Brooke let the hot water soak her body and tried to clear her mind. The hot water was helping her with the soreness of her bones. Just putting a tiny bit of pressure on her leg made her flinch in pain. But she wouldn't let anyone help her. She would just have to deal with the pain. She couldn't let them see her weak. They had seen enough. Seeing Lucas was a breaking point for her. He was always the guy that she wanted to be with but would he really ever want her now that she was stripped from her innocence and purity?

As she got out of the shower she looked at herself in the mirror. Brooke was never cocky but she wasn't blind either. She knew that she was somewhat pretty, but looking at herself now, she saw nothing that was attractive. Her body was a colorful mess. Her lips were swollen and her eyes which normally showed such joy, only showed darkness now. She quickly threw on a hoodie and sweatpants and left the bathroom. She just wanted to go straight to the bedroom and keep away from everyone; however, someone had called her name as she exited the bathroom. She saw that it was one of the FBI agents; Jennifer was her name if she remembered correctly.

As Brooke walked towards her, she smiled and asked, "Would you like something to eat? I'm just about to make mac and cheese."

She was about to answer with a no, but Nathan beat her to it saying, "Yeah, she will have some, thanks."

The look in his eyes told her that there was no use in arguing, but she argued anyways.

"No thank you, I'm just going to go sleep."

She didn't want to eat. She wanted to let herself be numb. But the more she did normal things, the closer she felt to her breakdown. She was about to walk away when somebody grabbed her arm. She flinched at the contact and turned to see Nathan looking at her with determination in his eyes.

"Brooke, you're eating. You haven't eaten a proper meal in a long time, it's not healthy."

He then led her to the living room where Haley, Lucas, Dr. Reid and Agent Prentiss were sitting. The agents had clearly been discussing the case while Haley and Lucas listened intently. Nathan cleared his throat so that they would be aware of their presence and end their discussion.

Brooke refused to make eye contact with any of them, even if they were staring at her. She just went to go sit in an empty seat while she waited for her food. The faster she could eat, the faster she would be away from everyone.

Just then agent Morgan walked into the room.

"So I checked out the entire house and there are 4 bedrooms, each with two double beds. Looks like everyone's going to have to buddy up." He told everyone in the room and his eyes landed on Brooke. "I thought it would be safer for you to room with an agent, but if you're not comfortable, you can stay with Nathan."

She was scared to stay with the agents that she barely knew. What if they hurt her? But she definitely did not want to admit how much safer she felt with her brother. The thought of being in a room with a stranger made her panic. Seeing the scared and torn look on his sister's face, Nathan intervened, "I'd feel better if the two of us were in the same room." He saw the look of relief quickly come upon Brookes face, quickly replaced by an indifferent one.

Just then JJ, called out saying dinner was ready. Brooke flinched as she got up due to the pain in her leg. Lucas, noticing the look of pain on her face, touched her shoulder. "Let me help, Brooke." Without even answering, Brooke moved out of his grasp and walked to the table, where the food was all ready to be eaten.

The whole time Brooke was eating, she continued to feel everyone's eyes flicker towards her. She could sense their worry. She could sense their hurt. She could sense their anger. It was as if they were waiting for her to blow up. To start crying and telling them how she felt. But how could she tell them how she felt, when she felt nothing? Or at least that's what she wanted. In reality, all she felt was fear. Fear that her brother would be hurt. Fear that Haley would never look at her the same way again. Fear that she would never feel the way she used to feel for Lucas again. What she felt for Lucas may have driven her crazy, but at least it made her feel good.

She looked down at her food and realized that she had only eaten about two or three bites. She had just been playing around with it the whole time. She began to shovel it down quickly so that she could get away from everyone's looks. She had eaten it too fast because all of a sudden, she was overcome with a wave of nausea. She ran into the bathroom, kneeling over the toilet bowl and emptying the contents of her stomach. She then felt somebody hold back her hair and make soothing circles on her back. She flinched at first but then heard Haley's sympathetic voice telling her that it was okay. The tears began streaming down her face; she attempted to wipe them away. Finally feeling better, she was ready to be alone again.

