Living the Life
Chapter 14 – Jeopardy
EPOV
I woke up in the middle of the night to Bella's voice.
"Edward!" she cried out in her sleep. I sat up and leaned over her before attempting to wake her up.
"Bella, baby, wake up," I said as I softly shook her shoulder.
"No! Don't hurt him! Edward!" she screamed.
"Bella! I'm okay, no one's hurting me!" I called out. I shook her shoulder a little harder and called her name over and over.
This happens often. Bella has her good nights, and her bad nights. This happens to be a bad night.
Bella finally opened her eyes and looked at me frantically. Tears started pouring down her cheeks as she sat up and gripped onto me. I held her firmly in my arms.
"Nobody's hurting me," I whispered into her shoulder.
"It was horrible, Edward," she sobbed.
"I know, baby, I know. What happened in it?"
"It was just blackness and I was walking around. I heard James' laughter and then I saw you and him. He had a gun and you were just standing there."
"James is in jail. He's staying there for a long time," I assured her as I rocked her in my arms.
"But he's still fucking here, Edward! He's made me so messed up! I'm bitchy all the time! I'm having nightmares! He's getting to me mentally even if he isn't physically here!" she yelled angrily. She pushed away from me and stood up, crossing her arms and looking away from me. This, much to my dislike, also happens a lot.
I sighed and sat on her bed and just watched her. I quickly learned last time I tried to walk up to her that if I ever wanted her to calm down that I shouldn't go over to her.
"Bella, come here," I pleaded. She stood adamant where she was. "Maybe you should talk to someone. A professional," I said hesitantly. She looked at me like I asked her to kill herself.
"You've got to be kidding me! Not this bullshit again! First Rose, now you!" she groaned.
"You're having nightmares almost every night. I hate seeing you like this!"
"Give me some time! I'm not going to get over this quickly, Edward. It took me years to get over the abuse I went through with Phil the first time. And that wasn't even close to what's happening now."
"I understand that, Bella. Really, I do. I'm not trying to upset you either. I just want you to get better."
"You're not doing a very good job," she muttered.
"Bella, come lie down," I sighed. "Alice and Jasper's engagement party is today. It's nearly four. Just come sleep for a little while longer."
"I'm sleeping on the couch," she said as she walked out. I groaned and got up to go after her. I threw her over my shoulder and carried her into our room with her protesting.
"God damn it, Edward! Put me down!" she screamed. I set her on the bed and when she went to get up I pinned her down and kneeled over her so that we were face to face.
"Just lie down and go to sleep. If you don't want to be in the same room as me, fine. I've got the couch. This was your room first. Just get some damned sleep," I said angrily before I got up. I wasn't necessarily angry at her; I just didn't like this situation we were always in. She gave up with an angry sigh. I walked out of the room and into the kitchen. I grabbed a beer and went into the living room. I turned the TV on so that I could just barely hear it. I sipped my beer as I watched MTV's Cribs.
There was no way I was falling back asleep. I watched an array of different shows and movies while I waited for Bella to wake up again. She came downstairs around eight and didn't look at me as she went into the kitchen. I heard her making coffee. Minutes later she came out and sat across the room from me with a mug off coffee. She finished her coffee and got up. She put her mug in the kitchen before going up to our room.
She came back down dressed and with shoes on.
"Where are you going?" I asked.
"Your house," she said, still angry. "I'm getting ready over there." She hadn't called it my house in a while since we both pretty much moved over here. Was she kicking me out? About ten minutes after she left I got up, changed into dress pants and a button up green dress shirt and left too. I got to my house and went over to the living room where the guys were.
"Bella is pissed, man. What did you do this time?" Emmett asked.
"I suggested her talking to a professional," I grumbled. "I think she kicked me out."
"You're kidding!" Jasper said surprised.
"Not at all," I frowned. "I asked her where she was going when she was about to leave to come here and she said 'your house' with an emphasis on 'your'."
"You guys seem to be fighting more and more," Jasper pointed out.
"Yeah, I know. James is jeopardizing our relationship. And he's not even fucking here! He's in a jail cell guarded twenty-four-seven and he's ruining our relationship. Fuck, sometimes I wish that Bella would have killed him," I said angrily.
"Edward, don't say shit like that," Emmett said. "Just calm down. It'll all work out in the end."
"You better be right," I sighed.
