A/N: Wow, I am so sorry for the delay! I started writing as soon as I put the last chapter up and then I went to visit my parents and of course my keyboard wasn't working and then well life happened! I'm so glad that so many of you are reading this story! I want to thank all of you, any one who has read, reviewed, followed and favorited this story and me! I hope you enjoy this chapter and I'll try not to go so long without an update! (Don't hate me!) ~Coley~

Sunlight poured into Arwen's room, she gripped her pillow tighter against her face hoping to cease the sudden piercing pain. A soft knock on the door banged in her head. She groaned in response wanting the horrible sound to stop, the door creaked open as Peter scurried in.
"I brought you a potion, it'll help with you're uh headache" he said unsure if his mother was near, he handed her the bottle and sat at the edge of the bed. She grimaced at the taste as she drained the bottle
"How are you feeling" he asked, waiting till the potion had some effect,
"Alright I suppose" Arwen croaked, hoping he was just as hungover to notice,
"Liar" Peter frowned, she looked down to her lap. Of course she wasn't alright, how could she be? Severus was a death eater, or was planning on being one. She had trusted him, she thought she could rely on at least someone in her family, but no, not anymore. For the first time, Arwen felt alone, so very alone.
"Do you want me to get you some tea? No additives I promise" Peter crossed his heart, Arwen opened her mouth to protest. She couldn't tell if she wanted to be alone with her thoughts or not. But seeing how uncomfortable Peter seemed she closed it and gave him a curt nod. She sank deeper into her bed, hugging her knees to her chest. The one thing she couldn't understand from the previous days events was why Bellatrix and Lucius were so excited (if you could call it that) to see her, they said they wanted her. Why her though? Did they just want her because of Severus? Because of her bloodline, she was a pureblood. She could care less about any of theat, for Merlin's sake, Severus was a half-blood, Lily was a muggle born. Hell, most people don't consider her human!

Sirius leaned his head against the wall, he could see Arwen balled up in her bed through the cracked door. His thoughts ventured back to the night before. When he woke up that morning, he laid in bed with a big smile on his face, but now, he was realizing what this could mean, for him, for her. Maybe she wouldn't remember it, she was so pissed he was actually surprised she didn't throw up. Peter came round with the tray, he eyed Sirius suspiciously but continued to his destination. Peter handed her the cup of tea, his mind racing. She was his friend, a girl, a nearly crying girl, who was his friend, who was upset. His heart pounded against his chest, he didn't know how to handle this kind of situation. To be honest, he didn't even know how he became friends with Arwen, he was usually shy around other people, girls especially. He had never been on a proper date, and now he had a trembling girl in his guest room. How was he supposed to help? What do girls do to feel better, perhaps he should get her some chocolate! The clink of a cup falling onto the floor stirred Peter out of his thoughts. Arwen was now shaking uncontrollably, rocking back and forth with tears streaming down her face. Peter's eyes went wide, he shook his head, he couldn't handle this,
"Sirius?" Peter called, he ran out of the room, Sirius was no where to be seen. Peter looked around frantically, his eyes set on Remus who just walked out of the bathroom, "Remus! Oh thank Merlin, Remus, you have to help me, it's Arwen! She's upset and I don't know what to do! She's crying and rocking and crying..." Peter babbled, Remus held up his hand as to silence his friend
"Why don't you get Sirius to calm her down" Remus said testily, Sirius had been the one with her last night, should he with her right now? Or Was he only in it for the physical stuff. Remus's blood began to boil at the thought, sure Remus wanted to be physical with her too, but he wanted more than that. Peter shook his head frantically,
"Please! I don't know what to do!" Peter cried, Remus rolled his eyes and sighed through his flared nostrils
"Fine" he seethed, this was the last thing he wanted to do, he stormed through the door but his face softened as his eyes set on a crippling girl. All thoughts of Sirius and her together vanished from his mind, all he could think about was putting Arwen back together. He rushed over to her side, taking her face into his hands. He brushed his thumbs across her cheeks, wiping her tears away. He murmured soothing words as he wrapped his arms around her and rocked her into him.

