A/N I don't own Twilight.

Yeah, because we are broken,

What must we do to restore our innocence?

And all the promise we adored?

Give us life again because we just wanna be whole.

-We are broken, Paramore

EPOV

It's been three weeks.

Three weeks since Bella left me at the airport-taking my heart with her.

Three weeks I've been miserable.

I sent her text messages, phone calls, e-mails, fuck I even sent her a postcard with a small bear on the front holding a sign with 'sorry' written on it. After the first week I drove out to her apartment and banged on the door-begging her to let me in so we could talk about this. After ten minutes of my insistent knocking, she slid a piece of paper under the door with 'I'm not ready' written on it. I took that as my cue to leave.

I moped around the house-everything reminded me of Bella. I couldn't get her off my mind. Esme tried to perk me up by making my favourite dinners every night-but I wanted Bella's cooking. When a Kings of Leon song came on in my car one day-I nearly cried like a fucking baby. I needed her to listen to me. We had to talk about this-she would have to talk to me sooner or later. I knew she had feelings for me, I just needed the chance to tell her that I reciprocated those feelings.

I called Alice as soon as I got home and told her that Bella was upset, and could use some girl time or whatever the fuck it's called. She wanted more information, and I told her that it was up to Bella to tell her what she felt was appropriate. I then called Jasper and Emmett, who came over and I told them a brief version of what happened with Bella.

"Bella and I got drunk, we started making out and telling eachother how much we loved eachother, one thing led to another and we had sex" I said in one breath with a sheepish expression.

Their jaws dropped as they took in what I said. I waited in silence for them to digest the information. I wasn't sure if they would beat the crap 'outta me for having sex with the girl they considered their sister, or if they were happy that I had sex with the girl of my dreams and professed my love to her.

"Then what happened?" Emmett asked in astonishment-his eyes wide as he anticipated my next sentence.

"We both forgot the next morning at first-but when we remembered, Bella freaked out. We eventually talked about it a bit and we admitted that we had feelings for eachother, but she didn't want to talk about it-she asked to wait until after the concert" I told them.

"And...?" Jasper chided.

"At the concert I was going to kiss her and tell her I love her, and then Tanya showed up" I sighed.

"What the fuck?" Emmett yelled.

"Where is she now?" Jasper asked, looking around him.

"Shopping" I muttered, running my hands through my hair in frustration.

"Edward, you need to break up with her." Emmett said.

"I know, I'll do it as soon as I get a chance. But I was thinking. She is only staying here for two more weeks and then she's leaving, maybe I should wait 'till then?"I said "It's only three weeks, it won't cause any harm. I'll just make sure to distance myself."

"That sounds okay. But make sure you tell Bella that. Because as far as she's concerned-you two are still together" Jasper said seriously, but then furrowed his brows in confusion "Wait. What happened when Tanya showed up?"

"She kissed me unexpectedly. I hated it, and when I turned around Bella was gone. She wouldn't talk to me on the plane, and she took a cab home" I mumbled.

Jasper and Emmett encouraged me to try as hard as possible to get in contact with her and they told me they were sorry for everything that happened. I thanked them for listening and said goodbye.

I was pulled from my thoughts by my phone beeping-it was from Tanya.

Party at Demetri's tonight, can we go? XxXxXxXxX

I sighed and rubbed my hand over my face. The first thought that came to mind was Bella might be there. She would have no choice but to talk to me. I quickly replied and told her we'd be going.

Bella was going to listen to me whether she liked it or not.

BPOV

"Alice, I don't really want to go" I whined as she applied some mascara to my eyelashes.

"Bella. You have done nothing but mope around this apartment for three weeks. You need to get out of here and have some fun." She stated seriously.

"Maybe I wanna mope" I mumbled under my breath.

She's right though. I've been a ghost the past few weeks.

I missed him.

I regret not replying to his texts and rejecting his constant phone calls-I suppose I'm being a little melodramatic, but I don't give a fuck about that. Besides, what could he possibly have to say to me? He fucked me and is still with Tanya. I was so confused-I didn't understand what he wanted.

I had to talk to him eventually-I knew this. But I was terrified of what he might say to me. What if he told me that he didn't want to be my friend anymore? What if that night meant nothing to him?

