Hello everyone! Sorry it took me so long to update but this week has kicked my ass. I had choir rehearsals and a BIG performance today! AHHH! Well, anyways I wanted to tell you that I should be able to update like I normally do next week. Also I wanted to say thank you to you guys for all the support and all of your lovely reviews. They touch my heart :-) And I also have been thinking about other Kogan story ideas because sadly this one will be coming to an end soon.
Oh, can you show some love to my One-shot stories called Big Time Mariah Carey One-Shots because I'm taking request over there peeps and I wrote another smut of Kogan goodness. lolz
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Chapter 14
Something Doesn't Add Up
'It was all a lie. Everything!' Logan thought to himself as he continued to run away from the scene he just witness. Now that he was out of their vision, he let his tears fall freely. The smart boy wished he could be stronger at the moment, instead of crying over someone who hurt him. He was supposed to be better than crying. Logan thought he should be used to it by now, getting use to pain and things not working out the way he planned. But this hurt so much more than anything before. Surprisingly, more than when he was Wayne's rag doll, and punching bag mixed into one.
He came to a realization that he's sick of trying. Sick of hoping and thinking that he could be loved. That there is a happy ending for him, when it reality, no one truly gets a happy ending unless their lucky and Logan's life is anything but. Hoping for the dream love and genuine feelings. A real love. But now Logan's just done wishing for a fantasy.
The small teen was running to the point that he had no idea where he was going, but he was still at school. Kendall was trying his hardest to catch up to the emotional boy. Finally, he caught up with Logan and pulled on the boy's shoulder, turning him around.
"Logan! That was not at ALL what it looked like! Jo, she-" Kendall tried to get out but Logan cut him off.
"I don't want to hear it. How many other people have you ran after and told the same thing to? I should have seen this coming. You were too good to be true and now it all makes sense... Jo?," Logan let out a sad chuckle, and more tears formed. "Jo, of all people. I can't..." He shook his head and bit his bottom lip, "I don't ever want to talk to you again." Logan finished, his eyes guarded, as he peered into green eyes.
Kendall was shaking his head no, furiously. "Logie!-"
"Don't call me that ever again. You don't get that privilege." Logan said, eyes as cold as stones. Hearing Kendall call him Logie after seeing the truth brought him great abhorrence for the taller teen in front of him and now his sorrow was turning into rage. He wanted to slap Kendall, wanted to make the other teen hurt as much as he did in that moment. But physical pain wouldn't be enough. This hurt he felt in him, couldn't amount to any slap or punch. This was deeper.
However, he didn't realize that Kendall was hurt. Hurt at seeing Logan, his Logan, angry at him like this and not listening to a word he's trying to say. The green-eyed teen's heart ached as he watched Logan transform into a person he had never seen before. Kendall was beyond frustrated that the smart teen wouldn't even give him the benefit of the doubt. Like after all this time they were together, and gotten to know one another, that Logan could think Kendall would do this. That made the green-eyed teen angry himself.
"Why would I throw away my chance of being with you? God! You're so blind! How many times do I have to say I've had these stupid feelings for you for a long time and that I was so elated when I got my chance with you! Don't cut me off again! It's my turn to speak!" Kendall yelled when Logan was about to interrupt him again, "During the time that we have gotten together, I have been so happy and you have too. But after seeing that whole scam you'd believe I'd do something like that to you. That I'd hurt you like that. Well, you know what? If you can actually be stupid enough to fall for that then maybe this wasn't even meant to be in the first place." Kendall finished, instantly regretting his last words as he saw Logan's eyes start to water again.
The smaller male ran his fingers through his hair and let out a shaky breath. "Maybe you're right..." Kendall looked at him hopeful. Hoping that he'd say that he was right about believing the whole situation with Jo and they'd be alright because he trusted Kendall. But the next words Logan uttered crushed any of his faith. "This wasn't meant to be and I don't want to talk to you ever again." And with that Logan left from the hallway. Leaving a heartbroken Kendall.
Wiping off the wetness from his pale and flushed face, Logan made it back to the lunch table. He needed to talk to his best friends. Thoughts and emotions running through his mind. Was Kendall right and he was stupid enough to believe that he'd do this to him? It could all be a plot... Jo had said that she was planning something. But the blonde could have just said that because that's what he told Kendall she had said before.
He continued his walk at a slow pace. Not having enough energy or strength to walk really at all. Logan honestly wanted to go home and cry but decided not to, in fear of looking defeated. Which is how he absolutely felt. His heart felt like a wound was reopen and this time nothing could stitch it back together. This was depression at its finest.
"It's kinda sad you had to find out about me and Kenny this way." Said a familiar voice next to him. Turning his head, Logan was face to face with Jo and the girl had a sadistic smile on her face as she looked at him with amused eyes.
Not even having enough energy to fight with her, he just looked at Jo with a sad, blank expression and let out a sigh. Jo looked at him and for half a second, felt the tiniest ounce of remorse at what she did. But it quickly dispersed as she reveled in the fact that Kendall wouldn't be with him or anyone else as long as she was around.
