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these chapters were so hard to write because I hate when men hurt women and kids...

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CH 14

After the whole day Ellen, Derek and Patricia were coming back home. Derek took them to some fast food restaurant and Ellen was bit of shocked. Patricia knew that she cannot eat this and dad ordered her the fries and hamburger.

She asked: „ Dad, could I have some vegetable salad as mum has?"

He looked annoyed at her and said: „ Whatever, you are the same as your mother…. Never grateful for anything….."

He ordered her the vegetables and Ellen seemed satisfied. At least now Patty was a brave girl.

On Sunday Derek was hanging on the phone constantly and Ellen was cooking the lunch. He closed the door in the living room so that nobody could hear him and Patricia was watching a Cinderella story on DVD. Ellen was a bit of free now and had time for thinking. At night she was sleeping next to Derek again. It was a weird feeling and she had to admit she didn´t feel comfortable around him anymore. She had no idea of what happened between them that she felt like that, but perhaps the things he did to her made her change her attitude towards him. She knew she had to act, because he could be incredibly angry if she did something wrong. He was okay the previous day but she cannot be fooled by one day.

She remembered what he did to her last time. Last time…..afterwards she met Carlisle and spent the following day with his family and with him of course….. And their secret meeting yesterday….that was…..her heart began racing as she reminded those precious moments. He bought her one of the most expensive cell phones, the same that all members in his family possessed and gave her the credit card with her own name on it without any limitations to spend. She couldn´t process this. She knew that she couldn´t refuse it. It wasn´t suitable, so she just accepted even though she felt awkward inside.

But something was telling her that it is supposed to be this way that she shouldn´t fight it. And things that happened later…. She kissed him. She got really crazy. Poor Carlisle. She kissed him even though her husband was just hundred metres away and made a fool of him. She felt so sorry.

On the other hand, she felt the happiest person as he kissed her back. He didn´t seem to object, but this was a mistake, really…..a wrong one….. But she couldn´t explain this idea to her mind. She couldn´t regard it as mistake no matter how hard she tried. On the contrary, her mind was thinking that it was one of the best kisses of her life. Perhaps number one. The most tender, careful and considerate. The only thing she could suddenly think of were his soft lips on hers. Then she noticed Patricia coming closer for a glass of water and she had to devote back to the cooking before she makes a mess. A mess not only in the kitchen but also in her life.

Carlisle was also at home, thinking about the day when he had the chance to see Ellen. Luckily he was not able to sleep. Otherwise he would see one blond young woman in front of his eyes all the time. He was incredibly happy to meet her the day before in the woods. She protested when she saw his gift. But he knew he cannot step back from this. He had the reason for doing that. And later, when she kissed him, it was such a beautiful moment. He felt so complete when he was holding her and yet their lips touching. He was definitely dependant on her and didn´t know how to deal with the loneliness. The kids have just left to their colleges and he was alone in the house again. He just was able to do some schedule for the following week. It was the week of the precautionary medical check-up of the kids from local school. The classes will be arriving according to the assigned schedule. He needed to make some plan and make sure so that other regular patients do not have to wait very long.

On Tuesday morning he was pretty shocked. The kids were coming one after one and on the second day he could see a very blond head with a pony tail among them. The teacher called Patty´s name and she went carefully inside.

When she saw him, she smiled and ran to hug him: „uncle Carlisle….."

He pointed at the nurse if she could bring him some folder from the next office.

Meanwhile he asked: „ How are you sweetie….?"

She shrugged: „ Fine, dad is with us again…."

He smiled: „ You aren´t happy to be with him?"

She looked the direction of window: „ I don´t know, he isn´funny, he doesn´t play with us….and mum cries all the time….in the bathroom, in the bed…."

Carlisle caressed her hair: „ Was he angry at you or mum?"

She shook the head: „ No…..he wasn´t"

He kissed her forehead and wrote down all the information of the check-up he needed to know and when the nurse came in, he waved to Patricia and sent her away to her teacher. When the kids left, the nurse brought him a coffee and left to take a break herself. He was so shocked that he almost drank it.

Suddenly it didn´t taste like a dirt even though he regularly spilled the drink into the sink.

Ellen was taking Patty out of the pre-school and the teacher informed her about the necessary visits of the local doctor. She just silently agreed, signed the paper forms made by Carlisle and together with Patty they headed home. Carlisle had already texted her on the day in the morning, she just had no time to reply him yet. She didn´t want to do that just quickly, she needed time.

Patty explained: „ I saw uncle Carlisle mum, and he was very nice…."

Ellen nodded: „ That is nice, Patty, just…please don´t tell dad anything about Carlisle…."

She agreed and continued: „ And he asked about you mum…."