I wasn't prepared for that kind of confrontation.

"All done" Alice chirped beside me.

I appraised myself in the mirror. My eyes were smokey. Thick, full eyelashes framed my wide eyes and my lips were a deep red. My hair cascaded in soft waves down my back and I smiled at how well I looked.

"You look hot" Rosalie said from across the room.

"Thanks" I replied, it was the best I'd looked in weeks.

I put on my black cocktail dress that Alice insisted I wear. It was strapless and around my hips was some intricate beading. I wore my black blazer with the sleeves rolled up to my elbows and grey heels.

Alice wore a purple dress that had an empire waistline and flared out above her knees. Rosalie wore a navy cocktail dress very similar to my own-only hers had straps.

Jasper and Emmett arrived at the apartment and I was grateful that Edward wasn't with them. I tried in vain to back out of going once more after Jasper confirmed that he was already there, but my attempts were futile as Emmett flung me over his shoulder and carried me to the car.

I've never been to Demetri's house before, although he insisted that I come over one evening to see it. When Emmett parked, we quickly got out and I appraised the house. It was huge-like mansion kinda huge. All the lights were on and the music and voices drifted out to us. We were greeted at the door by Demetri; he was holding a beer and gestured for us to come in.

There were probably over a hundred people here. None of them I knew. The music was extremely loud and multi-coloured lights flickered throughout the rooms like a club. The others took off to dance and I was left standing in the doorway.

Why the fuck was I here again?

"Bella, you look absolutely stunning tonight" Demetri said, taking my hand.

"Thank you" I replied nonchalantly.

"Do you want a drink?" he asked.

"No thanks, I'm not drinking" I told him. There was no way I was touching alcohol again. I learned my lesson.

"That's fine, how about a coke?" he asked kindly.

"Yeah, that would be great"

He disappeared into what I assumed was the kitchen, and I decided to take a look around. In the living room, people were doing body shots, as the man tried to lick the salt from her collar bone-he tripped and they butted heads, while everyone around them laughed hysterically. I laughed at their antics and continued on into the next room-where I turned right back around and walked out.

"Bella!"

Holy mother of all fucks he saw me.

I sped up my pace, but I felt his hand grabbing my wrist and pulling me back.

"We need to talk" he said seriously.

"About what?" I asked, feigning cluelessness.

"Cut the bull Bella, you know exactly what we need to talk about." He said sternly, his eyes were blazing.

"And what? You think now is the right time to do it?" I asked him angrily.

"Well, you've been avoiding me the past three weeks. This may be the only chance I'll get!" he exclaimed.

"Okay, let's compromise. Come up to the apartment tomorrow and we'll talk. Because now is not the time for that." I told him, gesturing to the people around us.

"Okay" he agreed, staring at me. Suddenly his eyes turned soft and a small smile graced his lips. I couldn't help but return the smile. He opened up his arms and I flung myself into them. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him, his touch shot sparks up my spine and I shivered slightly. I sighed into his chest and then pulled back. I could see apologies written all over his face and I knew I would never be able to stay mad at him now.

"Tomorrow" I confirmed.

"Tomorrow" he agreed.

"Here's your drink Bella" Demetri said, suddenly beside me, he thrust the drink into my hand and I took a sip-was there something off about the taste?

"Thanks Demetri" I told him, forgetting it for the moment.

There was an awkward silence between the three of us. Edward and Demetri were glaring at eachother-and they appeared to be sizing eachother up. I sighed in annoyance and broke the silence.

"Um, I'm gonna go look for the others" I mumbled, and started to walk away.

"I'll come with you" Demetri said, wrapping his arm around my waist and walking me into another room where a bunch of people were dancing.

"Would you like to dance?" he asked.

"Sure" I replied.

He led me over to the moving bodies and turned my back to his chest. We danced for a little bit, but I suddenly felt very tired and a little tipsy-not in the drunk way-more so the head rush, the room is spinning kind of way. I downed the rest of my drink and threw the cup away-I was so thirsty.

I pulled away from Demetri, sat down in a chair and closed my eyes-I felt dizzy. When I opened them, Demetri was standing in front of me with a glass of water.

