Raise your hand if you feel like the biggest faliure ever! *raises hand*

APOV

Jasper. Why I knew his name was a mystery to me. The man swiveled around in his bar stool with piercing but still soft topaz eyes. He gasped when he saw me. Was it because I was a vampire, or something else? Happening in only seconds another tremor hit my body and I was enveloped by memories that seemed distant but still there.

The man similar to this 'Jasper' came into my mind filling in the black shadow that had once held nothing but mysteriousness in the soldier's body that I killed. He was laughing this time and brushing a strand of hair from another women's forehead. They seemed to be in a comfy cove with candles everywhere just…talking and enjoying each other's company. I really could not make the girls face out but she seemed oddly familiar, the whole thing really. Like Déjà Vu. I could feel the army issued blankets course texture against what little exposed skin I had. But oddly the feeling was comforting.

I brushed this vision away being aware that to 'Jasper' I was just some random girl who tapped him on his shoulder and when trying to be polite that stupid stupid…girl was just staring into space. I realized that Jasper's hands were around my waist supporting me while I was off in my own little daze. I would have blushed furiously but instead stepped back mumbling apologies like a lunatic.

"Oh don't worry ma'm here sit down and take a break there." He said leading me over to a booth. His southern accent made me swoon. I wearily slid down into the upholstered modern looking booth, still feeling slightly uneasy.

"I am so sorry I just got um, ah caught up for a second." I smiled, already feeling relaxed with him. I could feel his eyes though burning through me, wanting to know so much. Well might as well just be plain and open with it seeming as it is inevitable.

"Jasper, Jasper Whitlock and yours?" he said extending his arm across the table. Holy crap! How the hell did I already know his damn name!?

"Oh ah it's Alice Brandon." I tried to be as calm as possible.

He watched as I answered and laughed but then turned serious again.

"So let's cut the chit chat and get down to the actual conversation." I tilted my head to the side so he could continue.

"Let's start with the fact that you are a vampire."

JPOV (After the bite a couple of years ago…dun dun DUN!!!)

My head was throbbing. I carefully picked up my head to fall back onto the sharp hard gravel ground. Memories washed through me but they were hazy. I finally gathered the momentum to push myself up with the help of my M-16. Wait, a gun? What am I doing with a gun!?

A woman that looked slightly familiar leaned down and helped me up. My body told me to run because apparently it sensed her as a danger. I stumbled as she started dragging me into an alley right where I was lying. I was wearing a 101st Airborne uniform with complementing boots. What is happening!?

"What's your name?" asked the women. I hardly noticed that I was already pushed up against a wall. Um my name? Suddenly the name Jasper appeared in my mind and I blurted it out.

"Okay then Jasper come with me, I need to get you out of here and take you to safety." She whispered eyeing the moving convoy of American soldiers heading out. I numbly nodded my head letting her take the lead.

I was so caught up in this new excitement to notice how I had this burning in the back of my throat. I also had this sudden urge to race over to the moving convoy and take their blood. Wait what!? Did I just think what I thought I heard. Yeah that urge was still there. Okay that's not weird to ya know smell blood from a good mile away and lust for it. Yep everything was just fine. Oh my God! That is so not right! Damn I better stop this mental war with myself. I mean I probably look like some idiot trying to argue with himself.

I also noticed that everything around me was more defined and pure. I could see past the road as I could hear the Americans now a good two miles away having a regular conversation. Okay this is just some weird random dream or hallucination I am having. I really must have hit my head pretty hard…

We got in a Wolseley and drove off in silence. After driving for two hours I was not tried which was really strange but I did find myself in a trance. We pulled up to a train station that was now in America. I could defiantly smell the scent of surrounding people's blood. I did not think I could contain myself for very much longer. The weird thing was that this lady did not have the same smell. How odd. She left but quickly came back towing along another women that looked like her identical. She had the same bright vibrant red hair but hers was contained in a bun. She had the same pale complexion and had a prominent bone structure like the women. I really only started noticing the details of people and things, probably because I have been in such a trance of shock. The woman that was identical to my captor nodded and got in the car. She also had the same smell as her identical. Then it hit me. She did not have blood, like me. So I decided that she was safe if she was like me. Neither one of us talked as she pulled from the train station and headed south.

And that is how I spiraled into the dark hole also known as my life. We ended up going to Texas where the women, Meghan ran her 'business'. When we had gotten there she finally told me about my vampirism and her operation. She recruited newborn vampires to make an army. I was part of this. Not that I really had a choice because for one thing I was scared shitless of her and my future. I had no place to go. When I did learn about me becoming a vampire I was none pleased. I sank into depression for about a month or two before Meghan forced me to start pulling my own weight. I had grown numb to the constant killing and hate. When I did a task like killing a newborn I did so without remorse.

But after a while it did get to me. So once I got my bearings I decided to run away. I did this successfully. I really could not stay anywhere to long because of the off chance that I would kill a human in daylight. I skipped around in life really. Going from place to place, job from job. But nothing seemed to fill this feeling I had. There was a part of me that was unknown and empty.

Currently I was in Chicago testing my strength not to jump some poor innocent person. So far it was going well although I found that I needed to hunt more often to be able too. I was at a random diner pretending to drink coffee while flirtingly with the waitress when a smell hit me. It was such a long time ago that I had smelled that scent but sure enough I could smell it. I was about to turn around to see who it was but the other person beat me too it.

I swiveled around to meet the most gorgeous vampire I have ever seen. She looked almost pixie like, and strangely there was something familiar about her as though I had once meet her. At this moment she was just standing there looking far away; it was kind of cute in a way. She looked like she was going to faint so I quickly grabbed her by the waist and held onto her until she snapped out of it. When she did she looked embarrassed and quickly composed herself.

She started to say how sorry she was and I instantly felt concern for her so I lead her over to a table to sit.

"What's your name?" she asked nimbly.

"Jasper, Jasper Whitlock and yours?" I asked with interest.

"Ah Alice Brandon."She stuttered. She was amazing and the name suited her.

"Now let's get to the fact that you're a vampire." I said forwardly. I wanted anwers and I had not spoken to a vampire in years. There was something just right about her.

You must go from the beginning to be in the past again. (The biggest hint of your whole entire life)

Okay you must all hate me...and I do not blame you. I have a problem with time mangement. You reviewers have been sooo nice and i don't deserve you all! I really am sorry and I feel wayy too guilty about not updating soon.=( I have been caught up in one of my new stories but I PROMISE TO MAKE IT UP TO YOU GUYS! lol if i get some review than i will power write before I leave for 5 weeks in which i hope to get some writing in...

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