Chapter 14
Christian pov
I break the kiss and look into Ana's eyes to make sure she's ok, she gives me a warm shy smile and blushes a rosy pink colour, we lay there on the bed just enjoying each others company and basking in the glow of our passionate moment.
"Are you ok" I ask her
"yes, I enjoyed that, I really like you Christian and I would really like to get to know you more and see if there's anything more between us and if anything comes of it" she blurts out, I smile at her but then remember I still have to explain my past to her.
"Ana, I feel completely the same, in fact I think I feel slightly stronger, I can feel myself falling for you, you're the first girl I've felt this way about, I've never wanted a serious hearts and flowers, romantic relationship before, until I met you, I really want you to be my girlfriend but for that to happen I need to let you all the way in and trust you completely, I need to tell you about my past which also includes why I have that room that you stumbled on" I start to slowly explain to her.
She started smiling when I told her I was falling for her but when I mentioned telling her about my past and my playroom her smile is replaced by a nervous look on her face.
"Ok, I'm listening start from the beginning, I trust you" she reassures me.
"ok, thank you Ana, I had a rough start in life, my mother was a drug addict and a prostitute, her pimp used to visit the house often, he used to beat me and my mother" I start by explaining my childhood to her, slowly I reach up and undo the button on my shirt and take of so my upper body is completely exposed to her, she gasps when she sees my scars.
"Are they burns" she asks.
"yes, the pimp used to smoke cigarettes excessively, every time I saw him at the house he would have one in his mouth, and when he was finished with them, he used my chest and back as his ashtray, things were slightly better when he wasn't around, my mother would mostly be out of it on drugs, she wouldn't hit me and she used to let me brush her hair, I would sit there for hours brushing it until it was silky smooth, but she still made me suffer, I don't think she did it deliberately but she would get that high on drugs that she would forget to feed me, I remember every time the pimp used to come over I would hide anywhere I thought he wouldn't find me, most of the time he did but there were sometimes when he wouldn't and he would give up and leave, when I was four years old I was playing with my cars one day on the rug beside the couch, my mother was high like she always was, she lay down on the couch which was normal when she was coming down as her energy would drain, I continued to play on the floor, night came and she still hadn't moved, I looked up at her to see she was sleeping, my stomach grumbled and I got up of the floor and walked to the kitchen, I opened what I thought was the fridge but was actually the freezer, I ate some of the frozen stuff in there, I'm not even sure what any of it was, I just remember it making me feel sick and my stomach becoming sore, I had to stop eating and remain hungry, I fell asleep on the floor wrapped in a dirty blue blanket, it made me feel safe and secure I took it everywhere with me it was also my only source of warmth, morning came and she still hadn't woken up, so I sat on the floor beside the couch and started playing with my cars again, it was like this for the rest of the day until I fell asleep that night, the next day was the third day she had been asleep, when I woke up and saw she was still asleep I stood up and approached the couch, I touched her hand and it was ice cold I tried to get her to wake up but she wouldn't, I sat back down on the floor and played with my cars until I heard the front door opening, I grabbed my blanket and hid under the table, the pimp came in and saw my mother on the couch, he tried to wake her up like I had but he couldn't, he grabs his phone and calls someone asking them to come quick, then he leaves, I go back to the rug beside the couch, a few minutes later the police came to the house, I remember them grabbing me and carrying me away, I struggled against them and because I didn't like them touching me, I was afraid of them, they took me to the hospital and a doctor was called to examine me, that doctor just happened to be the woman that is now my mother today, grace adopted me soon after she met me, but she wasn't allowed to adopt straight away, and so I was put into an orphanage until the adoption procedure was complete" I finish explaining my dark past to her, she sits there for a few seconds in shock.
