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Jacob smiled at me and removed his shirt throwing it on the floor. I smiled as well, this felt exhilarating. I removed my shirt as well as all of my clothes and he did too. Soon we were lying down and kissing one and other like we couldn't get further fast enough and then he said something really weird, something I wouldn't expect to hear.

I mean "I love you" would have been fitting or perhaps something along the lines of "This is fun" but instead he touched my shoulder and said "Wake up Nessie." Soon his voice wasn't his anymore and the darkness around us was lighter. The voice was really my mothers and she was shaking me to get me awake. I was holding on to the pillow next to me tightly. That was when I realized it was all a dream.

My clothes were on the floor and I had been making out with my pillow. To make matters worse, my thoughts weren't safe since I was in La Push, where vampire powers didn't work, my dad heard every word and I was still very much human. Last night when mom had told me to just go to bed I had done so and the rest was a dream. I sighed, ready for whatever was coming for me.

"Nessie, what was that dream about?" She asked. "Your dad seems to be in shock."

I blushed wildly and sighed, if it were possible to die of embarrassment, that would happen to me at this moment. I almost wished it would. "Sex," I sighed. Oh God, I was going to die now, I knew it. I would have lied but there was no point, when you were a Cullen, there were no secrets.

"Oh, I see." Mom said. She looked as if she wanted to laugh but she didn't. She had no idea how lucky she was. Dad couldn't read her mind. My thoughts were the loudest thing in his head because he always listened to me closely. My life was just one big embarrassing moment. I stayed in trouble for my bad thoughts. It was unfair! Tears came to my eyes and I put my clothes back over my undergarments and laid down.

"Awe, Nessie its ok." Mom said. "I used to have dreams like that all the time when I was a human."

"Yea, but Grandpa didn't see them as you were having them." I cried. I was never safe; I knew the only option from now on was to not go to sleep. That was the only way I could help my dreams.

"Bella, you used to have dreams about becoming a monster and then having sex with me?" Dad asked, looking amused.

"Yes actually, quite often I might add." She said. "So don't be hard on Nessie, how would you like to be a teenage girl and have your father hearing your every thought." She sighed. "Edward, I think you should lay off Nessie, listen a little less carefully, she's been good all her life."

Dad and I exchanged meaningful glances; we both knew that was not true. I had lost control once. But only once…was that so bad? "I'm sorry daddy, I don't mean to have dreams like that, and I am not in control of my dreams, if it helps I just won't sleep anymore." I sighed small tears still falling. I just wanted to be normal. Whatever normal was…I wasn't anything, I wasn't human and I for sure wasn't a vampire. What was I?

I didn't fit in anywhere, no one at school wanted to be friends with me because of the whole predator prey response I caused in the humans and at home everyone was faster and stronger and didn't sleep. I was the fragile one at home, the one everyone had to take care of. I didn't like that.

"Nessie don't think that way, you fit in perfectly." Dad said. "I do love you; I want you to understand that, that is why I take these drastic measures to protect you." He explained.

"I know." I said. "I think I'm going to go and see Jacob…" I said. I really needed to talk to someone and dad wouldn't hear me in La Push and Jacob wouldn't let his thoughts leak. I ran all of the way there because it was just so much faster.

When I got there I knocked on the door of the Black's house. It was a cold day and the scent of bonfires mixed with salt water filled the air. I didn't smell werewolf though. That was my favorite scent, my family didn't like it but I loved it more than anything. I loved everything about Jacob more than anything.

"Hey Nessie, Jacob isn't home, he is out on patrol." Billy said. "You could come in for a while until he gets home or go out and find him." He smiled.

"Ok, I think I will go and find him." I said. "Thanks Billy."

"No problem kid," He smiled as I waved and ran off. I didn't care if people stared at me; I just wanted to get to Jake.

I followed his scent all of the way to the far side of the beach. He was there around a fire with some of the other pack members. Sam, Leah, Quill, Embry and Seth were all there. "Hey." I said coming up behind Jake and jumping on his back, they were all in wolf form but I knew him easily. His fur was so soft and warm. I laid my head down on his shoulder.

He got a tighter grip on me and sped off into the woods. I loved when he did that, it was exhilarating, being part human, I wasn't all that fast, I was faster than any human but not close to normal vampire or were wolf.

He set me down on a log and ran off far away. When he came back he was human. "Hey Babe." He smiled.

"Hello love," I smiled. The running almost made me forget about the stuff that had happened that morning. Almost.

"How are you?" he asked.

"Eh, better now that I'm with you." I smiled.

"What was not so good before?" He asked.

"Just dad and his annoying mind reading, the usual, you know how it is." I sighed.

"Yeah, believe me, your dad's power can get quite annoying, but the only reason he keeps such close tabs on you is because he loves you." He said.

"I know," I looked down. "But still I mean monitoring my dreams is uncalled for."

"It's ok," He smiled. "He can't monitor you here." He finished, kissing me lightly.

"It's wonderful this way." I said. "Let's go back to the fire, I'm chilly out here."

"Alright," He said picking me up and running that way again. By now everyone was back to being human. I smiled and said hello to everyone. No one really liked me. I was very out of place here. The friendliest was Seth, he was great. Leah was especially unfriendly. She really hated me and I had no idea why.

"So, how is everyone?" I asked. I was attempting to make conversation with everyone. I knew it was best to go soon though; it was just so great to be free of my dad's grip on my mind. Jacob ate dinner and chatted easily with everyone, trying to incorporate me into the conversations. I wasn't sure what was really going on since I wasn't incorporated in the pack's whole telepathy thing but I was sure it wasn't pleasant for Jacob.

"Nessie, you should eat something." Leah said glaring at me. "You are noting but skin and bone."

"I'm…not hungry, but thanks for the offer." I smiled. I knew she wasn't trying to be kind but I tried really hard to make things as easy for Jake as possible.

"You look like a skeleton or something, which one are you Mary Kate or Ashley?"

"Leah, could you lay off?" Seth asked. "She has been nothing but nice to you her entire life."

"Seth, its fine, really." I said.

"How long is that like a month now?" She asked.

"Um…Jake…I think I will head home now…" I said. This was just not working I could see I wasn't wanted here.

"I will go with you Nessie, bye everyone, Leah." He said. I could see there was more added in his thoughts to her but it wasn't out loud.

"Bye everyone." I smiled waving. "It was nice seeing you all." I added, really only talking to Seth, he was so sweet, like a big brother.

"I am really sorry about them…" Jake said. "Leah is just mad because you have me and she doesn't…" He admitted.

"Wait. Hold on. What??" I asked.

"Never mind…I will take you home." He said.

What the heck?

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