Kacchan

by KyuukaKoinu

Sometimes it's about winning an argument. Other times it's about acknowledging your feelings. In rare cases, it's about trying to make sense about your ex-childhoodfriend makingout with you in your mother's kitchen when he claims he hates you. But most of the time, it's about growing up & understanding what makes the difference between a boy and a man. BakuDeku OverDeku (Rating:MA)

14. The Blossoming

Early update! I'm soooo close to finishing up the last couple chapters to the point I almost wished I could write faster because I'm eager to finally finish my first fic to completion! But I'm gonna still take my time as usual :) wanna make sure it is paced and written well.

ALSO! If you haven't seen it already, I have also started a second fic called Incinerate ! It will be a BakuDeku police/detective AU :) Check it out if you like my writings and suspense stuff like this story! I was sitting on the chapter/idea for a long time and the success with this fic makes me wanna keep writing going. I'll start fully writing that one once everything here is all wrapped up and complete.

Alrightly, let's get started!

Warnings: Healing, Izuku x Katsuki adult scene at the end

---

Chapter 14 - The Blossoming

.

.

.

Izuku remembers thoughtfully watching Katsuki in the living room of his house dust off the shelves that him and his mother couldn't reach. It made something in his heart blossom, seeing the usually hot-headed male so tame and domestic like. The tall blonde spoke to his mother in a quiet tone and offered to do anything she asked of him.

It was heartwarming, and it made his chest feel like it was covered in the feeling of sweet smell of roses.

Katsuki ended up staying with them that entire following week, making it now officially a little over two full weeks since the incident. The stitches in Izuku's back were removed a couple of days ago but the doctor still advised him against running so he could be mindful of not reopening the wound and having to get another set. The wounds on his wrists had scarred lightly but the gashes on his cheek were almost fully healed.

It made Izuku feel hollow to see the physical wounds healing when his emotional wound about Kai was still wide open.

He wanted to move on. He wanted to close it… but It felt like a poem that only needed one more sentence to be complete, but he didn't have the words to do so. The contacts in his phone were still absent of the young adult's phone number and he wasn't sure if his anxieties would really fully allow him to...actually see Kai face to face.

He had just gone back to school on the Monday following them going to the coffee shop for the first time, and that alone was a task. It was hard enough to face people who hadn't carved into his skin...he didn't know if he could really face the person who had.

It made him anxious despite having new medication. But every time Katsuki touched his back or put a caring hand on his shoulder and asked him if he was okay, his spiraling thoughts were stopped. Just that that night when he was in Kai's car. There was something about the blonde that calmed him. It was a sweet feeling. It made him hang particularly close to the blonde because his heart pulled him towards him.

Katsuki didn't seem to mind this at all, and he would always be willing to offer the greenette any comfort he needed, whether it be a hug or sleep in the same bed to help Izuku feel safe.

Which...they haven't stopped doing.

Izuku meant to tell Katsuki it was okay for him to go home and that his nightmares had stopped last week, but when he looked into those fierce protective ruby iries something in his heart skipped a beat and the words were lose to himself.

So, he let it continue to happen.

The track runner was completely infatuated with the feeling of Katsuki's large hands gripping around his shoulders and locked around his waist. He relished the secure feeling of the ex-athlete pulling him in close to his hard chest. He even some nights pulled Izuku to lay on top of him wordlessly.

But on particular nights, when their faces were so close, and they were looking into each other's eyes talking, Izuku wanted to lean in and kiss the blonde.

However, there was something stopping him.

He couldn't place his finger on what...but it felt like a thin string on his wrist that tugged anytime he thought about Katsuki in a romantic sense. He almost felt like he didn't deserve him after putting the older boy's life in danger.

Which brings him to now, after school with said blonde bedmate in art club with Ochaco, Tenya, and Kirishima after school. He still couldn't go back to track just yet but that was fine, it was nice to just sit down and draw with his friends.

"Out of everyone here, Izuku is the person that needs this the most," the hot-headed teen teased. He flashed one of his signature cocky smirks in Izuku's direction. "He can't draw for shit."

"Oi, leave little dude alone! I'm sure he's a magnificent artist!" The large fire truck red head laughed as he took a piece of paper from the brown-haired art club leader.

"Yeah, Kacchan! I can draw just fine," Izuku laughed back and lightly bumped Katsuki's shoulder with his. The blonde just smirked back with a gleam of playfulness in his eyes that almost made Izuku blush.

"Okay, settle down everyone!" Ochaco called out to the room of students sitting at perfectly aligned long tables in one of the classrooms. "Today we're going to do vision boards. We have supplies like magazines up here for you along with glue, scissors, and other markers! Basically, just draw whatever you see your future as!" His best friend perked as she clasped her hands.

Green eyes watched as she took a seat across the table form him next to Tenya and got straight to work. He noticed how Katsuki and Kirishima didn't really engage like they used to with the other two teens and he didn't really understand why. He wanted to ask what happened because it seemed like Ochaco and Tenya were trying to have convo with them...but he left it alone at the moment. A battle for another day.

Right now, his brain was fixated on the fact he didn't know what to put down on this piece of paper.

The idea of the future made Izuku wrinkle his eyebrows. He looked around at everyone who was already getting to work and listened to Kirishima and Katsuki argue over the markers and certain sports magazines. He looked ahead at Tenya and Ochaco who seemed to already be drawing each other and something in Izuku's head felt...sad.

He didn't know what his future looked like anymore.

Not too long ago, Kai decided his future for him. It was going to be loyal Yakuza spose, attending U of T, and living in an apartment with the golden eyed man. Izuku had accepted that image of his future so solidly up until Kai shot a bullet off against Katsuki's skull. Then he threw that away to stay behind and try to save the tall boy's life.

He hadn't thought about his future since then.

He thought for a moment about Yuuei University and how that was now an option but something about it felt tainted now. Considering the application set off a terrible string of events...he felt off about it. Deep down, the greenette didn't feel like he deserved to go anymore after the giant mess he made.

So, he stared at the paper unsure of what to put down.

Before he knew it another fifteen minutes had passed and red eyes next to him looked down at his blank piece of paper curiously.

"Nothing, Deku?" The raspy voice asked from beside him. Izuku snapped out of his thoughts to look at the boy next to him. He scratched behind his head and gave an awkward smile.

"I dunno what really to put...after everything," he whispered the last part. He missed the sympathetic look Kirishima shot him and the concerned glanced Ochaco and Tenya passed between each other. "I'm sure inspiration will hit me eventually though!" He tacked on quickly to dispel the worry he saw strike in Katsuki's face.

"Wanna see mine?" Katsuki asked, his hand furiously working with his tongue slightly sticking out. Izuku felt himself smile slightly. Of course, he draws aggressively. When the blonde turned his large piece of paper around for the tiny greenette Izuku tilted his head at the sight.

On the board was Yuuei University, a poorly draw cartoon of Katsuki taking a picture of Izuku wearing a gold medal. In the background were small images that symbolized books, football, the gym, cars, and...a science beaker exploding? There was also a tiny magazine picture of a sunrise taped down at the bottom that made Izuku smile. The last thing he noticed though was drawn extremely small in the corner.

Izuku squinted his eyes and leaned in closer to observe it fully when he noticed it looked like one of those plastic gumball packaging that you could get with tiny prizes inside for a couple of coins. There was a tiny question mark next to it.

"What's that in the corner?" his soft voice asked before analyzing it further. "Is that a ring in a gumball thingy? What does that have to do with your future?"

"Ah. That's something else...top secret. For me to know only," the eldest of the two muttered and quickly changed the subject before Izuku could object. "BUT—Everything is pretty much what I think the future would look like...or at least what my dream of it is." Green eyes looked back at the drawing of them and felt his heart do that pull again, but there was that tiny string feeling on his wrist that pulled him back as well.

"I like it," Izuku whispered. He leaned back in his seat and decided to settle on one thing he knew he wanted in his future. He picked up the markers and started doodling small people and left out a university.

When he finished he drew all of his friends as if they were all laughing together. Katsuki smiled at the sight towards Izuku and the green teen smiled back lightly. Red eyes then assessed the drawing a little bit more and started laughing.

Izuku blushed and gapped. "W-What's so funny!?" He exclaimed while hiding his picture against his chest.

"You drew me like an angry fluffy pomeranian dog!" The deep voice chuckled and Izuku found the laugh melodic in a strange sense. "Wow, I see what your real opinion of me is, Deku. First the lord explosion murder picture in the coffee shop and now this."

"You are basically an angry pomeranian. I'm pretty sure Izuku hit that one right on the head ya mutt," Kirishima quipped with a cocky grin and threw his marker forcefully at the blonde boy who dodge and caught it in his hand effortlessly. Izuku laughed when Katsuki stuck his tongue out at Kirishima.

"Hey, no throwing art supplies, please!" Ochaco quickly spoke up worried when she saw the red marker go flying. Izuku watched as all the fun quickly left both jock boys' body at the sound of her voice. Katsuki gently sat down the object with a soft 'sorry' as he looked her in the face with something Izuku didn't quite understand.

He watched wordlessly between the awkward teens before peeling back his picture from his chest. Izuku smiled at the cartoons of everyone that he drew and happily continued to color them in.

He missed the adoring look Katsuki gave him as he continued to scribble, and Katsuki missed the thoughtful look Ochaco gave him.

oOoOo

After school came and the art club lot decided to head over to the coffee shop together. Katsuki and Izuku mentioned heading over together to try to go catch up on work before heading home, so the other three teens decided to join them as well.