"I can't believe that happened to you, I'm sorry you went through that Christian it must have been horrible, but what does that have to do with that room" she asks
"I'll get to explaining that in a minute, The Grey's took me in a raised me, it didn't take them long to find out that I was damaged from my experience, because of my burns I couldn't stand to be touched or held, I was just too scared, I got into a lot of fights and got kicked out of school, as punishment I was made to work on my mothers friends garden, her name was Elena Lincoln, she lived with her husband, I don't want to go into details about my sex life, but she seduced me one day I was working, I know what your thinking but she helped me, she showed me different ways to have sex without having to be touched, we weren't in a romantic relationship, it was a BDSM relationship, I was her submissive for 6 years, at one point I asked her to teach me how to a dominant, because if our situation ever ended I could continue it with other woman, she became my submissive so I could learn the role, I quickly discovered that I preferred it that way, I was more in control when I was the dominant, it turns out that it was just as well I asked her to teach me, her husband came home from work early one day and caught us, he went straight to my mother and told her because he felt she had a right to know, he felt that I was too young for Elena to be with me, Elena has been cut from our lives and I haven't been in contact with her since, I thought it was best because she liked to switch roles but I wanted to be the dominant all the time, I though its what I needed, but with you, I want to get over that, I want to trust you I want to be with you, I want to feel you touch me" I pause for a minute to let her process what I've told her and then continue on.
"that room is what I call my playroom, it's a BDSM room that I made for my submissive's, I also have a contract explaining all the things they're required to and not to do, there's one more thing that I need to tell you, I choose my submissives by looks, its not just fear of being touched, when a submissive breaks a rule or does something wrong she is punished, but punishments were never too much for them, it was all what they had agreed to do, I never hurt them, it was painful but pleasurable, anyway when I was punishing them I used to imagine they were my mother and I was punishing her for my childhood with her, the submissives that I chose always looked similar, they weren't identical but similar they all looked like my mother, I told myself that I was a dominant to make myself feel better, but I know I have to admit that I'm a sadist, but now that I've met you I don't want to do it anymore, I just want to be with you" I tell her
"Christian you went through your first four years of life being abused, this is nothing to be ashamed of, you never hurt any of the woman, it was all for pleasure, even when you were punishing them it was still pleasurable, I'm falling for you to Christian and if you're willing to give all this up for me then I'm willing to try, do you trust me" she asks
I nod my head, I have an idea of what she wants to try and my suspicions are confirmed when she raises her hand towards my chest, instead of pushing her away like I normally would I let her move her hand towards my chest, I've hugged her before in which her hands have been on my back, and when I've cradled her they've rested on my chest, her hand moves closer and even though I trust her I still can't help but tense up when I feel her fingertips on my skin, she flattens her hand against my chest, she holds it there for a second letting me adjust to the feeling of her hand, then she starts to slowly move her hand caressing my skin with her fingertips, I start to relax and enjoy her touch, she slowly leans forward and kisses one of my scars, she looks up at me to check if I'm ok, I nod my head because it feels nice, she works her way around my chest kissing each of my scars, she gets of the bed and moves around to my back and starts kissing my scars there as well, when she's finished she moves back to sit on the bed beside me, and I kiss her on the lips, she kisses me back, I start to get lost in her when she stops.
"I want to be with you Christian and I want to make love to you, but I think I need to take it slow, Jacks always on my mind and I don't know if I'm ready for that yet" she explains
"We'll go as slow as you want to Ana, it's understandable that you're nervous about sex, and if he's playing on your mind that will only make it harder" I reassure her
"As much as I would love to just finally spend the day with you now that we know about our feelings, I think the sooner Jack is behind bars the sooner I'll relax and then we might be able to do more intimate things together" she say's
"Ok, so do you want to talk to the police now" I ask her
"Do you think you could arrange for them to come out today, just so it's over and done with" she asks
"I'll see what I can do, how about we go sit in the living room, and I'll call them" I suggest
"Ok, I'm a little hungry, can I have a sandwich" she asks
"Of course you can baby" I tell her
I take her hand and we walk downstairs towards the kitchen, I stand with her and she makes herself a ham and cheese sandwich, we then go into the living room and we sit on the couch, I pull out my phone to call the police station, when the phone is answered I start to explain the situation to the officer when she suddenly stops me.
"Ok sir can I ask, is her lawyers name Carrick Grey" she asks
"Yes" I confirm
"he already phoned us and explained to us the situation and that Miss Steele would contact when she was ready to give her statement, we can have a couple of officers over there in about 20 to 30 minutes if that's ok with you and Miss Steele" she explains
I repeat this to Ana and she nods her head in agreement.
