Chapter 14: An heart felt apology

When Alistair, Hara and I made it back to camp Morrigan and Leliana were already gone with Kelaos. I walked into my tent and sat down on my bedroll I was exhausted and I ended up falling asleep.

I heard voices in the distance and I walked that way and when I got closer I saw them my Parents and Fergus wife and Oren all talking and laughing I went to them only for them to turn bloody and falling and seeing Rendon Howe's face laughing at me. I turned to glare at him, but then I see Fergus's face full of grief and sorrow, but also of anger and hatred. "you were suppose to keep them safe while I was away! " he shouted I couldn't say anything, but I'm sorry and he kept shaking his head.

The scene quickly changed to that of my father again, but this time standing next to Cailan and Anora and I grimaced when I saw Cailan holding onto Anora hand. "I'm sorry Teryn Cousland you're daughter is too wild for me." Cailan said while pulling Anora close.

"I'm sure she'll understand" her father had replied only for me to see that two of them where badly wounded.

"FATHER!" I shouted running to him and then turning around to see the orge had a hold of Cailan "CAILAN!" I finished I knew I couldn't save both. Save Father from Howe or save Cailan from the bone crushing Orge. I wanted to save both and both knew that and then everything went up in flames and I looked up to sky to see the Archdemon flying above me. I wasn't ready for this I heard Kelaos speak to me.

"Oh Fearless one save the day it is your destiny" he said

"She will bring death to us all if this is what the course of action is to be taken." came an unknown voice I fell to my knees and covered my ears with my hands shaking myself back and forth.

"I'm sorry I'm sorry" I say "I'm sorry" I muttered into my sleep. Outside of the tent Cailan had poked his head inside worried about the sound coming from my tent. He saw thrashing about muttering words of grief and he immediately went inside and shooked me awake earning a punch in my wake.

"Ouch! Geez Lia you okay?" he says ignoring the pain in his jaw and scooping me into his arms which I accepted immediately sobbing into his shirt. Alistair poked his head in his eyes worried.

"Is she alright I was by the lake and Sten said he heard something from her tent" Alistair said dropping his wet shirt to the ground and walking fully into the tent.

"She had a nightmare Alistair I'm sure you understand that?" Cailan said ominously

"I get it you don't like the fact that your half brother is in the company, but you have no choice I don't want the throne you can have I have my duties as a Grey Warden." Alistair said Cailan sighed and looked up to his little brother.

As Cailan soothed me to calm slumber he replied "That's not it Alistair. I sent you to the tower for safety in case I had died you were to take the throne and now that I'm still here thanks to Lia recklessness action I need you with me by my side not as a Grey Warden or a prince-bastard, but as a brother, a comrade, and a friend. I now understand why Lia is so hell bent on making sure...I just don't want both of us to perish in this war against the blight If something happens to me Promise me one thing will you?"

"As long as it's reasonable" Alistair agreed

"Keep Lia safe for me, Make sure she's happy, make sure she doesn't grieve over me, I don't want her to feel like she failed me, because she hasn't I was the one who failed her I should have done something about Anora, about Loghain, about everything that has happened so far and I failed her the most when her parents were murdered by Howe. I don't deserve her, but I'm too selfish to let her go. I just want to make sure she is taken care of the way she should be if something was to happen to me when this is all over." Cailan said stroking my hair lightly.

Alistair could tell his brother loved me greatly and he could tell there was a lot of regret in his eyes "I promise Cailan" Alistair said not knowing why he agreed he guessed he just did because of me, because I wouldn't want the fighting going on between them sure Alistair had feelings for me, but if he was to lose her he would lose her to the one person Alistair knew would take good care of me.

"I'll go now I'm soaping wet and I left my dry clothes by the fire in my bag let me know if she needs anything. I'll try and make something up quick for her" Alistair said leaving. Cailan smiled he knew Alistair hadn't given up on trying to win my heart he knew it by his stance. He diverted his thoughts when he felt me move.

"Cailan! I... I ... " I said sitting up immediately and then the memories of the nightmare came back and I pulled my knees up and hugged them with my arms and cried. It had felt so real the blood the words of hatred the anguish everything felt so real that it had felt like no dream what so ever.

"Lia what's wrong? You can tell me." Cailan said coming to sit beside me and putting an arm around my shoulder lightly. I explained everything that I had cared to share and he pulled me into him so I could cry into his shoulder and I did so.

"Lia I have something to say as well" He said kissing the top of my head lightly. I looked up and saw something that I haven't seen in his eyes for a long time. "I'm sorry if I did anything hurt you after you saved me from that Orge, but most of all I'm sorry I didn't do anything about the engagement I should have, but I didn't and you didn't deserve to on the blunt end on that. I just hope you can forgive me when the time comes and that I love you and I always did." he finished

I couldn't believe it the smile that always showed his cockiness was gone replaced of one that showed love and compassion. His eyes were filled with love, sadness, regret, anger at himself for not realizing it. I sighed and cupped his cheek his eyes locked onto mine. "Thank you Cailan for the time you are giving me." I say as I kissed his cheek like I had done Alistair and then leaned onto his shoulder and fell asleep. I drew in his strength to keep me safe from the worse of the nightmares I knew where to come.

Kelaos looked up at the circle tower and sighed heavily the last time he was here was when he was conscripted into the wardens for doing something he told to do. He sat down on the hill path down to the docks not sure if he wanted to go there not sure if he was welcomed to come in just because he was a grey warden. "If I knew this was going to be the result of coming to the circle tower I would have told you to pick someone else." Morrigan said stiffly.

"It's hard for me to come back to this place " Kelaos replied still looking at the tower, he wondered how everyone else was especially his sister Kaira she was talented sure and just as smart as him, but she took her time in things he normally rushed through to get done and the fact that she had a crush on someone inside the circle of course he never did figure out who.

A/n: Yay! another one! Enjoy! :)