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2 Months Later
Bella's POV
I am in her embrace, we are laying naked on a beach. The gentle, cool wind hugs our bodies. The contrast of the beige sand and cerulean blue water makes for a beautiful sight. I stare at the woman who is laying at my side. She is hovering over me slightly. The sunlight shining through her hair makes her look like a goddess. Her soft lips pepper light kisses across my jaw and down my neck. I can't help the absolutely giddy smile that breaks out on my face. She looks up at me and laughs happily.
"Hey!" I swat her butt playfully. "Why are you laughing at me?" I ask feigning hurt. She smiles then kisses my pouting lips.
"I'm not laughing at you baby. I'm just happy. And I love seeing you smile like that. That makes me really really happy" she says against my face. I bring my hand to her face and caress it in adoration. Then I run my fingers through her blond tresses. I look at her blue orbs and sigh in contentment.
"My love for you is infinite. It's know no bounds of time and space" I whisper to her.
"My love for you is pure. It knows no darkness and fear" I whispers back to me softly.
"My love for you is everything. It's is all I see and all that I want" I tell her.
"My love for you is everywhere my Bella" she tells me sweetly.
"It is here," she says and she puts her hand on my head.
"And here," she says and puts her hand over where my heart is.
"And here" she says and puts her hand over my pregnant stomach.
I gasp and rise up quickly from the couch. I gasp for air a couple of more times before I manage to calm down. Then I look around the room, slightly disoriented.
Calm down Bella. You are home. You just fell asleep while watching a movie. You were dreaming. About Rose. Fuck again! But this was different. This is the first time I have been pregnant in a dream about her.
I sigh and shake my head to rid myself of the dream and my thoughts of her. I grab my phone that is on the coffee table and look at it. I check the time and see that it is 1:17 in P.M. Then I see a text from Edward.
Hi love. Can't make it to doctors today. Car still in the shop. Need yours. Asked-
The knock on the door causes me to look up.
Who is that? Might be the crib I ordered a couple of weeks ago.
I put my phone down and go to answer it. I open the door and my mouth drops.
"Rose?" I croak out. There she is in all her luscious glory, as if my dream called her to me. She is dressed in black leggings, black high heeled boots, a white tang top and a black leather jacket.
She looks so badass, and so hot.
"Hey" she replies back, looking at me oddly from my response.
"Sorry sorry, I just didn't know you were coming over" I stutter nervously.
"Edward didn't tell you? Wouldn't surprise me that the prick forgot to mention it. Said he wanted Alice and I to go with you to some appointment" she tells me. I scrunch my face up in confusion, but then remember my politeness and let her in. My eyes can't help but to glace at her round backside.
I swear Rose has the best ass.
I bite my lip and nod slightly in agreement with myself. I glance at the couch and move to straighten it up.
Don't want her to think I am a slob…Who cares what she thinks?! Aw fuck it I do!
When I finish cleaning off the couch, I grab my phone and read the rest of Edwards's text message.
Can't make it to doctors today. Car still in the shop. Need yours. Asked Rose and Alice go with you. Thought you could use the company. I'm sorry sweetheart. I love you!
"Ohhhhh" I utter in understanding. Rose is playing with her phone when I look back at her.
"Where is Alice?" I asked.
"She had to go meet with her lawyer about the divorce and Jasper's case. She says she will meet us after the appointment" she tells me without looking up.
"Oh alright. Well I'm gonna go upstairs and get ready. I would have been ready before but I fell asleep" I tell her.
"Okay" she responds again without looking up. I sigh and head up the stairs
This is going to be a long day. Ugh! Why did Edward do this to me! It's not his fault, he was just trying to be nice and made sure I had support. But Rose of all people? Karma is really biting me in the ass.
I dress myself as quickly as I can, in black leggings and a long sleeved sky blue sweater. I do my hair up in a bun and put on the new gold heart locket that I bought. It's the baby's heart locket, but I thought that it would be more significant if I wore it throughout my pregnancy. Once I am done, I look at myself in the mirror and my eyes focus on my baby bump. I'm showing now. I smile at my reflection and rub my stomach.
"You are growing every day. Making mommy bigger and bigger huh? I can't wait to see you" I say to the baby. With one last tummy rub, I grab my keys, and a light tan jacket and head downstairs. I see Rose still playing on her phone. She is too still. And her stillness looks forced.
"I'm ready" I state to get her attention. She looks up and her face is expressionless. She gets up and moves to the front door. I follow her and put my jacket on then lock the front door. Parked in front of my house is her bright red mustang. I reach to the passenger side and before I can open the door, her hands reaches for the handle. To my surprise she opens the door for me. I look up at her and she is looking at me with a cocked eyebrow.
"Well are you gonna get in or what?" she says, some impatience in her voice.
"Sorry, thanks." I say quietly and get into the car. She shuts my door then gets into the driver seat and we head off. There was an uncomfortable silence in the car for about five minutes, though it felt like much longer.
"Do you know where to go?" I say breaking the silence,
"Yeah, I have been there a couple of times before." she replies. More silence.
"Why did you agree to take me" I say boldly, again breaking the silence. Her eyes glance at me briefly, then looks back at the road.