BPOV
I walked to Alice's house thinking about how big of a bitch I was being. I was about to turn back but I didn't need to apologize. Edward wanted me to fucking see a psychiatrist. I groaned before I knocked on the door. Emmett answered cheerfully and I pushed past him.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
"Edward fucking Cullen is what's wrong," I seethed. I walked right up to Alice's room and slammed the door.
Alice and Rose looked up at me and quickly came over and pulled me into a hug.
"What happened?" Rose asked.
"We got into a fight," I groaned. "Again." I explained to them what happened between Edward and me within the past few hours.
"Did you kick him out?" Alice asked.
"I don't know. I'm angry with him but I don't want to end our relationship. I still love him. Nothing's going to change that. Not even a stupid dispute."
"You guys seem to be fighting a lot lately," Alice said. I nodded and looked at the ground.
"Well, everything with work out," Rose said. I gave a small smile. The three of us went into Alice's bathroom and started getting ready. Alice agreed to let me do my own hair and make-up this time. I made my make-up look natural, bringing out my eye color. After I finished applying foundation to make my skin look a little tanner I started on my hair. I crimped it and brushed it out lightly so that it wasn't so profound.
"Son of a bitch," Rose growled.
"What?" I asked as I looked up at her.
"I burned my forehead," she groaned as she put the curling iron down with more force than necessary.
"Put a damp washcloth on it before you get a bump," I said. Rose wet a washcloth and pressed it lightly to her forehead and winced.
"Beauty hurts," Alice joked. Alice straightened her hair and put some volume conditioner in it. After we finished out hair and make-up we went out to her room and changed into our dresses. Alice was wearing a strapless green dress that stopped at her knees. Right under the bust looked like the material was wrapped around a few times before flowing down.
Rose wore a deep red dress that stopped a few inches above her knees. It was halter topped and the neckline went down to the valley between her breasts before it stopped. The bottom had the accordion affect. This dress made her legs look like they went on forever.
My dress was blue and strapless and stopped right above my knees. The chest had stitched embroidery in shapes of diamonds and circles. From the chest it flowed down loosely. In the middle the fabric was tied in a drooping bow and excess fabric flowed down.
Once we were done we started heading downstairs. I slowly made my way to grab my handbag that matched my dress and then went to put on my flats. I sighed and joined them reluctantly. We made our way down the stairs and were met by the guys. I kept my distance from Edward, still not overly happy with him. He didn't even bother looking at me.
"Alright, let's go!" Alice squealed. We all walked out and headed to the banquet hall that the party was being held at. Edward tried putting his arm around my shoulders but I shrugged it off. He grabbed my arm gently and stopped me from walking. Everyone stopped and looked at us.
"We'll catch up with you," Edward said.
"No, I'm going," I said as I started walking towards the others.
"Bella, stop," Edward said sternly. "Go on guys, we'll meet you there." They started walking off and Alice and Rose gave me a sympathetic look before they walked off. "What is with you today?" he asked as soon as everyone was out of hearing range.
"What is with me?" I asked sarcastically and scoffed. "You want me to fucking go see some shrink!"
"I'm worried about you, Bella! You're having nightmares almost every night and we're fighting more and more! I don't know what to do anymore!"
"Of course I'm having nightmares, Edward! Give me one reason why I shouldn't! The way we're fighting isn't helping either," I said as I crossed my arms.
"Bella, there's something going on in that head of yours that shouldn't be happening! You need help!"
"I don't need help from a professional! I'm fine!"
"No you're not! Bella, look at you!" he said.
"God, I can't even look at you right now!" I groaned. I started walking again.
"You won't have to. I'll be out by tomorrow morning, no need to worry," he called after me. I stopped in my tracks and whirled around.
"You bastard! You're breaking up with me?" I yelled. He looked at me confused. I fumbled with the ring before I got it off of my finger. "Fine, take this then," I said as I gave him the ring before walking off with tears streaming out of my eyes. Edward just stood there watching me walk off. I made sure that my tears were stopped by the time I got to the party. I plastered a smile on my face and walked inside.
Alice and Rose came over to me.
"Are you okay?" Alice asked. I shrugged. "What happened?" I held up my left hand and they gasped before hugging me again.
"I need tequila," I said. We went over to the bar and got a round of shots for the three of us. "Cheers," I said before we tapped our glasses together and taking our shots. I saw my parents come over and I smiled at them.
