Disclaimer: I don't own Grey's, Or Shrek.

AN: NO SPOILERS PLEASE! And Juni, for the purposes of this story, Lexie and Amelia have encountered each other briefly in the past. Also, they do meet in ep 8x15 of Grey's, if you haven't seen that yet.

"She came to Mass-Gen once when she was a Fellow with that hotshot Neuro surgeon" Lexie explained. "I heard she went rogue on a patient and got fired.. You?"

"She's Derek's sister" Meredith sighed, before turning back to their new companion, who was now smashing the faulty holographic projector. "Amelia, aren't you supposed to be at his Baby Shower thing?"

The youngest Dr. Shepherd looked up, surprised.

"That was Today?"

"Yes.." said Meredith, thinking her sister-in-law seemed a little off today.

"Oops" Amelia chuckled sheepishly. "You'll have to apologise to him for me. But, you know I'm in the process of recovering from a drug problem, right?"

"Yeah" Meredith nodded. "Uh, how's that going?"

"Good!" Amelia grinned. "As part of my recovery, I'm taking a short escape to the tranquility of nature to find my divine purpose." A fly buzzed past Amelia's face. "Back off! Don't give me any bad vibes!" she shrieked, batting the fly away before turning back to our heroes, seemingly calm once again. "Anyone for snacks and beverages?"

"We're kind of strapped for time" Cristina forced a smile, as she and Izzie took a few steps backwards. "So no."

"Aw, come on" Amelia rushed back into the practice, and soon returned with a tray of cupcakes with rocks quite obviously poking out of them. "Don't you want to try some of my famous Rock au Gratin cupcakes?" She took a bite of one, and the group winced at the crunch. Amelia grinned, now sporting one chipped tooth. "Very organic!"

"Do you really think she's sober?" Izzie whispered to Cristina.

"No" Cristina replied, "But do you see anyone else popping up to help us?"

"Really, no thanks" Meredith chuckled nervously. "I, uh, just ate a boulder on my way here. What would be great is if you could tell us the way back to Seattle Grace from here.."

"I still didn't say I was going" Lexie frowned.

"I know. I did" Meredith poked a finger at Lexie's chest, apparently forgetting her earlier decision to try a gentler approach. "You've got a lot of people counting on you, and I'm not going to let you weasel out of it!"

"Uh, guys.." Amelia tried to cut in.

"If it's such a great job, why don't you do it?" Lexie scowled.

"I'm not good with confrontations.." said Amelia nervously.

"That's it!" Meredith snapped, "No more Miss Nice Girl!"

"That was your Miss Nice girl?" Lexie scoffed.

"Yeah, and I'm going to miss her!"

"Please stop.."

"Why don't you just go mess with other people's emotions and leave me alone!" Lexie yelled.

"Ouch" Izzie winced.

"That was harsh" Cristina agreed.

"Oh, making a little crack about dark and twisty people, huh?" Meredith growled. "Well, if you don't get your little butt to Seattle Grace I'll kick it there myself!"

"STOP!" Amelia shrieked, forcing the others to cover their ears. "STOP! PLEASE, JUST STOP!"

"Okay, okay, we'll stop!" cried Meredith.

"They've stopped arguing, now for the love of god, shut up!" Cristina yelled.

Amelia slowly began to calm down.

"Deep healing breaths, deep healing breaths.. Okay, feeling a little better.."

"Great! So, about our directions to Seattle Grace.." Meredith prodded.

"Well, I could tell you, if you two" she pointed at The Sisters Grey, "Weren't in the middle of a self-destructive rage spiral."

"Self-destructive rage spiral?" asked Lexie, eyes widening slightly. Were they really that bad?

"Amelia, are you going to help us or not?" Meredith frowned.

"Sure. But only after you take.. A Journey To Your Soul!" She wiggled her fingers spookily.

"Yeah, not going to happen" said Meredith, crossing her arms.

"Well, it's either that or Primal Scream Therapy." Amelia took a deep breath, and Meredith clapped a hand over her mouth.

"Journey To The Soul it is!"

That night, the group sat around a campfire. It seemed like a normal fire to the others, but Amelia swore it held the answer to their heart's deepest fears and desires.

"Alright" she began, "Meredith, look into the Fires of Truth and tell me what you see."

