Suffering

Maybe he thought that I didn't heard him but I did. It gave me hope that I needed to keep going on. They were torturing me every day, making me weaker. No one came for me, not a soul.

Most of day I spend unconsiouns because all that pain made me feel like a doll, I don't even know how many days or weeks past.

One day we were hitting to the new location and I was finally able to stand on my feet and walk, with Ryan constantly keeping eye on me. I noticed one new face, young woman in twenties, blond hair like Luna's and green eyes. It was really far or my brain was just messing with me but on half of the way Sun burned me. I was sure that sun almost melted my arm if Rose didn't pushed me in the shadow. „What the?"

„Rose, we have to hurry or it will happen. Full moon is in two days. We have to secrafice her alive."it was that women, whose name I found out later. Marry, and she is witch that will do some spell with me for Rose. „If I have to be a slave can you unleast tell me what is going on with my body. First I can hear perfectly, then I see things that are really far away, my wonds can heal and now sun almost killed me. I haven't drank any vampire blood so what is it'" „Ask Kai that when you see him." „But I won't see him again will I? Your spell will kill me, I heard." „Then you will die without knowing."

They leaded to a hause hidden inside the woods. Path that went to it was also barely seeable. Inside was way better, I mean whole hause was covered in glass. On the roof, walls floor everything. And there was no furniture. But there was something behind the hause, like a cave. „Ryan keep eye on her until we go and check you know what."

„So... You won't tell me what are they doing?" „No." Ryan was kind of guy who doesn't speak or enjoy, have fun if you ask him sth he wouldn't answer. „I can tell you just that it will be painfull." Great, he decided to speak now.

Rose and Marry returned pretty soon making impression that everyone is ready for my death. It sounds creepy.

And I can tell you that those two day were true hell for me. They chained me for the wall and starved me, litteraly I didn't ate anything. Then Ryan had a task to every two hours stab me in a leg with the knife which ment burning pain and lots, lots of blood around me. Every day I will pass out and staying that way for hours. My sight got worst too, everything fel fuzzy like I'm drugged.

Ofc no one cared, they just needed me to make some witchy stuoid thing. First few captive days I still hold on to hope but that melt. Hope that Kai will smash the door, kill them all and carry me to safety. As you know, that didn't happened. Only place where I was able to talk to him was my dream.

I had a dream, but it was more feeling like sth that will happen. I saw a men, for who I felt friendship. It was Kai, sitting on the top of Mystic Falls clock tower. „Kai, what are you doing here?" „Hiding form you, obviusly." „Look, that wasn't me. Hey, look at me." I sit next to him and turned his head to mine. „I am so sorry Kai, I couldn't handle what I did, I had to find help." „You could come to me, I would save you from that darkness Juliette." „I know, I know. And I am so thankfull for that which is why I would ask you this. How did you moved on?" Blank then dream came again. He jumped of the tower and I stayed with tear in my eye. Strange warm stuff run trough my body.

Rose was too cool tp even borrow me something clean to wear. I mean they did gave me clothes but really... And on my big suprise for my 'special day' a box waited me when I snipped from a dream, most awful of all. Every day I had same dream about Kai.

Ofc I wasn't able to open it with my hands chined to the wall so they actually removed them. I was free after two weeks to move my hands even if was just to dress up. Inside of it was white dress. Going to my knees, with sleaves in a bit darker shade of white. With it came some shoes. „Uhm... What is this supose to be?" „In my family it's tradition to wear white and look perfect on your last day so we brought you that dress and I will fix our face." Fix, she will fix my face. I know I was covered in blood but you don't have to say it in a way to make me look like a machine.

And above all I thought that she is joking, but no. With power of shampoo I saw my old shiny hair again, then she brushed it a hundred times to clear all dirt. When I was done Marry brought me in front of the mirror and I stayed paralised. Since I haven't eat or sleep my face was as white as the dress, so pale. And besides that I was ready to die.

I prepeared my self but when Marry started the spell and they brought me to the dark and cold cave first tears appeared and fell down my cheeks. My brain repeted myslef that I am ready, but I never sad goodbye to my parents, to Klaus and Caroline, Luna, Kai and Jake... How will they explain to him that their daughter is dead? Maybe he will think that I moved without telling him, that I don't love him anymore... He can't do that we are ment for eachother.

„Oh, stop crying."that would ne Rose. We were standing in front the laying statue bit behind Marry.

First nothing, then after couple of witchy words small hole opened in the statue, in a shape of mouth. „It's time Ally."Rose pulled my hand to the statue and bit me in the hand so that person could easly drink. I didn't want to do it so I didn't move when she steped a side. „Oh, do I have to do it for you?" „Rose, please tell my parents that I love them, tell them to say Jake that I will miss him, Luna that she is my sister and Kai that he was my best friend." „We don't have time for sad goodbyes."She pressed my hand to the hole.

Blood was dropping in it and after a lot of drops statue took it and drank, then it sit still with stony face and drunk from my neck. It was just as painfull as those few days of draining. When she was done her face was revealed, only thing that saw was extremly crystaly blue eyes.

Then after that I died. I felt nothing, no pain. There was only blakness. In my head I wanted to fight but it was pointless so I let go.

Goodbye mom, dad, Luna, Kai, Klaus, Caroline, Stefan and Jake. With love, Ally Juliette Salvatore. Remember that you are not alone, if nothing happen you have to hold on to hope. Maybe that didn't saved me but you probabbly will.