When they arrived Ochaco was amazed at how pretty the setting was. They all put in their orders and grabbed their white cups of sweet tasting caffeine to sit down.

"Oh my god, Izu! This is amazing!" She gasped while pulling out and seat and sitting down. "It's so cute! Kinda of like those American style vintage places. Great find!" She smiled at him.

"Right? It's so peaceful here I love it," Izuku hummed as he took his automatic place next to Katsuki. He didn't miss the obvious glance between the two of them that Ochaco gave.

"Didn't think I'd find you in a coffee shop like this ever, Baku-bro. But it weirdly goes with that secret ass artsy side that you have," Kirishima chuckled lightly as he took out his homework. Katsuki rolled his eyes and turned around to unzip his bag.

Izuku's light laugh carried and he turned to Kirishima with a joking tone. "See! It is mildly cliche isn't it? I told him that when we came here last week."

"Oh, definitely," the red head grinned as he watched Katsuki reach in his bag for something. "I bet you right now, he's reaching in his bag to grab his camera out, so he can photograph this moment or some shit." The blonde in question made a choking sound before shoving an object back down into his bag.

"Shut up shitty hair!" Katsuki exclaimed. Izuku watched as blush nose from his neck all the way up to his tanned cheeks "I was definately fuckin' not…" shy red eyes looked down and grabbed the stack of late homework from his bag. But he didn't fool anyone at the table, and Kirishima doubled over in laughter.

"Oh, you totally were! Oh my god! I was right!" He chuckled loudly. "You're so damn whipped it's amazing. Maybe I should start calling you Baku-whipped. Hey, Izuku? Your hands must be tired. Did you need some help holding up that heavy ass wh—"

"—Fucking can it, Kirishima!" The ex-athlete quickly cut the other off as his face turned beet red. A few eyes in the coffee restaurant looked over at their table and Katsuki apologized quietly to the barista who shot them a dirty look.

"Oh! You like photography, Katsuki?" Ochaco beamed slightly, trying to make conversation with the estranged half of the friend group.

"...yeah, it's something I like to do sometimes," Katsuki mumbled back quietly. "Nothin' serious." Izuku tilted his head at the murmured statement. Katsuki was actually...acting shy about his photos. Something in his heart felt warm at that thought.

But that pulling on his wrist started again.

"Can I see some of your stuff?" Ochaco continued with a happy smile on her face. "Please? I always liked photography! I think it's a great art form."

"Naw, that's cool," Katsuki said quickly, trying his best to not leave room for leeway. "Not really into sharin' my personal stuff."

Izuku took a sip of his coffee and place a hand on the board shoulder encouragingly. "Aw, c'mon, Kacchan! You take such nice photographs. You should let everyone see them!"

"Yeah, Kacchan . Show us what you got," a knowing grin was spread over Kirishima's face and Katsuki's expression grew dark.

"I will actually rip your throat out if you ever call me that again, hair for brains," the deep voice rumbled making everyone giggle and Katsuki just blushed further.

"Well, I think you should show off your talents, Katsuki! Tenya piped up with a determined look in his eye. "Talent is nothing to be squandered or hidden!"

With all eyes on him, the tall blonde looked around and realized he was outnumbered. He glanced down at Izuku's adoring face and felt himself gave in. Like always.

"Fine. Here," he huffed out and carefully handed over his most precious object to the brown girl in front of him. Ochaco happily took the black digital camera and started clicking through the pictures with an amazed look.

"Wow these are amazing shots!" She exclaimed. Her expression slowly changed as her clicking got slightly slower. "...and they're all…" and slower, "...of Izuku." She paused and stared at the image on the screen of the two boys together in Hakuba in front of a painting. Light cinnamon eyes flickers between the two boys in front of her. Katsuki immediately caught her vibe but Izuku went unaware.

"Oh, really?" The greenette questioned ignorantly before shrugging. "Hm, I guess that makes sense for the recent ones. We have started spending a lot of time together."

"No...it's like, all of them..." she whispered when she finally set sight of one of Izuku in a sunset landscape. She looked Katsuki in the face this time and he just rolled his eyes and looked away. At this she cleared her throat and put on a happy face trying to keep the mood light. "Great shots though! I liked them all, especially the ones in Hakuba. You got a lot of great composition on the scenery." She handed back the device to the blonde who took it from her in a gentle manner.

"Thanks," he said quietly before turning his attention back to the stack in front of him. "Now, let's get to catchin' up on this homework, nerd. I'm not giving up my number one spot over a couple of gunshot wounds. I fully plan on being up on the podium giving a speech."

"Wow, you're always so intense," Izuku whispered with a raised eyebrow.

"I'm just tougher than I look," Katsuki replied back with a cocky grin.

After about an hour of studying and idle chit chat, Izuku leaned back in the comfy white chair to stare out the window. He looked at the wetness outside and thought about how much it had been raining recently. Part of him wished it would just hurry up and be spring. He could use a little green in his life right now.

He then turned his gaze to the concentrated blonde next to him. Katsuki currently had on his black stereo headphones that had a white skull decor on them. His red eyes were extremely focused on the advanced calculus problem in front of him. Izuku found himself slightly amazed at how swiftly the other boy was going through the math problems without missing a beat.

Katsuki really is smart.

In that moment, Izuku felt both his heart pull towards the handsome blonde and that tiny string again that was holding him back tugged. His green eyebrows furrowed at the feeling.

He felt...stuck. Like he couldn't move on just yet.

The girl across from him saw noticed how long green eyes stayed on the ex-football player before she spoke up. A question had been on her mind all day and now witnessing the two childhood friends interact only made it heavier.

"Hey, Izuku?" Ochaco spoke up.

"What's is it, Ochaco?" Izuku turned his attention to her with a pleasant look, as if he wasn't just giving Katsuki a lovesick gaze.

She licked her lips before speaking. "What happened to Kai? You haven't...mentioned him since the incident. Did he come visit you in the hospital? Or did something happen?" At this all eyes looked up to stare at Izuku. The greenette's felt his heart flip and the tugging on his wrist suddenly turned painful. Red eyes looked up angry at the question, but he wearily looked at Izuku.

"Oh. Um…" Izuku paused for a long moment. What was he supposed to say? No, Kai hadn't visited him in the hospital because he was the one who sent him there. He tentatively opened his mouth to give a partial truth. "Kai left."

Tenya and Ochaco tilted their heads in confusion. The tiny female looked confused at the statement before continuing. "What? What do you mean?"

The greenette coughed and his chest tighten suddenly. Red eyes looked wearily at the other boy next to him.

"He went back to Tokyo. He left. He was only here for a little while apparently. Kai is...gone. So, we're broken up." Izuku felt his thoughts slightly become sad at the residue emotional wound.

In that moment Katsuki's eyes widened at signs he's learned to pick up since staying at the Midoriya's. He quickly leaned back out of Izuku's line of vision to give Tenya and Ochaco a gesture with his hand to drop the subject and cut it.

Ochaco saw this but only furrowed her eyebrows at it and continued to ignore him.

"Wait—what? Did you at least say goodbye? Right before you left the store you told me you guys were happy together. Did he text you while you were in the hospital or try to get in contact with you?" She pushed lightly. She turned to Tenya with a confused looked and Katsuki got more silently aggressive with the gesture.

"I-I-I…" Izuku started but found his words taken from him when an image of Kai's loving face flash in his head but was quickly replaced by the cold angry look he had given him in the grey room.

"That's really surprising, I would've thought Kai was going to stick around for a long time." Tenya said thoughtfully.

"That's kind of disappointing. What an asshole move though," Ochaco huffed. Izuku's face quickly shifted to dejected and he felt tears start to come on. "Just leaving especially after what happened...he treated you so well and he seemed so nice—"

Katsuki let out a frustrated groan cutting off the girl. "Drop it, round face!" He growled out, shocking everyone at the table besides Izuku, who was too lost in his own thought process. "Izuku, are you okay?"

"Y-Yeah," The greenette dismissed. "I'm fine, but I think I'm g-gonna go step outside a little bit, okay?" He whispered and started placing down his pencil on the table. He stood up without making eye contact with anyone and quickly grabbed his green umbrella.

"Did you want me to come?" The worried blonde called out after the retreating back but Izuku just shook his head. He needed a little bit of space.

"N-No, it's okay. I think I just need a quick walk around the block. T-That's all." And with that he left out the glass door.

When he got outside, Izuku pulled his umbrella up and walked a little bit down the street. He found his feet stuck once his rain boots stood in the middle of a puddle on the sidewalk. Music playing from the coffee shop played quietly in the distance.

The greenette looked down at himself in the reflection and saw his bandaged face. Then he remembered how angry Kai's had been when he inflicted the wounds. Something inside of him broke down at the conflicting memories in his mind.

He thought about Kai kissing him awake and then he thought about him slashing into his face. He thought about Kai calling him bunny, and then viciously accusing him of being a slut. The ghost feeling of a pull on his wrist that kept him from Katsuki felt so tight and smothering as all the memories from that night kept haunting him.

Izuku wanted to believe Kai was sorry like he whispered before he left...but he just didn't know if he still was. He didn't know where the young adult was, or what he was thinking. He couldn't even tell Kai the full truth or explain what really happen.

Kai left completely hurt, thinking of he was some lying slut.

How could he just move on knowing that?

