AN: ok this is where I thank AR -Erithius-, and Bound Dragon, and a new reviewer, shadow8090, for being such awesome people.

disclaimer: I own nothing, I fucking repeat nothing

Faith's PoV

It has been two days since me and Tig had our fight, and I am still a little pissed at him, but I get where he was coming from a bit more now that I have had time to cool off. Life hasn't been kind to him either, and even I will admit I was a little clingy during the first few few months, ok a lot clingy. I'm, no we, are not used to good things happening SNAFU might as well have been our motto, and on the rare instance that they did they never lasted and more then a few turned around and bit me in the ass. but on to more positive thoughts, like the upgrade we got. I have defiantly noticed that I need to pull back my strenght more in the spars with B, and I seem to have a bit more energy lately although not as much as when I was drinking well, this pigs blood crap is fucking worthless. I really can't see how Fang and Deadboy live off this shit. It tastes like refried dog crap and gives me the same energy as a handful of Trazodone. I am about ready to rethink my rejection of the excess human blood they have, it is lucky that so many of his dudes are AB positive, and blood donation is mandatory every 6 weeks,and they magically preserve that shit or I would really be fucked. But in about three more days, the upgrades are taking a little longer then thought and Tig wants us to have more time training together, I will get a chance to sink my teeth into something more substantial, damn my mouth is watering just at the thought. I exit out from my game, Gears of War 2, which kind of sucks just I just got my sniper rifle out and got to a perfect sniping spot, I can see over half the level easy, but I am already up 30 kills so it's not like I need the practice, and more importantly B has been gone for a good three hours now. I know she was just going to talk to Tig, to "see what embarrassing stories your brother has" she said. ya right, she went to have a private hissy fit on him and to pump him for info, and judging by the amount of time that has passed she either succeeded or she has beaten the crap out of half the base by now. if she were anyone else my money would be on taking out half the base, but between that pout of hers and Tig trying so hard to make it up to me I have a bad feeling that B is getting if not a blow by blow a good deal more the I ever told her, and I'm not sure how to take that. on one hand B does deserve to know and I am unable to tell her, the wounds are still raw after all this time. having said that it terrifies me what she thinks about it, what if it. NO FUCKING STOP IT I am over that doubting us crap, but I can't help resenting the fact that he will be the one to tell her and not me. I get up off the couch and head out, a storm of emotions raging though out my heart.

Buffy's PoV

In David's (Tig's) Office, with Breaking Benjamin's "Blow me away" playing in the backround

"Oh come on, while I love hearing how cute my Faith was when she was little, that is not the most important reason while I'm hear."

"No lass it ain't but it is not my place to tell you of my Sass's hidden pains, she hides them for a reason and would not forgive me easily if I was to break her confidence, while aye lass I know all of your girls fears, hopes and dreams when she was younger, but I swore long ago that I wouldn't tell a soul unless it would benefit her. That wasn't an oath I took lightly when I was alive, and now I have no choice, I physically can't break it without being put into the hospital, and your curiosity is not a strong enough reason for me to reserve a bed, sorry." David says, with a smile that makes it clear he is anything but sorry.

"But it is for her benefit, even now I am walking through a minefield here, their is so much in her past that hurts her, and it hurts her to talk about it, I mean Faith breaks down, you must know how rare that is, how can I avoid hurting her, I either find I mine by stepping on it, or torture her by getting her to tell me about it!" my voice rises though out so that I am screaming the last with tears threatening to spill down my face.

"Lass, she has to tell you herself and if you give her time she will. you are right it won't be easy for her, but it is something she needs to do on her own, to prove to herself that she can, and to prove to herself that she is worth your love."

"Hate you" I pout

"No you don't, but that's ok, I still wouldn't tell you even if you did" David replies with this amused smirk and laughter in his voice.

I hear the door open behide me, and can feel Faith walk in she walks up and wraps me in her arms and softly whispers "What you doing baby?"

I know better then to lie to her "Hoping for a history lesson, I thought that I could pump some information about your childhood from David, it was a bust though, fuck it Faith I don't want to hurt you."

"I know little one, I know" she whispers even softer then before

"Don't call me little" I pout

"Come on back to our room we need to talk, it is about my past, it is past time I shared it all with you, you don't deserve to be out on a minefield just cause I'm chickenshit scared"

I slap her and growl out " that's my fiancée your insulting and I won't tolerate that, not from anyone, not even you"

Faith rubs her check and says with a semi smirk "Festity little thing, aren't we? but seriously B it is time for a privite talk so say goodbye to Tig and lets head back to our room"

"Bye David its been fustrating but you may have been right" I admit then I take Faiths hand as we rush back to our room in tense silance that only breaks when we are inside the door and sitting face to face on the couch

"It all started when I was six..."

AN: SNAFU= Situation Normal All Fucked Up. Trazodone is the sleep medication I'm on. AB positive is the universal recepent, meaning they can receive any type of blood, but their blood is useless to people with any other blood type. oh and fair fucking warning the next chapter is dark as all hell and deals with rape, death, suicide, child abuse, drugs, and molestation. while I won't do it justace this is something that needs to be done in order to fully understand Faith