"Hey, Bella! You aren't driving home, right?" Charlie asked.
"No, I'm walking," I smiled.
"Good, wouldn't want to arrest my own daughter," he chuckled. I smiled and took another shot. My mom hugged me and then held my hands as she gave me the once over.
"You look beautiful, dear," she smiled. I didn't feel beautiful. I felt like I was going to break. My heart was shattering slowly as realization sank in that I no longer had a fiancé.
"Thanks," I smiled. "Where's Nessie?"
"She's at home with our neighbor. She would have gotten bored here anyways." I nodded.
"Excuse me," I said as I went to the bathroom. I went into a stall and started crying. I choked my sobs back so I wasn't too loud. He had to choose tonight of all nights to rip my heart out. We had a fight but I didn't want to break up. I love him more than I ever thought I could. I finally stopped crying and went out to the mirror and dried my eyes. I pulled make-up out of my hand bag and reapplied it. My eyes were still red and a little puffy but you could barely tell that I was crying.
I exited the bathroom and went over to Alice and Rose. Alice handed me a shot and I smiled. I drank it and then put the glass on the table.
"How are ya holding up?" Rose asked.
"How would you be holding up if Emmett broke up with you?" I asked.
"Not good at all," she said.
"That's an understatement for how I feel."
"Excuse me ladies," Alice said with a grin.
Alice went over to Jasper and Emmett came to join Rose and me.
"Hey, Bella," he said. "Enjoying the party?"
"Best part of my day so far."
"That's only because she's got alcohol," Rose laughed. I shrugged with a small smile.
"Look who's here," Rose said as she pointed towards the door. Edward was looking around. Searching. He spotted me and started walking towards me. I got up and went out the back of the banquet hall and was surrounded by trees. Edward came out after me and came over to me.
I wiped some tears that managed to escape away and looked away from him.
"Look at me please," he said softly. I shook my head so he gently pulled my chin up so I was forced to look at him. "I'm sorry," he said sincerely as he looked at me with hurt in his eyes. I shifted my eyes to the ground and didn't say anything.
"I'm worried about you. I'm worried that whatever is going on in that beautiful head of yours is serious."
"So you break up with me? That only makes it worse," I grumbled.
"I thought you kicked me out earlier. I thought that's what you wanted. I thought you didn't want to be with me anymore."
"Have you not realized that I can't live without you?" I whispered.
"Could you find it in your heart to take me back?" he asked as he held up the ring. I held my left hand out as he put the ring on my fourth finger again. "I hate fighting with you."
"I hate fighting with you too. I always feel like my heart is breaking afterwards."
"I love you," he whispered as he lifted me up in his arms.
"I love you too," I said softly as I wrapped my arms around his neck. He set me down and kissed me sweetly. When he pulled away we walked into the engagement party hand in hand.
"When are we telling your parents?" he whispered in my ear as they came over.
"I guess now," I whispered.
"Hey Edward!" my mom said as she came over and hugged him. "I was wondering what happened to you when Bella was alone a little while ago."
"Hey, Renee. Sorry, I was running late," he smiled. Edward draped his arm over my shoulder and I held his hand in my left one.
"Bella, you seem to be wearing a ring on a very important finger," my mom pointed out. I blushed.
"Edward and I are engaged," I smiled.
"You weren't engaged ten minutes ago!"
"I've been engaged for a few weeks. We got in a fight a little earlier and temporarily called it off but we settled it," I explained.
"My baby is engaged!" she squealed. She hugged me tight before checking out the ring.
"Congrats you two," Charlie smiled.
"Thanks," we said. We went over to where our friends were and Alice and Rose smiled when they saw our entwined hands.
"Edward," Emmett said. He leaned and whispered something in Edward's ear.
"Yeah," Edward said.
"Let's do it!" Emmett cheered.
"I'll be right back," Edward told me before he kissed my cheek and walked off leaving me with Rose, Alice, and Jasper.
"What are they doing?" Alice asked.
"I have no clue," I shrugged. Edward and Emmett got up on a stage and Edward was chuckling under his breath.
"Hey, hey, everyone!" Emmett said.
"Okay," Edward started. "So, this song is dedicated to Jasper and Alice. According to Emmett," he said but Emmett cut him off.
