Against Your Will

By: Kigen and Faraway Dawn

Because of my recent turning of Faraway Dawn into a Narutard; our love for NaruSasu, and the fact that there are few good Sasuke uke fics, I bribed Faraway Dawn into a roleplay. ... And this would be the twisted result. Guess who played who. Whichever reviewer gets it wins a prize. This is our practice rp. We haven't even started the serious one yet.

Disclaimer: We totally abused the curse seal in this rp. If Naruto was ours, this would be the result. Warning for sobbing Sasuke, cuddly Naruto, and overexcited Tsunade.

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Sasuke yawned softly as he woke up. Seeing Naruto sleeping, he smiled softly. The blond mumbled something about the light in sleep, but didn't wake. Sasuke watched him. There wasn't much else to do, and he didn't want to wake up Naruto.

After a while, Naruto opened his eyes slightly. "Stupid lights." Is it morning already?

"You've been muttering that in you sleep."

"Huh." Naruto looked at Sasuke. "Muttering in my sleep?"

Sasuke nodded.

"I wasn't too loud was I?"

Sasuke shook his head. "You were muttering."

"Yeah." I've been told I'm loud when I talk in my sleep though. Ah well, least I was quiet this time. He stretched slightly then looked around. Tsunade never kicked me out. Wonder why.

"Did you stay the whole night?"

"I think so. I don't remember Tsunade making me leave."

"Oh."

"Wonder why? She's been so insistent that I go home and get rest."

"You rested here." Sasuke pointed out.

Yeah, more than I've been resting at home. "Yeah, maybe that's why. I guess she figured there was no sense waking me up to make me leave."

Sasuke nodded, hand going up to rub his temples. His head hurt.

Naruto looked at Sasuke. He must have a headache. "Do you want me to get Tsunade?"

"It's okay. It's just a headache."

"You sure? She might be able to give you something for it?"

"It didn't help last time."

"Not at all?" Naruto asked.

Sasuke shook his head.

"Hm." Naruto thought. Well that sucks. That means he just has to suffer it.

Sasuke's headache faded a little after a while. "You don't have to stay here."

"I don't mind."

"Isn't it boring for you though?"

"Not really." Naruto shrugged.

"But I'm too tired to be good company."

"Yeah, but I don't mind."

"Okay." Sasuke didn't look convinced.

"Seriously." Naruto smiled. "What else do you really think I have to do around here?"

"You have other friends"

"Yeah, but all of them have been really suspicious of me lately. Always asking why I'm hanging around here. I'm running out of excuses since they aren't supposed to know you're here yet."

"Why not?"

"I think Tsunade wants to get that seal reversed and you recovered before anyone finds out you're here."

"Oh."

"Did you give it any more thought? Staying I mean?"

Sasuke looked into his lap. "I don't think I can..."

"Why not?"

"I betrayed the village and left for Orochimaru. I can't just come back."

"But if they really did just... just let you come back; really, why wouldn't you?"

"I wouldn't be forgiven as easily as you think."

"Well if you were, tell me really what is it that stops you from coming back?"

Sasuke's fingers twisted in the sheet. "I... I can't."

Naruto looked down.

"I'm sorry." Sasuke murmured.

"So, once you're better you're planning to just leave again?"

"They won't let me, and it'll be a while before I can." he was looking at it realistically.

Maybe it will be long enough to get you to agree to stay.

"I'm sorry." he repeated.

"Guess I'll just hope something changes your mind." Don't know why I keep saying stuff like that. Tsunade is probably going to blackmail me with all this in the future.

Sasuke shook his head. I can't go back to Orochimaru now, but I can't stay here either.

"You should at least give me a hint of what it would take to make you stay." I just know I'm going to regret saying this later. I can almost see the grin on Tsunade's face. I still can't figure for the life of me what has her grinning like that.

Sasuke bit his lip. "I don't think there's anything."

"Great." Naruto rubbed his head. "Well I'll figure something out I bet. I'm persistent and stubborn enough I think."

Sasuke shrugged. He didn't like the subject.

"Why do you want me to come back so badly?"

"This is where you belong, isn't it? It not here then where, right?"

"I can find somewhere else. I don't belong anywhere right now."

Naruto sighed. "Be as stubborn about it as you want I guess. You'll always belong here, got it?"

Sasuke nodded, even though he didn't believe it.

"So, would you go back to Orochimaru if you find a way to leave here?" Please say no, please say no.

The Uchiha bit his lip. "I can't go back to him without the curse seal."

"Can't go back or do you really not want to go back?"

"I can't go back. I don't know if I want to go back either though."

"Well that's good." At least he doesn't want to go rushing back.

"Would me going back to Orochimaru really be so bad?"

Naruto nodded. "It'd be worse than bad."

Sasuke looked at him. "Why?" he didn't quite understand.

Naruto started to count off on fingers. "Orochimaru is using you, obviously doesn't give a damn what happens to you, and didn't you say something about experiments? What were you talking about anyway?" He shuddered. "I don't like the sound of it."

