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This chapter is a little bit later than I intended. Its just I've had such a busy weekend and I'm sorry that I couldn't get it out any sooner. But it's here now, so that's all that matters :D
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The Mess Hall was pretty empty when Maddie arrived, with there being only about three people in there, so she could pretty much choose where she wanted to sit.
She was glad it was empty. The last thing she wanted at this minute in time was a rowdy Mess Hall full of people shouting, talking and just making noise in general. She had a lot to think about and the quiet would help her concentrate. She slowly walked over to the Replicator and grabbed herself a cup of coffee before going to find a table, practically daydreaming as she walked. She finally found an empty table, set her coffee upon it and sat down as she finally let everything that had just happened sink in.
Spock, the emotionless Vulcan… Spock, Nyota's boyfriend… Spock, her friend, was in love with her. He was actually in love with her. This was the last thing she was expecting to hear when she went to talk to him, but it's what he said. She couldn't quite believe it. It had amazed her that even though his face had shown no emotion what so ever, his eyes told her everything. They were burning with lust, desire, respect, but most of all, love. He had the same twinkle in his eye that Bones had when he looked at her, so she knew his feelings were true.
He had kissed her too… again. He had kissed her with such emotion and passion that she had been afraid to move. She was totally caught off guard by it and couldn't believe he had done it, but the guilt she felt when he finished was huge. She should have stopped it, but was too shocked to do a thing.
But he can't love her. He is with Nyota and she is with Bones and she loved Bones with all her heart. Spock would never be anything but a friend to her. She didn't want any of this to happen. She knew that she had to let Spock down gently, but how was she going to tell Nyota? She let out a deep sigh before taking a gulp of her coffee. Why her?
A shadow suddenly covered the light that shone on the table. Maddie looked up to see a figure standing in front of her. It was Chekov, a cup of coffee in hand and she noticed he had a concerned look on his face. She tried her best to offer him a smile.
"Miss Grey" he began. "Are you ok?"
"Erm… yeah" she said half-heartedly taking another sip of her coffee. He raised his eyebrow, questioning her answer before she let out a deep sigh and shook her head. She was definitely not ok.
"Do you vant to talk about it?" he asked as he took a seat opposite to her, placing his cup on the table.
She looked at his young innocent face, wondering if he could keep a secret. She desperately wanted to get it all off her chest and ask someone's opinion on what to do. She wanted the help of a neutral party, so she decided to take a chance on the young 17 year old.
"I have a problem."
"Vhat is it?"
She looked into his eyes and saw the concern within them. He really was a sweet boy. She knew he would keep her secret.
"It's Spock."
"Vhat about him?" He lifted his cup to his lips.
"He's told me that he's in love with me."
Chekov almost choked on the sip of coffee he had just taken. As he swallowed it, he began to cough, trying to get his breath back. "Vhat?!"
"I said, Mr Spock has admitted he's in love with me… and I don't know what to do."
"Do you love Mr Spock?" he asked once his breath was back.
"No!" she suddenly exclaimed. "I love Leo. Always have, always will. Its just I don't know what to do. Do I tell Leo? And how the hell am I supposed to tell Nyota? How do I let Spock down gently?" She knew she was rambling, but she needed to get it all out. She still couldn't believe that it was actually real.
"Calm down Miss Grey" Chekov began. She stopped her rambling when he said this and decided to listen to what he had to say. "It seems to me zhat you hawe a big problem. If I vere you, I vould go wisit Mr Spock and tell him zhat you only see him as a friend. I vould also tell Doctor McCoy as he has a right to know. As for Miss Uhura, I zhink it is Spock who should tell her about vhat happened, not you."
Maddie looked at him as he said this, taking it all in. Her mouth opened a little when he finally finished. She looked a little shocked.
"Vhat?" he asked, a little confused.
She began to smile then. "You know Mr Chekov, for a 17 year old, you really have your head screwed on."
He looked at her, even more confused and she began to laugh lightly noticing that he didn't know what she meant. It was sometimes hard to remember that Chekov was still learning English.
"I mean you really know what you are talking about. Even though you are so young, you are very mature."
"Oh, zhank you" he said with a blush.
"And you're right. That's what I need to do" she said with a smile. "Thank you Mr Chekov."
"Its is no problem" he smiled as finished his drink and got up from the table. "I vas happy to help."
She smiled at him as he walked away and left the Mess Hall. What he had said did make sense to her. She definitely needed to let Spock down gently and she needed to do it soon. She also agreed with the fact that Spock should tell Nyota what was going on. After all it was he who was in love with her, not the other way around. The one part she was scared of though was telling Bones. He hadn't reacted well to the first kiss and she and Bones weren't even together! The only reason he didn't confront Spock then was because Maddie had pleaded with him not to. How would he react to Spock kissing her again now that she and Bones were together? And how would he react to the fact that he loved her. Heck, she still couldn't believe it herself. She let out a groan as she leaned down and placed her forehead on the table.
