LOVE LOCKDOWN

By: Animecutee13

CHAPTER 12: Where does this put us exactly?

Coz when tonight she holds you tight.. You wonder if this fantasy is right. Coz when reality comes to play, you realize you couldn't make her stay. Hey Daydreamer, you gotta be prepared to leave her in your fantasy.. Coz when it's over, you gotta make sure that it's you who'll be with her.. Oh you could be her soldier, her knight in shining armor.. I'm sure you wanna make her feel how much you love her and you wish to God that she can see the world in your eyes. So she can realize that she's the girl in your mind and you don't mind if you don't make it out alive.. Coz you knew right from the start that she's such a boy killer.. –Hey Daydreamer.

~ I'm in trouble.. I'm an addict.. I'm addicted to this girl.. She's got my heart tied in a knot, and my stomach in a whirl. But even worse I can't stop calling her, she's all I want and more.. I mean damn, what's not to adore? –Trouble.

{N}

The air-conditioning system was now humming again. But I didn't feel the comforter over me anymore. I cracked one eye open after I felt something heavy move on my bare chest.

Holy.

CRAP.

There's a beautiful young woman snuggling on my abs.

Oh. It's just her.

This idiot practically made me a hotdog pillow, tch. I'm hot, yeah. But I'm definitely not a dog. Her wavy hair was spread across the bed like some orange art. Her body was on my torso, and she was facing me, she was still sleeping. How the hell did she get in that position?

I remember our whole rendezvous last night. We just went apeshit in the heat of the moment. I still can't believe she responded that way. Of course, the entire female population would react that way, but I thought of her as different. Could it be.. that she likes me now? .. Wait no, love I mean. 'Cause I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I tugged down the shirt I lent her last night which was hiking up. She was breathing peacefully on my left arm. I smiled as my body took in her soft heartbeats. I sighed and stretched my head back on the huge pillow.

This feeling, is just. Unexplainable. I feel, so giddy (and I barely feel like that, ever) but relaxed; I feel powerful like I could face anything but still in control; I feel like the most arrogant man on this planet but still humble; I feel strong but also so weak.. Ugh, I feel so changed.

I felt a sudden heat on my cheeks when the klutz rolled over and was now face down her tummy on my tummy, snoring softly. I tugged her shirt down again. What is wrong with me? Tugging her shirt down like that. A tiny voice answered in my head, maybe because you respect her. Well maybe I do. I ….

"Ugh." An annoyed moan escaped from her lips as she lifted that pretty little head of hers. Her eyes were still closed. "I can't breathe." She sat up and rubbed her eyes.

"Well you were facedown. Do you expect your nostrils to bore a whole through my mattress?" I said in a are-you-stupid-tone.

She squinted, her eyes on me and pointed her finger, "Stop being such a smartass." Her hair was a beautiful mess cascading along her shoulders. "Did you do anything to me?"

"No."

"Well that's good." She stood up and finally opened up her eyes fully. Did she remember last night? Of course she did. She wasn't drunk in any way.

There was silence. And it was hella awkward. We just stared at each other for a full minute then we got up in the same time. And even looked at each other in the same time. Then turned away at the same time. God. It was so freakin' awkward. More awkward than Ruka's pink polka dotted boxers I saw one time peeking out of his pants. Weirdo. And then we went our separate ways. Like nothing happened last night.

{Narrator}

It seems that our Mikan and Natsume are off to the awkward stage. They're aware that their feeling some strange things towards each other. Their emotions are finally perfectly in time with each other, and it sure is awkward.

Meanwhile, Ruka and Hotaru had gotten home the previous evening fine. Woke up fine. And had breakfast just fine. Until Hotaru had to break the silence and just ask:

"Are we together?" She stopped Ruka from coming out of the screen door. She held the door handle preventing him from going out.

"What are you talking about?" He said nonchalantly as he rolled up his sleeves revealing his biceps.

"Are we together, you know, together together, Adam and Eve, Elena and Stefan, Hera and Zeus, Lois and Clark. Etcetera." She raised her hands exasperatedly.

