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Chapter 14

Spring is a wonderful time in New York. It signals the end of a dark cold winter as well as renewal and new life. Alex smiled as she felt Olivia's arms slip around her waist and her hands rest gently on her stomach. A few tears slipped from her eyes as she thought about the new life that was growing there "Good morning."

Olivia placed a kiss to the blonde's neck "Morning." She allowed her hands to slip under Alex's shirt and lightly caress her stomach "How you feeling this morning?"

"Not bad, I only puked once this morning. That's a good sign." She grinned as she turned in her wife's arms and pulled her in for kiss. After coming home from the nightmare that was Velez and taking time to readjust and heal from her ordeal she and Olivia returned to the clinic to try for another baby. She was now eight weeks pregnant.

Olivia chuckled "Well that is better than spending a couple hours on the bathroom floor I guess." She began pulling Alex from the bedroom "After my run I stopped by the bakery and picked up some muffins and I got you some of that strawberry oatmeal you like so well." she stopped as she remembered how some foods were now turning her wife's stomach "You do still like it, don't you?"

"Yes! I was actually hoping you would bring some home." They were nearing the end of their breakfast when the phone rang. Alex's face fell as she talked to the person on the other end. "Um, yes we'll be there." She hung up and simply stared off into space.

"Alex, baby, what's wrong?" Olivia asked as she made her way to Alex's side.

"That was agent Sheppard. He has some info for us and asked that we stop by his office this afternoon."

She was beginning to visibly shake. Olivia wrapped her arms around her and held her tight. "It's okay. It's not the first time he's called to check on us or ask us to come by for something."

"What if it's not? What if there's someone else out there looking for me, or even you? Our lives are finally getting back on track I can't do it again." she cried as she placed her hand on her stomach "I can't lose this baby too."

Olivia ran her fingers through Alex's hair, it was something that never failed to calm her wife "You're not going to lose this baby, and nothing is going to happen to us. I protected you once I'll protect you again. I'll die before I let something happen you either one of you." she said as she placed her hand over Alex's.

"That's just it I can't lose you too." She sank onto the couch and wondered why things couldn't be simple. After everything they'd been through Alex had decided to leave the DA's office. She had never been one to give up but after being shot, a gun to her head and then watching Olivia fight off the man trying to kill her she decided it was too much. While she didn't rule out returning to prosecution she wanted to focus on her and Olivia, and now their baby. She was also assured by Branch that if she ever wanted to come back a position would always be open for her.

Olivia sat down next to her and pressed a kiss to her temple "You're not going to lose me, I'm not going anywhere." She switched seats and sat on the coffee table in front of Alex, taking her hands in her own "Hey if something was wrong he would've told us to come by immediately or he would've come here. So why don't we get ready and stop by his office before your doctor appointment?"

"Okay."

Alex was growing more nervous as they walked down the hall to Agent Sheppard's office. She couldn't shake the feeling something was wrong. After returning home she'd thought the nightmares would stop but she was wrong and they had returned. Olivia finally convinced her that it might be a good idea for both of them to speak to a therapist. After a few sessions the nightmares had all but stopped and both ladies were feeling safer and more comfortable at home.

"Alex, Olivia." Agent Sheppard said as he shook their hands and escorted them into his office.

While Olivia was grateful for what he and the other agents had done to try and keep them alive, she was still fuming that Alex had once again came so close to dying. She reached over to the chair next to her and took Alex's hand in hers, lacing their fingers together letting Alex know she was there for her. "So you have some new information for us?"

He noticed the concerned and almost frightened look on their faces. "You are not in danger. I wanted to let you know that we've found the leak and they have been taken into custody." Both looked at him expectantly "It was Agent Hammond."

"What?" Alex asked as her eyes went wide with surprise.

"We hate one of our own is involved in something like this but we are also committed to bringing him and anyone else involved to justice."

"He knew all along what was going on?" Olivia asked, still shocked at what she'd just heard. "He was one of the ones pushing Alex to go into witness protection. So what, was he planning to push her into the program then kill her and no one would know different because we already thought she was dead?"

Agent Sheppard shook his head "No, we believe he pushed her as well as others into the program so they would not testify, or in Alex's case prosecute anyone from the cartel. As far as we can tell he has never killed anyone or ordered a hit. He mainly leaked information to allow Velez to stay one step ahead of us."

"So how did you find out it was him?"

"After taking the cartel down we came across a treasure trove of documents, they kept excellent records. We were eventually led back to Agent Hammond as well as a number of vice officers in cities across the country along with federal officers."

Alex and Olivia looked at one another. The shock and surprise was evident on both their faces. "So Alex is safe? There's no chance of anyone getting to her?"

"She is safe." He smiled at both of them "Ladies I am so sorry that you had to go through any of this. If there is anything I can ever do for you please let me know."

Alex was quiet on the cab ride to her doctor's office. Olivia had been watching her carefully and was beginning to worry "Sweetheart are you okay?" she squeezed her knee for reassurance.

Alex watched the city go by before speaking "I'm fine. It's just I can't believe it was him. I mean I knew it was a little odd when he was so adamant that I go into witness protection and then lie to you about me being dead but I just thought he was trying to convince me what would be safest for me. I just… I don't know." She turned to Olivia and smiled "The important thing now is that we're safe. And we're about to start a wonderful new chapter of our lives together."

