I smoothed the my tank top as I waited outside the wooden door. Do I really want to do this? I saw Joe's face in my mind suddenly all my fears went away. I took a deep breath and knocked quietly.
"Come in." He said quietly. The small desk lamp had a dim glow as he quickly sat up in bed. "Riley, what are you doing here?" He closed a book and moved it to his side table.
"I wanted to spend some time with you, Nick." I gave him a half-smile as I sat down on his quilted bed. He eyed me trying to figure out why I was truly here.
"Okay." He shook all his doubt away and smiled. "What's up?"
"Nothing really. You?"
"Just reading a book." He nodded towards his bedside table. "A slightly boring book though." He added truthfully.
"What's it about?" I picked up the leather bound book and noticed how large it was. I flipped through the pages and saw words I'm sure my father can't pronounce.
"A medical book."
"Do you want to be a doctor too?" He shook his head and frowned at the book.
"No. I'm looking up illnesses."
"For fun?"
"No," He laughed and took the book from my hands, "Here look at the subject heading." He held it out towards me and I looked for the large print.
"Diabetes: Prevention and Treatment. Why are you looking that up?"
"I have it."
"You do?" My hand fluttered to my heart as I saw him nod slowly.
"Yeah, for awhile now. I don't let it slowly me down though." He stared at the book and frowned once again. I skimmed the paragraph for treatment and saw there was no cure. That's why he's frowning. "Let's move on to things that aren't depressing." He closed the book and once again put it on his bedside table. "So how are you?" Horrible.
"Okay, I guess. It could be better." I wrapped my arms around myself as I felt a sudden chill.
"Here," He peeled back his blankets revealing his flannel pajamas and plain white tee. "It's much warmer under twenty blankets." He smiled as I curled up next to him. We sat there, next to each other, under the covers in silence. He put his arm around my shoulders and pulled me into his chest. "What's wrong?" I buried my face into his chest breathing his scent in.
"I miss you." I murmured as I found his free hand and held it. "I miss being with someone who actually cares for me."
"I miss you too." Nick placed a kiss on the top of my head. I looked up at him and saw how beautiful he was. Inside and out. I placed a kiss on his lips that he quickly returned. I sat in his lap and didn't let his lips leave mine. I placed both hands around his face and deepened the kiss, letting our tongues touch. He removed my tank and moved my chest closer to him. He kissed my neck and chest making me moan. In between kisses I pulled off Nick's shirt to reveal his toned chest and a dog tag. I held the cool sliver charm in my hand turning it over to reveal an engraving. Nicholas Jonas, Diabetes. "It let's people know I'm sick. Broken." I ran my fingers over the engraving, trying to change what it says. Nick doesn't deserve to suffer.
"You're not broken. You're perfect." I stared into his deep brown eyes and smiled. I shrugged off my bra and I saw Nick blush in the dim light.
"I love you Riley."
"I love you too." We kissed again and lust filled us. Everything that happened before suddenly vanished from my mind. The only thing I could think of was Nick. We laid there in bed in nothing but our underwear, just kissing. His hands explored my body this time, making me blush. We slipped off our underwear and continued our exploration. We left no area untouched. I laid in bed trying to slow my rapid breathing. No wonder Nick plays piano, he's great with his hands. Nick currently was using his skilled fingers to rummage through his side table drawers. "Lose something?" I rolled over and placed my head on his lower stomach.
"I'm looking for protection." He placed a kiss on my forehead and went back to the drawers. "Here we go!" He rolled onto his side as I propped myself up on my elbow. He placed something on top of his book a few seconds later and faced me. "Ready?" We both grinned as I nodded.
"Is this your first time?" He nodded slowly in embarrassment. "Then let's make it fun." I pulled him on top of me as he smirked. And it was fun. Nick was amazing. His fingers aren't the only skilled thing he has. I rested my head by his bellybutton and swallowed.
"I'm sorry, " He placed his hand on my hip. "I should've told you before I, well I, you know-" I stopped him with a kiss.
"It's okay." I smiled and he nodded. "I love you."
"I love you too." He wrapped his arms around me as I rested my head on his chest. He started humming a song. I tried my hardest to stay awake. I closed my eyes focusing on Nick's humming. I'm not lonely anymore.
My oh my. What has Riley done to herself? She's slept with half of the Jonas boys and doesn't seem to be regretting it. Yet. Wonder what rash and impulsive thing she will do now.