"Haley, you could leave now, I'm okay." She just wanted to take another shower. Feeling dirty from the vomit and still from his touch.

"Brooke, I'm here for you, no matter what. You do know that, right?" Her face was so caring that she had to look away.

"I know, Haley, but like I said I'm fine." She finally looked up and saw the worry and frustration appear on Haley's face.

"Gosh, Brooke! I know you're not okay! We all know you're not okay! How could you be? You can't just pretend it didn't happen Brooke. Please just talk to me. Talk to any of us. Just let us help you." The desperation on Haley's face was evident and all Brooke wanted to do was cave, fall into Haley's arm, cry and tell her exactly what was going through her mind. But she couldn't. She didn't know what was stopping her, but she couldn't let the words comes out.

"Whatever Haley, I don't need to tell you anything, because like I said I'M FINE!" Her voice began to get louder. She was beginning to get frustrated, not with Haley, but with herself and how transparent she was letting herself be. "So could you leave? I need to take a shower."

Haley sighed. "Brooke, you just took one, just brush your teeth and I'll help you get to bed."

Haley was always motherly, more of a mother than her own mother sometimes. The thought just made Brooke cringe again. Her mother wasn't there. Even though her daughter had been kidnapped and raped, she didn't even show.

Haley seemed to have read her thoughts. "Brooke…" she said sympathetically as she took a step forward. Brooke just however stepped away.

"Haley, just go." Her voice was pleading making Haley unable to stand her ground.

"Okay," Haley said finally agreeing. "Let me know if you need anything."

Haley left the bathroom, closing the door behind her. She stood there for a couple of moments hearing Brooke whimpering. It broke her heart knowing that her best friend needed help but wouldn't accept it. She walked away after she heard the shower turn on.

When she went back into the dining table where everybody was still sitting waiting for her and Brooke. As she walked into the room they all looked up.

"Is she okay?" Reid asked her.

"No. She won't talk to me." She then looked at Nathan. "Your parents are assholes."

"I know, but why? What did they do?" Nathan asked.

"I went into momma Haley mode and I saw this look of pain on her face. It was obvious that she was thinking of Ice Queen." Momma Haley was what Brooke called Haley when she was being motherly and Ice Queen was what she and Brooke called Brooke's mother basically all the time.

After seeing the look of fury on Nathans face, she automatically regretted saying anything.

"Dammit," Nathan pounded his hand on the table. Hadn't enough been done to Brooke? Now just the thought of their parents caused her pain. He had already decided that when they all go home, that he was going to file for emancipation. It was Lucas's idea and after he had explained it to him, he didn't even have to think about it. He would get a job and an apartment and Brooke would live with him. He'd never let her out of his sight. He would make sure she was safe. Away from their horrible parents. Away from psycho's and away from any pain.

"Kid, calm down. I know you're angry with your parents but there's really nothing you could do right now." Morgan tried to calm the infuriated teenager. Nathan tried to listen but he was to enraged to really listen to what the agent was telling him.

"Nate, man, Brooke's dealing with enough, don't let her see you like this. You know how she is, she's going to be even more reluctant to talk to you because you know how she always considers herself a burden." Lucas's words seemed to take its affect on Nathan. Whenever Brooke was concerned he would always do what was best, even if it meant having to control his emotions, which was normally impossible for him.

They turned around as they heard Brooke slightly limping into the room. She went to grab a quick glass of water and went upstairs into her room without a word.

Brooke cringed almost every time she went up a step going up the stairs. It hurt so badly, but she couldn't stay around anyone at that moment. She went to the room that the agents had deemed hers and Nathans and laid on the best furthest from the door. As she laid down, her leg pain weakened and the soreness in her body felt a lot better.

She must have fallen asleep, because all of a sudden she was woken up by footsteps walking up the stairs. She got up quickly to see who it was. She peeked through the door to see Lucas walking into the bedroom next to her.

She went back to her bed, this time sitting down. She was overcome with the desire to take another shower. She still felt the dirt on her. She still felt her hands. The showers weren't getting rid of it. She could only think of one other thing that would. She needed to feel somebody else's touch.