"Had nothing to do for the afternoon. It was something to do" she says calmly and turn her eyes back towards the road. I look at her and repeat in my head what she just said. Tears start to flow from my eyes.
So, just something to do huh? Was I just something to do?! Was I just another fuck and then you move on to the next one?! Ugh! Maybe she didn't mean it that way. Am I overreacting? I don't know and honestly I don't care! I'm hurt dammit!
I felt all the emotions that I had trying to bury deep inside of me started to spill out, hurt, resentment, guilty, lust and love.
"We can't just pretend like it never happened!" I blurt out with a shaky crying voice.
"Yes we can" she answers evenly and she keeps her eyes straight.
"I don't want to pretend Rose! I don't want to fucking forget!" I yell out my true feelings, tears streaming down my face.
"We have to!" she barks back at me. Her shouts causes me to burst out in tears and I start to sob shamelessly.
"Oh shit! Fuck…Bella don't cry" she says immediately. She pulls over and stops the car and I can feel her eyes on me.
"Bella, please don't…just don't-" I hear her voice crack at the end of her sentence. This causes me to look up at her. She looks beautiful as always, her hair straightened perfectly, not a strand out of place, her lips stained a fiery red form her lipstick. Her smoky eye shadow pops on her porcelain skin, but also from her eyes come a trail of tears stained from her black mascara. And in her eyes, I see it too, everything I was feeling, the hurt, the resentment, the guilt, the lust, and the love.
"Rose" I whisper to her in a silent plea. She quickly takes me into her arms into a tight hug. I instant put my arms around her. She buries her face in my neck. I feel her tears against my skin and this causes fresh ones to fall from my eyes. We hold onto to each other for dear life and cry for ourselves and each other. Once our tears subside, we don't let go. We just stay there holding each other.
"You make me feel the same way I make you feel. Don't think for a second that I don't have feelings for you" she whispers to me suddenly. Shock grips me then warmth spreads over my body as I hear words I wanted to hear for so long.
"But we shouldn't act on them. We crossed a line. You know we did" she whispers to me again.
"I know" I respond quietly. Suddenly she starts to rub my protruding stomach. I look down at her hand over my stomach and warmth fills be again.
"I think you are going to be a great mother. And I think you will have a beautiful baby" she says. I smile bigger than I have in a long time. I look down at her, she is already looking at me, and has a small smile on her face too. I look up and glance at our surroundings. We were already in the parking lot of the doctor's office. I didn't realize it before. I look at the time and see it is five minutes away from my appointment time.
"I should go in. Are you sure you want to come? I don't want you to be uncomfortable or in pain being there" I say. She gets up from our embrace and I immediately miss being close to her.
"I'm a big girl Bells, I can handle it" she says in very Rosalie like fashion. I nod, and we both get out of the car and head into the office together.
"It's always so cold" I say as Doctor Young squeezes gel onto stomach. Both Doctor Young and Rosalie let out a chuckle. I was thankful that Doctor Young said it was okay for Rosalie to be with me in the room. I had really wanted her there. And time with her was so precious, I didn't want to be away from her.
"So how have you been feeling lately Bella?" Doctor Young asks kindly as she gets everything situated for all of us to see the baby.
"I have been feeling okay. I have a little back pain but nothing too bad. And my nausea isn't so bad anymore" I tell her.
"Good good. What about your stress levels? Are you stressing as much as you were before?" She asks. I pause before I answer the question. I bite my lip and automatically look at Rosalie for her reaction. She looks at me concerned and a bit mad.
Shit, she looks like she is gonna ask about that later, I just know it. But I gotta be honest. I'm not putting to baby's health at risk. It's cute that she us concerned though.
I fight a smile.
"Well, it hasn't increased," I started with the positives. "But it is about the same. I am trying to lower it. Hot baths usually help" I say
"Well hot baths are a good method to lower stress, but I think that you should try multiple methods to do so. I suggest that you try exercise, for example yoga. That is also a great way to help lower tension" Doctor Young tells me expertly. I nod and consider her advice.
"Well then, are we ready to see the baby?" Doctor Young asks the both of us smiling.
"Yes!" I almost squeal out. Rosalie nods and gives a small smile.
"Today I should be able to tell you the sex of the baby. Would you like to know?" Doctor Young asks. I pause again at this question.
Edward and I never discussed this. I really want to know but what if he wants it to be a surprise? Ugh but I wanna know, the suspense is killing me! I'm carrying the baby so I'm making the decision!
"I want to know" I say confidently. "Alright let's take a look" Doctor Young says and proceeds to show us the baby. I suddenly get really nervous and grabs Rosalie's hand. Her head whips over to look at me so she must be surprised. I almost withdraw my hand in fear I pushed her away. But heart warms when she holds my hand tight and gives it a squeeze. I look over to the screen in wonderment, I am always so amazed when I see that tiny life growing inside of me.
"It's a girl" Doctor Young says breaking the silence.
"A girl" I repeat smiling brightly. "I really wanted a girl!" I exclaim. I burst out into happy tears at the news. I am suddenly enveloped into a tight hug. The sweet raspberry smell tells me its Rose hugging me so I quickly hold her against me.
