Please excuse the fact that half of the chapter is not capitalized because the caps-fixer on Word was off when I was typing this and I found out just now, apparently spell checker doesn't help that, so I had to go through and capitalize the first letter in the first word of every sentence my myself. Then I stopped and was all "fuck it." so sorry :P
Hinata's hands remained in a balled position as she stared intently at the plate of food on the table below her face. A shudder. She was warped in her own abnormal memories. She couldn't help but look around the room confused as to where she was and how she'd gotten there but reality soon came to her. she was on a dinner date with her husband. Her heart beat wasn't steady and she felt cold but it was a thin shroud. She'd remembered it before and was perfectly aware of it, why was she so shocked?
"Hinata?" Sasuke said, tilting to one side to properly see his wife's face in concern. It was turned away, the expression was cross. It was because she realized what made life so bitter. what made everything entirely different for her.
She turned to him with wide eyes still breathless. "You raped me." she choked out the words. She was still breathless as she looked at him so her words came out as a faint whisper but he was drawn aback. He looked around the crowded room full of exclusive patrons for an answer to the question formulating in his head. There were so many.
"Who raped you?" he got closer to her and asked in a low tone. his eyes bored into hers and she shuddered. As if he didn't know. He was the worst type of person.
"You." the word came out with such vehement, the breath in his throat got caught and tangled. His jaw dropped slightly and he was now reflecting her expression. Their eyes followed each other while to the others around them it seemed as if they were having a normal conversation. "You did." she repeated, this time with more of a voice than before and it shocked him as he didn't want the people around them to hear.
"Hinata.....I never raped you....I always...I always ask...." not even the genius that he was could calculate what she was trying to say. He wanted to crack open her head and see her thoughts. They must have been twisted. He even recollected every time they were ever together in that way, if he had ever been too fast or maybe placed too much weight on her. Maybe if he forgot to ask her permission or if she was ever cringed or cried after but he couldn't think of any time. "Hinata, I don't remember." he swallowed the dry lump in his throat and gained some composure so he could perhaps reason with her.
The screeching sound came from the speakers above their heads, most diners turned their heads up to listen to the odd sound. It wasn't very loud, it was a soft high pitch siren type noise that they were all subconsciously familiar with. Thought both Hinata and Sasuke's impressions were still troubled, they turned their heads up to listen to the annoying chime. "Good afternoon, Diners. I hope you're all well tonight. It's been a lovely day, now I ask you to please turn your attention to our couple sitting in the middle of room." A man walked out from the double doors leading to the kitchen.
Hinata and Sasuke twisted in their seats attempting to find the middle of the room, there seemed to be just sides and a door. That's when they realized everyone was looking at them. they exchanged panicked looks. When Hinata saw Sasuke's expression she felt her insides drop, not even he knew what was going on. None of this was staged.
"Sasuke Uchiha is an excellent beneficent to the village of Konoha and if it be in will, the next living Hokage. I'm so flattered that he and his gorgeous wife, Hinata Hyuuga chose our restaurant to celebrate their 4 year anniversary." he finished his sentence turning to the couple who awkwardly looked at each other. Itachi learned to smile and nod whenever he didn't understand something related to his father's business. Sasuke soon followed suit by waving with one hand at the people who continuously clapped for them. In the back of their minds they were astonished. they hadn't realized it was their wedding anniversary. Hinata continued to look around with wide eyes.
Why were they clapping? They were clapping for a rapist and his stupid wife's failing wedding anniversary. It drove her crazy inside. She could hear the thoughts of every selfish, sick, rich person in that room. They're so cute together. What a perfect marriage. They're both so lucky to have each other. I bet they're so happy. Look at them, they're in love. It made her want to vomit. She could vomit for days going off of the sick shit people were thinking. it made her dizzy and faint. Just like that she snapped. Her mind felt like a well wound clock, the gears broke apart, every string and wire just failing. She removed herself from her seat, moving the chair back with a rough sound. She looked around the room at all of the confused faces. She wanted to scream, to explode and let out all the raw emotion that was stored in her diaphragm. Her jaw locked and she immediately flew away. She stomped out quickly and silently, her face reflecting every boiling feeling locked inside her heavy heart.
