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Part 94

Seeing as how it was not going to what he'd like, B's darkness retaliated. He stopped his attentions and became eerily calm before turning his red gaze to meet dark orbs and glaring slightly.

L froze, unsure of what his friends expression meant. He had never seen his eyes look so dangerous, and never focused on him...

Before he could stop himself, his hand was at the detective's throat and had him slammed against the wall, red orbs seeming to glow more in his blind anger than any other time.
"You will let me do as I please Lawliet..." His voice was not his own and was low and growled.

The elder raven's eyes grew wide and fearful, unsure of what to say or how to react.

"You are no longer equals with me... You are not an Alpha in my pack anymore... I'm the Alpha here now... Do you understand...?"

L nodded slowly and lowered his head, breaking eye contact. He wasn't sure what to think or feel, but it was frightening.

The scarlet eyed being that faced the detective now grinned darkly before retreating back into the recesses of where it came. B shook his head and saw what he was doing before letting his friend go and taking 2 steps back, eyes wide and fearful. He didn't stop there and got out of the tub and backed up until he was under the sink, knees against his chest and face buried in guilt and shame.

L stayed frozen in place for some time, his eyes still wide though now looking up at the ceiling as though it held the answers. He never thought Beyond's growing aggression would ever be aimed towards him.

The younger raven began to sob softly in his guilt, his face buried and shoulders shaking. He didn't mean to hurt his friend.
*He hates you now cause you hurt him. He hates you now and will never be your friend again...* Over and over these thoughts played out in his mind and he shook his head violently to deny it to himself. He gripped his head and sobbed louder.

"B-Beyond..." the elder whispered after a while, the sobs cutting through his fear and letting him crawl out of the bath and over to his friend.

Scarlet orbs looked at the older and grew wide and fearful. He pressed himself completely against the wall and felt his heart rate rise. He willed the wall to make him disappear, but still the tears fell and sobs freed themselves. He looked in every way a scared animal cornered. He sidled himself closer to the door, heedless of his nude form.

L pulled the boy into a tight embrace, ignoring his fear for the moment. This didn't change anything, though it was clear there where issues that needed to be dealt with...

B struggled in the older's grip before finally collapsing, burying his face into the older raven's shoulder and letting himself go.
"I-I'm sorry! I'm s-sorry! I'm s-sorry! I-I'm s-sorry! D-don't l-leave m-me! D-don't hate me! I-I'm s-sorry!" His entire frame shook violently in his guilt filled emotional outburst.

"I don't hate you..." the elder whispered and held his friend ever tighter, trying his best to sooth him.
"I love you... this doesn't change anything..."

"I hurt you! I h-hurt you and y-you didn't deserve it!" He wriggled from the older raven's grip and curled tightly into a ball on the floor, humming a very shaky version of L's lullaby and rocking slowly.

"Hey..." the dark eyed boy crawled along to hold him close again.
"It's alright... I forgive you..."

*He's lying. He's just saying that. He doesn't mean it. He's still going to abandon you.* B brought his hands to his ears in hopes it would stop the traitor voices in his mind.
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." He whimpered and gave up, becoming limp and looking into nothingness, his guilt overbearing him and forcing his mind into retreat.

L pulled his friend over to sit with his back against the wall and Beyond in his lap.
"I'd never leave you behind..." the elder whispered.
"We'll get through this together..."

The only sounds from him were soft sobs, letting his guilt out the only way his body knew how. He was unresponsive to anything else until his sorrows were all cried out.

The tired eyed raven never let go of his sobbing friend, keeping to his word about not leaving his side.

Time passed before B came to, his breath shuddered and full of hiccups. He sniffled and looked down to see his friend's arms around him. He frowned and sniffled again.
"I-I'm s-sor-sorry..." he said, sniffling loudly.
"I-I j-just wan-wanted t-to re-return th-the f-favor... I-I'm re-really s-sorry..." Another small sob escaped and he closed his eyes, unwilling to look at his friend.

"It's alright..." the elder assured him once more and stroked his spidery fingers through the other boys dark hair.

B shied from the contact and hugged himself, looking into the darkness that his closed eyes provided and wanting more than anything to be where this darkness was.

"Don't feel bad Beyond..." the elder whispered.
"I know there are things you can't control, but they're apart of you so I love and accept them..."

"B-Beyond B-Birthday... m-my name i-is Beyond Birthday..." Just saying the name seemed to restore some of his confidence.
"I d-didn't m-mean to hurt y-you... I-I couldn't st-stop m-myself..."

"I know..." he purred, keeping his voice low and soothing.

Though the guilt was going away, the shame he felt for hurting his friend didn't. He looked to his clothes and wormed his way out of the older's grip before walking to the clean set and re-dressing, walking to the tainted water and draining it. He flinched at the memory flash of seeing himself hurting his friend, but shaking it away. It was worse than when he hurt the detective by abandoning him.

L got to his feet and dressed himself after a few moments, drying off his hair before doing the same to his friend just as he had done many times before...

The younger pulled away and opted to dry his own hair, keeping his gaze diverted. It hurt too much and he was unsure if he'd ever live it down. He doubted it, seeing as he hurt his friend already. What if Lawli was counting the times he was hurt before he left him alone for good? What if he told Watari and was disowned so that he was no longer wanted anymore? Where would he go? What would he do to survive?

L frowned, not wanting to see his friend torturing himself.
"Are you alright?"

Tears escaped and he replied with a shake of his head, hugging himself once more.

"Don't beat yourself up Beyond, I know you never meant to hurt me..."

"I hurt you still... I promised that I would protect you... Protectors don't hurt those they are protecting..."

"Perhaps..." the elder mumbled, "but Talmut protects his pack, and yet sometimes he bites them and pins them to the ground like Juno..."

"He does that because he has to and she was out of line. I acted out of line and hurt you for something you didn't want to do..." He reached for his bag and put the towel inside before walking to the door and letting himself out. He walked to the main door and set his bag down and setting himself on the stairwell, hugging himself and trying to block the endless traitor thoughts in his head.