"There you are! I've been looking everywhere for you" she heard a voice shout. She lifted her head up and spotted Bones walking right towards her. Great! She hadn't even figured out how she was going to tell him and he was already here. Luck really wasn't on her side today.
He finally reached her and took the seat to her left immediately moving his head down to kiss her. The kiss was sweet and soft and if it was possible, the love Maddie felt for this man just got bigger. He pulled away and smiled at her as she tried to smile back but it came across half-heartedly. Bones noticed this and his eyebrows furrowed.
"What's wrong?" he asked her as he brushed his fingers across her fringe to move it out of her eyes.
"I need to talk to you" she told him. "In private."
"Ok" he said as softly as he could. He moved to stand up and held his hand out for Maddie to take. She stood too and swiftly took his hand. They walked down the corridor, their fingers interlaced. Bones didn't like the sound of this. She had promised to meet him in Sickbay after his shift was over. After half an hour of waiting he decided to go look for her before finding her in the Mess Hall looking ridiculously depressed. Now she wanted to talk in private. Bones had a bad feeling in the pit of his stomach.
Maddie didn't feel much better. She knew Bones was going to go mad when he heard and no amount of pleading and begging would stop him this time. But he had to know the truth. She knew herself that she wouldn't be able to keep something that that from him. She was just scared of his reaction.
They finally reached Bones' quarters. As soon as Bones put in the code for the door, it slid open and they both stepped inside. The lights came on.
"Do you want a drink?" he asked her. She shook her head vigorously, she just wanted to get it over with. At her answer, Bones just shrugged and made his way over to the bed and sat down. He looked at her with a slight anticipation, waiting to hear what she had to say.
Maddie was pacing the room, trying to find the best way to put it into words. The outcome would be the same either way, but she still couldn't find the best way to say it.
"Maddie, what's wrong?" Bones finally said.
"I, uh, I have something to tell you and you aren't going to like it but I need to tell you." She continued her pacing, the words rushing out her mouth.
"Maddie, whatever it is, just tell me" he told her, a little worried now.
Her pacing continued as her breathing got heavier. Not only was she worried about his reaction to Spock, she was worried about his reaction to her. What if he was disgusted by her and didn't want to see her again? What if he got angry with her? Yet she knew it was now or never.
Bones moved to get off the bed and began to walk towards her. "Maddie just-"
"Spock is in love with me" she blurted out. There, she had said it. She had finally got it off her chest. It was now out in the open. She had been avoiding eye contact since she had entered the room and so she finally looked at him to assess his reaction. He was standing still, his eyes boring into hers. He was frozen to the spot.
"He's what?" he whispered.
She let out a deep breath. "He's in love with me. He told me in the lift, then he…" She was too scared to finish the sentence. He was going to hate her, she knew he was.
"Then he what Maddie?" Bones' voice was a little louder and angrier now.
"Um, he, um, he k-kissed me again." She closed her eyes and braced herself for what was to come. He was going to be so angry. She was ready for his hurtful words.
However, instead of hurtful words, she felt a pair of arms wrap round her body. She opened her eyes to see it was Bones and he was holding onto her as tightly as he could. She leaned her head against his chest and he kissed the top of her head.
"I love you Maddie, but no god damn Vulcan is going to say or do that to you" he whispered in her ear. She barely had time to register this as his arms suddenly let go off her and he quickly marched out the room, heading in the direction of Spock's quarters.
"Leo?" she asked him as she followed him out of the room. "Leo, what are you doing?"
He ignored her as he continued to march, an angry look plastered on his face. This was the final straw for him. He had let it go once after much begging and pleading from Maddie, but this time was too much. Bones was sorting this out once and for all.
He and Maddie finally stopped outside Spock's door and he banged his fist on it as hard as he could. After a short moment, the door slid open to reveal Spock dressed in his meditation robe. The Vulcan lifted his eyebrow at Bones' presence.
"Hello Doctor McCoy. I was just meditating so-"
But Spock's words were quickly cut short as Bones' fist suddenly made contact with his face. Spock stumbled back and tried to grab his nose but Bones stepped forwards and hit him again.
"Leo!" Maddie shouted as she followed them into Spock's room. She looked and noticed green blood dripping from Spock's nose, some of it spread across Bones' fist.
"You bastard!" he shouted. "How dare you do that to her. She comes to talk to you and you just kiss her without her permission and tell her you love her?" He punched him again. "I have waited too long for her and I'm not going to let you ruin it for us." He punched him once again before Spock stumbled and finally hit the floor. He sat up and looked at Bones. The doctor was red with anger. "You do one more thing like that to her and I'll make sure you have to stay in Sickbay for a week. Got that?" His voice was threatening.