Sasuke didn't think twice. He went after her while inside he didn't recall whether it was for his image or for his wife-moreover for this distressed young woman who's mind was scarred and battered to the point at which she runs away from what should have been a joyful night. He followed her as she seemed to flow out the door without a sound but the clicks from her heals that built the trail for him to follow. He didn't quite care how many people were looking back at him with sour expressions. He had deserted them but then again he didn't love them. They were selfish, they were ignorant and wanting. They wanted entertainment, something random to speak of for days and they got it. Now they could all die and rot in hell for all he cared.
The night was cold, colder than he'd remembered only because he came in with a coat which he left in his seat, now there was nothing to shield the both of them from the freezing winter's night. He could see his own breath and around him there was a thick belt of isolation. The place was too expensive for the average Konoha hicks to eat there while most of them were self-employed and made a living by selling the useless crap they spend their life growing. A few cars passed by but it was truly night in the city. She stood mere inches away from him, holding herself. He didn't know whether she was cold or afraid, either way he didn't like the quality of her behavior and he didn't care what they were going through. It was unacceptable. And just because tonight was for her, it didn't mean she was allowed to go about doing whatever she wanted and he was going to scold her about it, just not now.
"Hinata, you have to tell me what's wrong." his voice became steady and composed once again and she cringed at its strength and persuasion.
"You have no idea what's going on with me." her words were so soft, just below a whimper but he heard them as if they were shouted in his face. They made him angry, not like most things did but in a completely different way. He wanted to tell her she was wrong, that she didn't know what she was talking about herself but she was probably right. He didn't know. He wanted to know with every fiber of his being.
"I wont be able to find out what's going on with you until you tell me." he grabbed her shoulder in a fashion that may have been too tight as she instantly attempted to pull away but couldn't escape his grip. He honestly hadn't meant for it to be that rough, he was always caught somewhere between a diplomat and a killing machine. He often forgot to be a husband, the rock and comforter. He stared into her, how her face contorted in pain but he was sure he wasn't hurting her. She shook where she was, she was really a nervous wreck.
That's when it came back to him. He delved back into his younger years. Exactly 4 years previously. It only came to him because she seemed to gnash her teeth for days after. She had gently wept after the ordeal but he had assumed the tears were of joy, it wasn't uncommon for women to cry after sex so he held he in a gentle way and blew his hard breath onto her cheeks as she slept. now he could only imagine how horrible it probably was for her. "Hinata, you have to believe me."
The only words he could form were that of dumbfoundedness. It was common for him to perhaps be a little unnecessarily rough with Hinata and throw cruel threats at her but he was above rape. His father always taught him that rape was an honor less act, only the sick and worthless swine of war raped innocent women. Every time she turned away from him to turn her gaze at the cold concrete drive he died a little inside. How could she think that? It was disgusting. Was he really that horrible that she saw him as something as low as a rapist? She knew him better than that.
"Listen, I'm not a rapist." he grabbed her by both cheeks and turned her face so that she looked into his blank eyes. it was very apparent that brute force wasn't the best way of convincing her that nothing happened that night bit he didn't know anything else. "Hinata if I were a rapist, I wouldn't rape you one time. I'd rape you again and again and again and when I was done I'd dispose of you."
She was crying. Crying. Tears rushing down her face and every breath getting caught in her throat. She didn't try to move away. She thought it was useless, this was her defense. She recalled when they were younger and he would stare at her for hours at a time to make her feel so inhuman and weak, she would begin to cry and as she wept he would get up and walk away. Finding a new subject to torture no doubt. During their marriage she was constantly lectured to the point of desperation, he would turn away from her out of disgust. This wasn't the same. She continued to bottle up his personality, limiting it to what he's shown her in their marriage but it wasn't that simple, he would never be that simple.
"I didn't know you were in pain." his words came out smooth and practiced but they were stressed inside his mind. He hated to admit that he was wrong but he was and he had to. "If I had known that I was hurting you, I would have stopped. You never told me, I didn't know."