"Jo, what do you want?" Logan sighed out. It was like everything was taking so much effort right now. Talking, walking and thinking. Everything. His face shared no emotions or a sense that he had any feelings at all as he looked at Jo. But his puffy red eyes, tinged pink and slightly wet cheeks gave him away, that he was suffering through pain. Logan's posture was turned into itself and he hugged his own chest with his arms.
"To tell you that I'm sorry I had to play a little dirty to get what I wanted. But you know, all's far in love and war, right? I'm just surprised it took you this long to find out yourself, seeing as how smart you are..." Jo said, looking at Logan like she was being honest.
"What do you mean?... How long has this been going on behind my back?" Logan asked, curiosity sparking in his once dull brown eyes. He bit on his lip, waiting for Jo's answer.
"Since last week. And man is he good. But you probably knew that." The blonde girl lied some more.
Last week... The week that Kendall was acting very weird and distance with Logan. The week he hardly saw that blonde and when he did it was always brief. The smart boy's throat went dry and his legs became shaky under his own weight as he processed all of this information. It all made sense now. 'Good...' Logan pondered at Jo's words.
"Good?" He choked out, tears threatening his eyes again. He turned his attention to the ground, missing the look of hesitation that rose on Jo's face as he contemplated kicking Logan down even more. The boy looked like a hurt puppy when he was upset and it was shockingly getting to her and she wondered if maybe she should be doing this to a boy who has already been through so much. But the blonde girl quickly changed her demeanor back as she thought about her objective. But is it really worth it?
"Oh, you know good... At sex. Like, really good. The best I've ever had." She said, watching Logan completely fall apart. The tears escaped his brown eyes and his lip trembled. Then Jo watched as Logan started to walk again at a fast pace and for the first time in all the scams she's ever pulled (and there's a lot), she felt a little guilty.
The usual lunch table was so wrapped up into one another conversations that they didn't even notice that Logan was coming over. Or that he looked like a mess. Anyone who saw him would have seen all how destroyed Logan looked.
He was almost to the table of his talking friends when suddenly, someone pulled on his shoulder. Making the smart boy turn around and see that Kendall was looking at him again. "Logan, I didn't mean what I said before. I want us to be together. Please." The blonde boy said, trying to come closer to hug the younger boy who was still crying. Instead he was pushed away, rather harshly, and Logan had a look in his eyes that Kendall had never seen before.
"Busy with work and stuff, huh?!" Logan yelled, gaining the attention from his friends and other nosy people. "You're good. You're so good. Well, sex isn't the only thing you're good at. You, Kendall, are good at fooling people. I-I I thought you were really something special! And so now you regret what you said? Why do you regret it Kendall? Because maybe the rumors are true and you still think I'm dumb enough to get back with you, then continue to fall for you and sleep with you. Only to have you hurt me again?
'I may not have been completely honest when I said I don't ever want you to talk to me again. But now I mean it because I can't even look at you anymore!" Logan yelled, not caring about the scene that were causing and started backed away from Kendall. But the taller teen wasn't having this, he wanted to know why Logan was so much more upset than before. What could have happen from the short time span the brown-eyed boy ran off?
"Logan baby, what's wrong? I have no idea what you're talking about." Kendall spoke calmly, trying to defuse the situation a bit, but to no prevail because Logan only got more angry with the nickname.
"Don't! Just don't. Leave me alone!" Logan said as he walked away from Kendall.
After seeing Logan like that, Kendall knew that there was no doubt that Logan being that upset had to do with Jo. Every time the smart boy has blew up, it has been because of her. So she must have said something to him and he needed to talk to her and set her straight. This whole situation was getting way out of hand.
As the smart teen kept going in the direction of his group of friends, he dried his eyes and tried to stop crying all together. To Logan, he shouldn't be crying and this upset. He and Kendall were only a thing for three weeks. But if the smart teen were to really be honest with himself, it felt like so much longer than that and maybe that's why, somehow this hurt so much more than anything else.
Maybe it wouldn't hurt this much if it was someone else Kendall was messing around with because knowing it was Jo really broke something inside Logan. This was the girl who made him feel like Wayne did, the girl who was cold to him just because she wanted his boyfriend... ex-boyfriend. Why her of all people?
Letting out a growl of frustration, he now stood in front of his table. Every one of his and some of Kendall's friends were looking at him with worried eyes. He was about to say he wanted to talk to Camille and James but the lunch bell had rung right as he opened his mouth to do so. However, as his friends started to stand up and leave, James and Camille stayed where they were, waiting patiently for Logan to talk still.
"I'm going home." Logan's voice was raw as he choked out his sentence after the others departed, sending him sympathetic smiles. Trying his hardest not to fall apart again, he accepted them with a small head nod as they left. James and Camille looked at each other with matched concern and confusion. Logan was fine at the beginning of lunch, but now he looked like a train wreck.