"Woah, woah, I've got this part. We all know how Alice can be. Hyper, peppy, basically a pixie, sorry Al," Emmett smiled at her. "So as their marriage goes on they'll start to lose their loving feeling and this song will come to their mind," Emmett chuckled. The music to Loving Feeling by the Righteous Brothers came on and everyone started laughing. Edward started singing the first verse.
"You never close your eyes anymore when I kiss your lips. And there's no tenderness like before in your fingertips. You're trying hard not to show it."
Emmett chimed in with a soft "baby" before Edward finished with the last lien of the verse.
"But baby, baby I know it..." Emmett and Edward both sang the chorus.
"You've lost that lovin' feeling, whoa, that lovin' feeling, you've lost that lovin' feeling, now it's gone...gone...gone...wooooooh." Emmett sang the next verse.
"Now there's no welcome look in your eyes when I reach for you. And now you're starting to criticize little things I do. It makes me just feel like crying."
Edward was the one who did the "baby" this time before Emmett finished the verse with "'Cause baby, something in you is dying." They both sang the chorus again.
"You lost that lovin' feeling, whoa, that lovin' feeling, you've lost that lovin' feeling, now it's gone...gone...gone...woooooah" They both took turns singing the next few lines.
Edward: "Baby, baby, I get down on my knees for you."
Emmett: "If you would only love me like you used to do, yeah."
Edward: "We had a love...a love...a love you don't find every day."
Emmett: "So don't...don't...don't...don't let it slip away." Edward sang the next verse and Emmett repeated everything he said. (In parentheses)
"Baby (baby), baby (baby), I beg of you please...please, I need your love (I need your love), I need your love (I need your love), so bring it on back (So bring it on back), bring it on back (so bring it on back)." Then they both finished the song with the chorus.
"Bring back that lovin' feeling, whoa, that lovin' feeling. Bring back that lovin' feeling, 'cause it's gone...gone...gone, and I can't go on, noooo…Bring back that lovin' feeling, whoa, that lovin' feeling. Bring back that lovin' feeling, 'cause it's gone...gone..."
Everyone started clapping and the guys came down to us.
"You guys are assholes," Alice laughed. "I'm not that bad!"
"Yes you are," we all said.
"Fuck you guys," she muttered and we laughed. Emmett's parents came over to us.
"Jasper, is this your fiancé?" Mrs. McCarty asked.
"Yes, ma'am she is," Jasper smiled proudly. Mr. and Mrs. McCarty turned to face Emmett.
"Hey baby boy!" she grinned as she hugged Emmett.
"Hey ma," he said.
"Who's this?" Mr. McCarty asked.
"This is my beautiful girlfriend, Rosalie Hale. Rosie, these are my parents, Ellen and Frank McCarty."
"Hi, it's nice to meet you," Rose said as she shook their hands. They smiled at Rose.
"Eddie boy!" Ellen smiled as she hugged him.
"Ellen!" he whined as he hugged her back.
"Hey, Edward," Frank said as he shook Edward's hand.
"Ellen, Frank, this is my fiancé, Bella," he introduced. They said hello to me before they turned and walked off to go mingle.
"Come here, love," Edward said as he towed me towards his parents.
"Hello Bella," Esme said as she hugged me.
"Hey Esme," I smiled.
"Hey Bells!" Carlisle said and hugged me. "How are you feeling?"
"Hi Carlisle, I'm feeling great."
"Mom, dad," Edward said, drawing their attention. They looked up at him. "Bella and I are engaged." Esme's eyes doubled in size as she looked at my hand.
"Oh my gosh!" she squealed as she hugged Edward and then me.
"Congratulations, son," Carlisle said as he gave Edward a manly hug.
"Do you want to get out of here?" Edward asked as his parents walked away.
"More than you know," I smiled. He wrapped his arm around my shoulders and we started walking back to our house. On the way back we stopped at an ice cream shop and went inside. Edward and I split an order of mint chocolate chip as we sat in a comfortable silence.
After a few minutes we heard a woman cry in pain. We got up and saw some employees start coming over to see what was wrong. I saw a pregnant woman clutching her stomach.
"Edward, I think she's in labor," I whispered. Edward pushed through the crowd of employees and got to the woman. He helped her up out of the booth and helped her sit on the floor.
"Alright, I need some of the gloves you guys use, and some newspaper." An employee quickly walked away.
"Back up and give the woman some space," I said. I went over and sat next to her and held her hand. "What's your name?"