Her heart ripped in 2, she didn't feel worse but it hurt in a way she was not familiar with. She couldn't stop crying as she looked at him, his face was so perfect. Her captor was an angel, that only made it worse. At times she loved this angel, at times she wished she would burn in hell so at least he couldn't terrorize her from beyond the grave. She only had one word for him. One question. "Why?"
He tilted his head in a struggling frustration, what did she mean? Why? Why what? "What do you mean Hinata?"
"You don't ever look at me. You don't go for hours like everyone else. You never make me feel like I'm important." in her mind it sounded like she was complaining. these were her feelings. These were her feelings for the last 4 years. To be honest, she wanted to make him uncomfortable, she wanted to make him squirm and have to think long and hard about why he was the way he was.
"You cringe every time I try to get close to you, any imbecile would assume that you didn't like it so I stopped. I'm a man and a husband, its my job to provide your basic needs. I don't want you to be uncomfortable. When we have sex you're already on edge, staring at you won't help. I go quickly and get it over with because I don't want to bruise you all over, you're much smaller than me." he spoke like it was math, like it was so simple and it was. She hadn't thought about the actual dimensions behind it, just the surface of what she thought was a cruel man unwilling to bend.
"Then why......why do you have other women?" she whispered looking up at the night sky, as soon as it came out she wished it never had. She wasn't supposed to know. Sasuke even looked shocked that she was fully aware. Hinata was a lot smarter than he thought. He cleared his throat, feeling humiliated that his own wife was aware of his multiple affairs, he was a sloppy cheater. That fact itself was worse than the initial act.
He stared at her, begging her to tell him that it was okay to not answer but she wouldn't look away with her tears that flowed. He lowered his eyes, he was a disgrace to himself. "I...I don't know." it hurt to hear that. that was the best excuse he had that would allow him to hold onto some of his pride. "I guess its because...I just want to see you hurt."
her head snapped up to look at him, she didn't catch his eyes because he was still looking down but a small flame ignited inside of her. it wasn't of anger. it wasn't weak either. she didn't know what it was. the colors of her soul were a mixing of red anger and blue serenity. it gave her some peace to know that her husband didn't hate her but it felt just as bad to hear the truth.
"I'm ready to fall." she looked at him again, his head was up and facing her. he wanted to contact her, to contact her soul to soul. "I'm ready to crawl on my knees. I want to show you what its like to be loved, don't underestimate me. If you come home with me tonight, I can promise you all these things."
her eyes resembled that of a child on Christmas. they were slightly puffy and irritated but she was more beautiful than ever. he kissed her, it was so gentle and tender that she couldn't believe it was him. his lips were soft and moist, and this action was slow with a light yearning and lust. she kissed him back, receiving it and adoring the feeling.
he took her away, away from this horrid world she refused to call her real home. they were now in a world of their own. a small island called Alright in the sea of Troubles. he held her in his arms, carrying her up the stairs effortlessly and laying her down on the bed. he undressed her slowly and allowed her to do the same for him. he held her and kissed her lips, his tongue swam around in her mouth and their mixed saliva flowed down her cheeks. he nibbled at her pouted bottom lip and stroked her bottom gently, grabbing and squeezing it. he whispered dirty things in her ear that made the mass of flesh between her legs leak and quiver. he rolled her over and massaged her back and her thighs and her pubic area. he grabbed her waist and taught her how to please him with her mouth. he slipped his fingers into her and laughed at how she came instantly and even tried to stuff them in deeper.
he pulled her up and she stroked his chest, blushing at how masculine and muscular it was. she was never given the opportunity to admire his body up close. he soon grabbed both thighs and spread them apart and stuffed his tongue into her sensitive spot. she moaned and grunted and made incoherent sounds as he loudly ate her sweet cunt, slurping up her cum and swishing it around in his mouth then swallowing it with a loud gulp. his noises were like that of an animal as he seemed instinctive in the practice and addicted to the lovely fine nectar that dripped from her hot, throbbing slit. he wanted to suck it dry but the more he tried, the more wet it got and he was too greedy to stop.
