I'm not stupid.

I know I probably was talking while dreaming and he heard me calling for Draco.

I need to talk to him. Explain everything. Really everything this time. But I also know Ron. His pride is hurt and he won't want to come here and talk to me.

Before I realise I was already getting off bed and putting on my shoes. I need to go after him.

I silently get out from the infirmary, making sure Madam Pomfrey doesn't notice.

Once I'm out I jog through the corridors searching for him. "Ron!" I scream going a bit faster when I see him turning into a corner and getting out of the castle. He goes directly into the dark forest and I trail behind.

I ignore the pain of each step as I run, if I don't solve my problem my mind will explode. We pass through Hagrid's hut, he's walking really fast and I'm still far behind, struggling to run through those irregular grounds.

He enters in the forrest. What is he doing? He absolutely hates that place.

After a while walking and avoiding some trees, Ron finally stops, his back turned to me.

"I-i can explain." I say breathing heavily from all that walking. "There's nothing to explain Hermione. I heard everything. Also you're in no condition of wondering around." He says calmly, still not looking at me.

"Ron, it's really not that bad."

"Not that bad? HOW IS IT NOT THAT BED HERMIONE?" He screams and I start crying. He continues "You would think that a girlfriend would at least tell her boyfriend she wants to break up but no!" He laughs sarcastically "But you know" he finally turns back to face me and I see that he's crying too "I honestly can't say I didn't see that coming." I shook my head furiously but he continued "All those letters I've sent you and you didn't even mind to answer. And when you did it was just vague excuses."

I look down in shame. I feel so bad for making him go through all of that. I don't know what I was thinking, but I surely didn't want to hurt Ron. We've been through so many things together and I had to go and screw it all up. This is my fault, I know.

"And to think that I actually love you. I freAKING LOVE YOU HERMIONE!" Ron says tugging his hair in frustration.

"I love you too, Ron." I whisper weakly and he shakes his head "No, you don't."

"I do. It's just a different way of love..." I trail off

I seriously think my head is going to explode right now, and I feel really weak. He looks so hurt I can barely look at him. "I wish you the best of luck with Malfoy then." He says and goes deeper into the forest. This time, I don't follow him.

My head is spinning as I lean on a tree and cry silently and suddenly it all goes black and I just remember falling into the darkness.