Sooooooo I saw Twilight for the third time today…that means sales are up $7 since 1:15 pm : ) lol

This was my favorite showing so far, because I was alone again and I sat up front so all I could see was TWILIGHT blaring into my retinas and I have seen it enough that I wasn't over analyzing it and could actually enjoy the story!

Still not sold on taking hubby yet…and the sad thing is every time I see Twilight I get mad at him. Lol I am mad because he isn't like Edward. I think he hates Twilight :P

"Twilight: Ruining previously stable relationships since 2005."

Oh and I read that they are thinking about recasting Jacob Black…but Lautner's people are trying to work with special effects to make him look bigger and buffer…now I am not a huge Taylor Lautner fan but I HHHHAAAAAATTTEEE it when people mess around with characters in a movie series! I am already attached to the idea of him being Jacob! I am attached to all the characters (except Eric…he is annoying). Anyone else agree?

Disclaimer: No matter who directs the next movie they are still owned by Stephanie Meyer.

Chapter 12

Edward came to my room again that night, and even though I was expecting it I still jumped at the sound of his voice.

"Doing more vampire research?"

I turned from my computer and gave him a smile. "Why? Is there anything else I need to know?"

Something flashed across his face for a second, then his gorgeous half-smile was back in place. "Not at the moment."

I let that one slide.

I got up from the desk chair and moved to my bed and he joined me without prompting. I was thankful for my forethought to change into a t-shirt and pajama pants before he came over. At first, we sat in silence with our backs pressed against the headboard, glancing at each other through the sides of our eyes. Edward finally broke the silence and turned to me on the bed. "So, I have told you that I am a supernatural being of the night that craves human blood and has devised several different ways of killing you…"

"Don't forget the sparkle thing," I interrupted.

He shook his head and let out a huff of laughter, "…and I sparkle in the sunlight, but yet you still let me into your room…onto your bed?"

I was getting slightly dazzled while watching him talk. I wasn't sure if that was a rhetorical question or not.

"So you are wondering why I haven't screamed for Charlie yet?"

"It would be the normal human thing to do, yes."

I shrugged. "I decided a long time ago that no matter what you were, I would find a way to be as close to you as you would let me."

I loved it when his face gazed into mine with such intensity, but it was so hard to read him. His eyes practically glowed tonight and the dark circles beneath them were gone. I reached up and traced a finger underneath one eye. "Do your eyes change according to what you are feeling?"

He closed his eyes and didn't answer me until I moved my hand away. He sighed and his glowing eyes opened, a smirk tilting up his lips. "When my family feeds, our eyes become brighter. You remember the first time you saw me"

"Your eyes were almost black."

It was his turn to touch me. He watched his hand as it tangled into my dark hair falling around my shoulders and talked almost absently. "I was hunting that day, and even though I drank…the moment I caught your scent my hunger was instantaneous, unbearable."

I watched his features furrow as he recounted his feelings. "You don't know how hard it was to keep my distance. I hunted all that evening until I thought I was going to burst, and yet I still couldn't be anywhere close to you."

"How did you manage not to…hurt me when I passed out?"

He looked back at my eyes then, and I finally saw a genuine smile on his face, the kind that lit up his eyes. "There was another hunger, one that was almost as strong as my hunger to feed from you." He moved both hands to my face then, cupping my cheeks ever-so gently and his thumbs rubbed back and forth over my skin…sending heat across my face and chills down my spine.

"Desire. I have never been so utterly attracted to any being in my entire existence. Even after spending days in the forest, you were the most beautiful creature I had ever seen. The thought of causing you any harm, to take you out of my world, made me resist the hunger."

I licked my lips involuntarily. He was so close that I could feel his intoxicating, cool breath on my face. I knew that we were going to kiss…it was inevitable. It was like gravity, like the sunrise…it was going to happen.

His eyes became hooded and his face became a mixture of desire and determination. He inched closer to me and I thought that my eyes should want to close now, but I couldn't deny myself of the beautiful view of his face for even a second. He stopped with our lips just a fraction apart, making my want to moan in anticipation and my slightly parted lips tingle. "Don't move….keep very still," his whisper warned me. It was like he spoke through a thick cloud, and I realized that cloud was in my mind.