her legs wrapped around his head and he hands were tangled in his hair, pressing his face deeper into her sex and grinding her swollen clit against his face. when he moved his lips, they were sopping wet and slightly slimy. Hinata didn't mind his tongue making love to her mouth after, she was interested by the taste. her cum squished deep into his mattress. finally she couldn't take it, throwing her legs wide open and shouting out words she'd only heard her father say. she was begging for it. he pushed in gently, going in and out. one, two, three....he threw his head back in ecstacy. it was that good. she came with him once again after feeling his thick, warm semen filling her womb. he didn't stop after that, it was impossible for him to quit out of fatigue. as soon as her soft walls constricted around his member, it hardened, more ready than before. he plunged in and out, attempting to go slow but giving up. she yelped out loud, thrashing her head around on the pillow, wanting more and more. he went faster and deeper when his hot, throbbing appendage was pushed out of her by a sudden contraction, her juices sprayed out onto his chest and she screamed, every part of her body spasming randomly.
he felt like an animal, needing to fulfill his needs, he ripped her legs apart though they were clenched together out of pure ecstacy. he drove into her over and over for hours. she was in shock, she couldn't hear anything. she could only feel this immense pleasure and she could only see Sasuke's deep expression as he stared into her eyes with his mouth agape and his face covered in sweat as he went in and out. he clutched her back, flipping them over so she could ride him into infinity. he couldn't keep a straight face, watching her try to move up and down, it frustrated her but she finally go the hang of it and went at a steady pace, stopping to grind her clit against his thick pubic hairs. she slammed her eyes shut, moving her hips the best she could to make herself cum but it was hard. Sasuke couldn't stop cracking up as she looked around, desperate for something to bring her to her climax.
she didn't know how simple it was. he effortlessly thrust his hips upward once and she went up and down so quickly, a jolt of pleasure shot through her body. she was stunned that it was so easy for him. he gently whispered filthy things which made her pussy throb around him. he thrust up again and she squeaked like cat. he loved the sloppy sound that was made when he foamy slit and butt slapped against his slippery testicles. he reached down and gently rubbed her clit with his thumb. it was comforting and felt like life to her, she threw her head back and sighed sweetly. but it wasn't enough, she wanted his hard cock to demolish her insides. she pushed his hand away and placed them on her butt so he could help her move up and down. he laughed, she really wanted it. she was cute, innocent. he bucked his hips upward and downward and she flew up and down like he was a wild bull, she rode him the best she could and tried hard to hold on. she screamed every time he went in, he was going so fast. she jumped off of him to let out the excess she had in her which was mixed up with his own thick liquid. he just watched her face, how mangled and twisted it was, how much pleasure she was in. he pulled her back on top of him, regardless of what was currently coming out of her abused hole and he pumped up and down, each time a little more of Hinata's flooded out, until he released inside of her.
she grinded into him a little bit more just to ride out the remainder of her orgasm, he gave low grunts for every time she rubbed up against him. he was so tired, so sweaty, he just enjoyed watching her get off. panting, breasts plopping up and down. she finally removed herself from him, a pool of mixed fluids falling out of her sex and onto the Uchiha's chest but he didn't care. the entire night was really not for him, it was for her. she collapsed down next to him and he kissed her again.
"Tell me you love me." she tried to say in a full voice but it came out so faint, her head was still spinning. she shut her eyes so she could concentrate fully on his sweet words.
"Lets leave." he spoke. her eyes opened slowly to look into his own but he wasn't looking at her, he was looking right passed her. his expression was thoughtful but blank. "Lets leave the politics behind. We can cash out, sell all our land and just leave."
There became a long pause between them while they both thought of the impossibilities of that actually happening. "You can't blame politics for what you do." she lashed unintentionally, she didn't even raise her voice but it hurt him to hear.
"I'm ready to crawl on my knees." he repeated what he vowed before but it meant barely anything to her when he said it. he always spoke of some uncertain task or future that only became half of what was promised.