She slowly got up and went into the room that Lucas was in.

"Luke?" She asked wanting to make sure that he was alone.

"Brooke…" He sounded surprised and confused. She hadn't willingly gone to talk to anybody until this point. "Is everything okay?"

"Yeah." She told him as she went over to the bed and straddled him.

"Brooke, what are you doing? You're clearly…" Lucas was cut of by Brooke's lips on his. She was kissing him desperately. Lucas just lightly pushed her off. This wasn't Brooke. This wasn't something she would do. She was just confused. He gently stroked her cheek. "You're not okay, Brooke. This isn't the way to handle things."

"Yes it is." With that, her lips were on his again and she began to unbutton his shirt, not getting too far before he pulled away once again.

"Brooke, please. This isn't you." He wanted her to talk to him. He wanted her to talk to anyone. He wanted her to be herself again. He knew it would be tough for her to go back to that person, but he'd do the best to get her back to that. He wasn't willing to do anything with her that she would regret.

Brooke automatically felt embarrassed for her actions. Of course he didn't want her. She was used. She was pathetic. She was no good. She got up from the bed.

"Hey…" Lucas went to grab her wrist, seeing the embarrassment on her face. She flinched at the contact. "It's okay. I get it, you were just trying to ease the pain."

All of a sudden Brooke was angry. Who did he think he was telling her what she was trying to do? He didn't know what she had been through!

"You know what Lucas, you don't know anything. So just leave me the hell alone. God dammit, I can't be here anymore." She felt like she was suffocating so she ran out of the room and down the stairs. Lucas was running down the stairs after her. Brooke was heading for the door. Lucas so immediately went to go stand in front of it.

"Get the hell out of my way Lucas." She was trying to sound menacing, but she just sounded desperate and pathetic. She grabbed the doorknob, but Lucas had grabbed her wrist.

"Brooke, we have to talk about this." He tried to reason her.

"We don't have to talk about anything. Now let me go!" At this point, everyone else had heard the yelling and walked into the room to see what was going on. Nathan saw Brookes hand on the doorknob.

"Brooke, what are you doing?" He was confused as to what was going on. Brooke had an angry look on her face and Lucas had a determined look on his.

"I can't be here anymore. I'm leaving" She knew that now Nathan was there, she had no chance of leaving. She was desperate to be away from everyone.

"What the hell do you mean you're leaving? Are you crazy, Brooke?" His voice came out a lot louder than he had intended to but he couldn't help it. There was a crazy psycho looking for her who wanted nothing more than to end her life and she was planning on going out by herself unprotected when there were plenty of people willing to protect her in that house.

"Brooke, come on, lets just go sit down and talk about everything." Lucas was determined to have her talk now after what had happened in the room before. He pulled on her wrist that he still had in his hand, trying to lead her to the living room.

"DON' TOUCH ME!" Brooke freaked out. "You had your opportunity! What was I not good enough? I get it now; you didn't want me all used! I disgust you, don't I?"

"Brooke, god, that's not it at all." Lucas's voice was pleading.

"Oh yeah? Cause normally when a girl literally throws themselves at a guy, they normally don't reject them unless they think they're disgusting." At this point, everyone realized what had happened. Nathan was angry. It took him less than 2 seconds to have his hands around Lucas's throat and against a wall.

"What the hell is she talking about?" Nathans voice was menacing.

"She came into my room, I tried to talk to her, next thing I know she's on me. I pulled away from her man, I promise. You heard what Brooke said, I didn't touch her. You know I'm not like that." Even though Nathan knew that the words that were coming out of Lucas's mouth were true, he couldn't step away.

"Listen, you need to just step away, Nathan." Agent Prentiss's voice caused Nathan to nod and step away. He then looked at Brooke who looked petrified and rooted to her spot. He looked at her sadly, taking her small hand into his own and then leading her to the couch. He put his arm around her as she squirmed, trying to get away from him. But he just held her tighter, refusing to let her go. Everyone was watching them. Lucas had a look of pain on his face, while Haley had tears streaming down her cheeks. All of the agents just looked at the two teenagers worryingly.