Drowning in his own thoughts, Izuku didn't notice the petite figure that approached him from behind. Gold eyes peered around Izuku's dejected figure before popping in his line of vision with a smile.

"Hey there, bunny," a soft voice greeted him. Izuku looked up in that moment to see Himiko standing there with her hair in two buns, a black rain jacket on with a red umbrella above her head.

"H-Himiko. Hi...how are you?" He greeted right back, fully surprised at the new comer. Parts of him bust with anxiety. Himiko was here—did that mean Kai was too? He looked over his shoulder wearily.

"I'm fine, thank you for asking, sweetie," she gave another smile before reaching in her brown purse. "I have something for you though. I was going to try give it to you when you were at the school, but you were walking in a pack...glad I decided to do a once by the coffee shop before going home."

Izuku was greeted with a white envelope being put in his free hand. He looked down confused at the object and stared at her.

"What is this?"

"Just read it. I'm supposed to stand here and make sure you do."

Izuku looked questioningly at her before opening the piece of paper. He immediately noticed there was a small lump inside and pulled out a another neatly folded piece of paper.

---

Izuku,

I'm so sorry for hurting you. If you don't believe anything else in this letter, please believe that. I never meant to hurt you the way I did and I if I could go back in time I would. I lost control of an ugly anger that I have always either pushed down or utilized in a different way. What I did to you, and what I left you with is the very last thing I ever wanted.

All I wanted to do was protect you when I first met you and I ended up being the one to do the most damage. That knowledge alone is enough for me never to want to hurt someone again. I looked in the mirror that morning and for the first time I actually truly agreed with all the people who let me believe I was a monster, this violent act of a curse sent up from hell.

But you never did. Even after everything, you still don't and the fact that you believe that I have good in me is enough for me to go try and hunt it down for myself. I'm going to address all the things I have been harboring inside of me.

My world was always dark, and I let the darkness consume me, up until I met you. You were the small lighthouse. You were my 'happy place' I would go to and in the end of everything I just wanted to keep you close to me. I wanted to keep your beautiful eyes looking at me, and I deep down never felt like I deserved it when you showed me the beautiful act of love. Which is why I think I lost control at moments when ugly feelings scratched their way out of my body. It scared me, the thought that your eyes were possibly wandering elsewhere because I was afraid they wouldn't return back on me.

I shouldn't have threatened you into stay with me. I apologize even more for not taking the right path and trying to communicate better with you and getting your side of the story. I apologize for lying, shaking you, manhandling you, and doing things to your body that you didn't deserve. I shouldn't have tried to rob you of your dream college all because I was being selfish. I ignored things you wanted for own happiness and desperation.

I just wanted to give you my word that I won't ever hurt you or Katsuki again. I know not hurting Katsuki is something I promised you in the past, but even then that was a lie I told to your face. So, I just wanted to give you the truth for once. I won't ever hurt you or anyone close to you again.

I'm taking on expedited leave to Tokyo and I will be leaving Hamamatsu in the beginning of April. I've officially given up the hitman position and I will try my best to not use violence as an outlet. I can't make promises because it is something that has been strongly rooted deep in me for over twenty years, but I will give you my word that I will at least try my best to be the person you saw in me. The person who was there that I never saw.

You showed me how to take value in life, including my own and try to be something more than what people around me wanted or believed. I'm going to try my best to be my own person. A good person.

In order to do this, I need a lot of alone time to work things out by myself. Thanks for opening my eyes to that. I need time to actually think about Eri, and all the things in my past I told you about. I have to try to fix the fact I use drugs, sex and violence as a means to feel something in my frozen over heart. I can't promise that I'm a safe person to be around right now, I am still pretty unstable at the moment and I recognize that based on small things I've done just this week. I still have chaotic urges to come get you and just...drive away. So, I'm going to take some time out and make sure I don't hurt you again. I won't waste the third chance of life you've given me.

When I said someone had to die that night, someone did. It was Overhaul. I'm officially going to only be the Kai you knew.

In terms of Katsuki, while I will never be a fan, I can tell he loves you deeply and you love him as well. And after thinking long and hard, I'm okay with that. Like I mentioned before, all I wanted to do was protect you. When I put your life in danger, the person who ended up protecting you was him.

I want you to be protected Izuku, you're truly precious. I know you can do it yourself, but it gives me a strange peace of mind to know that someone as fearlessly stupid as him is willing to do all that's in his power to protect you when it comes down to it. It makes me feel sound while I'm away from you. He's brave and as are you.

Take care of each other.

I'll always love you Izuku. I attached my new phone number along with something else I think you might be missing in the envelope.

Call me for anything you need and I'll come running in a heartbeat.

Love you always Bunny,

—Chisaki Kai

---

Green eyes stared wide at the cursive words against the cream colored paper. He looked down inside of the white envelopment to see his green bunny keychain. His eyes watered at the sight of the small piece of paper containing a number that was taped alongside the metallic chain.

"T-This...T-This is…H-He—" Izuku felt his chest heave with heavy emotions all working their way up out of body like ghosts that have been waiting for someone to release them.

"I know. I proofread and censored it for him," the blonde woman whispered. She stepped in closer and gave him a comforting look. "He said you didn't have to reply back, but he just wanted to get all of that out in the open before he left for good."

"C-Can I give you one for him tomorrow? S-Same time? Here?" Izuku's shaking hand clutched the plastic animal chain in its grasp as he felt something like bittersweet happiness on the back of his tongue.

"...of course, bunny," Himiko replied. Her golden eyes looked him up and down before sighing. "You're such a good boy, you know that? I'm really happy Kai met someone like you." Green eyes looked up at the woman who was his height and nodded with a sad, but still happy smile.

"Thank you...thank you so much for this," he let out.

Himiko gave him a hesitant soft hug, and Izuku only slightly flinched and returned it. She walked away underneath her umbrella down the street puddle filled street. Watery green eyes reflected the droplets that were sprinkling down gently. He let a couple tears fall down onto the cream colored paper.

As he reread Kai's words, the pulling on his wrist finally let go of him. Setting him free.

Izuku looked up in that moment to study the sky but something more captivating caught his attention.

Across the street was a barren sakura bloom tree that had a singular bloomed pink flower on it. It gently swayed against the wind like a gorgeous lone soldier showing the world how strong it was. He softly smiled.

Izuku thought he's never seen anything more beautiful.

oOoOo

Kai,

Thank you for the beautiful words and I want to return the sorry.

I never ever wanted to hurt you either and I apologize for wrapping you in the mess that Katsuki and I made. I never meant for your heart to be collateral but I am so happy that you're going to be the person you know you are. You're well deserving of love and I hope you understand that one day.

I'll always love and care for you as well. You opened my eyes to things I never knew before like love, affection, and acceptance. When I first met you I was someone who was ashamed and I thought so little of myself. But you showed me that I was more than that. You also opened my eyes to how it's okay for two men to love each other. You showed me that I was beautiful and helped me understand what love felt like.

You were my lighthouse as well and in an unique sense you always will be. I just wanted to apologize correctly about keeping my virginity a secret from you for so long. I never meant to, I wanted to tell you at a point but you were being so nice and loving it made me worried to speak up. I started falling for you and I was afraid that if I told you, you would think differently of me and decide that you don't like me anymore. People at my school were slut shaming me at the time and I felt this deep guilt and shame for what I had done. I just didn't want you to think of me the same way like everyone else was.

I had just wanted to keep you close as well and I didn't want to lose the person I cared about over a decision I didn't think about all the way through. I never had sex with him again after that. I didn't want to hurt you and I would never do something like that to you. The Yuuei Application I had meant to cancel but something inside of me just wanted to see if I got in because it was something I wanted for so long. I was never planning on leaving you and hurting you. I truly meant that it was the last thing I wanted. I want to see you smiling and loved and I'm so happy to hear you're going to at least try and be better. Knowing that is a beautiful thing. Progress itself should be celebrated.

I know my physical wounds will heal eventually. It helps a lot to know that even after everything you're remorseful and that you're starting on a new path. That is all I need to know to take care of the emotional wounds I have and move forward. I'm so happy to have gotten this letter from you, and for getting the opportunity to know you. Thank you so much for always loving and caring for me in the way that you did. I can put everything in the past easily with this, and I hope you can one day. Our pasts shouldn't define us, Kai. Yours doesn't, I saw that first hand.

Your real nature is beautiful and gentle like your name.

I'll always love you as well, Kai. You're going to do great things, you just have to believe it yourself. I'm so glad I met you and I'll see you around in the future. If I'm ever in Tokyo at some point, you'll be the first person I let know.

Love always,

—Midoriya Izuku

oOoOo

The next day on Tuesday, Izuku went back to the coffee shop with Katsuki. He gave Himiko his letter and all the weight on his chest with it. He entered in Kai's number in his contacts as 'Chisaki Kai' with a picture of the sakura blossom from yesterday.

He sent a simple text that said, 'Thank you for the letter.'

He received a simple one back.

[Chisaki Kai]: Thank you as well .

And with that he finally let that chapter of his life close peacefully.

oOoOo

The following days since the Monday he received Kai's letter Izuku felt his shoulders and chest become lighter and lighter as he reread the words so much that he almost memorized them. He placed the bunny keychain away in the envelope with the letter, officially sealing that part of his life away like a gentle memory he wouldn't mind revisiting.

Izuku apologized to his friends and told them that Kai had been mildly problematic and that he left the night he was abducted by Overhaul. Ochaco took him out for ice cream to help him with the 'break up blues' and Tenya gave him a big hug. Todoroki just gave Katsuki a knowing look before giving Izuku a one armed hug. The dual toned boy told him that there was someone better waiting for him anyways.