"Yes that's fine with us" I confirm
"Ok, just one last question would Miss Steele feel more comfortable with female officers" she asks
I turn to ask Ana and she nods her head.
"Yes please Miss Steele would prefer that" I confirm
"ok, they'll be there as soon as they can but as I said it could take up to 20 or 30 minutes" she says
"That's fine thank you for your help" I say and hang up
"They should be here soon" I tell Ana, she only nods her head again as her mouth is full.
Christian pov
Twenty minutes later Ana has finished her sandwich and we're lying on the couch cuddled up to each other, I hear someone clear their throat, I look towards the foyer to see Taylor standing there smiling at us.
"The police are here for Miss Steele sir" he informs me
"Thank you Taylor please allow them access" I tell him
"Yes sir" he walks out the room leaving Ana and I alone again
"Christian" she say's my name like a question
"Yes baby" I answer
"Was that girl that was with you at the hotel and here in your office a submissive" she asks, I smirk knowing she remembers the hotel
"I'm surprised you mentioned the hotel, yes she was a submissive, but I've ended it with her and no longer have contact with her" I reassure her
"So you're all mine" she asks
"Yes baby I'm all yours, but we should sit up the police should nearly be here" I say and on queue we hear the elevator doors open, and we both sit up and prepare for the police.
Taylor enters first and two women follow him, they sit down on the couch opposite us and start to introduce themselves.
"Hello Miss Steele, I'm officer Stevens and this is my colleague officer McDougal, we just want to let you know that we understand what you've been through and that it must be hard to explain it again and bring all the memories flooding back so just take your time and if you need a few minute break let us know" she says in a reassuring voice
Ana nods her head and starts to explain everything that Hyde was doing to her, I sit beside her and hold her hand the entire time she's talking once she's finished the two officers stare at her shocked for a few seconds then regain their composure.
"thank you for your statement Miss Steele, now we're still waiting on the hospital sending us your test results that contain DNA proof that Jack was assaulting you and also your blood tests as proof that he was drugging you, now you said that you found horse tranquilizers in the cupboard and assumed these were what he used, has this been confirmed by your doctor" the officer asks her
"yes, but I think they were planning on looking deeper into the toxins to see if anything else was used because I didn't have enough time to have a proper look I had to leave before he came home from work, I found out because of the white powder In the glass I had used for dinner the night before but I didn't see if the tranquilizers were in tablet form or something else" Ana explains
"that'll be why they're looking further into it as well, unfortunately I have to deliver some bad news, we're heading over to Jacks apartment after this to get a statement from him but unfortunately unless he confesses we can't arrest him until we have your medical tests to prove that he's been assaulting you, however if he did confess, then a court case would not be needed, he would be taking to the courthouse for the judge to overlook the evidence, and to hear your statement and his confession then the judge will decide how long he will be in prison for, it would basically be over with in one day, but I wouldn't get your hopes up, we'll keep you updated on how things are going and if it goes to court you will receive a letter with a date and time for each court meeting, I must prepare Miss Steele if it goes to court you may be asked several time to revise your statement, your lawyer will tell you the same thing, try not to confuse or trip yourself up and tell everything you remember each time because if you keep changing the events for each time it can go against you and you will look untruthful, now Jack will be there and he will most likely try to intimidate you, before you go in you will be given the choice to stand behind a sheet so he can't see you and it also means you don't have to see him, I imagine his face is already plaguing you and if you don't want to see him that's understandable, and remember be strong you will survive this it might not seem like it now but it does get better" she tells Ana sweetly
"Thank you so much officers, you have been very patient with me, good luck with Jack he can be a bit difficult to talk to sometimes" Ana says
"Thanks for the warning, we'll leave you to enjoy the rest of your day" the officers say.
"My security will escort you out" I tell them and Taylor appears at the entrance ready to show them out, as they disappear I turn to Ana I'm surprised and happy to see she isn't crying.
"Are you ok baby" I ask her
"Yeah, I'm not going to waste anymore tears or energy on that scumbag" she say's
"I think that sounds like a good idea, come on let's go into the library and do what we originally planned for today" I suggest
She nods and we make our way to the library.