"Well what do you think?" He said reluctantly.

"I think we are together." Hotaru nodded as if she totally agreed with herself. "We've been through a lot already."

"So you consider.. Picking you up at the airport, arguing with you the whole way, kissing me rather forcibly, blackmailing me to not call you a bitch, failing at cooking eggs, singing for me on stage, and then a kiss, a lot?" Ruka leaned on the door jamb.

"Hey. There are more than two moments so it's plural. And it's not only a kiss, it's the kiss." Hotaru crossed her arms and stared him off with her amethyst orbs.

"Okay. Whatever you say." He shrugged and pried her hand off the handle but she wouldn't budge.

"What's your problem, bitch?" Hotaru snapped. "Just like that? Why aren't you your gay self anymore?"

"Who you calling bitch, bitch?" Ruka snapped his fingers in front of her. "Well it seems that what you want, what you get, so what's the point in contradicting your decisions?" Ruka frowned and rolled his eyes like a kid not being able to go to the amusement park with his friends.

"Is that it? Ugh." Hotaru sighed. "Okay, for this relationship to work out we're going to be equal. There will be days, we'll do whatever you want, and there will be days of course, that I'll be the commander. Fun right?" She clasped her hands closer to her chest and smiled.

"Eww." Ruka grinned and crossed his arms.

"Eww?" Hotaru barked menacingly.

"I meant 'Hmmm.'" He looked down on her and narrowed his eyes, as if thinking deeply. And then he said, as if it was a tongue twister, "Fine-I-agree-but-today's-my-day!" He picked Hotaru up, bridal style, and they ran towards the barn, with Hotaru hitting his arm and shrieking I never agreed that it was YOUR dayyy!

When they got there, Ruka put her down and locked the barn door.

"For us to have a good relationship," he mocked Hotaru and had an evil grin on his face, "You will clean the barn with me!"

"WHAT? Ewww!" Hotaru protested as she tried to unlock the barn door.

"Stop trying to open the door already, you're too weak to lift the lock." Ruka looked amused as he sat on a pile of hay. "The rake, dustpan, broom, and pail of water are over there near the horse."

Instead of obeying, Hotaru walked towards him. "Wow. You're looking hot sitting on a haystack." She joked.

Ruka blushed, "Just go get the friggin' cleaning materials!"

"Yeah, yeah. I will." She grinned evilly and sat on his lap, "I just wanna do this first." She planted a kiss on his lips and was going to stand up when Ruka pulled her back down and kissed her some more.

Hotaru broke the kiss, and noticed every single animal was silent and looking at them. "I better go get those cleaning materials."

…

It's Sunday morning. It had been exactly 3 days since Mikan and Natsume spoke to each other properly, without any uncomfortable and awkward silence. They both just woke up, Mikan rising from the couch in the living room, and Natsume from his royal bed. Natsume, towel in hand eyes half closed, entered the bathroom, while Mikan was peeing.

{M}

Pshhhhh. This is relaxing. I was still half asleep.

"Damn it!"Natsume angrily stormed out of the bathroom, his towel around his shoulders. Shit. Did he see me? Of course. Why would he cuss then? Ugh. Things have been so off between us.. Ever since that night. I quickly pulled up the boxers he lent me and was about to exit.

"That's it. Stay."He extended his arm so against the door jamb so I couldn't get out. His eyes locked on mine, and he looked serious. I glanced at the back door of the bathroom and ran towards it.

"Hey!" He caught my arm and swung me around to face him. "We need to talk," he said pleadingly. He looked like he couldn't hold a secret any longer, his face was twisted in some kind of way I couldn't explain, mixed emotions.

"What's there to talk about? We're doing fine." I averted my gaze from his, and tried to pull my hand, no use.

"We're not doing fine, you idiot!" He sounded enraged, he let go of my hand and ran his fingers through his messy raven hair. His crimson eyes then went back to me again it was unusually warm, which is weird, because it was normally cold. "Ever since that night."

"I don't know what you're talking about—" I started as I turned around.

"Shut up." He cut me off, "SIT DOWN."

