Song for Kakashi: Made of Glass by Trapt (GOOOOD SONG!!!)
Song for Sakura: Rain- Breaking Benjamin
Disclaimer: I own none of the lyrics to any of these songs. The only thing I own is...well....alright I don't own much of anything except this plot line.
-A MONTH LATER-
Sakura smiled as she looked into the mirror one last time and smoothed her hair down. Applying a little more clear gloss to her already shiny lips, and making sure that her make up hadnt smudged, she finally gave herself the final seal of approval. Standing up, clad in only a black bra and pink boy shorts, she examined herself. She pulled down one of the straps and ran her fingers over the almost pale scars, but as she did so she smiled, but it quickly faded a little. She planned to tell Kakashi of this part of her tonight after their show. They had been together for a month and she felt that she could trust him with this vital information. Smiling again she pulled the strap back up and turned to her bed where her performing outfit lay. Picking up the black tank top she carefully pulled it over her head and smoothed it into place over her curves. Next she picked up the denim jean shorts and pulled them up her sleek legs and as she buttoned them she smiled because she hoped that she looked good, she wanted to for Kakashi. Lastly she looked down at the heeled boots that awaited her; sitting on the bed she pulled them on one by one and zipped up the sides. Standing she took one last look at herself in the mirror and gave herself one last smile. A knock on the door behind her startled her and when she turned Kakashi stood there.
"You look beautiful Sakura." he smiled as he leaned on the doorjam.
A slow blush creeped along her cheeks.
He pushed himself of the doorjam and brought himself to stand directly in front of her. She noticed that there was a recangular shape in his front pocket, but did not say anything. She saw his hand reach down into his pocket and pull out a blue velvet box and he handed it to her. Her eyes traveled to his and held them, questioning.
"That is one of two presents tonight. Go ahead and open it."
Running her fingers over the plush lid of the box, she hooked her fingers on the sides and pulled the top open. She gasped when she saw what lay within. A silver bracelet rested on a piece of silk, and charms glistened up at her, twinkling in the light. Slipping a careful hand under it she lifted it out of the box and stared at the treasure in front of her. There were three charms on her bracelet and she examined the first, a crystal heart, the second a silver sakura blossom, and third a tiny microphone. Lifting her gaze to his, all she could do was stare from him back to the bracelet. Taking it from her he undid the clasp and hooked it around her right wrist and snapped it close. She smiled as she looked at it. She dropped the box and wrapped her arms around his waist in a tight hug. She felt his chest rumble with his silent laughter. A gentle hand lifted her face and she closed her eyes, and soon felt the warmth of his lips on hers.
"Come on we have a show to do." he said as he pulled away.
Walking hand in hand they made their way backstage where Sakura was equipped with a headset, as was Kakashi. Hinata finsihed clipping it to the back of her shorts when Sakura looked up at the sky. Dark clouds were gathering over the still sun-shine of the early evening. She knew it would rain, but she hoped that it would wait til the end of the show. Kakashi started the show and soon it was in full swing. Kakashi had just finished his piece when Sakura took the guitar from its place and quickly tuned it. Kakashi came off stage and Hinata quicly put two stools in the center of the stage. Asuma winked at her as he took the one to the left. She made her way out on stage and applause greeted her. She waved, smiling the whole time. Taking her place next to Asuma, she cleared her throat.
"This next song is a new one, and accompanying me will be Asuma. I hope you enjoy it, it's called Rain."
She looked at Asuma and the two began to play. She looked out into the audience and saw them listening intentivly. She began to sing.
"Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,
I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around
Safe to say from here,
Your getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun."
She and Asuma stopped playing and all they heard after that was a thunderous applause. She looked over at Asuma, who had been the one who talked her into performing it, and he smiled at her. She knew she wouldn't live this one down, he would tell her that he had been right. But right at this moment...she didn't care. Hurrying off stage, taking the stools with them, she got out of the way so that Kakashi could play his next song. As he passed her he bent down and placed a soft kiss on her lips. She smiled and shooed him away and he went, laughing. He took his place and the music began. A gentle beat started it and he took his stance near the front of the stage. He opened his mouth and began to sing.