Once in the doctor's office Olivia sat anxiously holding Alex's hand as the doctor went about the examination. She couldn't wait to see their baby on the ultrasound and to know that everything was still okay. "I love you." she whispered as the doctor began looking for the baby on the monitor.

Alex grew more nervous with each passing second that the doctor didn't say anything. She was terrified of losing this baby too. Olivia had reassured her that if it wasn't possible for her to carry she was more than willing to adopt and while it wasn't optimal with her career she would be willing to carry their baby if Alex couldn't. That alone made Alex fall in love with her all over again, there wasn't anything Olivia wasn't willing to do for her. She was pulled from her thoughts when a loud rhythmic sound filled the room. She looked up with tears in her eyes at Olivia and noticed the tears in hers as well "Is that?"

"That's your baby's heartbeat." The doctor replied "And this is you baby." she said with a smile as she turned the monitor for both to see.

Olivia pressed a kiss to Alex's lips "I love you so much!" she said as she looked back at her child on the screen. Her heart felt as if it was about to burst from her chest. She never knew she could feel this way about someone she'd never met but she was already head over heels in love with this baby.

Alex had yet to stop crying as they walked down the sidewalk after the appointment "I just can't believe this beautiful little creature is growing inside of me." she said as she stared at the ultrasound picture.

Olivia was walking alongside of her with her arm around her waist "Well it is, and he or she is going to be just as amazing as you are."

They passed a store for expectant mothers and newborns. Alex stopped and stared at the window display, she desperately wanted to go in but at the same time she was scared something could still happen. Olivia carefully watched the expressions on her wife's face go from excitement to worry. She knew how Alex felt. She still had the blue and pink onsies hidden away in the closet. She wanted to give them to Alex but at the same time she too was still a little worried about something happening. She pulled the younger woman closer "I know what you're thinking." Alex gave her a sad smile "What do you say we go in and just look around. I mean it doesn't hurt to look," she kissed Alex on the cheek before whispering in her ear "Besides I've got a good feeling about this." She said as she placed her hand on her stomach.

They ended up buying a few items for Alex at the store and as it turns out watching Alex shop for maternity clothes was a huge turn on to Olivia. It was as much a turn on for her as it was for Alex watching Olivia grinning over little outfits and toys. They barely made it through the door before clothes were being shed and hands were roaming. They made it to the bedroom leaving a trail of clothing in their wake. Just as they entered the room Olivia remembered the bag in the top of the closet. Part of her wanted to wait but an even bigger part wanted to give them to Alex. "Wait a minute." She whispered as they were about to take of their remaining garments. She walked back over with the bag and handed it to Alex "I bought this a while back…" she trailed off and Alex knew what she was referring to "I was going to wait a little longer to give it to you but I can't wait anymore."

Alex began crying as she pulled the tiny pink and then blue onsie from the bag. She looked to Olivia who was crying also "I love them." she whispered. She looked at both and imagined her son or daughter wearing them. She carefully folded them and placed them back in the bag and sat it on her bedside table. She pulled Olivia's bra and panties off before doing the same with her own then laying back on the bed.

Olivia looked at the woman laid out in front of her. She had memorized Alex's body the first time they were together but she figured it wouldn't hurt to refresh her memory. While Alex may be tall and thin she had curves in all the right places and Olivia loved them. As her eyes drifted down from her perfect breasts to her still flat stomach she began to imagine all the changes it was going to go though over the next several months. How her body was going to grow and change. Olivia leaned forward and pressed their lips together, yes pregnant Alex was definitely a turn on. They made love a couple times before stopping to order in. After dinner and a movie, which turned into a make out session and neither could tell what happened the last half of the movie, they went to bed and were once again wrapped up in one another.

The next morning Alex smiled as she woke and saw the beautiful brunette sprawled out next to her. She stretched slowly and realized she had over worked several muscles. The night before had been amazing. Their lovemaking at times had been hard, fast and passionate. While other times it had been slow, gentle and loving. While on occasion Alex liked the hard and fast, most of the time she loved the slow and gentle. It was those times that she could feel Olivia's love for her in the deepest parts of her heart and soul. She was about to wake her sleeping soldier when she felt the familiar flip in her stomach and ran for the bathroom. She swore she would never complain about being pregnant after losing their first baby but at the same time she couldn't wait for the morning sickness to end.

Olivia woke at the sounds of Alex being sick in the bathroom. She was about to go check on her wife when the phone rang. "Are you okay?" she called out.

Alex heard the phone and knew what she meant "I'm fine Liv, get the phone." She waited until she was sure the feeling had passed then brushed and cleaned up to go out and greet her wife. When she walked from the bathroom she saw Olivia sitting on the edge of the bed; her body was slumped forward and she could swear it looked like her shoulders were shaking. "Who was it?" when she didn't receive a reply she walked around to stand in front of Olivia. The look on the brunette's face broke her heart. "Liv? Olivia baby, what's wrong?" she asked as she took a seat next to her and pulled her into her arms.

"I'm being reactivated." Alex's heart sank at the words. Olivia looked up and was barely able to meet Alex's gaze. She felt fresh tears begin as she started to speak "I'm going to Iraq."