Brooke had finally given up and had fallen into her brothers chest, crying. He stroked her hair as he whispered comforting words into her ear. She cried until she had finally fallen asleep in Nathans arms.

He slowly picked her up, not wanting to wake her up and carried her up the stairs into the bedroom that the two of them would be sleeping in. He tucked her into the bed, kissed her on the forehead and walked back down the stairs.

He turned to Lucas. "Talk."

"Listen man, she came into my room when I was lying down, I was confused and asked her if she was okay. She said yeah and the next thing I know she's on top of me. I tried to stop her but the next thing I know her lips are on mine. I pulled her off of me and told her it wasn't right and it wasn't the way to handle things but she said it was and her lips were on mine again. I pushed her off of me again and she got embarrassed and angry and said she needed to get out and stormed out of the room. Nate man, you know I'd never cross that line with Brooke, especially not now. You're my best friend. I would never do that. I would never want to put her through something she would regret either. She was just trying to deal with things… I guess." Lucas's voice was pleading.

Nathan nodded. "Sorry about slamming you against the wall and chocking you and stuff. I'm just pissed, not at you, just in general."

Lucas nodded back at him, understanding what he was saying.

Haley looked at the two of them, knowing that she would have to ruin their little bromance moment.

"Kay, well I'm happy that your guys relationship is back on track but what are we going to do about Brooke? If she's not silent then she's crying and if she's not crying she's trying to make out with Lucas!" At this Lucas's eyes fell to the floor. "She won't tell us what she's thinking! How the hell do we help her if she won't talk to us?"

Haley knew that her sarcasm wasn't helping the situation but it was the only way for her to deal with everything.

"For god sakes, she 17 years old! She should not be having to go through this." Haley said this more to herself than anyone else. None of them should have to deal with something this tragic. They should have been having the best summer of their lives which was what they had initially planned before Brooke got the internship.

Agent Morgan was about to offer some sort of comfort to the young girl but the ringing of Nathans phone interrupted him. Nathan looked at his phone with a look of rage, a look that Dr. Spencer Reid had seen when the kidnapper had called using Brookes phone.

"Is it him again?"

"Yeah…" Nathan then answered the phone before any of the agents could prevent him. "What do you want?"

"Just wanted to know how my darling Brooke is doing. Does she miss me?" The maliciousness in his voice almost made Nathan whip the phone across the room.

"Listen up asshole, how about you show your face to me? Instead of going after defenseless girls, you go after somebody who's more your size? Or what are you too weak? Scared that you'll get your ass kicked? Because trust me when I say, if you ever cross my path, you won't walk away with a couple of bruises because you won't be able to walk at all." Nathans voice was relatively calm, but everyone was still able to hear the anger in his voice.

JJ being the motherly one that she was took a step toward him to try to get the phone away from him. He turned from her before she had the chance to grab it.

"Oh my my, you sure are Mr. Tough, aren't you? Let me speak to one of the agents." Nathan didn't want to do anything the asshole told him to, but he knew that it was best for one of the agents to deal with him.

"He want's to speak to one of you guys." He told the agents as he held out the phone for them. JJ being the closest took it.

"JJ, maybe me or Reid should take the phone…" Morgan was weary of letting JJ talk to the bastard. This guy had a thing for pretty girls, and JJ had dealt with her fair share of creeps.

"He's more likely to give us what we want if he talks to a woman." She then brought her ear to the phone. "Hello?"

"Well, well, hello Agent. Hear I thought they would have a man try to intimidate me. What's your name? You know mine, I think its best that I know yours."

"My name is Jennifer Jarreau and I work for the FBI. Paul, you seem like you're a smart guy; obviously you should know that calling is not the smartest move, why are you doing it? If you want to get caught, then you might as well just walk into the nearest police station now and turn yourself in, because one way or another, we will find you and you will be brought into custody."

"So you're the pretty blonde on the news telling everyone to look out for me?" He basically had ignored JJ's entire speech, just focusing on her name.