"I don't know anything at all, and I'm somebody else
It could take years to find you, it could take years to find myself
And I don't need to hear your answer, I just need you to see
That I think its time to break down, these walls that we throw up
CHORUS:
Am I still breathing, have I lost that feeling?
Am I made of glass? Cuz you see right through me
I don't know who I am, you're the one who sees that
I can't ask these questions that cannot be answered today
And even if everything goes wrong, and we start to fall apart
I will understand where you are, I will understand this by myself
And I don't need to hear your answer, I just need you to feel
Like there are no boundaries at all
Am I still breathing, have I lost that feeling?
Am I made of glass? Cuz you see right through me
I don't know who I am, you're the one who sees that
I can't ask these questions that cannot be answered today
I don't mind today, Today, I don't matter today..."
She saw him look out into the audience and saw the hands in the air and she saw a smile throught his mask.
"...And how far have we come, too far to throw away the past
Will you be there waiting for me
I have to ask what we are, if I ask today it just won't last
So I'll be here waiting for you
Will we ever feel this good again
Will we ever feel this real again, again
Will you ever be mine again
Will we ever feel this real again
Not today, I don't mind today, today, I don't matter today"
The song faded out and applause roared through. Kakashi smiled and began to say something when a loud clap of thunder echoed loudly in the sky. Sakura and many of the audience ducked out of instinct. Security and others began ushering all of the fans out so that they could get to their cars before the downpour started. Sakura and the others hurridly got the equipment out of the way, just in time. Rain began to fall just as they closed the equipment truck and the band members ran for their buses. Sakura hurried in, Kakashi not far behind and slammed the door shut. Saklura went into the bathroom and came back with two towels which they used to dry off. Sakura heard the faint tinkling of her bracelet and she looked down at it. A sign of his love to her...and she knew that she should return the favor. She looked over at him, and seeing that he looked so down...she couldn't bring herself to say anything. She pulled off her boots and changed them into sneakers so that her feet wouldn't get cold and she wouldn't catch a cold.
"Hmm." she sighed as they looked at one another.
Finally they settled down onto the couch and he turned some music on, a local radio station. She lay there in his arms while he stroked her hair...so content. With the heat of the bus, the gentle music and the methodic stroke of his fingers, she slowly drifted into sleep. She didn't know how long she slept, but when she awoke, the rain was falling heavily on the bus roof and Kakashi was also asleep. Reaching for the remote as carefully as she could, she flicked off the radio and sat up and went to the it so that the screen door stayed in place she watched the rain fall. She watched as the rain punded into the ground and the soothing sound of it. She was thinking of how she had to tell him...that she needed to, because it wasn't fair to him to not know what had happened. She didn't want him to see the scars on her body and be confused and shun her away. She was also afraid that he wouldn't want her after she told him, but she knew that she had to, see wether or not he wanted her.
"Kakashi..." she whispered.
She stood there for she didn't know how long, tears escaping slowly, before she heard a stirring behind her. She didn't move as she heard him move closer and a hand touched her shoulder. She felt the arms wrap around her, warm and strong and a chin rest on the back of her head. Taking a deep breath she turned to face him, she almost melted at the sign of his sleep mused hair and vunerable looking eyes. When those eyes locked on the sight of her tears, they widened. Hands cupped her face, thumbs gently wiping them away.
"Sakura? What's wrong?"
She snaked her hands up to rest on top of his, hanging off of them she said "Kakashi...I have to tell you something....something about me...."
Pulling his hands down she took them in hers and led him back to the couch. Sitting next to him, she could feel his eyes on her, and she knew that she should show him first, before she told the story. Silently she removed her tank top, Kakashi about to protest, and she silenced him with one glance of her eyes. She gestured to her side, near her ribcage and she saw him zero in on the path of scars that were implanted into her skin. She slipped her arms out her bra straps but left her breasts covered and he saw the ones there too on the sides under her arms. She saw his eyes showing confusion and concern at the same time. Pulling her shirt back on she slipped her shorts off and showed him the inside of her hip, many scars marking that place, along with the other hip.