"I'm happy for you Bells," she whispers in my ear, then kisses it. My heart start sounding wildly and takes everything in me to stop myself from kissing her.
"Congratulations Mrs. Cullen" Doctor Young says while smiling brightly at me.
"Thank you" I respond teary eyes once I reluctantly leave Rosalie's embrace. Doctor young cleans me off and gives me all the paper work and instructions that I need. We finally set out and leave the office.
"Thanks for coming with me" I tell Rose once we are driving.
"You are welcome" she says and gives a small smile.
"Are you sure you are okay?" I ask in concern. She sighs and I can see her rolling her eyes.
Typical Rose.
"Yeah I'm fine. But I'll admit… it was a little hard. But I'm okay" she says to me. I reach out to grab her free hand, but her phone starts buzzing stops me in my tracks. She quickly answer it and puts it on speaker.
"What," Rosalie says bluntly.
"You have to stop answering the phone like that" Alice says annoyed, soprano voice comes thought the phone. Rose smirks at that.
"Oh hey Al, you are on speaker. Bella and I just left the appointment" Rose tells her.
"Hey Bella! How did it go? "Alice asks me.
"It's went great. We found out it's a girl" I say and I start smiling again.
"A girl?!" Alice squeals "That's amazing, Bella I am so happy for you! Oh my goodness, we have so much work to do! Now that we know the sex of the baby, we can fully prepare! We have to get clothes, shoes, and a bassinet! Or maybe a crib! And bottles! Toys, lots of toys! And-"
"Slow the fuck down motor mouth" Rosalie interjects Alice's speech. "We all know you are a shopaholic and have a serious problem but leave the shopping to Bella here, will you? She is the one actually having the baby" Rosalie says, in a matter of fact tone. The over dramatic sigh that's comes from Alice cause me to chuckle.
"Yeah yeah I know, but that doesn't mean I can't help!" Alice defends.
"I want Alice to help, I am gonna need a second opinion on a lot of things" I say to them both.
"Oh so you're on her side now" Rose says feigning betrayal.
"I'm not picking sides! You can help too if you want. Might even put you on shopping duty with Alice" I shoot her a playful smirk. She rolls her eyes and shakes her head smiling.
She didn't say no. Maybe she really doesn't want to help.
Alice's giggles at our playful disagreement.
"I think we should celebrate! Let's go out! Or throw and impromptu party!" Alice suggests gleefully.
"I'm not really the go out or party type right now Al" I say rubbing my belly and thinking of my aching back.
"What about a girl's night in then? We can do it at my place" Rosalie suggests. I look at her a bit surprised, but nod in agreement.
"That's a great idea Rosie! I will pick up some ice cream, chips, Chinese takeout, and mani/pedi items. See you two soon!" Alice chirps to us. We all agree and say our goodbyes and Rosalie hangs up.
"You mind taking me home to get some clothes?" I ask Rose.
"Sure I can do that" she says and she drives us back to my house. We both get inside and I shout a "I won't be long" to her when I get upstairs. I get an overnight bag and start to pack my things. I see my phone light up. I see Edwards name flash so I pick up.
"Hey" I say.
"Hey love, I just got a break so I called to see how you were doing. How was the appointment?
"It's was good" I say immediately then I force myself to pause
Do I want to tell him the sex of the baby right now? Like over the phone? Maybe I should surprise him with it. A nice surprise. I should at least tell him in person, I feel like I owe him that.
"I got see the baby, it was nice as always. I brought home another sonogram picture" I finish smoothly, successfully covering my pause.
"That's great honey, text me the picture when you get the chance" he requests.
"I will. By the way, I won't be here tonight. Rose, Alice, and I are having a girl's night at Roses place" I tell him.
"Okay honey, that's should be fun. I will miss you tonight though" he tells me sweetly.
"I will miss you too" I lie. The usual twinge guilt that comes with lying stabs at me.
"Oh, I meant to ask you. Have you talked to Seth lately?" he asks. I raise an eyebrow.
"We texted a little bit yesterday, but not really. Why?" I ask as I start to put all the things I gathered it my overnight bag.
"No reason. I...I-uh-was just wondering. Um, you know what, I have to go! They need me down the hall. I love you honey!" he says and abruptly hangs up. I looked at the phone surprised and scrunch up my face in confusion.
That was really weird. Since when does he care about Seth? And Edward almost never stutters like that.
I brush off the incident, deeming it as nothing and I finish getting everything. Then Rosalie and I head over to her place.
"I'm kinda hungry" I say once we get inside.
"Me too. And Alice still isn't here with the food. She usually isn't this damn slow. Anyways, I'll make us some sandwiches" she says and heads over to the kitchen. I almost follow her, but then I remember that I am still holding my things. I go to the living in room and put them down. I set everything down on the couch. As soon as I stand up right, someone grabs me and holds me to them. They quickly cover my mouth so that the screams that are coming out of me are muffled. I start to struggle wildly in an attempt to free myself, but the cold metal that suddenly presses against my forehead cause me to freeze. The realization of a gun being pressed against my skull makes my blood run cold.