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They had eaten lunch, Xander had given Em a bath a few hours ago and soon it would be time for dinner. Em was playing in Sam's room right now with some toys, since Sam and Dean with both all played out. Dean was in his room and Sam had been researching for new hunts until he had stood up and said he was going to make something to eat. A loud noise echoed through the room and Xander was on his feet, he barely managed to stop himself from getting into a fighting stance though when he realized the noise was just the sound of pots and pans banging against each other. He sat back down and took some deep breaths.

"Xander what is it?" Sam demanded who was making his way towards him.

"What... what's what?" Xander said feigning innocence starring at his laptop, he was hoping that no one had noticed his jumpiness.

"Every time something make a noise you jump and look at it, now tell me is something coming for you? Because we need to know?" Sam's face was stern.

"I...don't know?" Xander said lamely. He didn't know what it was he saw.

"Do you think something might be coming for us?" he wasn't sure if what he saw was real and a hallucination then he didn't know if Jesse was a danger or not whatever he was.

"I don't know...maybe" damn that look of Sam he had on him right now, that you- can-tell-me-anything-I'm-so-understanding look that he used to wheedle information out of witnesses.

"It's just...something weird happened even for us." Xander admitted.

"What?"

"If I say it aloud I might have to rethink my sanity." Sam laughed a little.

"Isn't that most of the stuff we deal with?"

"No, more insane then normal." Sam's eyebrows furrowed in a concerned manner.

"What happened?" Xander breathed in deeply.

"I had a best friend who died and then got turned into a hellmouth vampire."

"I'm sorry." Sam said sympathetically.

"He was died and then I accidentally staked him, so he really should have been dead, at that point in fact I don't see how you could get any deader, but I saw him during the hunt I saw him." Sam frowned and asked.

"When?"

"When I woke up after the knock to my head."

"Maybe he was a hallucination."

"Yeah I've thought about that, it just kind of a strange one."

"In what way?"

"He told me to at least try to fix things with Willow and I guess by association with the others as well."

"That doesn't sound so weird your mind-" Xander decided to interrupt him before he psycho analyzed him to much.

"Yeah the weird part is that he glowed, I think he healed me, and he said something about someone clipping his wings. That a little's weird for a dream or concussion, or hallucination."

"Okay that's a little weird." Sam said.

"No that's a lot of weird." Dean said coming into the room at least hearing part of the conversation. Dean was usually blunt and to the point sometimes he liked that other times not so much.

"Okay maybe it is a lot of weird." Xander admitted "But I still don't know what it was."

"Have you looked into it?" Sam asked.

"Yeah of course I have I've looked online, but I couldn't find anything I asked Bobby to look into it as well."

"Yeah if anyone know what it was it would be Bobby he's a genius." Sam said. Xander's phone started ringing and he looked at who was calling.

"Speak of the devil." he said to the Winchesters then answered it.

"Hi Bobby."

"Xander I found out what is it." his heart started racing but he managed to keep his voice under control as he asked.

"What is it?"

"A white lighter." he frowned he had never heard of one of those before.

"A what?" he asked.

"I was getting to that, apparently their dead people who are given the chance to help and guide good witches and they have the ability to heal and to orb which is moving place to place in bright lights. Their connected generally to Nexus type witches and demons. Now your turn where did you see one?"

"My best friend Jesse he came to me and healed me." he said slowly and a little shakily, at this point he had been hoping for a hallucination caused by his addled mind ,but the fact that Jesse could really be out there and alive.

"Your almost as much trouble as the Winchesters." Bobby groused.

"I'm sure they'll be glad to hear that." Xander said faintly.

"Your with the Winchesters?" Bobby asked.

"Right now yeah."

"Yeah well you and the Winchesters better watch out for yourselves okay?"

"Will do Bobby." Bobby hung up and Xander put his phone back into his pocket.

"What'd Bobby say?" Sam asked.

"According to Bobby, Jesse might not be as dead as I thought he was, and if what I saw really was Jesse he wants me to repair my friendship with my old friends."

"Really your dead friend wants to fix things with your old friends?"Dean said in his somewhat callous way.

"My friends not dead, or not really he's a white lighter someone who helps witches...good witches."

"Are you sure that was Bobby calling? Because that's ten kinds of crazy." Dean said.

"Yeah it is ten kinds of crazy but if it's true, if Jesse is really alive at least kind of..." What did it matter if he was. Jesse wasn't keeping in contact with them, he hadn't even told them that he was alive in over ten years. So what if Jesse wanted him to make up, it wasn't like he was going to make up with them. So why should he care what Jesse wanted?

Only he did Jesse and Willow had been his best friends, from the time he was in kindergarten to the time he was 16 when Jesse died. It hurt a lot less then it had a the time, but he still missed Jesse still wished he could have saved him. Wished he hadn't been the one to stake him, even though he knew it was for the best. Jesse saw him and he couldn't even stay to talk to him for awhile? He had saved his life apparently though. Jesse made him think of his childhood too. Simpler times back before he knew about demons, witches and werewolves when it had just been him, Jesse and Willow. They had been as thick as thieves closer then close and that lead him to Willow.

Willow his Willow...he hadn't seen her in so long he didn't like to think about her too much because when he did, he realized how much he missed her. Dawn too he had been practically her older brother, whatever his reasons had been for not staying in contact, however mad he was at Buffy, he was tired of not being in their life anymore.

"I should go see her." he said aloud.

"Are you sure?" Sam asked concerned.

"Absolutely not." he answered honestly. He couldn't believe he was seriously considering this at all. Buffy and him hadn't seen each other in years you don't just kiss and make up with that kind of damage to a friendship. Still he missed her, and Willow and Dawn that part had been his fault and he wanted to fix it, and fixing it meant staring with Buffy. "You'll watch Em for me won't you?" he asked almost hoping they would say no so he wouldn't have to decide.

"Sure." Sam said.

"This is such an insane idea.." but he grabbed his coat and keys before he could talk himself out of it.

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