„What did you tell him?" Patty repeated what she told Carlisle in the morning and Ellen gasped. It cannot be possible what the child notices.

She must hide the feelings better. She believed nobody can hear her. Luckily Derek hasn´t heard her. He would have stupid comments and requested explanation and she had no idea what she would tell him.

Derek was staying at home for the day, he didn´t go to work and didn´t have any will to go to find some. Ellen didn´t say anything first, she hoped he would just take few days off and then decided what to do next. On Friday morning Ellen received the message from the director that she would go to the pediatrician´s office with her class. When she checked her mobile, Carlisle was just announcing her the same. She had to laugh at his text. He used sweet words, attempts to comfort her. He wanted to support her in whatever she does. It was hard for him but he knew he had to. Again he repeated himself. It is Ellen who has to decide, despite the fact that it was very hard to accept the fact. He wanted her close to him so bad.

While he was waiting for his today´s little pupils, he hoped that Ellen would be accompanying them. She was their class teacher and the kids trusted her. They all entered the waiting room and Ellen knocked on the door.

She knocked on the door and Carlisle opened the door: „ Hi…."

She greeted politely: „ Dr. Cullen, here is the list of my pupils….."

He took the paper and said silently: „ When then last one comes out, please come here…"

She nodded and went to the rest of the kids. Carlisle came out after a moment and asked for the little Adam. The boy went with him in the room. …..

He sent the last kid away and went to the waiting room.

The nurse had a day off and he asked the receptionist: „ Could you please watch the kids? I need to talk to their teacher…"

She agreed and Carlisle asked Ellen to come in his office. He closed the door and hugged her immediately: „ I missed you…."

She agreed: „ Yes, I miss our talks too, I knew that every day we were talking and now it´s gone…."

He moved the hand in his hair and made them a real mess: „ I know honey, we have to figure out something….."

She just nodded and was glad to be hugged by him. This was the only certainty in her life now. Patricia and Carlisle.

The two people she relied on in this terrible town.

He asked: „ Did he do you something?...you know….."

She shook the head: „ No, I am not attractive for him anymore….he barely talks to me…."

He was interested: „ Is he rude?"

„No, not rude….but a little bit moody, not tolerating and incredibly lazy. He is as if he lost the interest in some job? He stays home all day…."

Carlisle listened to what she said. She was watching his eyes and had to caress his hair.

Suddenly he had it in all directions. They laughed and Ellen said: „ I should probably be going, we have a class, sorry…"

He let her go: „ Don´t apologise, it´s understandable…I just …miss you…."

She looked down: „ Me too…."

Few moments later somebody knocked on his door, he hugged Ellen and she was coming out of the office:

„ Ok, I will report this to the director. Bye, Dr. Cullen…"

Two weeks passed and the situation was still the same. One thing changed. Derek took night shifts and he began working. But because of the night shifts, he was tired and more moody every day. Ellen tried to be silent and not say anything. She was glad that he began working again. He left every day after 8pm and was coming home before 6am. She loved that they didn´t have to share the bedroom. He hasn´t touched her since his return. Except from occasional kisses, nothing happened between them. Ellen felt that it is partly her mistake. She claimed that she wanted to save the marriage. But she wasn´t behaving like that. She wasn´t nice, sweet, caring one as she used to be in the previous years. She went through something and it was hard to come back. And she began realising that….. that she might not love him anymore….. she doesn´t regard him even as a friend. This realisation made her sit down. She was holding her head in her hands, thinking. Luckily Patricia was sleeping and Derek has just left for work. She had a night free. Luckily, one of the first ones after such a long time…..

First two nights she was even afraid to do anything. She was too worried that Derek would be watching her from somewhere. He might be back at any moment. It was too scary for her. On the third night she realised that she is in a terrible situation. She doesn´t love Derek anymore and perhaps the idea of saving an unworking marriage might not be the best one. The decision seemed to be easy. She could leave immediately to the Cullens, but she didn´t want to give up just like that. It just didn´t seem fair. She wanted to wait how Derek would behave. He accepted some job, was gone every night and she had time to think.

Carlisle was watching her house from the distance, he could see that Derek was leaving every night at the same was just texting him. He could feel that she feared of him. He didn´t know why, they could at least talk a bit but tried to understand that she needs some time to think and go through everything.

On the fourth evening she dared to call Carlisle and they spent a very nice few hours on the phone. Ellen talked to him, she knew that she cannot tell him everything that she realised, it was still fresh and she needed more time to confirm that.

Sooo... next chapter will be published tomorrow :-))), as soon as I come back from zumba class, I will definitely edit the 15th chapter, it´s written, just needs some editing, these chapters are really hard to write because I hate such behavior...,

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take care and enjoy the day...

Ijuska