Meredith rolled her eyes, but did as she was told. She yelped as the image of a crib seemed to form in the smoke, and quickly blew it away.

"I see a Craniotomy!" she grinned a little too widely, hoping to hide the truth.

Amelia raised an eyebrow as though she didn't really believe her, but didn't push it.

"Okay. Lexie, how about you?"

"This is stupid.." Lexie grumbled. Amelia slapped her in the back of the head. Ouch!"

"The only thing stupid is the one who said it! Now look!"

"Okay" Lexie sighed, gazing into the smoke. "I see.. I see a nest, with a Mother Bird and a Father Bird, and two babies." A small smile spread across her face. "Oh.. but now the second baby bird is going off to have her own babies. There's something wrong with the Mother Bird, she's dying, she.. She's dead." Lexie was fighting back tears. "Now the Father Bird.. The Father Bird has his own problems now, he doesn't have time for the other baby bird. He's ignoring her. He doesn't realise she still needs him. She still needs him!"

Seeing the younger girl in such distress, Amelia quickly doused the fire.

Everyone stared at Lexie, shocked.

"I get it, okay?" Lexie yelled, tears streaming down her face. "The last baby bird is me. So what?" She fled from the group, sobbing. "So what?"

Meredith felt a little sick. Lexie's life obviously wasn't as bright and shiny as she thought. Hating herself, she raced of after her little sister.

Meredith soon found her laying atop a nearby hill staring up at the stars, wiping the occasional tear from her eyes.

"Lexie.."

"Keep smilin', keep shinin', knowing you can always count on me, for sure. That's what friends are for!"

"Amelia!" Meredith snapped, annoyed.

"I thought I could set the mood" Amelia shrugged. "For your heart to heart chat."

Meredith glared at her.

"Okay, leaving now.." Amelia slowly backed away down the hill.

"Lexie, I'm sorry" Meredith sighed. "I didn't know about your Mom.."

"I know you want me to be the Chief" said Lexie softly. "But I can't.."

"I know what it feels like to not feel ready for something" said Meredith, laying beside her. "It's okay to be afraid. Even dark and twisty people get scared sometimes."

"I'm not just scared. I'm not cut out for this job. Nobody's going to take orders from a stupid little Intern just because she has a photographic memory. Our Dad didn't listen when I asked him to get sober.."

"For what it's worth, I don't have great memories of our Dad either" Meredith sighed again. "He was just the guy who poured my cereal in the Morning. And the guy who didn't fight for me when my Mother kicked him out." She paused. "Though I guess to be fair, my Mom wasn't the easiest person to fight."

"Doesn't matter" Lexie murmured. "A child needs someone to fight for them, since they can't do it for themselves."

"That's exactly what my friend Arizona says" Meredith smiled. "She's a Peds Attending, you'd like her."

"Was your Mom really that bad?"

"She tried to kill herself while I was in the room."

"What?" Lexie gasped.

"Mhmm. She survived though, I remembered how to call an Ambulance in time."

They fell silent for a while.

"I.." Lexie started. "Nevermind.."

"What?" Meredith frowned.

"It's probably stupid.."

"Lexie, tell me" Meredith prodded."

"I wish you'd grown up with us" she said finally. "Dad was great when we were kids, the problems only started after Mom died."

"I think I would have liked that too. And Lexie, I'm sorry I called you a loser."

"It's okay. Everybody else does.."

"That is exactly why it's not okay" Meredith frowned.

"Even if I am one?" Lexie sighed.

Meredith frowned. Somebody had really messed this girl up.

"Hey, I know it might be hard to believe with my obviously sweet disposition" Meredith batted her eyelashes, making Lexie giggle, "But people used to say some pretty horrible things about me. And for a while, I believed them. But, if you're strong enough, you can choose to ignore the names people call you and just trust who you are."

Lexie was silent, mulling over Meredith's words.

"Meredith?"

"Mmhmm?"

"As sisters go, you're not bad."

"Thanks, Lexie" Meredith smiled. "You know it's weird, but on my first adventure with Izzie, when I rescued Derek, I was telling her some constellations I made up. One of them was you."

"Really?"

"Yeah" Meredith chuckled. "She thought you were the Moon."

Lexie collapsed into a fit of giggles, and as she and her sister laughed together, Meredith began to think that things might turn out okay after all.