After getting all the support from friends throughout the week, Izuku felt himself slowly starting to smile more regularly, and by Thursday all sets of wounds almost felt closed.

All but one.

It was now Friday after school, and he was trying to keep it together. He was sitting on the bench in the locker room right before his first track meet back since the incident that was now almost three weeks ago.

He stared expectantly at his red sneakers trying to fight this strong anxiety that was stopping him from putting them on.

The doctor had finally told him that he could start to run again, just to be careful of his shoulder and not push it too far. Which meant he would be slower than usual, and that thought scared him.

He heard the warning bells go off and took a deep breath in. Another minute passed before a body pushed through the door that led into the gymnasium.

"Izuku? Are you in here? Everyone is waiting on you to start the meet," Katsuki's familiar voice echoed in the empty room of metalic doors.

"I'm over here," He called back. He kept his eyes cast down not looking up when he saw the familiar white sneakers of the blonde bedmate approach. Izuku was going to lift his head up to address the other but was surprised when Katsuki squatted down to his eye level with a soft smile.

"What's wrong, Deku?" The gentle raspy voice asked him. Izuku looked at him with flattering confidence and slightly opened his mouth.

"I'm just scared I'm going to perform poorly I guess...and that's kind of stopping me from putting on my shoes…" he admitted honestly instead of covering like usual.

His avoidance symptoms were getting better within the last three weeks. He's gotten better at talking about them with everyone, and letting his friends know what he's feeling versus just dismissing it.

But this, one of things most important to him, kicked it into full swing again.

He awaited a response from the other, expecting to get cliche words of encouragement but was surprised when Katsuki started to untie the laces on the red sneaked and then kneeled down on one leg all the way. A large hand lifted his foot and carefully slid on one shoe with kindness. Then he did the same with the other.

Green eyes stared wide as Katsuki tied his shoes for him with the exact double knot he always liked for running. The handsome blonde then gave him a loving smile once finished.

"I always got you," the deep voice finally spoke. "Let me if you're having any other problems, okay? I'll try to make it easier the best I can." Katsuki got off his kneel position to sit next to the greenette on the pale wooden bench patiently with no pressure for him to move.

Izuku looked at Katsuki sitting next to him and felt his heart blossom with undeterred warm feeling of love for the boy next to him. His chest pulled and there was now nothing stopping him.

Take care of each other.

The greenette smiled before standing up and Katsuki followed him out to the meet.

Izuku came in first with the thought of ruby eyes helping push him through.

oOoOo

The cluster of friends came out of the gymnasium laughing about the track meet with Mina making jokes about how speedy Izuku was.

"Hey! Guys!" A distance female voice called out to the colorful pack of friends. Izuku turned around along with everyone else. Approaching quickly was Katsuki's ex-girlfriend, Takeyama. Her blonde hair bounced perfectly with the curls she had flat ironed in. "I wanted to ask you guys if you wanna come to my house party tomorrow? Katsuki, Mina, Denki and Kirishima usually came every year but I would love to have you all!"

Izuku stared at the perky girl surprised. He had never been invited to a party before, much less the biggest party that happened every year hosted by her, the head cheerleader. He watched she her red eyes sparkle looking at him like he was some kind of puppy. She's always been pretty nice to him, now that he thinks about it.

Maybe...it wouldn't be that bad to go to a party this year. Crazier things have happened by far.

"Er, I dunno, Takeyama…" Katsuki mumbled as if he was thinking about something looking at Izuku. "I might pass. It depends on what Izuku wants to do."

"Aw, that's completely understandable!" She chimed. "How about you guys? I would love to have everyone I can think of go. I wanna try to finish this year off with a big bang y'know? Plus, my parents are on their annual business trip...it'll be fun!" She turned her attention to the rest of the group.

Mina and Kirishima nodded to their friend. "Yeah, of course we're gonna be there!" The pink haired girl perked. Izuku took it in more thought. He wanted to at least try to have fun, and Katsuki was so tethered to him because he was still staying with him that he felt guilty for getting in the way.

Green eyes watched as Todoroki, Tenya, and Ochaco all looked between each other before shrugging. In that moment Izuku finally perked up.

"I'll go!" He beamed out before he could change his mind. The blonde boy next to him whipped his head around in surprise.

"Are you sure, 'zuku? You don't have to."

"No, I want to. Let's go have some fun. This year has been...way too crazy. I wanna dance," Izuku said sternly looking up playfully into red eyes. He watched a pleased grin slowly slip onto Katsuki's face before he turned to Takeyama.

"I guess we're in," he laughed and threw an arm around Izuku's shoulders.

"Oh my gosh, perfect! I'll send you guys all the invite through Facebookette, okay?" She clasped her hands together before giggling. "This is going to be rad!"

oOoOo

When Saturday evening rolled around, Izuku was admittedly excited. He was going to a party with his friends like a normal high school student. It would be nice to finally get go for a while and not think about things. He thought about Todoroki's bad dancing, and how cute it would be to watch Tenya twirl Ochaco.

Then he thought about a certain blonde, who was now in his bathroom getting dressed.

"I can't wait to fuckin' let loose for a bit," the gruff voice called from down the hall. Izuku let out a laugh at the nice light air that surrounded them before standing up and pulling a grey cardigan over his white shirt. He coupled the look with dark blue skinny jeans and was planning on putting on his stark white shoes.

"Yeah. It's gonna be nice," the greenette replied with a laugh.

His phone buzzed, and he already knew what it was. He looked down at the device that now didn't hold the bunny keychain, but it no longer bothered him. He opened up the S.Q.U.A.D group chat that both he and Katsuki were re-added to.

S . Q . U . A . D

[Kirishima]: AYeeeEEE! Slow pokes Izuku Baku-whipped, where you at!? We're all here except ya'll! You let Todoroki beat you and you guys KNOW how crazy his skin care and hair routine is

[You]: Katsuki is taking his time on fixing his hair, but we're almost ready!

[Todoroki]: Wow. And I thought I was bad. Didn't know it took *actual* effort to make that bedhead look as terrible as it does. I don't know weather to be impressed or concerned.

[Kirishima]: That makes sense tbh. Katsuki is always up his ass about his aesthetic. I didn't know belligerent blonde was a type of look until I met him

[Todoroki]: Or just the human personification of an angry dog. A rapid angry dog. If you need a personal stylist Bakugou I know a couple of dog groomers that can truly make miracles happen.

[Kacchan]: …

[Kacchan]: I open up my fucking phone to see ya'll talkin mad shit like this?

[Kacchan]: u know what…just for that I'm gonna take my motherfucking time. Fuck you guys

[Pretty Mina]: LOL! Awww guys leave him alone! He just wants to make sure he looks good tonight ;)

[Kirishima]: oooo BRO. GOTTA KEEP IT FRESH! ;)))

[Mother Hen]: Take your time Bakugou! Nothing is more important than a man's hygiene and personal look. We will all be here when you finish looking the way you want!

[Ochaco]: Yeah! It's okay :) We're all in the back where everyone's dancing!

[Kacchan]: Bye. All of you are annoying af.

[You]: ^_^; give us like 30 min and we'll be there! TTFN!

Izuku let out a laugh when he could hear the blonde in the other room let out an annoyed groan and the slamming of a phone. Slowly the greenette walked over to the bathroom and leaned against the door to take in Katsuki's appearance as the blonde messed with his spiky hair.

Admittedly, Katsuki did look extra nice. It made Izuku's chest tighten as he studied the board shoulders.

The gentle hot head was wearing a fitted black shirt and a nice short sleeved throw over olive green button up he didn't bother to actually button up. Green eyes watched the dog tags the boy's mother bought him for his birthday last year as a joke dangle lightly from around his neck. He was wearing straight navy-blue jeans and Izuku assumed he was going to wear his black sneakers he had placed downstairs.

"Alright, let's go do this shit," The blonde grinned in a cocky manner once he was finished with his look. They went downstairs together, Katsuki grabbed his black bomber jacket and Izuku grabbed his blue light weather jacket before they left out together.

oOoOo

The loud distant sounds of deep bass music and laughter could be heard from down the street as Katsuki and Izuku got closer to the richer neighborhood of Hamamatsu.

Something like nervousness crawled against Izuku's skin but was quickly vanished the second he looked to Katsuki who seemed to be right in his element at the scene. They arrived closer and the house was impressively packed with students from Aldera high and other schools. Bodies were positioned over all the front porch of the large house with red cups in their hands and laughing and joking.

The rich dark wooden door was propped open, signaling for anyone to come in. It surprised Izuku almost how bustling with life this party was but he guessed that's what made it the party of the year. Takeyama knew how to throw a good time.

As they approached closer to the chaotic happy crowd, Katsuki leaned down to whisper in his ear.

"You don't have to drink if you don't want to, and if you're feeling claustrophobic just let me know and we can go head back home, okay? No questions asked." The deep rasp in the others voice dragged lowly and a slight chill ran up Izuku's spine at the closeness.

The word 'home' hit him as Katsuki used it in a sense that almost seemed like they basically lived together. Which wasn't...wrong. Izuku turned around to address the other and felt himself blush at the proximity of their faces with Katsuki's bent down position. His eyes unwillingly flickered down to the pink lips of the other and he saw something flash in those fierce red eyes.