Sasuke shrugged. "Kabuto's a medic nin and Orochimaru's interested in the sharingan."

"Yeah, yeah. I know that. But, what kind of experiments?" I get a bad feeling just thinking about it.

"I'm usually asleep when they do it."

"And you just let them?"

"I don't have much choice."

Great. Any one of those little 'experiments' might have caused the seal to react badly. Any one of those might be the reason the seal is killing him. He glanced around the room. Hope you guys heard that, since I know you're all watching.

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"Jiraiya..."

The toad sannin looked at Tsunade.

Tsunade's voice was utterly serious. "You know him better than I do. What kind of experiments would he have preformed?"

"Nothing good. Most would likely be to amplify the effect of the curse seal. I just know that a good number of those who have been experimented on by Orochimaru and Kabuto haven't lived to tell exactly what was done to them."

Tsunade's look darkened a bit, as she swore under her breath.

Jiraiya crossed his arms. "I don't like the idea of it, because if they really did something to the kid..." There's always a chance whatever they did will react badly to reversing the seal.

"As if they hadn't already done enough."

He sighed. "Tsunade, reversing the seal could make whatever they did react badly. I'm not so worried what it will do to him mentally now. If they messed around enough it could really do some damage, could even kill him."

"And if we do nothing; it really will kill him."

Jiraiya nodded. "I'm glad Sasuke isn't exactly aware of how bad this really is."

"Or Naruto."

Jiraiya gestured to the screen at Naruto's expression. "I think he's already aware of how bad this might be. Not to the same extent you and I are, but I think he's aware."

"Does this change your plans on how to reverse the seal at all?"

"Not really. There isn't a better way to go about it. We'll just have to be careful and ready."

Tsunade nodded. "This isn't getting any better."

"No." he held out the story. "But when this all turns out for the best it will makes this an even more entertaining read."

The hokage snatched it away. "Tell me if anything happens." she started reading.

Jiraiya nodded. "No problem."

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"Why are you so worried about it?" Sasuke asked.

"It didn't make sense that a seal could be killing you until you said that. Really it made me wonder what could make a seal get so much stronger; even with your sharingan. But what if one of those experiments caused the problem?"

"Orochimaru and Kabuto are smarter than that."

Naruto shook his head. "Well what if they made a mistake and didn't realize it?"

"They would have noticed sooner or later."

"Probably too late..."

"It doesn't change anything though. They're still going to reverse the seal."

Naruto nodded.

"I don't want them too." He bit his lip, body trembling slightly.

"It has to be reversed Sasuke."

"But..." his lip trembled. "That can kill me too. It can't just be undone. I won't be the same."

"But it has to be undone Sasuke. It won't kill you." It won't... "Yeah you'll be different afterward, but, but at least you won't die."

"I barely have any strength left, and this keeps taking more and more. How do I know it won't kill me?" his body was shaking.

"It won't. You'll recover your strength with time."

"It takes more every time. They don't plan on giving me any time."

He'll be alright though. He will be... He has to be.

"I want them to stop." Sasuke clutched his knees.

"But Sasuke, the seal will kill you if it isn't reversed."

"It'll kill me if it is."

Naruto sighed. Well, here we go again. Stubborn. But I guess he's got good reason to be worried.

After a pause, Sasuke asked, "When are they going to do it again?"

"Probably in a few days."

He sighed, biting his lip.

"Don't worry Sasuke. I promise you you'll be fine."

"You can't promise me that."

Darnit, being difficult again.

Sasuke was scared, though he hated it. He whimpered a little. "Your promise isn't enough."

Naruto looked at Sasuke. He's afraid...

Sasuke took a shaky breath rubbing his eyes. "I hate this."

"Hate what part of it?" All if it is starting to drive me nuts. I hate seeing him like this.

"I'm so... weak."

"You're not weak."

"I can't stop crying."

"That doesn't make you weak. You've got every right to be afraid right now."

"I haven't cried since, nii-san; since he..." Sasuke trailed off, crying softly.

Naruto bit his lip. Oh man. Again. Naruto reached out and wiped away a few tears. "Maybe you should then. Let it out, you know."

Sasuke cried a little harder. "I can't."

Naruto got up and hugged Sasuke. "Trust me, it will help."

The raven haired by clung to him, crying harder, shaking his head no.

Naruto gently rubbed Sasuke's back. Man, now what?

Sasuke cried into his shoulder, his sobs working to full out bawling.

Naruto rested his head lightly against Sasuke's. Completely forgetting about the cameras hidden around the room, he kissed Sasuke lightly on the forehead. "You can cry all you need to."

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Tsunade spat her tea out with a squeal, looking ready to explode.

Jiraiya blinked at the screen in shock. "Did, did he just... He did, didn't he?"

"They did!" she squealed, breath heaving.

