I absolutely love you Shiloh Beagle!

Your such a good story followed, makes me happy to know someone cares enough to comment.

I do have a Triloquist story in the makings and plan on making a category for it here. Gotta take some time to rewatch it and I have to write it out because I am so ocd and I have too many things on my computer right now. I gotta go through my documents….

Anyway! Is Dizzy pregnant? We'll just have to find out.

DATE: January 28, 2007

LOCATION:

Hyde Medical Center

The doctor stared down at me, not one hint of remorse or sorrow in his pale gray eyes. He fixed his coat, looking down at the clipboard and tsk-ing, shaking his head. He looked up at me again with one gray eyebrow raised and tsked again. Come on, tell me what I need to know, tell me why you're looking at me like that! I can't stand it anymore.

"Well, Ms. Carmen I am afraid to tell you that you are unable to reproduce. The cells are not in order and your parents will not pay for the treatments. Even then I doubt you would have been able to reproduce."

My heart gave a painful tug and my head reflexively fell into the cradle of my hands. Of course, that was my luck. No children in any future for me. But I doubted I would have a future away from that hell hole I called home. I let out that sob, the only one I could ever utter. Just one, loud sob without tears.

"Your parents are outside in the waiting room, should they come in here so you can tell them?"

Why not? It's not like it mattered to them, I'm sure dad'll be extra happy for it. I grimaced at that and nodded, keeping my head down and wiping my nose on my sleeve. I saw moms dress shoes and dads sneakers on the fringe of my right and looked up. Their faces were stern, no different than usual though so I wasn't fazed by it.

"What is the diagnoses doctor?" Dad asked while staring down at me.

"I believe Ellen wanted to tell you herself."

I cleared my throat subtly. "He said I can't get pregnant…"

My mother feigned grief, dropping into a chair behind her, fake tears staining her cheeks as she held a hand over her mouth. My father gasped, turning around to face me completely. He held his forehead in his hand and was shaking his head, but I could see all too well the grin on his face.

DATE: August 5, 2007

LOCATION:

TEST VILLAGE

Lizard is in a strange mood today.

He just stares at me, like on the ride back from the porn hub town, when he was analyzing my face with those curious blue eyes. It bothers me that he is able to just hide his emotions this well. It hurts to know that, because I want to know. I want to know if he's scared, happy or mad about this trip we have to take today.

When I told him the news yesterday, he had stared at me for a long time, eventually standing up and disappearing into the desert. He was gone for quite a long time, hours, and was back in the middle of the night. His rough hands had woke me up, kneading my thighs and working on my arms. It had scared me, made me jump and made this weird feeling, guess it was anticipation, coil in my belly. But he didn't do anything, just rubbed on me.

It was weird, him doing that, acting that way. I had thought he was drunk, but he was sober as could be. When I had asked him what he was doing he just said ssh on my ear. I didn't know what to think of it, but didn't push it away. The touch was gentle, despite his hands, and had made me feel like jelly in his arms, ice cream on a summer side walk.

He was just as affectionate when I fell asleep again, running his fingers through my hair until I was out and maybe more.

"Alright, let's get going." I muttered, walking out the front door.

Lizard followed me, shuffling beside me with his head low. I moved closer, twining my fingers with his. He looked up at me, his eyes wide like this is the first time we've touched. I smiled at him, swinging our hands a little. He shook his head and pulled our hands apart, shrugging away from me.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" I spat.

He looked up, not at all fazed by my anger. "What's it to ya?"

I stared at him blankly. "Are you serious? You are my…Lizard, you're my mate. I care about everything your feeling. I want to know, I'm worried about you. Tell me what's wrong."

He just stared at me, watching the red sand roll ahead of us. Buzzards flew across the pale blue sky, crying to each other. Did they think we were food? They sucked…

I stared down at the ground, kicking pebbles out of my way and taking in the sweltering heat. I hated the heat. I sighed and ambled along beside my silent lover. I wish he would open up to me. I wish he wasn't so guarded with his feelings. I

I love you Lizard, don't you know that by now? I wouldn't judge you for being weak, or expressing your inner most thoughts and secrets. I love you more than I've ever loved anyone before and I'm sure I would never ever find another to love if he died. By some miracle you love me too, at least I think you do. He told me he did, but aren't those just words? Hollow meaningless things that are only made strong by the person speaking them?