"I got it, I don't think I'm gonna drink and I'll let you know if I feel too overwhelmed. Thank you, Kacchan." He smiled back at the ash blonde boy who nodded before holding out his hand.

"You should...er, probably hold my hand until we find where everyone is. It's kind of packed in there. Don't wanna lose you." A light blush rose of the dead serious face of the other and Izuku felt his own blush wonder back up.

Izuku's heart thumped at how considerate Katsuki was being and he took the other's hand and they descended into the chaotic madness.

When they got into the actual mansion of a house the music was loud and bumping the walls lightly. Suddenly, what Katsuki said made complete sense. He watched as students were sitting on the stairs talking, dancing idly with each other and leaning against the wall. It felt extremely cliché, but it made him feel kinda excited to experience this with his friends and without the worry of bullying.

He watched how there were guys leaning against the wall trying to look cool for a cute girl or vice versa. He squeezed the large hand that was clasped in his to ease some of his anxiety about the new experience and the hand just squeezed right back.

Katsuki led them straight into the back into what was a large room tightly clustered with bodies. It almost felt like one of the clubs he had gone to but much tamer and age appropriate. He quickly spotted his bundle of friends, doing exactly what he thought they would be doing.

Kirishima and Mina were laughing, trying to show Todoroki dance moves. Next to them, Ochaco laughed with Tenya spinning her around and Denki leaned back on the side talking with someone with sunglasses on top of his head looking cool and relaxed with a red solo cup.

Brown eyes perked up and waved over the two tardy boys. "There are you are!" Her voice carried, and she quickly motioned them over. Katsuki quickly maneuvered them around the other dancing bodys in the room to beeline for the group.

"Hey, guys!" Izuku beamed happily waving his free hand with a bright smile. He watched as everyone's eyes quickly darted to their joint hands. He felt himself blush immediately at the realization and both boys automatically pulled away their hands. Katsuki shoved his hands in his pockets and Izuku scratched behind his neck. "T-This looks super fun so far!"

Mina grew a bright knowing grin, Todoroki gave a small smirk and Ochaco raised her eyebrows nearly off her face. Kirishima...well, Kirishima was biting his lip trying to hold in laughter as he dead looked Katsuki in the face.

"Yeah, it's been super fun so far, how about yourselves? Having fun?" Kirishima teased and Mina quickly jabbed in the side making her boyfriend double over from surprise.

"I'm just happy you two made it! Izuku, come dance with me!" Mina quickly interjected, and she grabbed the boy by his hand. Izuku noticed he didn't flinch and felt himself have a wave of relief that the visceral reaction was pretty much dissipated (around his friends at least).

"O-Okay!" He grinned back and reached a hand out to steal Ochaco. "You should dance too!" He beamed and his brown-haired best friend giggled and joined in.

As the music played upbeat playful jams, the friend group parties amongst themselves with encouraging claps and hellos from other students and Izuku felt himself overcome with a happiness that he hadn't felt in a long time being surrounded by all the people he loved in his life. He let Mina try to introduce him to something called 'twerking' that he wasn't quite good at and he saw it made Katsuki look away quickly, which confused him slightly.

As the night continued on for another hour, Izuku lost himself a bit to the euphoria feeling that was similar to what he gets when he runs. He giggled and happily play dancing with Ochaco, Todoroki and Mina on and off. He felt like this was something he hadn't known he really needed since he hadn't gone out in so long.

Suddenly his favorite song came on and he smiled brightly at the circle of dancing friends that were bumping bodies with other joyful people in the room. With the encouragement of Mina's catcalls, Izuku playfully shimmed off his cardigan when he got a little overheated. He tossed his head side to side allowing his hair to bounce and ran his finger through his curls. He heard Todoroki let out a low whistle when his cardigan fell all the way off his shoulders and pooled at his elbows, leaving the skin of his arms showing.

"Goddamn, watch yourself little dude! I didn't know you could dance like that !" Kirishima called out clapping in amusement. Izuku only laughed and looked over his shoulder with his hand still in his hair at the pair of tall jock boys. Katsuki's face was in a deep blush but grinning extremely wide as he raked his eyes across Izuku's dancing form over the edge of his solo cup.

Somehow feeling brave, green eyes locked with red and Izuku felt his heart pull. He let his arm down without missing a beat, swayed his hips to the music and allowed his cardigan to fall all the way off. Leaving him only in the tight white tee shirt he was wearing. He carefully tossed the piece of fabric to the side where the other's coats were.

Fire eyes widened as large as saucers and Katsuki tried his best to keep up with the music lightly bouncing. The tall boy raised an eyebrow at him surprised at the display and he took a sip from his cup. A small smile graced the sharp handsome features and the blonde leaned in to talk into Izuku's ear over the music.

"Enjoying yourself?" The deep voice rasped.

"I am! This is super fun. I see why you came every year," Izuku smiled back. He turned his head to the side to face the other while continuing to dance. His eyes became quickly fixated on the neat pink lips on the other that were now eye level with him. He felt something like heat swell in his chest when he looked up into red eyes and saw how passionately they were flickering back at him.

"Good. I want you to enjoy yourself." A smirk came over Katsuki and Izuku felt the urge to pull him down to his level and lean inwards. "You keep on doin' your thing, I'm gonna go back in the kitchen area with Kiri to get another drink. Come get me if you need anything, okay?"

The information left Izuku slightly disappointed, but he gave the other a nod. "Okay, don't drink too much! I need you in one piece."

"Don't you worry about that, nerd. I'm the exact opposite of a light weight," Katsuki winked at him and Izuku blushed at the light suggestive tone.

The track runner watched the tall blonde lean back upward and tap Kirishima. They headed off to the side to the kitchen and Izuku watched his broad shoulders walk away. Something inside of him panged with a hint of sadness. He wanted Katsuki to stay...with him. He felt selfish for the thought, but his heart squeezed at how close the other was.

He was always so close yet so far.

He thought about all the times Katsuki was close to him, but something was either blocking them from being together or there was a barrier of sorts. But just now, those lips were so close...and all the greenette could think about doing was leaning in to feel them again. And there was nothing really stopping him from doing so.

After another ten minutes went on, and Katsuki hadn't returned, Izuku decided to take a break. He told everyone that he was going to the kitchen and followed the trial in which the blonde and red haired boy left on.

He arrived at the sight of the kitchen when he saw the backs of the two boys but paused when he heard a sentence that caught him off guard.

"—You seriously haven't asked him out on this damn date you've been talking about for three weeks now? You guys walked in holding hands!" Kirishima's voice rang out clearly. Izuku pressed his body against the wall out of sight but listened carefully to the conversation confused.

"No, dumbass," he heard Katsuki annoyed voice speak up. "I'm going to wait for the right time. I don't wanna come across as too pushy or somethin'. Like a month ago shit hit the fan...or blood in our case. I wanna be respectful and give him enough time to like...y'know, be okay and deal with stuff emotionally."

"I guess that makes sense. So, when are you thinkin' you'll ask him?"

"Whenever I get a green light or whatever. Like some hint that he's cool with...possibly dating again. I just wanna make sure he's like, comfortable, y'know? I don't wanna pop the idea out of nowhere like 'Hey, Deku! Go on a date with me right now, nerd.' and scare him off."

"...I really hope that's not how you're planning on asking him because that alone would scare anyone off."

"Of course, that's not how I'm going to fucking ask him! Have a little more faith, goddamn…"

"Just checking! You are a bit impulsive and that does sound awful lot like you. Did you want another drink?"

"Yeah, I want another drink. I got shot three damn times. I've been needing this for a long time. I had no idea how much stress was in my shoulders until my stiff ass couldn't even keep up with the music tonight. Izuku's little cute ass left me in the dust completely."

He heard the pair of boys laugh and change the subject onto something else. The information sunk into his brain like it was water on a sponge and blush quickly rose on his face.

Katsuki wanted to ask him out on a date, but he was being polite about it and just waiting. He lifted a hand over his mouth at the information that really shouldn't shock him, but it did for some reason. The tall boy was waiting for a signal to be romantic with him because he respected Izuku's boundaries.

The heat in his heart blossomed all over his body with warmth at the information and a smile slipped over his lips. Izuku quickly back tracked away from the kitchen when he heard footsteps and beat the other two boys back to the circle of people who were now leaned against the wall chatting and laughing about something.

"Ah, there you guys are!" Mina smiled as he reached out for her boyfriend. "Missed you," she cooed and Kirishima leaned down to peak her on the lips lovingly.

Katsuki smiled down at Izuku as he stood in front of him with a half way full drink in his hand. "Danced out?" He asked Izuku over the loud music. Emerald eyes looked up at him underneath long eyelashes with something close to that determination that always simmered under his surface.

The runner's brain was pacing a mile per minute thinking hard. He thought about what he just heard and what he's been feeling since August for the blonde boy. The flame inside of his heart flickered while looking at gaze the other was giving him. He thought about everything that's happened this year. Everything that's happened for them, all that's occurred and all that Katsuki has done for him.

He felt that pull, and this time it was coupled with his bravery.

In that moment, a popular song came on and everyone smiled and started slowly dancing again. Kirishima grabbed Mina's hand and everyone in their friend circle headed out to the middle of the crowd.

Green light.

"Not yet. I still owe you a dance, Kacchan," Izuku said over the music to the blonde. He watched the other's cheeks quickly turn a pink color before leaning down and clearing his throat.

"U-Uh, are you sure? You really don't have to—" The deep voice started but trialed off when Izuku grabbed his hand in front of everyone.

