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This chapter is of Jasper's point of view for the last chapter.
Oh, and thank you for giving me your opinion for A/E, It helped me a lot. I'm not telling you what's going to happen though, so you'll have to read and find out!
The Song Is called "Vindicated" By Dashboard Confessional... you should listen, it's good
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Diclaimer: Not mine.
JASPER'S POV
Bella asleep. It was the most beautiful thing to watch…she was the most beautiful thing to watch. As her chest rose and fell with every breath she took.
She had a small smile on her full lips and she sighed.
I wonder what she's dreaming about…or who.
I kissed her forehead and was about to leave her to dream when she talked…well, more like moaned.
"Jasper," she moaned again.
My eyes went wide. I couldn't have heard her right…did she say my name?
I leaned down a little…listening.
"Mmmhh. Jasper."
Yup. That was definitely my name…
I was debating whether I should leave or not, when she suddenly thrashed around and threw her hand on to my…lap…
Her smile seemed to get wider. Did she know she was doing this?
"Oh, oh, Jasper."
I tried to swallow, but my throat was dry. Her emotions were drowning me.
I tried to take slow breaths and calm down.
Well…moving was out of the question. Especially with the…condition I was in.
She moaned again, and started moving her hand around.
I closed my eyes tight and I grabbed a handful of the sheets; memories of the last few days flowing back full speed.
I should be able to take control of the situation…I should be able to just alter her emotions, but…oh god. Her hands were soooo warm.
I groaned. This was too much.
I took a one more much needed breath and practically flew out of the room.
Once I got to my room I closed the door and leaned against it.
I looked down at my still fully erect member…
I was in serious need of a cold shower.
As I walked past the mirror in the bathroom I noticed that my eyes were a deep blue…the color they used to be when I was a human. I smiled. It amazed me how much Bella has changed me. We were truly meant to be together. We had to be…this has never happened with Alice.
I started the shower on and turned on my stereo.
I got undressed slowly and got in the shower; letting the water run over my face as the song "Vindicated" filled the room.
I closed my eyes tightly. Even in a different room, I couldn't escape Bella's emotions.
I leaned my back against the shower wall and tilted my head back.
"Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated
[Chorus
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along"
Images of Bella's face flew past my closed eye lids like a move.
How could I let her go? How could I possibly handle being around Edward while he touches her…kisses her?
I bit my lip and moaned as another wave of lust hit me.
My hands, having a mind of their own, traveled south and hit the place I wanted her so badly to touch.
"And I am flawed So clear
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that"
I moved my hand back and forth. Teasing myself…torturing myself. Just thinking of her. Wishing I could have her. Now and forever.
"So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away"
I let a sob out and fell against the wall.
I don't know how long I sat there with my head on my knees and arms holding together my broken, non-beating heart.
I looked up and noticed it getting a little lighter outside.
I had to get out and look normal for my family. I couldn't lose them too.
I hurried out and got ready for a long day of pure torture…at least no one else could feel my emotions. They wouldn't survive…I didn't know if I could.
Right as I was about to leave my room I heard the cars pull up.
Great, I thought, preparing to block my thoughts.
I looked in the mirror and plastered on a smile good enough to trick anyone.
I'm not sure that it reached my eyes, but I doubted that anyone would notice.
Seconds later my face was being raided by kisses from the ever so hyper Alice.
"Hi, Babe," I said, as I took her in my arms and sat down on the bed with her on my lap.
"HI!" She smiled brightly. "Did you miss me?"
I chuckled and kissed her neck, secretly wishing it were Bella.
"Of course," I mumbled against her granite skin.
I heard her breathing hitch ever so slightly.
I smirked. "So. Did you miss me?"
She laughed, "Yup. Why do you think we came early?"
I kept my face buried in her neck so she couldn't see my eyes sadden at her words.
"So, how did hunting go," I asked. Trying to change the subject.
She seemed to hesitate. "Oh. It was…interesting."
She tried to act calm, but her emotions gave her away.
I pulled back and lifted her chin so she could look at me.
"What's the matter, Alice," I asked, almost scared to know the answer. Had she seen?
She just shook her head and smiled slightly.
"Nothing."
"Alright," I said, letting it go. If she knew…well, she would tell me eventually. I just hoped she didn't know.
I held onto Alice like I used to; rocking back and forth while singing to her every once in a while.
I truly did love her. Just…not like I used to. Maybe this was how it was suppose to be.
I would never know for sure.
We sat there for a while, not talking, just enjoying each others company…lost in thought.
It was about 7:30 when I heard Bella get up. To a vampire, these walls might as well be paper thin. I could hear everything they said.
I could also feel Bella's surprise and disappointment as she woke to find Edward lying next to her.
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't happy about that.
I felt horrible, but it was true.
"Hey, Jazzy," Alice asked, breaking the very long silence.
"Yeah," I replied, looking into her light topaz eyes.
"I'll be back soon okay? I need to go talk to Edward."
I was curious as to what she needed to talk to him about, but I let it go and nodded.
Soon after she danced out of the room, I heard Edward's bedroom door close too.
I was about to go downstairs when Depression hit me like a ton of bricks.
All of it coming from Edward's room. I closed my eyes and ran my hand through my hair. I wasn't the only one suffering, it seemed.
After a minute, I composed myself and opened the door. I took my time walking down the hall to the stairs. I was about to take my first step when I heard Bella's gasp.
Before I knew what I had done, she was in my arms. I wanted nothing more than to hold her like this forever, but I heard someone coming.
I reluctantly let my angel go and an instant later Edward was taking Bella into his arms.
I couldn't handle watching this. I was just about to walk away, when Alice showed up.
How fantastic, I thought sarcastically.
Edward's eyes flashed to mine. I could feel his confusion and got angry.
Stay out of my head, Edward, I thought, and wrapped my arm around Alice's waist.
Jealousy started radiating off of Bella immediately. I let my eyes stray to her face and away quickly.
Alice started babbling about another shopping trip.
I was trying desperately trying to get my mind off of Bella.
Alice suddenly got quite still in my arms. She was having a vision.
When she got back to herself, she started yelling at Edward.
When she mentioned that it was just going to be us three, I got quite nervous.
How was I going to handle that? I tried, unsuccessfully to calm myself.
I felt Edward get anxious, wanting to leave probably.
Alice grabbed my hand and started walking with me upstairs.
She must have seen my scared expression. "Oh, Jasper. Don't worry it'll be fun! We'll have to stop by…" I stopped paying attention. Not purposely, but because I heard Bella.
"Jasper?"
Oh, god I had missed her voice.
"Yes, Bella?"
She smiled, and her eyes lit up.
"Thank you…for catching me, I mean."
Her blush was so lovely…mesmerizing.
"Anytime."
Her eyes held a promise. We would be together again. Soon.
Once Alice and I got to our room, she ran and jumped on the bed.
I laughed.
"Soooooo. What did you and Bella do these past couple of days," she asked with a raised eyebrow.
I tried to stay clam. Silently thanking god she couldn't feel my nervousness.
"Don't you already know," I replied with a smile.
Her brows seemed to pull together in frustration.
"No…I didn't see anything this time."
I was about to ask why, but got distracted by the feeling of guilt and hurt she was trying to hide.
Well, there you have it!
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On my last author's note, I loved how people commented on how they've read the book too. So I thought It'd be fun to have a recomended book for every update
So this chapters book recomendation is Drum Rolls ... "Marked" By PC Cast. Also, the second one to the series, "Betrayed"
Those are amazing books, so you should check 'em out!
If you have any books that you would recommend me to read, tell me. I love talking about books in general almost as much as talking about Twilight :)
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