The toad sannin looked at Tsunade. "Relax. It was just a little kiss." Geeze. All that from a little kiss on the forehead? What's she going to do when they kiss on the lips? He grinned. I'll have to set up cameras for that moment.

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Sasuke buried his face in Naruto's neck, sobbing. "Nar-Nar-" He was unable to speak, his sobs so loud.

Naruto sighed quietly and slowly rubbed Sasuke's back. "I know..."

Sasuke continued sobbing, eventually quieting to whimpers and hiccups. "Hate this." he whispered through sobs.

"I know, but it will be alright when it's all over."

Sasuke made a soft sound, burring his face in Naruto's neck, sniffling.

Normally I'd think I'd feel weird with Sasuke bawling all over me. He looked down at the raven haired boy. But really it's not too bad. This will do him some good, just letting it out.

Sasuke gradually calmed down. He pulled away to rub his eyes. "S'rry." he hiccuped.

"Don't worry about it."

"I shouldn't have."

"You needed to."

Sasuke wiped his eyes harder. "Don't need anything." he whimpered.

"You needed to get that out of your system." You need a lot of things.

"Never hurt me before." he wrapped his arms around himself insecurely.

"I know."

"Hate this." Sasuke's body still trembled. "I can't stop."

Naruto wrapped his arms around Sasuke again. "Try this. Listen to my breathing." he breathed slowly and deeply. "Just close your eyes and listen." It should help calm you down a bit.

Sasuke buried his head in Naruto's neck, whimpering. Slowly, far too slowly, he started calming down.

Naruto glanced down at Sasuke. Hey, it worked... Sorta.

After several long minutes, Sasuke calmed down, whimpering every so often/

Naruto rested his head lightly against Sasuke's again. Slowly, he rubbed his back. Well he's starting to calm down a lot. That's good. Not breathing as heavily anymore. If he keeps breaking down like this he's going to have chest pain tomorrow from all this. He whispered to Sasuke, "See, told you it would help a bit."

Sasuke nodded into Naruto's shoulder, clinging tightly to him.

Naruto held Sasuke a bit closer. "You should try to rest. You're wearing yourself out like this."

The Uchiha didn't answer, just snuggled his head closer. His breath started to even out.

Naruto listened to Sasuke's breathing. He's wiped out. He'll fall asleep soon I bet.

Soon, as the exhaustion set in, Sasuke was sleeping deeply. Hi hands were fisted in Naruto's jacket.

Naruto sighed slightly and glanced at where one of the cameras was. You guys happy yet? They're probably enjoying themselves. I don't know why they find this so amusing or entertaining. You'd think they were a bunch of teenage girls watching soap operas or something.

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Tsunade sat there with a big smile on her face.

Jiraiya glanced at Tsunade. "Your breathing finally back to normal after what Naruto said? You looked like you were going to pass out from hyperventilation."

"I'm fine." her grin did not falter.

"Let me guess; add it to the story?"

"I'm debating."

"Debating? I was half expecting you to give me a look that screams 'of course stupid.'"

"Why let the rest of the world know?"

"Hm." Jiraiya shrugged. "Denying others the girly squeals I swear I almost heard from you. How cruel."

"You heard nothing." Tsunade smiled.

"I heard plenty."

"What do you think of Sasuke's stability right now. It keeps getting worse." she changed the subject.

Jiraiya shrugged. "It's been a while since his own mind has had this level of control. It's to be expected for a while, but it worries me a bit; makes me more worried about what Kabuto and Orochimaru did. Reversing it should make him a bit mentally unstable but this. Yeah, this is a bit much."

"He really does know nothing about what's happening to him right now though. Assuming he's felt weak and helpless since his brother; having no idea of what we're doing to him has to be making it worse."

"I think you should try explaining everything to him. He's moving on schedule so far so I can give him a day or two extra this time to recover. He needs to know everything that's going on; everything."

"Including Naruto?"

Jiraiya shrugged. "I don't know. I just know that if he stays this mentally unstable reversing that seal is going to be harder work for me and more damaging for him. He needs to calm down completely, he needs to know what's going on, and it has to happen soon."

Tsunade sighed and nodded. "I'll explain everything to him once he wakes up. And if he doesn't listen to me, I'll summon Kakashi."

He nodded. "You think you guys can force him to listen and accept everything? Because it will make my work a lot easier."

"Probably not everything, but the more the better."

"As much as possible will be greatly appreciated."

Tsunade nodded. "If he gets worse, will his mental health be salvageable."

"Maybe... But I'd rather be safe than sorry."

"What are the chances of death?" Tsunade asked.

"If he remains unstable; high. Probably about an eighty percent chance."

"And mental death?" she went on.

"If he remains unstable..." Jiraiya looked at her.

"One hundred percent."

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You know the part where Naruto cradled Sasuke and told him to concentrate on his breathing? Well, while rping that line... I fangasmed. And to this day, Faraway Dawn will not let me live it down, to the point of mentioning it here. Tell us if you fangasmed reading that line too.

Thanks for reading and please review.

Ja min'na-san!