"C'mon, dance with me!" Izuku dragged Katsuki out to the floor quickly with a quick step out to where everyone was.

"Okay," the blushing blonde whispered back and allowed himself to be pulled like he was hypnotized. Izuku flashed a smile to Ochaco who smiled at him along with Todoroki who was quickly trying to find his own groove.

The beat of the song picked up and Izuku positioned their bodies in front of each and started to slowly sway his hips side to side to the beat while still keeping their fingers entangled. He watched as those red iries stayed glued onto how his body was moving with his and then slowly they trailed up to look into his face with a goofy smirk.

Izuku smiled right back as Katsuki finally let him let loose in dancing and went along with the beat with him. He felt them fall together in a rhythm of the upbeat song as he led with Katsuki's hand in his. He watched as Katsuki swayed and bounced to beat with the cup in his hand accompanied by a smirk. The large hand locked in his swiftly lifted to twirl Izuku. A deep laugh sprouted from the photographer and Izuku smiled at the light feeling.

Slowly as the song went on, Izuku led Katsuki's hand to his waist and he watched the half-lidded look that slowly drowned the other boy. The track runner tossed one arm onto the board shoulders and felt the hand on his waist squeeze slightly with self restraint. The pad of the rough thumb lightly massaged his lean abs as they kept going with the music. Izuku smiled and tossed his hair back with his hand, observing carefully as Katsuki's eyes dilated.

He felt his own body swell with heat as his heart picked up speed at the proximity of their bodies. He studied the muscular arms and the hard chest so close to his and the light shine of saliva on the other's lips when Katsuki licked them.

Something blossomed in Izuku that wanted to push it further. He tightly held onto the strong shoulders and pulled himself in closer until their legs were entangled and swaying into each other and their chests met. His heart was thrashing against his ribcage as he stared directly up into those passionate amber eyes. They looked back down at him flashing over a thousand emotions. The hand on his waist tightened before tentatively wrapping around his waist, pulling him in closer.

There was a low swing in the song that made them slow down their movements and Izuku's heart was covered in the budding love that grew into everything about Katsuki. He studied how those red eyes locked onto him and never let go. He felt the pressing heat of his chest against him and the pressure of the hand on his body pulled him close. Their longing eyes never left each other and slowly Izuku felt his breathing become slightly shallow.

He could feel the heart in the other chest palitate against him like a drum as Katsuki leaned down hesitantly studying everything about his face. He felt hot breath ghost over his mouth and slowly Izuku fluttered his eyes closed. The last thing he remembers seeing is the beautiful color of ruby so close.

Warm lips met his and he felt himself burst with an intense heated emotion that stemmed directly out of his heart and branched directly into the person he loved. The lips slowly worked into him in a slow patient fashion and he relished in every hot breath and gasp that left into him. Katsuki pressed into him and the arm holding his waist pulled him in tight. The blonde kissed back passionately, chasing after the heat that was igniting between them.

Quickly, the tallest shot his arm out that was holding his drink to the side. He carelessly shoved it into Kirishima hand, slightly spilling the dark liquor. There was a yelp from the red head boy before he ungracefully caught the cup.

"Hey! What the hell Bakug—oh—Ohhh!" Kirishima face broke out in a large grin with Mina's as they watched Katsuki return his hand to bury into Izuku's hair and continue to kiss him harder.

All sets of eyes in proximity widened at the display. Todoroki tapped Tenya on the shoulder to point to the two boys lost in themselves and Ochaco nearly dropped her cup of water.

Izuku shuttered as he felt that tongue grace upon his bottom lip and he opened his mouth without hesitation giving Katsuki full access, and the blonde boy took it in a heartbeat. The hand in his hair tilted his head to the side and he felt Katsuki groan into their interlocked mouths with his chest rumbling deeply.

The wet appendage dived into him and danced around his own drawing a moan from the budding warmth in his belly. The ash blonde leaned in fully into the smaller body trying to chase his beating heart and the runner felt himself nearly bowed backwards at the action. He grasped onto the olive-green fabric for support on the muscular shoulders as he was dipped down.

There was a low flirty whistle that made them break apart, panting heavily. Eager desire in crimson eyes was clear cut. Izuku could feel his own eyes half lidded at the passionate kiss that just took over him. He felt Katsuki rest his forehead on his, not breaking his hold on Izuku as he lifted him back upright. Slowly a bright grin spread across his handsome face.

"You have no idea how long I've been wanting to do that properly," he whispered in a husky voice that shot straight down Izuku's spine.

Suddenly, he was hyper aware of his environment. Izuku sensed the the feeling of eyes everywhere on them and he turned his head to the side to see not only his friends staring at him, but several other students looking as well. Some looked surprised, others didn't. But they were looking, and it make Izuku slightly anxious. He turned back to Katsuki who didn't seem to care at all.

"Everyone's watching," he whispered for Katsuki's ears.

"Fuck 'em, let 'em watch then." A cocky smile overcame the handsome features. "I only care about being with you."

The phrase stuck a cord in him when he realized how much Katsuki has truly changed since the beginning of the year. Katsuki wasn't ashamed anymore. A small smile overcame him as he hugged tighter around the blonde.

"Aw, so cute!" Mina perked, and Izuku felt himself blush and unpress himself against Katsuki. The blonde fluidly moved his hands down to Izuku's narrow hips, being mindful to keep the guy of his dreams close to him.

"Yeah it is, but take it outside—privately, lover boys. Don't really wanna knocked over while you two are going at it. Katsuki is naturally aggressive on the regular, so I can only imagine what he's like when riled up," Kirishima winked at Izuku and the greenette straight up choked on his own spit.

He turned his head to the other side to Todoroki, Tenya, and Ochaco to see their facial expressions. The only person who seemed unsurprised was Todoroki. He stared at the other two with a twinge of guilt until he spoke up.

"I'll explain everything, later? I promise," he whispered, shrugged his shoulders and cringed. Ochaco and Tenya just nodded while Katsuki spoke up with a lovesick gaze in his eye.

"Yeah, later. For now, I got somethin' I wanna ask him first—privately," He quipped quickly with an uncontrollable smile on his face. "Let's go outside for a minute."

Izuku felt his chest tighten because he already knew what it was.

A smile lifted his lips.

oOoOo

Izuku allowed himself to be led out of the crowded house that was still blasting music. They arrived to a secluded area in the back with the unused pool. The color from the bright lights against the water made it appear as if the liquid was glowing a hypnotizing shade of blue. The contrast of the reflection against the night sky made Izuku feel like it was slightly mystical.

Katsuki closed the white back door behind him, muffling the music and turned to Izuku with a smirk. The blonde looked like he was on cloud nine as he studied Izuku like the most precious thing he's ever encountered. He took three steps forward to lightly hold Izuku's hands in his. A tell-tale pull tugged against Izuku's chest making him step forward closer as well.

The blonde looked down at the ground before clearing his throat.

"Izuku...I…" he started and then lifted his eyes to lock onto beauty in front of him. "I really...I love you. I know you know that already but…I just want to let you know much I really, really do love you," Katsuki whispered gazing into Izuku's eyes with a passionate burn. "I know we took things way too fast in the beginning of this year...so I wanna do things right this time 'round because I don't want to lose you again."

Izuku felt himself start to tear up but from the abundance of emotions that were pouring out from the boy in front of him.

"Will you go out on a date with me, 'zuku? Like a real official one?" Those loving red eyes searched into his. "I haven't...figured out what type of date yet because I wasn't expecting what happened in there to happen for maybe like another...couple months but fuck —please go out with me. Please, Izuku."

Izuku laughed at the ranting blonde boy and the answer leaped out of his chest before he could catch it.

"Yes, Kacchan, of course. I would love to." A happy laughter escaped past his lips and echoed in the empty space. Katsuki started laughing as well and brought a hand up to hold Izuku's face gently and pull him into a kiss.

oOoOo

They didn't go back inside to the party after that.

Instead they found themselves idly talking while holding hands. Their shoes were taken off and their pants were rolled all the way up as they let their feet idly wallow inside of the glowing pool water.

A small forgotten Sakura blossom passed their feet in water and the runner felt happiness warm his heart.

Izuku studied how beautiful the dancing lightwaves looked against Katsuki's skin and ashen hair as he spoke about different things he loved, and places to possibly go on their date. Their fingers were interlaced between them and Izuku's heart felt full for the first time in a long time looking into ruby eyes.

His heart swooned, and he leaned in to kiss Katsuki again and the blonde smiled into his lips. The photographer raised a gentle hand to interlaced into thick curls thoughtfully. He stroked and twirled the curls with his fingers as their lips melted into each other.

In that moment Izuku's ear twitched with the sound of something clicking and a shutter noise in the back. He quickly pulled away confused at the noise. Katsuki looked at him perplexed at the sudden draw back.

"What's wrong?" The deep voice whispered, his fingers tracing Izuku's neck lightly.

Izuku stayed still for another moment and looked over his shoulder at the barren thick wall of trees beyond the fence of Takeyama's house. He felt himself frown when his eyes could only see darkness.

"I think I'm just hearing things," Izuku mumbled. But Katsuki perked up at that.

"What do you think you heard?" The blonde pressed, looking in the same direction as Izuku also feeling his paranoia kick in.

"It...kind of sounded like a camera shutter? If that makes any sense," Izuku mumbled and hesitantly turned around to Katsuki. There was a cold protective look that quickly washed over the larger boy's features and he grasped Izuku's hand in his own and started to stand up.

