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This one is dedicated to my fiance. I am truly blessed to have you in my life.
Without you the world would not make sense and I would be lost.
I love you...
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EPOV
"I know what she wants. She has wanted it all along."
"Darling, please don't let her beauty fool you."
Jane looked at me. She was a really good actress. Even if she was on roller-skates.
"Master, look at me."
I looked up at Bella. I could see what the long day has done to her. Her emotions are all over her face.
"I need you. You are the lion and I am the lamb…that is what you told me. Please remember?"
She looked at me. Really looked at me. And then I saw it. The blush that starts at her throat and creeps its way up to her cheeks. The stunning pink color that reminds me of summer roses.
"How dare you!" Jane's hand almost really connected with Bella's face. Only a trained eye would see that it was a near miss. "You do not speak to him. You are a mere mortal. A speckle on the earth. A waste of good food."
"Master…"
The pleading. The screaming. I was sure that Aro would love this!
Bella was still holding onto her face where Jane's hand had nearly hit her.
"I understand your concern my dear friend. But this…" I grabbed Bella around the waist, pulled her next to me, looked down into her eyes and stroked her cheek. "This is for me. She is the reason for all I have done and will do." Looking up at Jane I saw that she knew something was wrong. I looked down again into Bella's eyes. "I love her…"
There was a silence on set. Every eye was on us. Everyone knew. But that wasn't a bad thing. If they knew then she would know soon.
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Day nine of the shooting and I could feel the toll this was taking on my mind and body.
Emmet was trying hard not to freak out.
"Please Edward, why don't you just go to the doctor?
"I can't…I need to finish this Em. Not just for me but for Bella as well."
"Tell her! This could be the chance you have been waiting for."
"No! I won't tell her and make her love me again. She has to love me without worry and feeling sorry for me. Please Em…"
"Just…rest. Don't overdo this. And if you don't want to do it for me or for you, do it for her. If she saw you like this…I know it would kill her."
I knew Emmet had a point. I just wanted her to understand what I feel for her was not what she thought.
Looking down to my shaking hands I felt something inside of me break.
Bella was important.
Bella was what make the world seem normal.
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BPOV
If days grow into night what would that mean to one's soul?
I needed to read something. Being a drone for Hollywood was wearing of.
I also need to make right with Alice, Rose and Jasper. I miss them.
This morning when I woke up and dressed, looking myself in the mirror I didn't recognize the face.
I didn't recognize the woman that was staring back.
I had an Anne Hatheway moment. You know the one in The devil wears Prada where she is in the hotel in Paris, putting on mascara?
Yeah, that one…
The moment she realized what she has become.
The moment she realized what she gave up and why she started to work for the she-devil in the first place.
I felt like that.
I knew that what I have become was not who I was or wanted to be.
I just lost the road. Sounds deep, doesn't it?
Walking into the film site I felt everyone looking at me.
It felt real.
"Bella?"
I looked up from my book. Alice had tears in her eyes. She ran to me and fell into my arms.
"I am so sorry, Alice."
Pulling away from me she looked me up and down. "I never thought that these words would come out of my mouth but I have never been so happy to see you in….this…"
She pulls her face into a sort of frown-smile. "It's called a pull over and jeans with sneakers, Alice."
"Well then, looks like Bella has not left the building."
Rose was dressed to impress as always. "Wow Rose! You look…wow."
"This is just something I threw on." Laughing she pulls me into a hug. "I had some competition you know."
"O guys! I am so sorry…" Pulling away from Rose I looked at my friends. This felt right. This was who I was. Not the cold hearted sheep I had become.
"OMG! Who is that?" Shit. I really hoped that Jane would not be here today. To tell her what I had become and what I wanted to be was not going to be easy.
"Jane, listen…" Facing around it was not Jane I was looking at.
Rose burst out laughing. Alice stood there with her hand before her pouty mouth. Looking around I saw Jasper leaning against the wall not far from where we were standing.
How does he do that?
Shaking my head I turn to face Riley.
"Isabella? What happened? Were you robbed? Should I call the hairdresser?" He was looking me up and down.
I didn't even bother to blow dry my hair. It was all frizzy from the cold mist outside.
Mmm, cold mist. I wonder if the Brunte sisters wrote something about it? I should go look that up.
"Bella?"
"Okay Sparky, listen." Rose stepped around me with a smirk on her face. "Three things." She held her perfectly manicured hand in his face.
"Number one, the fact that you didn't even realize she called you by a girl's name really makes you conceded. And take this from me not as a compliment."
She was counting down on her fingers. "Number two, my eyes are up here and if you keep on staring, you see that guy standing there that looks like he will rip your head off and burn the little pieces…" she pointed to Emmet glaring from the distance, "he will rip your head off."
Riley sort of snorted and looked over her shoulder to me. "And thirdly, the next time you scream like a girl, don't do it near Bella. She needs a man and not a little boy."
Turning around with hair bouncing of her shoulder, all of us started to walk away. She stopped suddenly, tipped her head to the side and turned back to Riley who was still standing there with his mouth hanging open and eyes burning. "If you ever, and I really do mean any time in the future come near Bella again…you know that guy I was talking about…well, let's just say, you truly will fulfill your quest to scream like a girl and mean it."
Flipping her hair over her shoulder she saunters away with Alice, myself and Jasper on her red pointed toe, Dorethy heels.
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"What happened Bells?" Jasper was the one to ask the question that I don't really know the answer of.
"I truly don't know Jas. I was looking at myself in the mirror last night and I got…."
"…an Anne moment? O wow! I always wanted one of those!"
Laughing I look at Alice who was beaming at me. She always had a way of knowing everything before it happens.
She told me three days ago that the storm will settle. I told her to go see someone.
She just shook her head and with sad eyes told me she wished she could see me.
"Alice," touching her arm lightly to get her attention, I looked up into her eyes, "I am sorry."
"Will you please stop saying that! Otherwise I will have to…"
She couldn't finish her sentence. Over at the snacks table a crowd has formed.
I got a knot in my stomach and felt my heart racing. My hands got sweaty.
"Bella?"
I started to walk toward everyone was now standing in a circle. "Bella!"
Pushing my way through the crowd, my hands flew up to cover my mouth to stop the scream that would have escaped.
"Edward? Edward? Can you hear me?" Emmet was holding his head up and looking at his face.
"Bella? What…?" Alice did the same as me when she pushed her way through the crowd to get to me. Her tiny hands flew to her mouth. I turned my head slowly to look at her.
"Someone call a doctor. Call 911!"
Alice looked at me. But I couldn't see her. All I saw was my future lying on the floor.
Dying…
To quote Jessica, "I know, right?"
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