My father told me he loved me, several times in our lives together and I know what his brand of love was. It was a love I didn't want, defiantly didn't need. Lizard isn't my father though, he's this crazy, cannibal mutant and I love it. I love all of him, I love that he's so strong and that I know I can count on him to protect me no matter what. That's all I have ever wanted in a lover, someone to love me and take care of me. I wanted someone that wanted more than what's going on down stairs and he proved he didn't just want that by his actions when he woke me up last night.

By the time Lizard spoke up we were nearing Jebs store. "I worried, k?"

I stopped, pulling him to a stop with my hand on his bicep. He stopped and stared back at me, true worry in his eyes. "You're…worried?"

He nodded. "Yeah, so wha'?"

I chuckled and reached over, pulling his face to mine. I didn't kiss him, I just pressed my forehead against his and he closed his eyes. I closed my eyes to, nuzzling our foreheads together.

"Lizard, I love you so fucking much. You know that right?"

He scoffed. "Yeah, what that gots to do with anythin?"

I chuckled and pulled away, taking his hand in mine so we could start walking again. "It's got everything to do with this. Why are you worried?"

"I afraid you or the baby ain't gonna make it. if you pregnant 'least."

Oh my heart just skipped a beat. "Well I have doubts I'll get pregnant anyway."

"Why?"

I cleared my throat, stopping Lizard just before we walked into the store. I saw Jebs eyes peak out of the blinds. "Because a couple months ago my parents had taken me to the doctor and they said I couldn't get pregnant. Something about my cells out of balance or what not."

His hand squeezed mine tightly. "So why we even here?"

I jerked the door open. "You can never be too cautious right?"

I smiled at Jeb when we got inside, swiveling through the shelves and all that shit to get to the pregnancy tests. I heard Lizard and Jeb hissing at each other across the room but ignored it, focusing all of my energy on carrying the massive amount of pregnancy tests in my arms. I set them on the counter and both of the boys shut up, Lizard looking away when I raised an eyebrow at him.

"Wh-What is dis?" Jeb stuttered, eyeing the boxes with red tinted cheeks.

He wasn't this embarrassed when I had all of my wax and shit on this counter. I cocked a hip and set my fist on it. "Really, Jeb? You know what these things are. So are we payin or what?"

"Jus' take em. I don't think I'll be able ta make it through all of these…"

I giggled and pushed them all off into two bags, handing Lizard one and followed him out into the desert. I felt lighter now, knowing why Lizard had been acting so strange. He was actually worried about me, about the possible baby inside of me. My free hand subconsciously reached up and flutter against my belly, sending goose bumps across my skin. I hope I was pregnant, to a point. It would be like the final tie to Lizard, but it would also mean no more free time with Lizard, or hell with myself. I would never be able to do anything for myself, it would be all about the baby.

"I wonder what'll be…" Lizard muttered.

I looked over at him, humming to myself My Little Sunshine. "I think it'll be a boy."

Lizard snorted. "How would ya know?"

I shrugged. "It could a girl, I'm just sayin. It's not like it could turn out as a goblin or anything. Maybe."

I let the joke hang on there at the end and got my wanted reaction, a subtle chuckle from Lizard. I smiled and shimmied closer to him, bumping our hips. He looked up, a little shocked, and he bumped back. I looked at him ,my mouth opened in a shocked smile and reached over and quickly licked his cheek. It tasted like blood and sand, gritty, but I didn't mind. He was mine, I was his. We had shared things and a little gross on y tongue from him was nothing I couldn't handle.

He groaned and wiped his cheek with the back of his tattered glove. "Why'd you do that?"

I shrugged. "Defense mechanism."

He shook his head and looked up with me, seeing the Test Village ahead. How come the walk to Jebs seemed like forever, but the walk home seemed so short? I guess it's just the annoyance with having to walk all the way away from home against your will. The way back must be the relief that you'd be back in your house soon.

