Title: Define Ok - Chapter 14
Chapter: Chapter 14
Rating: M
Summary: You will have to read to find out
Characters: Luke, Noah, Alison, Lilly, Holden
Genre: AU
Warnings:
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Luke drove home, to he's parents place. He had cried his lungs out until he could cry no more. He could not believe that Noah thought so little of him not to even realise that he had only gone to get food and not leave him because of the stupid MS.
He just could not understand why Noah had changed so much. It hurt him to see Noah be so distant and cold and then himself almost become the same. But he had to; he had to become that to hopefully and finally teach Noah a lesson.
Finally make him see that what he had in front him was threatening to finally leave if he's attitude didn't change soon.
He drove into the drive way of he's parents house as he turned off the motor to he's vehicle. At first he wondered if he should get out of the car and speak to his parents and get ready to explain what was going on or to just go home and hope that things might have changed overnight, but knowing Noah and the way he had been over the last couple of days, that would not be the case.
Finally deciding the first option, he got out of the car and walked up to the front door and sighed. Did he really want a lecture about giving up on Noah from he's parents when that all Noah wanted to with him – give up?
He was still deciding when all of a sudden the door in front h=of him opened up with his mom standing right in front of him, bringing him into a hug.
This caught Luke off he's guard as he stood there totally surprised.
"Oh my poor baby…. Alison just told us what Noah just did. That boy really has some issues that he needs to work and begin to trust he's own partner. How are you going?" she asked him as he's father, Holden stood by Lilly's side, with he's hand on her shoulder looking at Luke with interest.
"Well I dunno how I feel I suppose. It's all just a bit of a blur and shock I have to say. I just have to say that …I…I can't believe Noah would do this to us…again after…after everything we have been through…I just….I don't get it" Luke said chocking back tears as Holden went over to hold he's son.
He hated seeing Luke so upset. In some ways he had kind of known what Noah might have been trying to do but to make the decision without speaking to your loved one does never go down good in anyway you think about it.
In some ways he just wished he could lift the burden on both Luke and Noah and take away all their problems so they could go back to the times where they were happy and carefree adults who where desperately in love with one another.
"Luke I just wish there was something your mother and I could do to help you and to help Noah as well both understand what is happening and going on. Make you both realise what is important in life but we can't. I just hope that you two will find each other again and soon. In the mean time if you want somewhere to stay, you are more than always welcome here and the same would be for Noah, although we might but him at the Farm house until you both decide what you want to do ok"
"I know and thanks Dad, but for some reason I am not sure what is going to happen with Noah and I. I just…I don't know…had all the answers or at least had a cure to lift the burden and pain he must be feeling. I mean it's hard not to know what to do when your own partner won't even let you in and help you. It's hard to understand how they truly feel and actually feel about you when they put up these constant walls. I get why he does it but I wish he would just…I don't know open up to me and let me in for once" Luke said trying not to think too much into it and not sound so depressed and upset
"We both know honey how hard this must be for not only you, but for Noah too and we will be here for both ok, but you will always be our first priority ok. We want you to happy as well with Noah. We just….we just hope you two find a way back to each other in the end, that the main thing. Your both young and have a whole lifetime ahead wot worry about these type of things" Lilly said as Luke replied "obviously Noah doesn't think so otherwise we wouldn't be in this mess right now and I wouldn't be standing here talking with you two, not that I don't like it but…."
"We know Luke, we know and understand. Why don't you go upstairs and get changed, maybe have a shower or something to freshen up" Lilly said as Luke walked up to both he's parents and hugged them
"Thanks Mom thanks Dad and I am glad I can rely on you guys" Luke said as he walked up the stairs, still trying to work out what going on and what has been happening so far.
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"So Noah, care to explain what you are going to do to try and win Luke back?" Alison said Looking at Noah, who for the last half hour had hardly said anything.
"What do you want me to say Alison? That I can just apologise to Luke and all will be forgiven. No I have to do this on my own anyway. I don't care what you or anyone else has to say"
"Do you even love Luke?" Alison asked Noah, wanting to finally know the answer
At first Noah wasn't sure how to answer Alison because he knew the answer but he didn't dare to tell
"Well....just spit it out Noah. Stop acting like a five year old that has been caught out lying because that's what you are doing right now"
Silence still filled the room
"You know what, I give up. I give up trying to make you understand and realise of how much an ass you have become. Until you learn to accept what you have the support and help you are getting then don't bother asking for my help, because there is now way I will help as selfish prick like you" with that Alison walked out of Noah's room
Noah lay in the dark room, wondering if he had become the selfish prick Alison said he had become and he started to reply the way he had been acting.
Suddenly realising that she was right, tears began to fall and quiet sobs could be heard filling the room