Chapter 14 - Not So Alone Time

Bella's POV

I didn't know what to think, I wanted to be angry, I wanted to cry, but I couldn't. I was just too tired. I was tired of the Cullens watching over me 24/7, I was tired of being too ashamed to look at myself, and I was tired of everyone treating me like I was a baby because of what I had been through. I just wanted it all to end.

I needed to know if it was true though, I needed to know if this was because of Alice. And there was one person that I could ask, problem was, I hadn't seen him since Carlisle had decided that one of his family would be constantly outside my window. But today I had complained.

Rose was there so I tapped on my window to get her attention, and then I handed her the note saying I wanted some time alone. She wasn't happy about it, but she left me, after checking that there was no sign of him.

It was strange, I was chasing away the people I trusted, so that I could see the man I was terrified of. But I needed to ask, and at least he would not treat me like some porcelain doll that needs to be protected.

I knew when he was in here, before I even heard or saw him, I just knew. I could feel him, his presence sent a chill down my spine.

"I haven't seen you for a few days," was the first thing he said to me as he lay beside me. "Did you know those yellow eyed freaks are camping outside your place?" He asked, brushing the hair from my face.

I rolled over to face him and nodded, clutching my notepad as I did so.

"You don't look scared." He remarked sounding rather upset by this fact. "Are you afraid of me Bella?" He asked leaning closer to look at me as I spoke.

I suddenly panicked, James terrified me, but if he thought that I didn't he would hurt me again. I didn't want him to hurt me, the second time was worse than the first, and I couldn't forget either.

"It's okay, your body has already answered that question for you." He remarked, placing a cold hand against my rapidly beating heart. "Why aren't your friends here today Bella?" He inquired and I quickly wrote my answer.

I asked her to leave

He looked at me confused for a moment before asking, "Why?"

I needed to see you

After reading my response he paused for a few long minutes, thinking carefully about what to say next. I was worried about how he would respond to that but I waited patiently.

"If you are scared of me, why did you want to see me?" He stared intently into my eyes and I shook my head before writing down.

Not want

Need

He looked at me as if to ask 'is there a difference?' But I continued writing before he could respond.

I need to ask you something.

I looked up to see James nod, giving me his permission before I returned to my notepad. It was a few moments before I could decide exactly how to word my question.

Did you do everything you have done to me because of Alice?

James read the question and paused in thought. Every second with this man was torture, I was constantly terrified that he would touch me. And I was more afraid that he would not hurt me. It was worse when he was gentle.

He finally smiled. "So they think this is all about Alicia?" He nodded to himself a few times. So she is Alicia. It was a while before he spoke again. "Bella," he began, "will you tell anyone I was here?" He asked and I shook my head so fast the room started spinning. James chuckled quietly. "Why not?"

Because I am afraid of you.

"Good," was all he said before he put his tongue in my mouth. He tasted so sweet and felt so cool, I could feel my heart thumping against my chest even before he pulled back. "And don't forget, there is nothing you can do to stop me. No one will know I was here, I can cover my tracks." He informed me and climbed of the bed.

~SophieAngel69