"My God Sakura...what is this?" he asked in horror.
Pulling her shorts back on she said to him "My past."
"Sakura what happened?" he moved closer to her.
She took a deep breath and began "I dated a boy named Uchiha Sasuke...."
For the next hour she talked, telling him the story that she had for so long hidden from him. She watched as his eye widened, his disgusted noises at the right places, and she could see the hatred whelling up in his eyes. When she got to the part about the rape, his eyes were wide as dinner plates and he just stared at her. She bent her head forward as she told it, tears threatening to spill, but her refusing to let them do so. She finished her sad tale and silence filled the bus. She dared to look up and what she saw nearly broke her hear. He was looking at her as though he was going to cry. A hand reached out to her, but she flinched from it and he let it drop. She saw the hurt in his eye and she felt instantly horrible. He looked so sad at that moment, her heart couldn't take it.
"Sakura..."
She didn't hear the rest. She bolted from the couch and threw open the door and ran out into the pouring rain. Rain pelted her from all directions and stung her skin and mud splashed around her, running up her legs and sinking into her shoes. She ran blindly, tears falling a she did. She didnt see the what rock sticking out of the mud in front her her, her shoe catching it, and she fought for balance. Catching herself at the last moment she regained her balance and stood still. Breathing heavily she sank to her knees in the mud. Rain pouring around her as her tears mixed with the rain.
"Sakura!" she heard her name being called.
She didnt raise her head, her ahir had come undone from its clip and it cascaded around her, rain running through it. Her make up she could feel running down her face and she began to shiver.
"Sakura!" it was closer.
She didnt answer him, she knew that he wouldn't want her now, not after what she had told him. Pain began to settle once more into her heart and that caused more tears to fall, sobs racking her fragile frame.
"Sakura...!"
Kakashi kneeled down in front of her, just as soaked as she was. She didnt raise her head, she couldn't bear to look at him now. She felt a gentle hand under chin, warm fingers despite the cold of the rain and wind. With such tenderness it raised her face, her eyes remained down cast. Then in such an agonizing voice, one that was pleading with her, he spoke.
"Sakura... please look at me."
She raised her eyes and saw that he was crying as well. His hair was hanging limply in front of his face, rain running in rivulets down his face, making him look so much younger. Despite the rain his hands cupped her face so tenderly, wiping away the tears and rain the best he could. He then put an arm under her knees and one against her back, and she wrapped hers around his neck. He carried her back to the bus, where he sat her back on the couch, and went to fetch more towels. She sat there, depressed and silent. He came back, clothes changed, and kneeled down in front of her and began drying her off.
"You don't want me anymore...do you?" she asked.
His hand froze in midair and she knew that by his silence that it was true. She went to move when a hand caught her wrist and she looked down. His hand encircled her wrist, restraining her, but not hurting her. The words he spoke next startled her.
"How can you say that?"
"Huh?"
"Of course I want you...Sakura, why would you think I wouldn't?"
"Even after Sasuke...? I'm broken, damaged-"
"Sasuke is your past Sakura....he hurt you and for that I want to kill him. But no matter what happened...no matter how much you think I shouldn't....I still want you. You aren't broken...you aren't damaged...you are the girl that I want."
Tears fell anew down her cheeks and she lunged off the couch and into his arms. He was temporairily startled, but his arms closed around her shaking form as she began to cry. She felt the tears soaking his already newly changed shirt. But she sensed that he didn't care. He stroked her damp hair while whispering sweet things in her ear. Finally he pushed her away, and lifted her chin with an angel's tenderness and stared into the beautiful jade eyes before him.
"Sakura...I love you."
A sob escaped her throat "I love you too."
With that he kissed her. With that kiss she felt the darkness in her heart vanish, the pain evaporate and the sadness blown out. His lips were warm on hers and she meted into the kiss, her tears mixing with his.
To be continued...
There you are my lovlies! I hope that this chapter was worth the wait, and I am so sorry that it took me so long to get out. A lot of work went into this chapter! Next one will be out soon!