"Logie, what's wrong?" Camille asked in a nurturing voice, she stood up and rubbed his back soothingly. James standing near the two as well.
"I-I-I don't want to talk about it here. Can you guys come home with me?" Logan asked as a single tear fell from his eye.
"Of course." James answered for the both of them and they decided on taking James's car so he wouldn't have to leave it at school. In the car, Camille held Logan in the backseat as he cried, not being able to stop the tears again. James was so confused. Logan was fine this morning. Aside from being a bit shaky from his dream last night, he seemed fine. Something just didn't add up.
The house was empty due to Logan's parents still being at work, so this was convenient. They walked inside in a sort of haze. Wondering what exactly to do for their broken friend.
Once they all settled down in Logan's room, Cami and James waited patiently for Logan to speak his piece. Although the smart boy just had a miserable look on his face and like he wasn't going to talk for a while. But he cleared his throat and the other two sat up a little more.
"Kendall, he..." Logan let out a whimper as he tried to finish his sentence. "He cheated on me with Jo. I caught them kissing an-and Kendall saw me. But I ran away, I couldn't... Jo? I-I'm so... I can't understand..." Logan stuttered out, he eyes fixated on something on the wall and his vision was a little blurred from all the crying the smart boy did.
Camille was having a hard time trying to understand what Logan was telling her. She got the part about Kendall cheating, but that's the part that doesn't make sense. Every time she was around the blonde, all he talked about was Logan and how great he was, so to her this just seemed ludicrous.
James on the other hand, was furious. He trusted Kendall with his friend and the blonde said he'd never hurt Logan but then he goes and does this... and with Jo! The one person who made it their mission to hurt Logan in any way possible. The hazel-eyed teen wanted to find Kendall and beat him down. However, instead he settled for wrapping an arm around Logan's shoulders, trying to comfort his friend.
"Wait, what is the full story? Because I feel like there are a lot of details missing..." The dramatic girl said, trying to put these puzzle pieces together because some didn't seem to fit. Logan looked at her and let out a deep breath. Closing his brown eyes, seeing today's events passed over them and feeling drained.
"Someone told me Kendall wanted me to meet him in room 234, you know the old abandoned room. But when I got there Kendall and Jo were kissing and as soon as Kendall realized I was there he pulled away, and I ran away but he followed me and said that I was stupid if I thought he'd do this to me and that maybe we weren't meant to be. But I know what I saw! So I told him that maybe we weren't suppose to be together. Then I walked away." Logan said, shaking his head slowly while rubbing his face. He was so done with this day and all of today's events. James stood up and started pacing around Logan's room as he listened to the smart boy. Feeling his anger reach it's limits.
However, the brown-haired girl had even more questions. Like, who was the dude that told Logan Kendall wanted to see him and if the blonde was really cheating, why would he tell someone to tell Logan to meet him when he's having an affair? This really didn't add up.
"Do you know who it was that told you Kendall wanted to meet you?" She asked. The two boys looked at her with a shared looked of confusion. Logan shook his head no and continued on in his self-pity.
"Well, did anything else happen today? What was that fight outside we saw at the table?" With much hesitance, Camille asked. Her curiosity had a thirst now, that needed to be quenched. She needed to solve this and possibly help both Logan and Kendall because the more she learned, the more she felt that Kendall was innocent from all of these accusations.
The smart boy was confused about these questions and what their importance was to Camille. Every time he talked about this, his heart would yearned and the more he felt like an idiot for not realizing Kendall was stepping out on him. Rolling his tired eyes and letting out a sigh, he looked at Camille with a dull look.
"After Kendall ran after me and tried to say that what I saw was a lie, I ran into Jo and she told me that her and Kendall had sex. A-and this ha-ad been going on all last week! The week he said he was busy with work and school AND OTHER BULLSHIT! Gosh, I feel so stupid!
'That's when I decided to go home and talk to you guys but of course Kendall would try to lie some more. Saying he didn't mean what he said and that he wants me. Acting confused when I yelled at him about what Jo told me... I should have said no. I shouldn't have agreed to go on a date with him because he turned out to be a fucking jerk!" Logan finished, his throat feeling sore from all the yelling he's been doing today but he can't find it in him to care. Everything in his body felt hurt, he felt an ache pulsating through his head, throat, chest and legs.
Camille sat their, watching her friend pull the covers over his body. Pondering every thing Logan had told her. Overall, she felt lost. But Camille knew that she was going to have to investigate. The dramatic girl would tell James to help her but he seemed too murderess right now, to help her.
"You guys, I'm going to sleep... You can stay if you want but I just need to clear my thoughts and sleep seems tempting now." Logan said, feeling his exhaustion kick on as he rested his head on the pillow, curling up more under his bedspread.
"Aright, I guess I'll leave. I have a game anyway... Camille you coming?" James, who had been quiet the whole time, asked. She turned to him and nodded. It was probably best if they left Logan alone now. So they made their departure.
