Author - lady_sapphire (from the Jedi Council forums)
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Sabe,

I know, I know...I can still hardly believe it myself! Who would've ever thought he would be able to fly a plane like that let alone win the entire battle for us? It's just completely unbelieveable. I think his abilities have something to do with the Force. I don't really understand what it is or how it works (you know I try to educate myself about other cultures and customs but this is really over my head) but there was a huge debate going on in the Jedi Council over whether or not to train him. Qui-Gon wanted to train him despite the others feeling uneasy about it, although I'm not quite sure why, and now with Qui-Gon gone, I have no idea what's going to happen to him now.

I wish I had gotten a chance to tell Qui-Gon how much I respected him. I have a feeling that he suspected I had a low opinion of him, even at the end, and I've already lost sleep at night worrying if a great man like that thought that about me. While it's difficult for me to understand the Jedi ways, I do respect their dedication.

I've promised Anakin's mother that I would watch over him so the only thing to do is to find a place for him at the palace. Given how talented he is, I'm sure it will be no problem to find some kind of trade for him. I know he can get on your nerves sometimes, especially with how many questions he seems to ask, but if I were him, I'd probably just be curled up in a ball somewhere crying my eyes out. All we can do now is just help him get settled here.

On a lighter note, I don't know what you're talking about with Daria. I've hardly ever talked to her and she's never really given me the time of day. I just don't have enough time to worry about people like her. Girls are just so different, aren't they? You're the only girl my age I actually trust. Sometimes I feel like I'm missing out on all those things I'm probably supposed to be doing right now...having a boyfriend, sleepovers, fights with other girls...and when I think about it like that, it just isn't as appealing to me as I thought it would be. I mean, there's so much more I could be doing with my time than all of that. And be so much more productive too.

Now, I know what you're going to say. So don't even bother. You're not going to change my mind on this either, even though I know you're just going to keep trying.

About Krillien...I noticed him looking at me too. That probably doesn't mean anything. Maybe I just look different than the last time he saw me. I think you're reading too much into it. Besides, I already told you, I don't like him like that anymore and even if I did, I definitely don't have time to do anything about it.

I understand what you're saying about beauty, I really do. I just don't understand how anyone could ever be jealous of me. I'm always under so much stress, I have problems sleeping at night, I never have any time for myself...there's not much to be jealous about.

Speaking of which, I just saw Caleb and he seems nice. He's pretty cute, too! Is anything happening with that or are you just going to wait to see what he does? I think you should take charge of the situation and just be up front about it. Nothing ever happens when you're just sitting around waiting, right?

To be completely honest with you, I don't know if we'll be able to find Han. But I promise you, we won't stop looking for him. If he was sold outside of the Republic, that doesn't necessarily mean he's lost forever. He'll just be more difficult to find. We can't give up hope, Sabe. We will find him.

I have to get the ceremony now. See you there!

Padme