„I'm freaking out. Guys. Dj had to be here like 50 minutes ago but he's still not here and I can't get a reach of him. What will I do?" Alice was freaking out. She was throwing her first party and basically invited the whole school here, she ordered a Dj, but he still wasnt here and she had no idea what she will do about the music.
„Oh, don't freak out. I have an idea. Edward plays right?'' Rose said pulling out her phone.
„Yeah. So?"
„So, he can play? He and Emmet have been fooling around lately in his garage, since you guys doesn't talk to each other anymore." Yeah, that went on longer then I thought. We haven't talked for 2 and a half month now. I tried once, but he ditched me with this blond since then I never tried to talk to him again. If he wanted to be my friend again, he needed to solve this out by himself.
„Then move Rose, go get them.''
After an hour or so Edward and Emmett were up to stage with some guy I didn't even know. Apparently he's one of Edwards's new made friends, James something.
"Hey guys. I hope you are ready to hear something awesome." Emmett spoke in to the mike. Everyone cheered and jumped up and down when Emmett started to drum his drums. Edward was on his electric guitar and James guy was on the rhythm guitar. I stood still when I heard Edwards voice coming through the mike His eyes were glued to mine and I couldn't move. I felt like he had some spell over me.
know your face This isn't how I wanted to My finger pointings just a warning You make it hard for me to leave
I know your smile and how it plays
Into the minds of those who
Cling to every word you say
Remember me and you
Your eyes are talking but
Your lips are standing still..
Open your mouth tell me
How I'm supposed to feel?
So I suggest you..
Say you're wrong
Let's get this over I
Would like to get some sleep tonight
Let's get this over, I'd like to get some sleep tonight
So very hard for me to leave
By now the lies you told are weighing on your chest
If I provide the rope I know you'll do the rest..
My heart felt heavier with every word he sang. The way he was looking while he sang this song I kind of figured that this was meant for me. Why else would he sing every word full with so much hate and love at the same time?
But I will not be an accessory Say you're wrong (My eyes are open for the first time) I am not a man who lives a life of soldiers (Just look at what I've done)
No I'm not who you think
And I will never be your enemy
So don't insult me
This could be easier
If I was over her
Say you're wrong
Let's get this over I
I know she's just a girl
But shes got me standing on the edge
I'm on the edge of the world
(This place not yours it's in my own eyes)
I am not the kind of man who walks away
I will stand up face to face or toe to toe with anyone
Yes anyone..
Everything you said about me was the truth but
I just don't think that I can look at you the same
You're like a splinter that will never show its head to anyone
To anyone..
Now I know that I was not the man you wanted
You know I loved you and I wanted to make you proud
My intentions were to never give myself to anyone
Look what I've done
My intentions were to never give myself to anyone
Look what I've done
I needed a fucking drink. I walked to the kitchen leaving Edwards velvety voice behind. He can manipulate me all he want with his fucking songs and fucking stupid pointless lyrics. He can't get to me. He ruined our friendship.
I ruined it.
We both did.
I missed him.
"Oh here you are. Oh my god. I think my panties are dripping wet. His voice is full with sex. Bella. Every word he sang there made me feel orgasm."
"Then you are easy to please then." I responded to Alice and fixed myself whiskey with ice. I drunk it all and fixed myself another one. I needed to get drunk and feel nothing.
"Oh someone wants to get drunk I see."
"How did you guess?" I asked sarcastic and ended my second glass.
"Bella. Why don't you just sort thing out with him?" I sat down next to Alice and dropped my head in my hands.
"I can't. It's all messed up. I betrayed him. And he thinks I'm his property or something."
"He doesn't think that of you. He loves you. He's just jealous Bella." She said putting her small hand over mine.
"Stop with that shit. His snot." In that moment Rose came in and sat down next to us. "So lady's why we are here, but not out there listening to that wonderfully sexy voice?"
"Bella feels sad." Alice said and I rolled my eyes. I wasn't sad. I was exhausted from all this. I wanted to go my best friend. Cuddle up in his arms and let him held me tight. But I couldn't because I screwed this up.
I'd like to tell you
And I'd like to say
How I, I feel right now
And I'd like to follow
You down the hall
My head shot up. I recognized this song.
And see where it goes from there Cause you don't see me that way
Oh but you, you don't care
You don't see the way I look at you
When you are not looking at me
I wish that I could tell you
Every single thought I ever had about you and me
But you don't see me that way
I got up and walked back to the party. There he was all alone on the stage. Not looking at me or anyone else for that matter. His eyes were closed and he was playing guitar.
Now I'd like to hold you
Here in my arms
And have you never leave
And I'd like to give you
All that I have
To have you stay with me
Oh, but you, you don't see me
But you don't see me that way
You don't see the way I look at you
When you are not looking at me
I wish that I could tell you
Every single thought I ever had about you and me
But you don't see me that way
His eyes opened and he looked at me. For the first time in months – without rage playing in his eyes.
I stare at you across the room 'Cause you don't see me that way
Or maybe make a move at you
I don't think you'd take it too well
I steal another glance or two
Or maybe take a chance with you
But you, you don't need me
You don't even see me
You don't see the way I look at you
When you are not looking at me
I wish that I could tell you
Every single thought I ever had about you and me
But you don't see me that way
You don't see me that way
No, you don't see me that way
I stood there and watched him walking away. I wanted to go after him, but I couldn't move because suddenly two strong arms was holding me by my waist.