"Martha," she groaned in pain as another contraction hit.
"Martha, how long have these contractions been going on?" Edward asked.
"I thought they were just cramps. They've been happening all day and they just got worse."
"Did you know that your water has broken?"
"What? No," she gasped. "I'm two weeks early!" The employee brought over some latex gloves and Edward put them on. They then handed him some newspapers.
"Is it okay if I examine you?" he asked. She nodded. Edward took off Martha's panties under her skirt. "Everyone, just back off and go do something else. Close the shop and call an ambulance," Edward ordered. Everyone dispersed and Edward lifted Martha's skirt enough so that he could see. "This is going to hurt a bit," he said before he inserted two fingers into her vagina. She whimpered in pain and I lightly squeezed her hand.
"Edward, can I talk to you real quick? It'll take like one second," I said. He looked at me with an expression that said are you kidding me? but I gave him a look saying I was serious.
He sighed and got up and followed me away from Martha a little ways.
"Are you crazy?" I asked.
"Bella, I have one semester left of college. I've already been through the pregnancy portion. I know what I'm doing."
"Fine," I sighed. We went back over to Martha and Edward sat down by her legs.
"Alright, Martha. On this next contraction I want you to push. Okay?" he asked. She nodded. She started pushing when she got her next contraction and Edward worked the baby out with a few of her pushes. She squeezed my hand as she pushed. Finally, the baby came out and Edward tied off the umbilical cord and cut it.
"Congratulations, Martha. You have a son," Edward smiled. Martha smiled and Edward cleaned the baby off with a towel that an employee handed him before handing the baby to Martha.
"Thank you, Dr…"
"Cullen, Edward Cullen," he smiled.
"Thank you, Edward," Martha smiled. "Philip Edward Marshall," she murmured to her son. Edward's eyes lit up when he heard the name. When the ambulance arrived we got Martha and Philip loaded up and then we decided to head home. Edward took a quick shower before joining me in bed.
"Edward?" I said as he cuddled close to me.
"Yes, love?"
"I want to have a baby."
"Right now?" he asked as he propped himself up on an elbow.
"Well, not right now. When we get married. Can you think about it, please?"
"I'll think about it," he smiled as he kissed me softly. I smiled contently as I leaned my head on his chest. After a while, Edward drifted to sleep. I laid there for a while, not wanting to sleep. I finally got up and started pacing the room.
"Bella?" Edward asked groggily. "What's wrong?" he asked as he sat up.
"Nothing, just stretching my legs."
"Come sleep, love."
"I don't want to."
"Come here," he said as he held his arms open. I crawled onto the bed next to Edward and laid in his arms. "Why don't you want to sleep?"
"I'll have a nightmare then I'll turn into Bitch Bella again."
"You're not a bitch, love," he sighed. "Let's try something," he mused as he got up. He went over to my CD player and put in a CD. He turned it on and Debussy's composures played softly. "This always helped me when I was younger after my mom died. I used to have nightmares and Esme would always put this on." Edward laid back down next to me and held me in his arms.
The next morning I woke up with Edward still sleeping. I crawled out of his arms and went downstairs to make some coffee. I sat down at the table and slowly sipped it. There was a pounding on my door and I jumped. It's not James. It's not Phil. I kept chanting in my head as I walked over to the door. I looked out the peep hole and saw Alice. I unlocked the door and pulled it open.
"You almost gave me a fucking heart attack!" I scolded.
"Sorry," she laughed. She came inside and sat at the table. I went over to my coffee and started drinking it again.
"How was your night?" I asked.
"It was great. I was told by Jasper's parents that we need to have lots of babies," she laughed.
"Oh! Speaking of babies," I mused. "Edward delivered a baby last night."
"You're shitting me!"
"No, not at all! We were in an ice cream parlor and a woman went into labor. He just like reacted like he was an actual doctor."
"That hurts Bells," Edward chuckled from behind me. I jumped and he laughed a little. "I only have a year left of college. Speaking of which, I start classes again tomorrow."
"Boo," I pouted. "I'm not finishing college. I'm just going to write."
"You sure?" he asked. He came over and pulled out the chair next to me. He turned it and sat in it so that his chest was leaning against the back.
"Yes sir I am," I smiled.
"So," Alice said. "We need to get your wedding started," she said and I choked on my coffee. After a minute of a coughing fit I looked at her.
"What?" I said.