"Listen Paul, I'm not here to play games. If you turn yourself in, we could work out some sort of deal." JJ decided to just ignore him and get straight to the point. There was no point of dragging this on longer than it had to.

"You really think that's going to work on me, Jennifer? You're an FBI agent, shouldn't you be smarter than that?" His voice was condescending, speaking to her as if she was below him.

"I'm actually not an agent. I'm the liaison for BAU and don't you dare speak to me like that. I decided to talk to you because I thought maybe there was a possibility to see if deep down you were human at all, but clearly I was wrong. You're going after children! Do you realize that? Brooke is just a kid. Those other girls you went after were just kids. Nathan is just a kid! All you're doing is provoking him! So just tell us what the hell that you want? Because you can't be doing all of this for no reason!" Spencer was looking at JJ with a worried look, but she just shrugged it off. It wasn't in her nature to act like this with an UnSub, but she had had enough of watching these kids hurt because of the creep she was on the phone with.

"My, my Mrs Jarreau, aren't you a feisty one. But listen up, you will not find me. Not until I want to be found and definitely not before I get to Brooke. So you think you can hide, but we will find you!" With that, the phone went dead.

JJ let her mind reel. We? He had said we. Did that mean he was working with a partner?

"He's working with somebody." JJ told the people who surrounded her.

"What?" Prentiss asked with a confused face. "There was no sign that he had a partner."

"He said we. He said you think you can hide, but we will find you. I got him angry and he made a mistake." She was shocked of what had just been discovered, as were the people around her.

Morgan immediately after got on his phone to call Hotch and tell them what had just happened.

"So there's somebody else to be afraid of. Another person who's out to get Brooke." Haley thought out loud.

"Hales…" Lucas said sympathetically. Although there was nothing else he could say because she was right. It just another thing for Brooke to be afraid of.

"Don't Hales me Lucas! There's nothing you could say. Or anyone could say for that matter. The only thing that could fix this is going back before this happened when there was no internship, Brooke was Brooke, my favorite way to pass time was screwing with Peyton just to make Brooke feel better and my biggest issue was whether or not to tell Nathan I'm in love with him!" Haley's eyes suddenly widened as she realized what she had said amidst her ramble. "I'm going to sleep!" She said before running up stairs.

All they heard was the door slam. Even though the situation they were all in was awful, the agents couldn't help smile at the teenagers. These were the types of things they were supposed to be dealing with and it made them smile knowing that some part of them was still their normal teenage selves.

Nathan just looked at Lucas with a confused look. "Did I really just hear what I think I heard?"

Lucas couldn't help but smirk at his friend. "Looks like Haley James want's some Nathan action." He laughed and then yawned. "I'm going to go to sleep too. Don't worry Nate, I won't make a move on your girl." Lucas winked as he walked up the stairs into the room he was sharing with Haley.

"Looks like you've got some game with the girls, kid." Morgan said as he smirked at Nathan.

"I can't focus on that right now. Brookes my priority not some high school crush. Goodnight." Nathan who was still flustered by Haley's revelation went to join his sister and to finally sleep. Before climbing into his bed, he sat at the edge of Brooke's bed. Just to make sure that she was actually there. It still felt like all of a sudden she would just disappear. After a couple of moments, he finally climbed into his own bed.

"Goodnight Brookie."

Just before he was about to fall asleep he heard his sisters voice. "Goodnight Natey." It was a whisper that he had barely heard, but he heard it. With that he fell asleep with bit more hope.

I'm not even going to try to make excuses. I just suck. But I'm really trying to get back into writing. But I just couldn't think of anything to write. Recently was inspired by this season. (NATHAN LOOKS GOOD WITH A SHAVED HEAD, but then again, he's always been fine!) The whole Haley rambling thing just came to me while I was writing. Just wanted to show that they do have a lot to deal with, but they are still teenagers and things like crushes are still on their mind. Nate and Haley won't be focusing on it much though, they'll probably just ignore the confession because Brooke is too important. I started the newest chapter, should be done soon : ) And it will be up within the next week. This I promise you all. But seriously, SORRY. Hope I still have a couple of you around reading this!

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