It's been two weeks since Edward and my cover had been blown by my sister. Shockingly not much had changed. My mom didn't even blink an eye when she found out I was bi. It was almost as if in some weird, twisted way she knew, she knew I was different from the rest. It was great to hear that she would support me no matter what.

Bella was no different. She truly was full of heart. She never once brought up the whole Edward situation or how much I hurt her, instead she stuck to her word and we started over from scratch with our relationship, slowly building our loving bond once again.

Alice and I talked about her feelings and as painfully as it was for her to put herself out there, I was grateful we were finally on the same page. I of course told her I loved her as a friend and that she could always come to me to talk or hang out if she wanted.

We both decided to can the sex side of our friendship. I didn't want to mislead Alice and she didn't want to a half ass relationship. She deserved better. Though we both left the conversation with a mutual understanding and respect towards each other, Alice asked to have some space until she could move on from her feelings towards me.

I felt good, it felt like I was finally moving forward with my life and everything was going smoothly, everything except with Edward. I saw him from time to time at school but never had the nerve to approach him. I didn't know what to say to him and he was pretty good at keeping his distant from me, basically putting the ball in my court.

The problem was I had no idea what to do with the ball. I spent my time concentrating on my classes and school work and ignoring my whole issue with him. It felt like I was moving one step forward and two steps back. I didn't want to admit it but I missed him, a lot.

"I heard your passing all your classes, congrats." Bella said coming into my room.

"I know I can't believe it, my brain came out right when I needed it most." I replied from my spot on the bed.

"Yeah, now if only your heart would." Bella lectured, taking a seat next to me.

I let out a defeated sigh. I knew she was right but at the same time I didn't want to talk about my situation with Edward, especially to my sister who used to date him.

"I'm serious Jazz; graduation is only a week away. You need to talk to him before you lose him forever. Edward is not a guy you want to pass up on, his sweet and hot and he really cares for you. Obviously the feeling is mutual or else you wouldn't be in bed sulking."

"I'm not sulking." I protested pulling the covers over my cold body.

Bella gave me a knowing look.

"Okay maybe a little. Why are you so eager to see us get together anyway?" I questioned.

"I liked Edward, I did, but I never had strong feeling for him like you do. I know what you feel for him is real. I want you to be happy and if Edward makes you happy go for it, he won't wait forever Jazz. A hot guy like him, some girl or guy is going to get him soon if you don't."

It was late at night and Bella's words of commitment were sinking in my head. I started to wonder, if I did really want a relationship with Edward if I would I be able to deal with everything that came along with it, like sex. I never fucked a guy before and I sure as hell knew Edward had never done anything like that as well. I knew the basics but that was it. I needed to get informed and see if the idea of sex with a guy was even something I wanted to do in the future.

I flipped through the channels on my television until I was met with a porn station, a gay porn station to be exact. I made sure my door was closed and lock and that the volume was low. Although my family was well aware of my sexual preference, I did not want to be that open with them.

I laid back on my bed and began to watch one of the many programs available for my viewing pleasure. The guys in the film weren't back looking either. Neither was up to Edward's level but they had some good features, they were both in shape and had nice smiles. Their acting sucked but they looked to have chemistry with each other.

I watched intrigued as they got down to the nitty gritty. The guys started off rolling around on the bed, multitasking. They were making out as they worked on undressing each other.

The men changed positions once naked, getting on their sides spooning each other. Before I knew it, one of the guys started pounding into the other's ass. Both of them were moaning at the feeling and the bed was making creaking noises from their fast, strong movements. I could see the guy's firm ass tightening up as he fucked the other man in the ass. I could see his muscles flexing and straining, his back arching with need, his free hand coming over to help jerk off his buddy, his face scrunching up in pleasure.

Shit that's hot.

Just the thought of possibly doing something like that to Edward was turning me on. I started to squirm wondering if I should take matters into my own hands when my cell went off. I jumped not expecting the noise, and quickly turned off my television as if whoever was calling would know what I was doing or thinking. I brought my phone up to see I got a text. It was from Edward of all people.

Hey, I need a ride. Can you pick me up? I'm at club Loud.

Thanks, E

What the fuck?

Edward's at a club, and he wants me to pick him up?

I was about to say no when I realized this was my chance to finally talk to him. He was the one to texted me, so maybe he wanted to talk. Maybe he would start off the conversation and help me ease into what I want to say.

I grabbed my jacket and car keys and told my mom not to wait up for me.