"We need to start planning your wedding."
"Why?"
"Well, when do you want to have it?"
"I need to talk about it with Edward first."
"Not the fall or the winter, please," he muttered.
"Alright. How about July?" I asked.
"Perfect," he smiled.
"July," I said as I turned to Alice.
"Damn, we need to do a lot!"
"What about your wedding which is, let's see, December fifth?"
"Bella, stop worrying. I have it all under control. The worrying is the maid of honor's job. Now, who is your maid of honor?"
"Jasper's my best man," Edward noted and I laughed.
"Alice, do you want to be my maid of honor?" I smiled.
"I would love to!" she squealed.
"Great," I smiled.
"Colors?" she asked as she got up and got a pad of paper. She labeled the top Edward and Bella's big hitch.
"Is blue okay?" I asked Edward.
"Blue is great," he smiled.
"Blue it is," Alice said as she jotted it down.
"What is the song you guys are going to dance to?" I looked at Edward and he shrugged.
"Skip." Alice sighed, obviously displeased with our lack of knowing.
"Daddy-daughter dance song?"
"Either Butterfly Kisses by Bob Carlisle or Because You Loved Me by Celine Dion."
"Bob Carlisle," Alice said as she jotted it down.
"Mother-son dance song?"
"Not having one," Edward muttered.
"What? Why?" I asked.
"Because we're not having one," he said.
"I think it would be nice for you and Esme to dance," I suggested.
"She isn't my mother though."
"Now that's not fair to Esme, Edward," I said.
"We'll talk about this later," he said frustrated.
"O-kay," Alice said awkwardly. "Flavor of cake?"
"What flavor do you want, Edward?"
"I don't care," he muttered, sounding bored.
"Red velvet," I sighed.
"How many guests?" Alice asked.
"Edward?" I turned to him.
"Whatever," he shrugged.
"Why are you acting like this?" I asked.
"I have no clue what you're talking about," he sighed.
"We'll come back to this later," Alice said. "Let's go look at dresses, Bells."
"Fine," I sighed. "I'll meet you outside." Alice went out to her Porsche and I turned to Edward. "Don't tell me you don't have a clue what I'm talking about because you do. What the hell is wrong with you?"
"Can't you just respect that I don't want to have a mother-son dance?" he asked.
"Just because Esme isn't your biological mother doesn't mean that you can't have a mother-son dance!"
"You're missing the point!" he said angrily.
"I have to go. We'll talk about this later," I said as I walked out. I went out to Alice's car and got into the passenger's side. Alice started driving without talking. After a few minutes Alice broke the silence.
"What happened?"
"Nothing," I shrugged. "He's just aggravating me." We got to a bridal store and walked in.
"Hi, ladies," a woman smiled. She was wearing a light blue button up shirt and a pencil skirt. Her hair was in a tight bun and she wore black square framed glasses. "My name is Adrianne. How can I help you today?"
"Hey, Adrianne," I smiled. "I'm Bella. I was kind of hoping I could look at wedding dresses."
"Sure! Right this way," she said as she lead us to racks upon racks of dresses. Alice and I searched for hours and finally I picked out a few that I liked. We went to the dressing room and I tried the first one on.
This dress had embroidery on the side with a small pick up touch to the skirt. It was an elegant one-shoulder dress. I came out and the train slid on the floor. Alice scrunched her nose.
"That makes you look, I don't know, bloated," she said. I sighed and went back into the dressing room. "Rose is on her way," Alice called.
"Okay," I called back. I put on the next dress and went out.
This dress was strapless with asymmetric ruffles going down the skirt. Alice's eyes lit up.
"This screams 'I'm gorgeous and romantic.' So you," Alice said.
"Bella! that dress looks perfect on you!" Rose squealed as she walked over to us. I grinned and looked at myself in the mirror. Alice brought over a flowery hair piece. Alice pinned back a small strand of hair back with it.
"This is you," Alice said.
"I'm afraid to buy a dress," I said softly as I looked at the ground.
"What? Why?" she asked. I sighed and sat down on the platform in front of the mirror.
"You've seen how Edward and I are acting these past few weeks!" I said loudly and Rose came over.
"Bella, you guys are just going through a rough patch! You two are madly in love, you'll be fine!"
"You don't know that though! We almost broke off our engagement yesterday!" I said. "If I buy this dress and things go bad for us…" I said not being able to finish the sentence.