"Thanks" I slurred, I tried to take it from him, but when I reached for it-he moved the cup. I tried again-same result.

"Stop moving the cup" I mumbled angrily, I wasn't in the mood for this shit.

"I'm not moving it Bella" he told me, smirking a little. He grabbed my hand and placed it on the cup, I smiled at him gratefully and took it from him.

There was something wrong with my head.

I took a sip and grimaced at the taste.

"This is vodka" I stated, giggling. The whole situation was suddenly hysterical.

"Yeah it is" he said. I couldn't see him right, his face was blurred.

And suddenly I was laughing hysterically. Why? I don't know-the whole situation seemed hilarious.

"Let's dance again!" I exclaimed giddily, jumping up and grabbing his hand.

I pulled him to the dance floor and grinded into him with all the sexiness I could muster. He grabbed my hips and moved me against him. I reached my arms up and wrapped them around his neck and giggled for no reason-I just felt really happy and giddy.

A couple in the corner of the room caught my attention-they were making out furiously-his hands on her ass and her fingers in his hair.

"Why are Edward and Tanya making out?" I yelled at Demetri, pointing to the couple in the corner of the room.

"Bella, that's not Edward and Tanya-they're my friends Jane and Alec."

"Oh," I mumbled, and then giggled "Oops!"

"I have to pee really badly" I said suddenly.

"Okay" he said, he took my hand and led me to one of the bathrooms upstairs-I tripped a couple of times-the stairs were moving.

"Harry Potter" I giggled.

He appeared to have not noticed and continued up the stairs.

"You can't come in with me silly!" I chortled once we reached the door "You'll see my lady bits! Only Edward can see my lady bits!" I giggled unthinkingly.

His expression suddenly became surprised, but he quickly composed himself, smiled at me and let me in to the bathroom. Wow I had to pee really badly.

I don't know how long I sat on the toilet for but I suddenly heard voices outside. I giggled at my eaves dropping-but tried to pay attention when I heard Tanya's voice.

"He said that a loss of bladder control was one of the effects. It really hit her hard-she won't stop giggling" Demetri said.

"Good, then it's working-did you give her the vodka?" Tanya asked him.

"Yeah, she drank it all"

I didn't understand what they were talking about so I opened the door after pulling up my panties and stepped out.

"What are you talking about?" I asked them.

"I was just telling Tanya how great a dancer you are" he said, smiling.

"Oh!" I guffawed "I thought you were trying to drug me or something"

Tanya smiled at my reaction and walked off. I stood there for a few moments with Demetri and then smirked for no reason. Demetri stalked toward me and grabbed the tops of my arms. I gasped in surprise and he crushed his lips to mine. I closed my eyes and kissed him back. I wished it was Edward I was kissing-I imagined it was him. He opened his mouth and caressed my tongue. I opened my eyes and saw Edward staring back at me. I was surprised for a second but then smiled against his lips.

"Mmm, Edward" I sighed into his mouth.

"Bella, I'm Demetri" I pulled away from him and looked over him again. Suddenly his face morphed into Demetri and I giggled in amusement.

"Oops!" I exclaimed again. "I thought you were Edward!"

"Let's go back downstairs" he suggested. I nodded and he took my hand again, and then suddenly we were dancing again. When did we get down here? I felt his erection rubbing against my backside and I ground into him instinctively-like I had done with Edward at Karaoke.

The room pulsated around me, the colours of the walls and furniture blended together. The sound of the music and people talking grew louder and louder, until it hurt. I covered my ears, looking at my feet-they seemed to be growing bigger and bigger-I laughed and thought I looked like big foot.

Where's Edward? I want Edward. Edward will make me feel better. I don't feel good. I don't wanna look like big foot.

I left Demetri's embrace in search of him. I stumbled through the kitchen and into the living room. I could see Edward standing on the patio by himself, so I wandered out to him and grabbed him around the waist.

"Whoa! Bella, you scared me" he exclaimed, turning around to look at me.

I started to giggle hysterically at that. I scared Edward.

"Yeah you did" Edward said, his beautiful smile wavering.

Oops! I was talking out loud.

