I'm, so sorry you guys for not updating but with a rush of reviews and story alerts I felt I had to update. I'm sorry the grammar is atrocious but I wanted it out. when I finish this story I will fix it up anyhow there is only about one or two more chapters before I finish my very first fanfic! anyhow thanks to my faithful readers and please review!

Lily ran up the path towards the village but saw the flashes of deadly light coming from both sides. She ducked behind a building to avoid getting hit but crouched and peered out into the smoke ridden battlefield. She saw two clearly defined sides firing spells at each other while innocents and other passersby tried to get out of Hogsmeade. Lily then scoured her field of vision for James. She had to get to him before he was killed. Eventually she spotted James along with Sirius dueling one mask-less Deatheater. Lily knew her as Perestellina Dolohov a graduate of Hogwarts as of a year ago. As Lily spied for another place to hide the piece of building she found as shelter was blown away. Lily's wand was out knocked out of her hand and landed in the snow nearby. The pieces of rubble fell on her chest and Lily was struggling to breathe. She pushed against the stone on her chest with all her might but it still didn't budge. Lily inhaled and turned her head to the left where she saw a little girl not older than five years old dead in the snow beside her. She was blond with half open grey blue eyes and blood dribbling from her left temple. Lily felt a scream build in her chest but the weight of the stone kept it from being released. Lily's head bobbled back as the stone crushed her. The snow flakes falling from the clouds seemed so gentle a contrast to the bloody battlefield Lily was going to suffocate on. As Lily's vision turned black she felt the heavy weight lift off her. Lily gasped for breath and opened her eyes to see a pair of grey blue eyes hidden behind a Death Eater's mask. Lily knew she was going to die she was a mudblood, an enemy in their eyes. Instead as soon as she blinked her savior was gone. Lily turned her head wildly to look for him but there was nothing except bodies and the echoes of screams.

Lily got up and picked up her wand. Lily still heard screams of pain and anguish in the background and the bodies littering the battlefield. The bodies were of young people fighting an old man's war. Both sides lost but it was clear to Lily that this war was one of where the winner is the side who would lose less. There must have been at least a hundred bodies around her. Lily's disgust with the Death Eaters lessened as she realized that though they started the war they were people just like her who believed in someone enough to lay down their lives. Was she any different?

Lily looked down at an Order member facedown in the snow whose wand was thirty feet away. She looked around for any signs of struggle pocketed her wand and picked up the Order member's wand. She fingered the fine Cherry wood handle and wondered how many had died by this wand's light? How many children lost their mothers fathers sisters brothers cousins aunts uncles and friends to this wand's edge? What did it matter that these children were the children of Death Eaters? Yes they were raised to hate people of her standing but it was the adults of their lives that taught them that way. It was Voldemort that made many of their families join. Lily needed to fight. James had been trying his hardest to keep her out of it. Not now, not now that she saw the horrors of war. It will catch up to her eventually but she would fight until the day she died. Lily grabbed her wand and prepared for battle and ran right towards the screams. Lily felt a flash of red light fly towards her head while she ducked behind a building. She then faced the Death Eater head on casting several stunners for him while created a shield charm for the curses and hexes he aimed at her. She hid behind the building again when all of her stunners missed their marks. Then she popped out again and managed to cast a body bind curse at him. She ran passed him and saw James and Sirius fending off a few Death Eaters between each of them. She cast a few body binds on the Death Eaters with their backs to her. James's eyes were battle weary and his athletic frame tense but his eyes glinted with relief when he saw her alive and well. With all the Death Eaters in the vicinity gone for the moment she stood next to James and hugged him. However their relieving moment was short lived when with a bang and red light Sirius lay stunned beside them. In a flash James had shot a stunner at the Death Eater. The Death Eater's wand arm was shaking heavily and James shot another stunner at her. The death eater blocked it with precision and with speed befitting of a seeker she shot several spells at them. James dodged all of his but Lily fell victim to a leg locker curse and without a wand she couldn't reverse it fast enough to find her wand to rejoin the duel. Temporarily distracted James let a curse graze him but continued to fight on. James fought his hardest but it was increasingly clear that this Death Eater was a better duelist. However much to Lily's surprise had yet to cast an unforgivable. However as soon as Lily noted that; the Death Eater shot a blast of green light in James's direction. With her heart rate increasing and desperation to fight for James's life climbing she felt the curse slowly lifting. But it was not fast enough the Death Eater had James wand less and on his knees but as soon as Lily lifted the spell. The Death Eater had cast its final spell on James a blast of green-blue light towards his chest with a tear Lily ran and stood in front of James taking full blast of the light she only lasted a second of excruciating pain before she blacked out.