"Bella, don't talk like that," Rose said. "You guys are going to be fine."
"Again, you don't know that. We're in a fight right now as it is," I grumbled.
"Why?"
"Edward is being frustrating about the wedding. He doesn't want a mother-son dance because Esme isn't his real mother," I explained.
"I don't know what to tell ya, sweetie. You both are so stubborn." I sighed and got up.
"Are you really that convinced that it isn't going to work out between you two?" Alice asked.
"I don't know. Ever since this whole James and Phil thing happened we haven't been the same."
"Buy the dress," Rose ordered. I got up and looked at myself in the mirror. I went into the dressing room and changed. I brought the dress out and took it up to the cashier.
"Did you find everything you need?" she asked.
"Yeah," I smiled.
"Would you like to put it on lay-away? You would only have to put a down-payment of half the dress price if you did so."
"Yeah, that would be great," I smiled. I paid for the down-payment and we left. They dropped me off at home and drove off again. I sighed and walked inside.
"Edward, I'm home," I called.
"Okay," he called back. I rolled my eyes and went over to where his voice came from. He was in the living room watching TV on the couch. I go over to the chair on the other side of the room and sat down. I pulled my knees up to my chest and laid my head on them as I played with the bottom of my jeans. Edward ignored me and it was like I wasn't even there.
"Edward," I said. I didn't get a response. "Edward," I said with more fervor. He took a sip of some beer but didn't look my way. "Edward!" I said loudly. He still didn't look. "You are being such an asshole!" I yelled. I through a pillow at him and he still didn't look up. I groaned as I got up, grabbed a beer from the fridge and went outside. I opened the top of the bottle and took a swig. Tears started falling down my face. I finished my beer and threw the bottle. It smashed on the ground and I got up and went up to my room. I packed a bag and went downstairs.
"I'll be back in a few days."
"Where the hell are you going?" he asked as he got up.
"Oh, so now you realize that I'm alive? Wow, I feel so blessed to know that Edward Fucking Cullen is actually paying attention to me!" I said sarcastically.
"Cut the shit, Bella," he said furiously.
"Me cut the shit? Seriously? Edward, you were just ignoring me!"
"This whole thing could have been totally avoided if you would have just dropped the mother-son dance ordeal when I said I didn't want one! You could have respected that it should be my decision because the dance is for my mother and me."
"You know, I seriously considered not buying my wedding dress because all of these fights are scaring me, Edward. I'm scared and I'm bitchy and I'm tired and I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry. I didn't mean to pressure you to have the dance," I said as tears streamed down my cheeks. I crossed my arms over my chest and let a sob escape.
"Awe, shit, Bella," Edward sighed. He came over to me and wrapped his arms around me. He rubbed my arms as I cried. "I'm sorry, I was an ass."
"I hate feeling like this," I cried. "I love you, I do, it's just this is so difficult."
"Love isn't easy, Bella, and we have had so many obstacles that nothing should be able to tear us apart. But, every fight, every little dispute we've had is doing just that though." He let me go and grabbed my hand. He pulled me to the couch. He sat down and I laid down and put my head in his lap.
"Did you buy the dress?" he asked softly.
"Half of it," I sighed.
"What?" he laughed.
"I put it on layaway. I just had to put a down-payment on it."
"I love you, there's nothing that is going to separate us. I promise," he said. I smiled up at him.
"I love you too," I said softly. He leaned down and kissed me softly. Our lips molded together with longing and passion. I shifted so that I was sitting up and straddling him. I pulled his upper lip in between mine and softly sucked. He sighed into the kiss and cupped my face in his hands. When he pulled away he kissed my lips one last time.
"I've been thinking," he said.
"And what's that?" I asked.
"Well, after we get married, you should stop taking the birth control if you want a chance at having a baby," he smiled.
"Really?" I asked, joy filling every fiber of my being.
"Yes, really. Did you actually think I would say no to having a little Edward?" he asked.
"What makes you so sure we're going to have a boy?" I laughed.
"I don't know," he chuckled. "Having a little girl would be nice too. Only if she's like Nessie," he laughed.
"Okay, babe," I laughed. Why couldn't we be like this all the time?
"Let's head up to bed," he said. I sighed.
"No fights tomorrow?" I asked.
"No fights," he smiled. We went up to our room, turned on Debussy and fell asleep.
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