Living through Death

Chapter 14: Kurt Martin

Zack sat in the living room of the Suite, waiting for his dad to arrive. He doubted his dad would be able to do much. He didn't think his dad could do what Carey and Max failed to do. He didn't think anyone could help him, unless they told him Cody was back. Even now, a small part of Zack believed or more likely hoped that all this was a trick to get back at him for all the trick Zack played on Cody. Funnily enough, some of him hoped this was all a bad dream, but how could a dream hurt this much?

The door opened. Zack looked up, thinking it was Kurt, but Mr. Moseby came in. He walked past unnoticing Zack sitting on his left. Moseby had few words with Carey and then left, again unnoticing Zack, leaving the door open.

Carey walked out of the door and closing it behind her.

They must be doing something. Maybe he let her know dad's here, Zack thought. If it was true, Zack wasn't all as excited as he would've been. He remembered the days when they would hear about twice every year that Kurt was coming to visit, and they would literally jump up and down in excitement.

Those days were over. He knew that, and every time he thought of that, tears would roll down his cheeks.

The door opened again.

Again, Zack thought it was his dad, but it wasn't. It was Muriel. She went in to get the laundry. The door was left open. Zack found himself wishing someone would barge in and murder Zack on the spot and leave. Zack hardly thought life was worth living.

Muriel left the room and closed the door.

The door opened again. It was Arwin, there to fix the air conditioner broken in Carey's room. He didn't stay long. He had to leave sooner though. Was he that fast at fixing a broken AC? Maybe he left to get a screw driver or something, Zack thought quite correctly.

Once again the door opened. This time, Zack didn't look up thinking it was Esteban or someone. He didn't notice Carey coming in followed by Kurt. He too was silent for a bit, but for once someone turned and noticed Zack slumped on the chair, head down.

"C'mon buddy, it's time to go," Kurt said gently. "I'll bring you back in a month or so."

Zack forced himself up and faced Kurt. They kept their eyes on each other. After a while, Zack threw himself on Kurt's chest and sobbed. Why was Cody dead? Why did Zack have to suffer? Why?