It didn't matter at all, he still hadn't answered her initial question. "Do you?"
he moved his gaze away and it nearly stopped her heart, while pieces were coming back together she now felt broken again. she followed his eyes with her own as if to crack a code, she caught his mistake, his waver. "Hinata, you're beautiful."
He was doing it again, throwing out random compliments to replace actual love. What was wrong now? why wouldn't he say it? he always said it before, even when she didn't want to hear it. Now he was suddenly in denial? confused? "Sasuke, don't you love me."
He sighed. "Not right now." her eyes widened in shock. "There are too many other women who think I care for them, I don't really have my feelings in order right now."
he was blowing her mind, he constantly did this and she hated it, broke her down in the worst way. even worse was he was looking into her eyes with this youthfully dead tone. she could feel him analyzing how her emotions stormed inside of her. why did he do all this? was he just sick of fucking whores? she got up, releasing herself from his vice. she couldn't come back to this. not again.
he grabbed her by her waist and pulled her back, he wasn't going to let this happen again. he wasn't going to let her go. "I'm just a monster. when I look at you I feel like there must be some good in me if this fucking gorgeous woman loves me so much. those other girls mean nothing to me, you are sacred."
she was breathless, he'd done it again. "....I want them gone." she said, he almost noted a hint of a smile on her mouth. "All of them."
"You have to give up Naruto then." he replied seriously.
"I...I can't do that." she whimpered pitifully and Sasuke rolled his eyes, if it wasn't one thing with this girl it was another. It wasn't meant to be so persistent, he was a good person and she realized that her behavior towards him was horrible. He was very good to her, she'd loved to love him but he wasn't the one she was accustomed to, he wasn't the one she loved. In another world they were perfect for each other but they simply lived different lives, had different thoughts, believed different things. She married her father and turned into his female form, she and her husband adored similar things and followed similar principles. Naruto couldn't have understood.
Sasuke cocked a brow with the most gruesome thoughts brewing in his head, he was considering a brand of murder. "You weren't sleeping together were you?" the jealousy in his tone was running over like the 23rd Psalm.
she simple shook her head, rather than answering verbally.
"But he tried it?" Sasuke tried to elaborate, holding his thoughts in for the end. His teeth began to clench together tightly.
she looked down at her hands, not quite responding to him but occasionally glancing up to see if he was still watching her. he was. his eyes bored into her's and he knew instantly. "Sasuke, it's okay."
He ignored her, flipping over on his other side and pulling the blanket over his naked body. she touched his back in an effort to bring some sort of connection. "Please don't do anything drastic."
it was pointless, she'd have better luck trying to move the moon's position. His mind would never stop running in and out of thoughts on exactly what they did together, what they were to each other. All the possibilities. All the things they may have done, all the things he may have tried. He felt as though she was tainted, spoiled, stained by his stupidity. It was unfair that she would give herself to someone so undeserving. Unlike her, he associated with beautiful, flawless and worthy women who were fit to share his bed. Naruto didn't even deserve to breathe the same air as Hinata.
Life on TV
it's random and means nothing to me
I'm writing down what I cannot see
wanna wake up in a dream
whoa whoa
they're telling me its beautiful
I believe but them but will I ever know?
The world behind my wall.
Whoa whoa
the sun will shine like never before
one day I will be ready to go
see the world behind my wall
trains in the sky are traveling
through fragments of time
they're taking me to parts of my mind
that no one can find
I'm ready to fall
I'm ready to crawl on my knees
to know it all
I'm ready to heal
I'm ready to feel
take me there
please understand that I am aware that the sexual scene was really graphic. I didn't write it, I got a friend of mine to help me with it. I stated that it was very weird and rude(I think) but he insisted that it was fine. I'm so so so so sorry for anyone that is offended by it. You know I love you guys. All my beautiful readers. I would have gone without the part but it would leave a huge gap in the chapter, so there you go. This is not the end, there will be at least 4 chapters after this :3
I'm looking so forward to my next story! I've already started writing it but I won't post it until I'm completely done with The Mistress!!!!
~LazyhappyLucky