When his lips touched mine the shockwave went from my lips out through my whole body and I heard myself whimper quietly. He pulled back briefly to search my face, and smiled at the longing he saw. This time we both closed our eyes and deepened the kiss, my mouth angling opposite of his. I felt myself go lightheaded from lack of air, but I wasn't about to let a little thing like that keep me from enjoying the greatest moment of my life.

Our hands moved at the same time, mine finally submerging into his untamable bronze hair, his grasping my shoulders and pulling me closer. When I felt the tip of his tongue touch my bottom lip I moaned into his mouth.

Suddenly he was across the room and I was catching myself from falling off the bed. Though he didn't need to breathe, he was gasping almost as hard as I was. I brought trembling fingers to my lips, subconsciously trying to hold the sensation of his kiss to me as long as possible. Edward's eyes burned over my body, his expression evaluating. Whatever he was thinking about, he came to a decision…a satisfied smile creeping up on his lips. "That was….so much better than I thought it would be."

I frowned, "Thanks…I think." I wasn't entirely sure that he was giving me a compliment. Immediately, he came back to sit next to me, skimming his fingers over my flushed cheek. "I'm sorry, I should clarify. That kiss was…indescribable. I am convinced it was the reason why I was born. I have waited over one hundred years for that kiss." My eyes glazed over again and I felt my stomach clench under his words. I have never imagined a kiss being described like that, but it almost described how I felt.

"What I hadn't counted on was how long I was able to control myself. I didn't want to get my hopes up. I thought all afternoon on why it was too risky for you to even try, but when I saw you tonight…" He paused to press his forehead against mine, and I closed my eyes to soak up the sensation of our skin touching. "I knew I had to at least try. I could think of nothing else. But Bella, we have to be careful. I can never lose control around you. I could so easily hurt you and not even mean to."

I swallowed my suddenly dry throat. "But….we, we can try again….right?" My voice was barely audible to my own ears, but I knew he would hear it clearly. I felt his smile, "I am counting on it."

When he pulled back I sighed and then accidentally let a yawn slip out. He glanced at my bedside clock. "It's late. You should get some rest."

I placed my hand on his arm as he started to rise from the bed. "Stay with me…please?"

I saw a brief moment of hesitation cross his face, then he relaxed and switched off my bedside lamp while I scooted over to make room for him. He remained on top of the covers while I burrowed underneath them, which was okay for now since I was a little cold and he could do little to warm me.

I curled up on my side facing away from him, giving him the option of how close he wanted to lay next to me. After a moment I thought that he was going to stay on the far side of the bed, then I felt a cool arm snake around my waist. He pulled my back up against his hard chest and I felt him bury his face in my hair, breathing deeply.

I laid my hand on his encircling arm and smiled as my eyes drooped lower, more comfortable now than I had been in a long time. "Goodnight, Edward."

His head shifted as he moved his lips next to my ear, "Sleep well, Bella." His voice turned from a whisper to the soft, calming melody I recognized from earlier. I kept smiling until I fell into a world of the most wonderful dreams.

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The next morning came around under the best circumstances. I was lying with my head smothered into Edward's chest as he was lying on his back. My legs were tangled around his through the covers. His fingers were making lazy trails up and down my bare arm and I shivered under his cool touch. He stopped long enough to pull the covers higher around me, then began running his fingers through my hair. I craned my head back to smile up at him sleepily. The morning light was dim, which is no indication of time in a perpetually overcast area. He looked just the same as he did when I fell asleep, unlike me…with a severe case of bed-head and probably sleep lines on the cheek that was lying against his shirt.

He slowly smiled at me, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to wake you." I turned my face back into his chest and wrapped my arms around him a little tighter. "You didn't. I am just surprised you are still here."

His fingers kept their ministrations in my hair and I fought hard not to fall back asleep. "You asked me to stay and Charlie left a few hours ago so I didn't have to dash out again."

"I'm sorry, you really didn't have to stay. You must have been bored to death," I mumbled. He stopped playing with my hair and wrapped his arms around me. "I enjoyed every second of it. I like watching you sleep."

"I didn't snore did I?"

He chuckled, "No, but there was some talking."

I groaned and tried to bury deeper into his embrace. "Did I say anything embarrassing?"

