama in the ground.
Only thing that kept me alive,
Was that little girl's smile
So please, don't take that away,
It won't be easy taking her today
She wasn't brought up that way.
He stands over the hospital bed.
Caitlyn opens her eyes," I finished. The crowd cheered and I pulled the microphone away from my mouth as I let out a sob. I smiled weakly to the crowd, having to attempt a smile. I turned to the wings and saw Caitlyn standing there, tears pouring down her face. I quickly shoved the microphone as Shane as I ran over to Caitlyn. I was relieved that my set was over.
"Caitlyn, are you…did you…I mean, are you still…" all of my questions were just too hard for me to ask.
"It's over," she said quietly, a fresh set of tears taking over. I quickly pulled her into a tight embrace.
"I'm so sorry I couldn't be there for you. I can't believe you had to go through that alone," I cried into her shoulder.
"Shh. Mitchie, I'm okay. I promise," she said, not crying even half as hard.
"Let's hear it for Mitchie and Emily," I heard Nate exclaim. I shuddered at his voice. He would never know that his child was just…
I looked at Caitlyn who looked at me with soft eyes.
"That was a beautiful song. Thank you so much," Caitlyn said.
"We both wrote it for you," I said, gesturing to Emily. Caitlyn smiled at Emily.
"Thank you Emily," she said quietly. Emily nodded before she was swept away by the stage hands to prepare for her song.
"I love you Caity," I said, pulling her into a bone crushing hug.
"I love you too Mitchie. You are the only family I have now. I can't go home. Not even after…you know," she said. I nodded in understanding.
"You're always welcome anywhere I go," I said, hugging her again.
"Sisters until the end?" she asked quietly.
"Most definitely."
I know...
but please don't hate us! I understand that many of you would have loved seeing little Naitlyn babies, but does Caitlyn really strike you as the type who would get pregnant at a young age and keep it?
For those of you who know us, this chapter really hits home because of the fact that I have had twins and so it's hard to think about.
But yeah. That was a hard chapter to read and I know there are going to be people who are extremely angry at us, but it had to be done. And you'll see why in the future chapters. :)
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~Aden