It took me a good twenty minutes just to find the club and parking was a bitch. After all that chaos was over with I headed inside in search of Edward. There were so many people there it was jammed packed, I started to doubt I would even be able to find Edward.

Luckily, I spotted him over by the bar and he was looking pretty wasted. He was slouched over in his chair talking to the bartender who was shaking his head. I could guess by the situation Edward was asking for another round and the bartender was cutting him off for the night. I walked through the cowards and placed a hand on Edward's shoulder.

"Hey, you ready to go?"

Edward turned around giving me a confusing/sleepy look.

"Jasper, what are you doing here?" He asked, slurring his words.

"You texted me, remember?" I scrunched my face up in confusion.

"No, no I didn't, did I?" He asked to himself.

"I texted you. Sorry, he's pretty drunk, I texted the first name that came up in his phone." The bartender announced.

"Oh, thanks. Let's get you home." I said awkwardly, trying to pull Edward away from his stool.

Edward clumsily fell forward and nearly knocked me to the ground with his weight in the process. Fortunately I had a good grip on the bar and I was able to prevent that from happening. I lead the way out of the club, practically dragging him along.

The car ride back was silent besides the occasional moan of discomfort coming from Edward.

"You okay?" I asked, seeing he was holding his head in in hands.

"I drank too much." He whined.

I couldn't help but chuckle at his late assessment.

"You think?" I joked, amused.

Edward clung to my side resting his head on my shoulder as I lead the way to my room. I could feel his warm breath hit my neck with his every exhale, sending shivers down my spine. I could feel his breathing pick up and his nose rub affectionately against my neck.

"Fuck me." He slurred in my ear, causing me to halt my steps.

Edward didn't react fast enough to my sudden pause and he stumbled, nearly falling in the process. I can't help but snicker at his current state. He wanted to fuck, yet he could barely walk much less talk.

He recovered and wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me to his body so that we were pressed up against each other. He slowly grounded his hard dick into me, awaking my own shaft in the process.

Shit I want this, bad.

Why does he have to be drunk?

Edward took my ear in his mouth, lightly nibbling on it as he spoke. Making it even harder to understand what he was saying, his slurred words were now muffled.

"We will never see each other after high school. We'll be off to different colleges. We might as well go out with a bang."

I busted out laughing at that.

Edward pulled back looking offended.

"Stop laughing at me." He whined, like a little kid not getting his way.

"I'm sorry but that's fuckin funny as shit. You are so fuckin wasted. You won't remember this in the morning." I voiced, siting him down on the bed.

"All the more reason to have your way with me." He replied fumbling with the zipper on his jeans.

"Stop." I warned, feeling my desire start to take over.

Unsuccessful at unzipping his jeans, Edward went a different route and began to take his shirt off.

"Stop trying to take your clothes off." I voiced frustrated, feeling my own jeans getting tight.

Edward let out a sigh, bringing his hands down to his sides in defeat.

"Why don't you want me? I want you so fuckin much it hurts." He confessed, I can tell his words are true.

I give a small smile in return.

"It's not that I don't want you…" I leaned forward, hovering over him.

I could see the hope in his eyes as I grinded into him letting him feel all of me. He whimpered in response grabbing a hold of my hips trying to bring me closer to kiss. I moved towards his ear instead of his mouth, grazing his skin with my lips as I spoke.

"…I'm afraid you'll regret this in the morning." I said.

"I thought I wouldn't remember this in the morning?" He challenged.

"Exactly, and don't you want to remember the first time you have sex with someone you care about?"

"Jazz, why can't you just go for it? I don't care about tomorrow I want you now. Edward voiced, pressing his lips to mine.

It felt fuckin great, his warm, wet tongue sloppily sliding around mine, his dick rubbing up against mine, causing great friction. However, his moves were weak and sluggish and his mouth had a strong alcoholic taste I could not ignore.

I broke away from his mouth unable to continue knowing he was drunk and not fully aware what he was doing.

"At least lay with me."

"That I can do." I said causing Edward to give the first smile of the night.

I moved to my side of the bed and wrapped my arms around Edward's waist. We were spooning just like the porno I had watched earlier except we weren't fucking. It amazed me how fast I had grown in just two weeks and I had Edward to thank for it.

Note: Sorry for the lack of updating, things are starting to pick up at work, which means less hours and energy to work on my stories. I will try to keep to my weekly updates but don't be surprise if there are a couple of times where it takes me a week and a half to two weeks to update. Please Review, I love to hear your thoughts. ;)