In the past 11 months of my very rare updates of this story, it has become somewhat more popular than I thought it would…and I've been getting some threats about it…

So I'm returning for another rare appearance of this story!

Chapter 14: Secret Words

Saki burst through her front door to find Chibi sitting on the banister. "Chibi…" Saki muttered grabbing the small creature as she started up the stairs.

"Saki, you're home!" her mother shouted from the kitchen.

"I'll be down later, Mom, I promise!" Saki shouted back before running up the stairs and into her room.

"Saki-chan, what's the matter?" Chibi asked as Saki hopped onto her bed and stared at the diary. "And what is that?"

"My grandmother's diary…" Saki said flatly.

"Really?!" Chibi squawked. "Let's read it!"

"I don't know if I want to…" Saki said. Chibi looked up at her slowly. "I'm…kinda afraid to…"

Chibi placed a small paw on Saki's arm. "You don't have to love who Kisa loved, you know."

"I know…" Saki said running her hand over the old, worn cover. "I'm just…afraid it's gonna influence my own decision…"

"Well, I'll make sure that doesn't happen…" Chibi said softly. "Now go ahead."

Saki took a deep breath and opened the book:

December 25, 1856

Today is Christmas! It was amazing! Mama got me a brand new dress! Papa got me this little doll, it is so cute! He says it looks like me when I was little. Gramma got me this book I am writing in now. She called it a 'diary' and says I should write my most secret thoughts in here. Mama called her idiotic for saying I should write secrets in here, but to tell the truth, I'm very glad Gramma got me this because before, I never knew how I should get my feelings across.

But that wasn't the most exciting part! You see, after we opened all the presents, Gramma gave me some money to go down to the store and buy myself a brand new pen! I was so excited I left immediately! Anyway, as I was in the store a man came in, waving a gun everywhere! I was so terrified I began to cry. Suddenly a boy a few years older than me with the oddest looking hair came up to me and hugged me, telling me everything was going to be okay. He beat the man with his bare hands! Then as the policemen ushered everyone out, he told me he had a surprise for me and told me to close my eyes.

I did as I was told and the next thing I knew, we were in the sky! Flying! As we flew, the boy told me he'd been watching me for the longest time, just waiting to get up the nerve to talk to me. He flew me home and before he left, he handed me a rose and kissed me! Right on the lips! I blushed as red as a tomato, but no one believes me!

And I just remembered! He never told me his name!

Why must the man of my dreams be so mysterious?

"Wow…so that's how Dark met my grandmother? Talk about romantic!" Saki smiled.

"Oh yes, he's always quite the romantic, you know that." Chibi smiled, turning a few pages. "Now let's keep going…here looks good."

Saki cleared her throat:

January 28, 1857

Dark and I had a lovely time at the park today. He even showed me a new spell! Unfortunately, I'm not very good at it…

But he did warn me today that I had to watch my back. Apparently someone is after me! Dark promised he wouldn't let anything happen to me, but I'm afraid that when I meet the person after me, well…anything that happens to me will be out of his control.

"So she didn't meet Krad?" Saki asked.

"Yes, she did. Later on." Chibi said, flipping more pages. "Dark just wanted to warn her ahead of time."

Chibi stopped on another page:

May 12, 1857

I want to shoot myself! I want to take Papa's gun a shoot myself a million times!

Dark and Krad were fighting again…only this time, Krad really did almost kill Dark…and I think I angered Krad by going to Dark's aid…but…how could I not?! He was lying in the middle of the street bleeding all over the place!

I haven't seen Krad since then. He probably won't come around either, since Dark's tamer is recovering here at my house…in my room.

"Wow…things got vicious…" Saki whistled.

"Oh yes, they gave each other almost fatal wounds at least twenty more times." Chibi nodded.

"But…couldn't they just talk to her about it?" Saki asked. Chibi pointed to a new page, ending the conversation:

August 23, 1857

I'm so sorry, Krad! I cannot do what you've asked of me! I'm so ashamed of myself…you ask me a simple question…choose whom I want to spend my life with…and I can't do it! I can't choose!

Doctor Neo came by today…he told me that my heart is weak…I shouldn't do strenuous activities anymore…but how can I stop, when if I do my loves will murder each other?!

"So she had a heart condition to begin with?!" Saki almost shouted.

"No actually, she didn't." Chibi said sadly. "She began having heart problems after Dark and Krad began fighting…"

"So I guess what they say is true…" Saki closed her eyes. "You really can die from a broken heart."

Chibi shrugged and decided not to hold back the pain for Saki anymore. She would read the final entry to Saki herself:

October 30, 1857

It is official. I have to choose now.

Doctor Neo came by this morning and told me the news. I am dying and will no longer be a living creature by, at the latest, midnight.

I've called both Dark and Krad here tonight. They have both promised me they will not so much as utter a mean word to each other.

So here, I sit, thinking my last few thoughts. I cannot help but laugh, I looked at the beginning of my diary and saw my first entry ever was about Dark. Now here I am literally at the last page and I am still writing about him. But now, he is sharing the final page with Krad. This diary is pretty much the only thing they can share.

But now, as I feel the tears falling from my eyes, I've decided. I cannot choose which I love more because I don't love one more than the other. I don't know how they will bear my answer, I just hope that after I am no longer here to fight over, they will no longer fight at all.

Ah, I hear Dark downstairs. He is shouting at Papa to let him upstairs.

What's this? Krad is also down there…they've come at the same time, how lucky I am…

"…then what?" Saki wiped her eyes on her arm.

Chibi slowly turned to the back cover where, written carefully with tearstains around it, was 'Kisa Tatsuta: March 5, 1842-October 30, 1857.'

"So…so they wanted her to choose so damn badly…" Saki's voice was shaking. "That she killed herself over it."

"She never told us." Saki looked to the window. Dark was leaning in. "If she would have told us about her heart condition, we would have stopped."

Saki gripped the diary tightly as Dark came in through the window. "Murderer!" she screamed, throwing it at his head. "You dirty, rotten murderer!"

"Hey, hey, hey!" he said ducking.

"You killed her!" Saki screamed, tears streaming down her face. She reached onto her bed and began throwing anything she could get her hands on. "You killed my grandmother!"

Dark edged his way through the projectiles. "Saki, calm down!"

"No!" she screamed, throwing a shoe at him. "You killed my grandmother…were you expecting to do the same to me?! You expect me to decide like that too?!"

Dark finally reached her. Instead of trying to reason with her through words, he pulled her into a hug. At first she beat him with her fists, screaming for him to let her go. After a few minutes, she gave up, sinking into his chest and sobbing. Slowly, he lowered both of them to the floor, stroking her hair. Thinking of what she had said. "…so…Krad too?"

She nodded, "I'm sorry." came her muffled reply.

"You're not the one who needs to be sorry for anything." He said, kissing her head. He had hoped it wouldn't happen this time…he hoped he wouldn't have any competition.

"Please…" Saki said quietly between sobs. "Don't…don't make me decide…I don't…I can't…"

"I won't." Dark said, tightening his grip around her. "I promise, I won't make you choose…"

Hm…yea, quickie thing. Someone asked me for more romance between Saki and Dark and this was the best I could do in context…

Once again, reviews are appreciated!

BlackAngel