After he didn't answer me, I took a chance and glance back up at his face. He had a look of pure contentment on his face. "You said my name….a lot."

I went to hide my burning face from him, but he reached up to placed a gentle finger under my chin to prevent me from doing so. "Don't be embarrassed. I can't dream anymore, Bella. By watching you sleep…it's the closest thing I can get to dreaming about you, so I mean it when I say I enjoyed every second."

I itched to crash my lips onto his, but fear of making him jump away from my boldness and morning breath I turned my kiss to his smooth cheek. I reluctantly pulled out of his arms and told him I needed a moment.

I stared at myself in the bathroom, looking for something different about myself. I felt different. I felt like there should be some change in my appearance after realizing I was completely in love with a vampire.

The only thing I saw was a large, goofy grin on my face.

I quickly showered, groaning as the hot water beat down on my sore shoulders. After a few more necessities, especially brushing my teeth, I skipped back into my bedroom. I felt a surge of disappointment at seeing the room sans-Edward. A noise from the kitchen had me quickly moving down the stairs, and missing the last step. Before I could make a crash landing that I was way too familiar with, Edward caught me. I looked past his laughter at my clumsiness and stared at him, ecstatic he was still here. He had left at some point to change clothes, but I was no longer surprised he could get to his house and back before I was done with my bathroom business.

He set me back on my feet, "Sorry, I was going to cook breakfast for you but you were a lot faster than I thought you would be."

"That's really nice of you, but a bowl of cereal is good for now."

He watched as I poured the flakes and added milk, watching me with a mildly incredulous look. I smirked at him, "You talk about eating bugs in the woods and it seems okay, but cereal grosses you out?"

He smiled and shrugged, "You faint when you see my food."

He had me there.

After breakfast we stood in the kitchen, looking around. "So….." I started. "What do you want to do today?"

He started to answer, but then glanced towards the front door. "Well unless your plans consist of letting Charlie know I am here, I better leave."

My eyes widened a little, "He's here?"

"Not yet," Edward tapped his temple, "but I can hear that he is close." His eyebrows furrowed and his red lips turned down. "He is worried about something that happened outside of town. He is not in a great mood."

I winced, "That's a deal-breaker, you definitely have to leave." I grabbed his hand and pulled him towards the back door and he allowed me to do so. I opened the door and then turned to him, "Can you come back?" I tried to keep the eagerness out of my voice, but I am sure my expression gave me away."

Edward gave me a crooked smile and I felt my toes curl. He cupped the back of my head and placed a kiss on my forehead. "As soon as Charlie is asleep," he promised.

His hand dropped and when I opened my eyes he was gone. I looked out into the forest surrounding the backyard and saw no trace of where he went.

The front door opened as I was closing the back door. Charlie looked at me standing in my pajamas near the door and frowned. "Were you outside, Bella?"

I tried to keep the guilty flush off my face, "I just peeked out to see what the day was like." Charlie hung up his jacket and gun belt before joining me in the kitchen.

"Do me a favor Bells, stay inside as much as you can and don't go anywhere near the woods by yourself."

"What's going on Dad?"

He sighed and rubbed a hand over his dark hair, "A guy disappeared while doing some nature photography right outside town. There was evidence of him being attacked…we think by an animal. We are pretty sure he is dead."

I immediately thought of the bear encounter in the woods yesterday. "When did this happen?"

"We think sometime late last night, but no earlier than yesterday afternoon. So will just listen to your old man for once?" He smiled at me to try to lighten the atmosphere. I forced myself to smile back at him and nod. Emmett killed the bear yesterday morning, so that couldn't have been what attacked the man. That means that something else was running loose around Forks. I turned my head to look through the kitchen window at the dark trees gently swaying in the light wind, and a thrill of fear crept over me.

Okay it's a little shorter than usual but I am brain dead right now. I wanted to give you a lil' something though, so you have to tell me…should I hold off posting until I have a nice long chapter to give you or should I post what I got when I got it?

You know what to do to keep me going.

And hats off to Loulabelle in Australia for seeing Twilight FINALLY! *sniffs* I am so proud! Wish I could have been there with you girl, cause you KNOW it would have been CRAZY with both of us there! :P