I quickly sat on the toilet out of fear. He paced around the bathroom, his towel swinging along with him. Why does he seem so tensed up?

"Natsume, what's wrong?" I said softly. He stopped and came towards me. "The way we're acting. Something's changed."

"Nothing's changed."

"Are you ignorant or something?"

I stayed silent, he crouched in front of me his hands on my knees. It made me blush so easily, even when he was just approaching, I could myself heat up.. What's wrong with me?

"Natsume.." My brows creased with worry.

"We like each other. Isn't it obvious enough already?" His crimson orbs searched my eyes, looking for a crack, saying yeah I like you too.. But I didn't allow myself. It was wrong. We shouldn't like each other.

"No. We don't like each other." I replied in a normal tone, biting my tongue in the process for saying something rather contradicting..

"I like you. I admit it, and I'm not afraid that I said that. I fell hard for you. Just because of this shitty lockdown.. But because of it, I got to know you." His eyes were pleading, and his warm hands were now wrapped around mine. What do I do? I feel like I want to hug him and just let go of myself for a while. Darn it. But I shouldn't.

"Natsume.. You don't like me, please. Me? I'm just your ex-maid.You're only hallucinating or something because you haven't been seeing any other girls for a long time. You think you like me because you're stuck with me. And I don't like you. So no.. We don't like each other okay?" My façade was breaking, I could feel it, my voice even cracked. I shouldn't fall for this handsome jerk in front of me. We're from two different worlds.. Hell.. Fromtwo different universes is more like it!

"Then why did you kiss me if you're so sure you don't like me?" His eyes were burning me.

"What, is there a rule to never kiss a guy you don't have feelings for?" I scoffed and looked away again. Can he just please drop the act. He doesn't even call me by my name. He calls me idiot, klutz, dimwit, moron.. and stuff like that. It's not romantic, at all.

"There's always emotion in everything you do, Mikan Sakura." My head snapped towards his direction. He actually said my name. Is he some kind of mindreader?

"Are you some kind of psychologist now? Tch." I frowned at him, "Natsume. You need to just cut the crap, because whatever happens inside your damn mansion is just staying here, I've watched stories like this in movies. It's like a fling. Or whatever. When I leave, we're just going to forget anything that happened. Just like that. Can't you see that? " I didn't realize that I was almost shouting.

"Mikan. I like you. What the heck is your problem and you can't just accept that?" He shouted back. Lol. This is getting funny.

"Because, we CAN'T like each other!" I gave an exasperated sigh.

"Yes we can, damn it. Get it through that thick head of yours." He slammed the wall beside me.

"Sure. Tell me you like me then insult me? Nice, Natsume. Charming." I slammed it too.

He scowled and stood up. "You know what—"

"No, sorry I don't know—"

"Shut it."

".."

" This is the first time I had this overly complex feeling.. hell, 3 days ago, I wouldn't have even concluded that I liked you. I feel fucking giddy because I have you around here, but also relaxed ; I feel powerful like I could face anything but still in control because you're my limit; I feel like the most arrogant man on this planet but still humble because I know you're just going to tell me I'm such a douchebag; I feel strong but also so weak because you balanced me in every way.. You changed me. So I don't care if people make up scandals or whatever the fuck they want, because you are going to be my girlfriend, you're inside my house, so it's my rules.." He stepped towards me again then cradled my face in his hands. "Do you understand now?" He left me speechless. His words were chosen perfectly, and yes, I would call him douchebag. It's what I called him when we first met. The wall I created just crumbled down, and I smiled automatically, with love light in my eyes. I gave in..

"I like you too." I stood up and wrapped my arms around his neck and laughed. "You happy now?"

"Very." He smirked. And then he kissed me senseless.

Hi! Animecutee13 here! Sorry for the late update. :) Hope you guys liked this one. This is for May Madness! LOL. And hey, if you have a facebook, add me up! Search Ren Briel. Haha. And there's this awesome group in FB for GA authors, feel free to join! Thank you for reading, my darling readers. REVIEW! :D Xoxo, R.