"C'mon," he said while staring into the dark trees. "Let's just head out." He quickly pulled Izuku up and gathered their socks and shoes before they went back inside.

Izuku glanced over his shoulder one more time and he heard the shuttering noise again.

oOoOo

When they went back inside holding hands, several students whistled in their direction and some random people told them they were cute together. Others whispered and looked at Katsuki strangely. Some said nothing and didn't acknowledge them. The mixed reactions threw Izuku off guard for a moment, but then he reconsidered how he didn't really care.

He had Kacchan. That's what mattered. And judging by the way the ash blonde boy didn't seem to pause for a second on the looks others were giving him, Katsuki didn't seem to care either.

They had each other—finally.

And there wasn't an anxious bone in his bone with Katsuki's strong hand guiding him through.

The duo put their shoes back on and made their way back over to their friends who were all grinning like mad men at their intertwined hands. Kirishima, Denki and Mina all gave Katsuki thumbs up, and the blonde just rubbed behind his neck with a smirk.

Todoroki gave Izuku a nod of approval and Ochaco and Tenya smiled, but Izuku could tell they wanted explanations.

"We're gonna head on home guys, I'm gettin' a little tired," Katsuki spoke up with a blush on his face.

Ochaco then leaned in to give Izuku a hug goodbye but lingered with her head on his shoulder.

"Are you happy?" He heard her soft voice asked barely audible. Green eyes widened at the statement when he realized what she was asking, and what she was saying. She leaned back to look at him and Izuku nodded at her with a small smile.

"Okay then, no need for an explanation," She spoke when a gentle happy tone.

"No...I should. I owe you an explanation. I'm going to try my best to stop avoiding talking about things," Izuku said with a soft smile and he felt Katsuki squeeze his hand. "Katsuki is important to me and you are my best friend. So...I owe you an explanation."

At this Ochaco whispered a soft "okay," with a loving smile before she turned her attention to the blonde boy next to her. Her eyes turned fierce looking up at Katsuki who was staring down at her as if waiting for her to berate him. She lightly tapped him in the chest with her fist.

"If you hurt him I'll beat you up!" She spoke with a light laughter and everyone in the circle actually chuckled at the thought.

They all said their goodbyes and Katsuki and Izuku headed home. While walking out Katsuki had his head in cloud nine with Izuku's hand entangled in his.

When they reached the bottom on the stairs, the runner noticed but didn't think much of the dark blue car that was parked down the street in the shadows.

oOoOo

"I thought you said you were tired, Kacchan," Izuku laughed quietly. They were currently laying in bed face to face and Katsuki kept running his fingers in his hair. The blonde boy just shrugged his shoulders and continued to let his eyes dance around from freckle to freckle.

"I'll go to sleep soon," the raspy voice whispered. Izuku let himself close his eyes and just enjoy the feeling of Katsuki running his long fingers through his curls.

The wind blew gently through the open window, making the green curtains dance in the dark room. There was a pale stream of pale moonlight that lit the room almost perfectly and the air in the room smelled like fresh early spring that was starting to bud with fragranced flowers.

When the touch a breeze landed on his face, Izuku fluttered his eyes open to see Katsuki with his eyes closed, peacefully taking a moment of silence. Izuku looked at how soft the pale blonde eyelashes contrasted against lightly tanned skin and how pink and rosy Katsuki's lips looked.

His own heart started to speed up steadily as he leaned in and brushed their noses together. Slowly, red eyes opened again, but there was an edge of something else beside sweetness in them. The arm around his waist squeezed slightly.

"Careful 'zuku," he heard Katsuki's voice drop a couple of octaves.

Izuku took the words and felt the rumble of the deep voice in his body. A small coil of heat start to twist in him at the proximity and the look of Katsuki was giving him. Izuku knew he should probably lean back, not push the envelope any further than he already has.

He could see the warning gleam that was sharp in those burning red eyes. But bravery found a home in his body and pushed him forward. He wanted to feel those lips, to finally try to be with Kacchan the way he always hoped. He didn't know how far he could actually go but he wanted to at least try. He just wanted to make Katsuki feel good after everything they've been through.

Izuku then licked up lips and hesitantly leaned in further. He pushed into the soft face and ghosted over Katsuki's mouth. The strong arm around his waist pull him in closer and their legs entangled.

His eyes flickered down when Katsuki quickly licked his lips making his lips shine and glisten in the pale lit room.

The shy greenette felt his eyes close again when the body next to him shifted to claim his mouth. The boy next to him wasted what felt like no time to push his tongue eagerly past Izuku's mouth, and Izuku did the same. The kiss felt perfect like before and many times before that, it was filled with a gentleness as Katsuki took his time to explore his mouth.

The hand in his hair gently touched behind his ear and the motion sent a cold shiver down Izuku causing him to whine into the other. The youngest could feel the shaky breath it elicited from the other as Katsuki started to kiss him more ravenous and heated. He lifted himself slightly to hover over the greenette for better access and entangled their already close limbs losing himself slightly into the motion of kissing the lips he's been dreaming about for so long.

A breath gasp slipped past Izuku's own lips when he felt Katsuki press tightly against him and the friction of their hips rubbed together. The photographer let out a throaty groan before snapping his head away and looking down at Izuku. When green eyes reopened he was staring up at into flaming red eyes that were searching his face with conflicting emotions.

"...we shouldn't go all the way," the low deep voice said in a hush voice. "I want to take it slow, y'know? After everything." Izuku agreed with a nod before lifting a nimble hand up to touch Katsuki's cheek. He watched as Katsuki leaned into his hand and everything in the runner just wanted to make the other feel loved and appreciated.

"I agree," he started softly before leaning up. The taller of the two leaned up as well to allow him space but Izuku leaned in clearly to slowly kiss the junction of his neck. He felt himself stir when he the large hand on his waist gripped him harder with restraint like earlier. Katsuki voice dropped straight into a grovely warning.

"Deku—"

"Let me make you feel good," Izuku heard himself whispered into the warm tan skin. "Please, Kacchan. Nothing more." He kissed the soft spot again and sucked lightly on it before leaning back to check for permission in red eyes. But when he looked up he wasn't expecting the amount of hazy raw emotion that was clouding the other's face and how dark the blush on his neck would be. There was a cautious nod from the older boy and Izuku felt his mouth start to go dry with anticipation.

Fluidly Izuku let his urges to make Katsuki drown in euphoria move his body backwards. His small frame took the covers with him and he lightly moved himself to gentle push Katsuki backwards to lean his back against the white wall of where his mattress met the corner in the room.

He looked down and blushed at the clear hard on that was straining in the explosive boy's orange boxers and assessed the large length that was clearly showing through the fabric. He felt himself slightly shy away, but he couldn't ignore the way his mouth salivated.

"Not gettin' shy on me now, are you 'zuku?" The low vocals in front of him growled out. He looked forward again and saw the extremely glazed over half lidded look Katsuki was giving him as he spread his legs wider in a challenging manner.

At that Izuku found his resolve again and placed his hands on the rim of the orange colored boxers. He had felt how hard Katsuki would get while sleeping, whenever the blonde was pressed closely against him or if he had position Izuku on top of him. Neither mentioned it and Izuku always watched Katsuki walk away into the bathroom for however long he needed to take care of himself.

But tonight, Izuku was going to take care of him.

"Not getting shy on you, Kacchan," he said back with a grounded voice and slid the boxers down. His mouth unwillingly watered as a familiar thick cock sprung free. "Just thinking about how to make you cum." Jade eyes saw the long length twitch into the chilled air and a groan emitted deeply from the blonde's chest.

"Then c'mon, Izuku...make your Kacchan cum."

At that Izuku felt his own lenth twitch in extreme interest. He positioned his torso downwards and pressed the pink tip against his mouth and danced his tongue to swirl around the hot length. He was edged on with the strangled curse that scratched it way up and out of the rough blonde's mouth.

The greenette took one hand and held the warm base as he pushed the rest of the throbbing cock into his mouth smoothly. A large hand found its way into his hair and Izuku felt himself almost smile at the lewd sound that arose from the boy above him as he started working his head up and down.

He bobbed his head up and down with hollowed out cheeks, twisting carefully with his pink wet tongue around the tip and sucked harder when he heard the strain in Katsuki's deep voice and felt the grip in his hair.

"Fuck, 'zuku. Shit—you're gonna make me bust in your mouth at this rate," he heard Katsuki huff into the air as the green beauty in his pulled back for one long lap with his tongue. Another electric hiss was pumped out of him when Izuku stroked the wet length and twisted several times.

Quickly before the blonde could catch his breath those sweet lips returned on him and swallowed him whole with a wet suck and bob until Katsuki moaned, thrusting upward. Izuku felt the tip of the salty tip hit the back of his throat and he squeezed his eyes closed and groaned through his choking when the hand in his hand started to push him further down.

"You're doing this so fuckin' well...you grew up, huh? My baby boy grew all the way up and is chokin' on my cock like this?" Izuku's lust ridden eyes flew open to stare upwards at those dangerous red eyes that were pulsating directly back down at him and Izuku hummed in responded around the flesh that filled his mouth, making the other knit his brows and give a tense moan at the vibration that shocked through his body.