Arwen stood up on her toes, stretching her legs in the process. She had spent enough of the day in bed, she was done. She was done sulking, done crying, at least for now. She was going to go outside, get some sun and hang out with her friends. She step outside into the fresh air, feeling the cool, crisp air flow around her, she closed her eyes, embracing the moment. Remus and Sirius watched her intently, both thinking no one noticed, but Peter did, he could sense something peculiar going on. James didn't notice a thing, he continued throwing a quaffle in the air and catching it, talking aimlessly as he did so. Arwen opened her eyes to see Sirius staring back at her, she didn't notice Remus watching her, or Peter shooting concerned looks over to her. She instantly remember what had happened the night before She didn't know how she could have forgotten, though it was a pretty minor event compared to everything else that happened. Now she felt embarrassed, what was she supposed to do, or say? Was she supposed to pretend it never happened? Did he want more? Did she want more? Arwen suddenly felt very overwhelmed, all she wanted to do now was go hide in her bed again, but she was too far away and it would have looked suspicious. She crept closer to her friends, hoping no one would bring up anything to do with her, she sighed with relief when she realized James was already talking everyone's ears off. James turned around and grinned at her
"Arwen! How ya feeling? Heard the whiskey got the better of you" James joked, Arwen gave him a small smile
"Says the one who passed out drooling in the middle of the floor" Sirius said, clapping James on the back, James rolled his eyes but grinned nonetheless
"Apparently I wasn't the only one who had a slobfest" he said to Sirius, Arwen's eyes went wide, as did Sirius's.
"I, uh, what?" Sirius panicked, how did James know about him and Arwen
"You're pillow looked a little stained this morning" James chucked the quaffle at his friend, Sirius rolled his eyes and caught the ball, all while subtly releasing his breath which he was holding.
"So what were you lot going to do before I interrupted?" Arwen asked, trying stop her mind from spinning,
"We were just about to head down to the creek, want to come?" Peter pipped, Arwen smiled and nodded
"Yea, let me just grab my book, I'll meet you there?" Peter nodded, eyeing her slightly, he had this odd feeling that at any moment she would burst, into what he still wasn't sure. He didn't know if he could handle another crying outburst, but that might just be better than anything else she could do. She could decide to join her cousin, he was family after all, or go and find him and who knows! At this point she could do pretty much anything and that's what scared him.

Arwen rummaged through her trunk, taking stack of books out searching for the book she was currently reading, she sat on her heels scanning her many titles.
"A-ha! There you are you little bugger" she said aloud grabbing the leather bound book. She grinned happily as she opened up to her saved spot. She looked down too see the bookmark Severus gave her. There was a new message glowing on the bottom.

It's not what you think

Her smile sank into a frown, she leaned back and hugged her knees. She could always rely on Severus to be cryptic, at least that hadn't changed. How wasn't this whole thing what she thought? She sighed deeply, she was finally wrapping her head around who Severus really was. But now this? What was she supposed to think now? What was she supposed to do. She crawled over to her trunk and grabbed a quill and some ink. She will get her answers.

Explain

She sat in the middle of the room, holding onto the bookmark for dear life, just waiting. Time flew by her, soon the sun was setting and the boys would be heading back soon. But Arwen didn't notice, all of her focus was set onto that one piece of parchment. Sirius walked through the door, he had gone up ahead of the guys to go check on Arwen. He watched her for a moment, letting his eyes adjust on what was happening before him. He made his way torwards her slowly, hoping not to interfere with whatever she was doing. From the outside it looked like she was staring at a simple piece of paper but he knew there was much more to it. He sat down next to her and stayed there, not speaking until she was ready.
"When my dad first left, I took it really hard, and Sev too. He was the only real parent either of us have ever had, he was definitely more of a dad to Severus than his own dad. Sometimes I think he took it harder than I did. I remember one night, it must have been shortly after my dad left, I was sleeping over at his house, he reached out and grabbed my hand in the dark and said that he would never leave me like my father did. I guess he was right, this has been way worse than what my dad put me through" Arwen said after what seemed like minutes of silence. She was still fumbling with her bookmark but she was now looking at Sirius. He looked back at her, feeling her pain. Even though he was the one who physically left his family, they deserted him a long time ago. His last hopes had been with his brother, but obviously that didn't happen, his parents got to him first. Sirius leaned forward and tucked a stray hair behind Arwen's ear, her breath suddenly became unsteady as he came closer until finally closing the distance with his lips. Arwen gasped slightly and tore her head away
"What are you doing" she whispered heatedly, trying to cover up that all she wanted to him to was kiss her again.
"I-I don't know, trying to make you feel better?" Sirius shook his head in confusion, he really didn't know why he kissed her his time, soberly. It seemed like every time they talked about their families, he felt the urge to snog her. It wasn't really just her per say, he had always dealt with his problems in a physical way, whether it was punching some bloke or snogging some girl.
"Is that all?" Arwen pushed, Sirius's eye went wide with guilt
"It's not that I don't find you attractive Ari, you're smoking! I just don't uh, well I don't like you like that, I just don't tend to deal with my problems very vocally I guess" Sirius scratched the back of his head awkwardly, his eyes darted every where but on her. If he had ruined, well whatever they were, he would kick himself into the next millennium.
"Well next time try going for a hug" Arwen gave him a light smile, Sirius's eyes were still wide with shock. So he hadn't messed anything up? He was so happy he could kiss her! But he didn't, instead he brought her in for a tight hug. A knock came from the door.
"Mrs. Pettigrew wanted me to tell you it's supper time" croaked Remus who felt very awkward. At least they weren't snogging this time. At the mention of food, Sirius darted for the door as quickly as he could, but before he left the room he shot a concerned look toward Arwen, just to make sure she was alright.
"I"ll be down in a second, you two go ahead" She stood up and started to pick up a stack of books, Sirius accepted this and ran to the kitchen, Remus on the other hand took a moment to watch her as she put her things away. She looked like she was just about done when she held what looked like a bookmark in her hand and stood there staring at it. Remus cocked his head with curiousity, wondering what had her so entranced. He shook his head at himself and quietly walked away, so not to disturb her. Arwen's eyes burned through the bookmark, her eyes darting across it, rereading Severus's message over and over again.

They know Ari. They know what we can do.