Spock nodded as best he could despite the fact he was feeling dizzy from the beating.
"Good" Bones said before turning round and coming face to face with Maddie. She had her hand covering her mouth and her eyes were wide. He could see her chest rising and falling quickly and her face going a little red. She couldn't keep her eyes from Spock's bloody face. She finally lifted them to meet his own and he noticed the tears welling up in them. His brows furrowed before he realised what was wrong with her. She was scared of him. Her eyes were roaming all over Spock's injuries and she began to shake her head. She was frightened. He walked over to her and brushed his fingers across her cheek. He needed to calm down before he could speak to her. He kissed her forehead before moving his lips down to her ear.
"I love you" he whispered before he headed out of the room. She nodded her head gently knowing that he could see her before running over to Spock and kneeling by his side.
"Are you ok Spock?" she asked him.
"There is a first aid kit in by bedside table" he told her, not fully answering her question. She immediately fetched it before kneeling at his side once again.
"I'm so sorry he did that" she told him as she opened the first aid kit. She found some disinfectant wipes and immediately opened them. She began to wipe the blood away.
"I deserved it Miss Grey. He was right. It was wrong of me to say such things to you, especially since you are romantically involved with Doctor McCoy." He flinched a little as she wiped over a sore spot, but quickly regained his composure.
"That's the thing Spock, I am romantically involved with Leo. I love him, no-one else" she told him softly. She hated to upset a friend but she knew she had to do this. "That's why I can't return your feelings."
"I am sorry Miss Grey. I understand what you are saying. I will try my best to rid myself of such feelings."
"Thank you" she smiled as she finished wiping away the blood. She quickly turned back to the first aid kit and quickly pulled out a band aid that was big enough to cover his wounds.
"It was your mind that attracted me to you" Spock began again. "It was your kind nature and your carefree attitude. It drew me in. I had never loved someone like that since my mother."
"But I'm not your mom" she told him. He looked at her as she said this and nodded.
"You are right. You are not. I therefore have to forget these feelings." She put the band aid onto his face and smoothed it over the wound. "They are illogical and are only causing harm. And I must talk to Nyota. We have much to discuss."
"Good" Maddie smiled, happy that he was going to discuss his problems with the real woman he loved. "And I would go to Sickbay too. Just don't go when Leo is there."
"I shall. And I am sorry for what I have put you through. Thank you Madeleine."
She smiled and nodded as he said this. She knew everything was going to be ok now. Spock had finally come to his senses and she knew this whole problem was over. She let out a sigh of relief.
She stood up and threw away the dirty wipes before saying her goodbyes and heading back to see Bones. All she wanted now was to be wrapped in his arms, to feel his breath tickle her skin, to feel his lips on hers. She also wanted to see if he was ok after his little outburst. She understood his reaction completely, even if she was a little shocked by it.
She finally reached his room and input the code before the doors opened and she stepped in. The doors closed behind her.
She noticed he had his back to her as he was looking out of the window. She could tell he had his arms crossed and as the fabric of his top stretched over his back, she could resist looking at him, realising how lucky she really was.
"His injuries aren't too bad" she began. "I've told him to go to Sickbay."
He merely nodded his head in recognition. She took a step closer as she began to speak.
"Leo, are you ok?"
He again nodded his head before turning round to look at her. A sad expression had spread across his face. "I'm sorry" he told her.
"For what?"
He walked over to his bed and sat on it, leaning forward a little. "For reacting like I did. I know it made you a little nervous, but I couldn't stand it. I have waited too long for you to let him turn around and say those things to you. I love you and I wont lose you." He let his head drop into his hands. "So I'm sorry for punching Spock. He just made me so mad."
Maddie began to smile before she walked over to him. She moved his hands away from his face as she moved to sit on his lap, straddling him. He looked at her.
"You will never lose me Leo. I love you too and I'm not letting you go that easily. I forgive you for what you did." She leaned forward and gently pressed her lips to his. He wrapped his arms around her as their lips began to move together, their tongues fighting for dominance. She really was the luckiest girl in the world. The kiss finally ended as Bones rested his forehead on Maddie's.
"Besides" she whispered. "I really liked it when you defended me."
"You did?" he asked.
She nodded before putting a swift kiss upon his lips. "Yeah, it was sweet." She moved her hands up to run them through his hair.
They stared at each other in silence for what seemed like forever. They were just taking each other in, both content to be in each others company. After a while they smiled at each other and moved to kiss again.
"I love you Maddie" he whispered against her lips.
"I love you too Leo" she replied as they both leaned back on the bed without breaking the kiss. He held her in his arms, rubbing a soothing hand up and down her back before moving to take off her uniform.