John and Mickie were slowly walking down the halls of the arena "are you still mad at me?" he asked softly

"depends"

"on what?" john asked

"if you can tell me why you wanted a drink this morning"

"i can tell you, but I'm not going to"

"well then I'm still mad"

"what? Why?" john asked shocked

"because, if you don't think you can talk to me how are you gonna talk to my brother later"

John sighed looking away "that's different"

"how?"

"he's been there, he knows what it feels like, it easy for everyone to judge and tell me, dude just stop drinking it doesn't help, but they don't understand that it's just not that simple"

Mickie looked down "sorry that you feel you cant talk to me"

"no Mickie, you got that wrong, i can talk to you about things just, my addiction, not that, that's the one thing i don't think you could understand"

Mickie looked at him "ok" she said softly "can i ask you a question?" Mickie asked as they sat against the ropes at the back of the ring looking up the ramp at the work men putting the titantron up.

"sure" he nodded

"its about your family"

"ok, go on" john nodded

"why don't you talk to them?"

John sighed "i would if i could but, they don't want anything to do with me"

"why? that's terrible!"

"they think i killed Amelia to, they knew Amelia's parents for a few months before i met her, so, they have known each other for around 15 years now, there like family, they spend Christmas together new year together, and because Amelia's family think i had something to do with her death, my parents couldn't have anything to with me any more"

"surely they should of chosen you, your there family"

"it's not that simple, it's to longer story to get into"

"i don't get why people think you killed her, they must of seen how in love you were with each other"

John nodded "it's amazing how people clutch at someone to blame, even if that person is innocent and they don't want to admit that to themselves"

"do you think they'll ever contact you"

"if i got married no, i wouldn't expect them to go to a wedding i may have, Amelia was like the daughter to my parents they never had, i have thought if they didn't get in contact with me if i have a child i wouldn't let them back in ever, if they wanted to come back years later, i get not coming to the wedding but the kid is an innocent child and shouldn't be excluded also"

"that's understandable"

John sighed "I'm just living in the hope i find someone who gets me understands my past and i can fit into the family like I've always been there, i miss feeling like a part of a family"

"well my dad said you could stick around" Mickie joked

John chuckled softly "i don't know what id do without you sometimes"

"well um, yeah you probably be in a gutter somewhere" mickie nodded trying to be serious

John laughed and shoved her playfully "shut up" john looked at the women "its funny when I'm with you and were having a laugh, i don't feel the want to drink"

"well that's good isn't it"

"for me maybe, for you eh not so much, I'm gonna have to keep you around me more"