"Touch yourself, baby," the breathy deep voice called out. Izuku's eyes drifted back shut and he kept going to work following the movement of the hand in his hair. "Take your free hand and touch yourself for me, 'zuku. I want you to feel good too. Play with that tight little hole of yours for m—fuck!" Izuku hallowed his cheeks with a long suck cutting the other off. His free hand was snatched upwards and he felt Katsuki start to gently suck on the fingers and used the hand in his hair to reach down and push Izuku's green boxers backwards down his thick thighs.

The tight heat waiting inside of Izuku to snap was pushed further on edge was he withdrew his mouth from around Katsuki with a slick pop and then slowly retracted back his fingers to trace them down slowly underneath his body. He watched how sinnfully Katsuki's eyes locked onto the trial of his fingers and spread his legs as far as the fabric on his body allowed him before slowly twirling the finger around his puckers hole that was presented upward. An uncontrollable soft string of moans rolled out of him at the feeling that tightened the hot pulse in his belly.

"Fuck yeah, just that," the blonde groaned in a whisper before returning a hand to soft curls. He guided Izuku's wet moaning mouth back down to his tip and smeared it slightly. Blonde eyelashes fluttered closed when that skillful tongue was back on him mixed in with the beautiful tingle of small moans.

Izuku felt everything about him set on fire as he listened to the handsome blonde's groans and curses above him as he drove the shaft into his mouth over and over again making sure to fully savor the salty yet sweet taste of the precum.

He allowed his thoughts to dip into a boardline dangerous territory at the full feeling in his mouth. He worked his finger teasing his entrance like Katsuki asked and he couldn't help but think about the full feeling in his mouth in his other opening and gave a high keen when he pushed his finger slightly in, enjoying the stretch feeling he loved so much and pictured Katsuki behind him proding with his length.

When he heard the other's breathing start to pick up and felt the curl of toes against covers, an eager hand quickly shifted from pleasuring his backside to his pumping his own neglected member. The sounds of Katsuki groaning and his hand pushing his nose further into the musky scent of his crotch made the wave of euphoria pull against his building heat as the pleasure built slowly in him. He could feel the digits in his hair tighten and feel the powerful waves coming off the one above him too.

"I'm gonna cum, 'zuku—goddamn—where should I come, baby boy?" The deep rasp called out to him and the sin in the vocal cords ran straight down his spine. Izuku reeled his head back with a thick trial of saliva from his lip to the redden tip. He worked his shaft quicker with a half-dazed look and stared up at Katsuki who looked like he was about to lose all control at the sight in his lap.

"I wanna swallow," Izuku breathed in a sultry voice. The hot head above him gave a lust filled snarl and curse. "I wanna taste you in my mouth, Kacchan." Katsuki nodded furiously and moaned.

"Open wide then for me, 'zuku. I'll give you all the cum you're hungry for," he growled lowly and in a quick second Izuku moved his head back down, sucking graciously. His tongue elicited a long groan and curse deep from the larger boy's chest with several long sucks.

The low sound pushed Izuku over the edge to cum in his own hand with a hot bursting sensation, making his body start to shake against in Katsuki's lap. Izuku moaned intensely around the large object in his mouth sending quivering shakes of heat straight down Katsuki's spine and the tight coil in the blonde's chest snapped with blinding pleasure.

The greenette squeezed both the hand around his own cock tight along with his eyes when he felt is already impossibly full mouth become fuller with a stream of cum being sprayed inside of his wet cavity. He whimpered softly around blonde's thickness when his own cum sprayed in spurts into his hand, his body shaking uncontrollably.

"Ride it out...there you go. Suck every last drop," the boy above him whispered in an out of breath tone. The large hand in his hair lovingly stroked his curls as Izuku felt the waves of ecstasy wash over him in waves. He swallowed the thick liquid in his mouth as he started to slowly come off his high with a satisfied feeling. "You're so gorgeous…" the distant deep voice whispered.

Izuku swallowed greedily all of the liquid in his mouth. He then slowly lifted himself off the lap of the other boy with shaky hands. He felt immensely happy and satisfied with going down on Katsuki, he loved hearing the moans and curses from the other boy. It made him feel good that he could make the other lose thought and give him just a moment of pleasure.

Izuku wiped his mouth with the back of his hand and his green eyes widened when Katsuki eagerly went in for one last passionate kiss. When they pulled apart the smirk on the other boy's face was dripped in lovesickness.

"That was amazing. Thank you," the gentle voice complimented. A long slender finger pushed a curl behind his ear and Izuku felt himself blush and smile. "Let's get cleaned up and actually head to bed for real this time."

Izuku nodded and placed a simple chaste kiss on the tanned cheek. "Sounds good."

oOoOo

"I'm still pissed off at you icy-hot for that dog groomer comment," Katsuki grumbled and lightly pushed Todoroki away from him in a joking manner. The trio was walking to english class after lunch on Monday morning after the party. Spring filled laughter rang in the halls and Katsuki held Izuku's hand in his walking side by side.

"You can be pissed off all you want but it doesn't make it untrue," Todoroki smirked back. "I mean really, my sister just got her yorkie's hair trimmed and I can give you the person's number. You should do something about that…" he took a dramatic pause and looked closely at blonde hair, "...mess. I'm sure Izuku would appreciate it to."

The tall blonde immediately hurled insults at the laughing dual toned boy, who just laughed and dodged any pushes.

"I like Kacchan's hair the way it is," Izuku smiled, immediately calming the hurricane of play fighting between the two boys. "However pointy is it. I actually have a photo of him from yesterday with the world's most impressive bed head!"

"What!? You're takin' pictures of me in my sleep now?" Katsuki exclaimed looking down at Izuku in shock.

"Looks like the shoes is on the other foot, ne?" Izuku gave the blushing blonde a giant grin.

"Oh, you definitely have to send that in the group chat. Sounds like it's gold," Todoroki smirked and ignored the loud objection of the blonde boy next to him.

In that moment Izuku patted his pocket to take out his phone and to do what the heterochromatin teen said, but noticed the object wasn't there. He quickly stopped confused and accidently pulled Katsuki to stop as well by their joined hands.

"What's wrong?" The photographer asked him in a concerned voice.

"I think I left my phone in my locker again, I'm gonna go get it really quickly before class starts," Izuku said and gave an apologetic look to his friends. He started walking backwards and let go of the warm hand holding his.

"Ah, Izuku. Always so forgetful. We'll come with you," Todoroki mumbled and quickly turned on his heels to follow the greenette.

"Are you sure? You don't have to."

"Yeah, it's fine ya nerd. I'm in no rush to go listen to Aizawa rant about how english is one of the worst languages ever to learn and then quickly give us all terrible grades for not getting a fuckin' comma right," Katsuki grumbled with his face in a sneer thinking about his 98/100 he got on the last exam. He was bitter about the -2 points.

"True," Izuku nodded and clasped his hand back in Katsuki's.

They all walked turned around talking idly heading back in the direction of the greenette's silver locker. When they arrived, Izuku released the blonde boy's hand who was immersed in talking with the other boy his height.

The runner put in his combination without much thought and pulled open the door but was taken back by a small envelope that fell to his feet. All three boys stopped in silence confused. Izuku bent down slowly to pick up the envelope off the floor that had no name, just blank.

"What is that?" Todoroki knitted his eyebrows confused and Katsuki stayed extremely silent, carefully watching before he looked away guilty.

"It might be...Kai. I told him to write you an apology note a little while ago," Katsuki said above a whisper. Izuku whipped his head to the side at the information.

"You did? When?" He questioned looking at the guilt ridden blonde but quickly shook his head. Something didn't add up. "Wait...I already got that from him last week," he whispered and returned his attention to the tiny slip in his hand.

"...then what is that?" Katsuki frowned deeply and watched Izuku open the envelope. The shorter boy pulled out slowly a small stack of photographs and the sight completely jarred and frightened all three figures that laid eyes on it.

On top was a zoomed in photo of Izuku looking over his shoulder in the setting by the poolside of Takeyama's. The boy in question quickly flipped to the next photo in his hand and it was of him and Katsuki kissing by the pool and something in Izuku ran completely cold.

His brain supplied him with the strange shutter noise he thought he heard, and his hands started shaking. He slowly filed onto the next and last photo with his heart pounding. All three stomachs turned at the sight.

Tears immediately started pouring from his eyes and he felt his chest convulse. A strong force immediately snatched the photos out of his hand and Izuku stayed frozen in fear on the spot, the image burning into his mind. He heard Katsuki's breathing become absolutely enraged and the blonde boy punched the locker in front of him with a loud curse.

"Someone wants to end up FUCKING dead!"

There, in Katsuki's hand, was a clear as day shot of Izuku kneeled on his bed, his head in the blonde's lap, with his boxers all the way down allowing a lewd shot of his exposed body.

Written in black sharpie across the bottom was a vicious statement that cut sharply into Izuku's mind.

"What a slut."

---

Thank you for reading! :3 I hope you all enjoyed ;)

Lemme know what you think below in the comments.

Preview of Next Chapter:

The blonde then slowly turned the camera to his side to take a picture of Izuku's profile. He smiled to himself at the close shot of the freckles and looked down at the pixel screen to check his work but stopped when he studied the background of the photo.

Slightly out of focus in the back was the navy blue sports car he remembers seeing in front of the coffee shop. And there was a person leaning against it smoking a cigarette.

He immediately stopped walking and whipped his head up frantically only to just see the navy blue sports car...with no person on it.

"...what's wrong?" Izuku looked back at him, just now realizing the other stopped walking beside him. Green eyes followed the trial to the blue car and stared confused as to why the other was looking so furiously hard.