James P.O.V

I thought it was the end. I thought the Death Eater was going to kill me that was until Lily the only reason I had to live, took the spell for me. With a growl building in my chest I grabbed Lily's discarded wand so fast it took the scum off guard. I shot a stunner at the Death Eater so hard and powerful that it knocked her fifty feet into the window of another building. I felt the power seething within me and grabbed Lily's wrist to feel for a pulse. When I felt there was none I fought off tears of anger hatred and grief. Sirius tried to restrain me but now nothing was going to stop me from killing the scum that killed Lily. I went into the battle worn shop and pointed my wand at the stirring Death Eater. I was going to kill it. But before I did that I wanted to put a face to scum who did it. I angrily ripped the mask from its face. To my shock I saw that it was Dorcas. I unknowingly held in a breath. Everything Lily was had suspected was right she was right. I was wrong and I was such an ass for it. But now she's dead and I'll never be able to apologize. I fell to my knees and felt the first tears sting my eyes. Before I totally lost it I bound Dorcas in her Death Eater robes so she couldn't escape. But then the news I only had ears for rang across the abandoned town. "James, it's Lily, she has a pulse. James she's alive help me out!"

Lily P.O.V

I felt myself unable to lift my eyelids. But I knew, I just knew that James was there. I could feel his presence which made the weight of my existence so much easier. Suddenly that's when pain shot through my stomach. I screamed out and then there was nothing I couldn't feel anything anymore. But the weight of breathing became too much of a burden I didn't have the strength to keep breathing anymore. I felt as if I was on fire as if knives were cutting against my skin, flaying me alive with every slow agonizing slice. Surely there should be nothing left but bones. That's when I felt a scream build in my chest and I knew how to use my voice. I screamed for James to kill me.

James P.O.V

I could do nothing to stop her screams. The usually comforting hospital scene of Hogwart's did nothing for me and it sure as hell did nothing for Lily. They don't know what hit her but the curse is making Lily reject all forms of pain medication. There is nothing to ease her pain now but it's my fault so I'll help her best I can. I don't know for how I long I had sat there but it felt like a hundred years. A hundred miserable years that I have had to hear Lily beg me to kill her. I don't know what they are doing to Dorcas but she won't even tell us what curse she used. That fucking traitorous bitch. My hands gripped the roots of my hair. Eventually sometime around midnight Madame Pomfrey came in with a small silver vile and forced Lily's mouth open and poured the drink in.

"What was that?" I croaked.

"That that girl finally broke down and told us what was ailing her. She used an incredibly dark curse in which the victim will suffer for seven long days before she dies unless administered the cure which I have done. However the cure doesn't always work but it does at least ebb the pain for a little while. Today will be telling as to whether she will live through this or if she dies. Mr Potter you should rest it won't bring her back to stay up like this." In that moment I hated Dorcas I wanted to torture her myself I should have. But I didn't. I couldn't sleep knowing Dorcas was still breathing but I forced myself to stay by Lily's side because she was the only thing that mattered. I can't stand the fact she may not make it. She has to make it she just has to.

"I'll rest when she finally wakes."

"Mr Po-"

"No I'll rest when she wakes." Without another word the nurse left in a huff but I was too relieved to care I was glad Lily was out of her misery. Then I spoke without even knowing where the words came from.

"Lily you have every right to be angry at me for being an ass. I should have trusted your instincts I never should have turned on you it was the wrong thing to do. It didn't matter she was my friend I should have trusted you. Instead I built a wall between us and I'll do everything in my power to bring it down. I love you so much. You are everything to me." I took her hand in mine. "I know you'll never say yes especially now but I want you to be my wife. But I'll settle you for living through this. Just open your eyes tell me to bugger off, anything just don't die on me. Don't you dare die on me.

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Obviously she lives but anyhow I need to tie up a few loose ends before it officially ends. Anyways The Death Eater with the grey eyes will eventually have a one shot from me sometime after this story ends. it won't be too long only about 1,000 words if you're interested. But I plan on finishing this story before the end of summer so it'll be a few weeks for the last few updates. At any rate I'll be finished soon. Please I know I don't deserve it but reviewing always motivates me to write so please please please review thanks see you in a few weeks