I call it my house…this is home. More of a home than that horrible place in New York. That was never a home, not to anyone. Not the spiders in the floor boards, not the moths in the closet. It was no home, it was purgatory. You never left, you were always there, even away from home. I could be at the school and still be as jumpy as if I was in my room, with him. I never left it, I'm still there in a way. I wake up sometimes in a sweat, after dreams of that place. Lizard never wakes up, and for that I am grateful. I never want to have him coddle me for that, for something I escaped without any problems.

Well, if a fire doesn't count as a problem.

"You thinking to hard…" Lizards' scratchy voice came from somewhere.

I shook my head and looked up, finding nothing but the sky. "What the hell happened?"

Lizard helped me up, grabbing the bag I dropped. I rubbed my head and looked around, finding us just on the fringe of the village. Lizard steered me towards the main house and we started walking again, me still confused.

"You ran into the house." Lizard snorted.

I sighed, rubbing my forehead. The pain was just starting to reach me. Guess my pain response s numbing up. "Of course I ran into a fucking house, the one thing you really can't miss." I muttered into my hand as Lizard walked through the propped open door.

"You was starin at th' groun' the whole walk."

I rolled my eyes. Of course I had zoned out, that was just my luck. I dropped myself onto the old floral couch and let my head fall back, one arm perched on the back of the couch. Lizard headed up the stairs, towards the bathroom I'm guessing. I let out a sigh and kicked off my converse, reaching down to rub the soreness out of them. I'd con Lizard into rubbing my feet later, maybe do him a lovely little 'favor'.

"Did you to get everything you need?"

I nodded at Big Mama who was wheeling Big Brain into the room. His scratchy breathing made the hairs on the back of my neck stand up on end. He eyed me with those scrutinizing, evil eyes and I glared back at him. He wheezed but I cut him off before he could squeeze out a single fucking word. I so totally did not want to hear what he had to say, not now, not any day.

"Got one of each, bout twenty tests. May go back for more, depends on the answers I get. Does Papa know?"

She nodded, leaning on the handle to Big Brains chair. "He said to meet him no matter what time of night when you get done with all of them. Even if he is awake. This is something very important. Oh, and Erica wanted to speak to you."

I sighed and nodded, standing up and stretching. "Alright, I'll talk to her first before I do all of my tests."

"Ok, dear. I will be up all night taking care of a few things so if you want I can help you with anything."

I smiled and nodded, walking upstairs to Erica's room. She was on her bed, sitting Indian style in a pair of jean shorts and a purple tank top. She was playing with something in her hands, it looked like a kids toy. The closer I looked I found it was a Rubix cube.

"Hey, you wanted to talk to me?" I sat on the very edge of her bed.

She looked up through her bangs. "Uh, yeah I wanted to ask you something."

I felt my nerves instantly fray. "Uh, well what is it?"

She looked around, at anything but me and she failed to find anything of interest. "I wanted to ask you what you and Lizard go out into the desert."

I wanted to narrow my eyes, I wanted to hurt her for some reason. It was just her I guess, the way she watched and followed Lizard. She should shack up with another mutant, or go off and be a part of Hades' clan. She'd be a good breeder, there'd be prettier babies in the hills at least.

I waved a hand. "We went out to the gas station to get some pregnancy tests."

I saw something in her eyes darken. "Oh, for who?"

She knew damn well who. "For me. Big Mama suggested I go for some, just in case."

Erica nodded, shaking a little. Really? That bitch is mad because I was probably pregnant? Why did I save that bitch, why didn't I just let her die in the sun? I regret that now. I regret it totally and completely. I was starting to shake to, but I would not crumble in front of her. I had suffered through worse than some school girl squabble over a boy. Lizard was mine and he would never be hers.

"Well I guess I need to go get started with the tests. I'll see you later, maybe."

I stood and left her room, feeling that angry heat rolling off of that bitch. She wouldn't fuck with me, she wouldn't get to Lizard. No, I'd have to find out a way to get her gone.

Aw i wanted to put the tests in here but i just didnt have the time at them moment. But we'll know her situation in the next one, promise.