"Edward" I whined "My feet are too big-tell me I don't look like big foot"

"Bella are you drunk?" he asked, frowning.

"You're too good looking to frown" I said, bouncing on the spot.

He grabbed my shoulders to hold me in the spot. I frowned at him and pouted.

"You're no fun"

"Bella, how many drinks have you had?" he asked seriously.

"Why so serious?" I said in a raspy voice, my poor impersonation of the joker caused me to laugh.

"Bella" he said sternly.

"Okay, okay. Hmm...I don't think I had any..." I trailed off, I couldn't remember. Did I drink anything? How long were we here for? It felt like hours.

I started to bounce again.

"Are you fucking joking Bella? You're smashed" he exclaimed in frustration. "I thought you would have learned you fucking lesson last time and wouldn't drink" he said furiously.

"Doesn't it bring back fond memories Edward?" I asked with what I hoped was a seductive smile.

"At the moment, no"

"But you told me I was all sexyfulls" I giggled, poking him in the chest.

EPOV

What the fuck is wrong with her? She never acted like this before. I could smell the alcohol from her breath. I was thoroughly confused. She was extremely giddy, couldn't remember what she drank, yet she was slurring all her words. She was bringing up a conversation she made me put off until tomorrow...

Once again, what the fuck is wrong with her?

"Eddie!"

Fuck, fuck, shititty fuck shit.

"What are you doing out here?" she asked, glaring at Bella-who was staring at her hands in wonder.

"Just getting some air" I told her.

"What about you Bella?" she asked sweetly. Bella's head snapped up.

"I was reminding Edward of the sexy times we had in Hollywood" Bella said deviously, smirking a little.

Shit.

"What sexy times?" Tanya asked, holding her composure.

"The ones in Hollywood, duh" Bella exclaimed, with an exasperated look on her face.

"You and Edward had sex?" Tanya asked.

"Haha, yeah" she giggled "We got really drunk, and then he told me I was sexy and then we had sexy times-it was gooooood" she giggled.

Before Bella or I could anticipate anything. Tanya lunged for Bella. They both fell to the ground, where Tanya straddled Bella and started clawing at her hair. Bella screamed, and threw a punch at her face. Tanya fell back with a thud and clutched her nose-but Bella wasn't finished yet.

"I've waited a long time for this bitch" she yelled, and began to kick her furiously.

I was so absorbed in the fight that I hadn't noticed Emmett, Jasper, Rosalie and Alice appear in the doorway-their mouths were gaped in shock at the scene before them. Tanya's screech of agony brought me to back to attention. I ran toward Bella and grabbed her by the waist. She kicked and flailed her arms around in annoyance as I pulled her away from Tanya.

"Bella! Cut it out!" I yelled at her-but she was beyond reason-she writhed under my grip and clawed at the vice-like grip my hands had around her waist.

This wasn't my Bella. I hated this side of her. I never wanted to see it again. I was so angry that she would do this-it was so unlike her. I really thought that she would be more responsible and not drink.

"Edward, I got her. Go get your girlfriend" Demetri said calmly beside me.

I sigh in annoyance. I would have preferred that Em or Jasper take her, but they were occupied outside.

"Fine" I huffed and put her down next to him, and went outside to face Tanya.

BPOV

My head was spinning.

One minute I was being attacked,-I think-then Edward was carrying me somewhere, did I kick him? I can't remember why I was kicking him. Suddenly someone else's arms were around me and I was being pulled away, I caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror and laughed-my hair was all frizzy-I looked like Aslan.

"RAWR!" I roared, and then started pissing myself laughing "I AM ASLAN! WELCOME TO NARNIA!" I looked up to see Demetri looking back at me intensely. I suddenly had an awesomeness idea.

"Let's go find a wardrobe and go to Narnia!" I snickered, clapping my hands and bouncing on the spot in my excitement.

He seemed to ignore me.

"Wait here for a second Bella" he said, and then disappeared.

I followed him out back where he pulled a very drunk Emmett aside.

"I'm gonna take Bella home" he said.

Emmett nodded and Demetri came over to me.

"I thought we were gonna play Narnia" I asked, with a small pout.

"Okay, let's go to my room and find my wardrobe" he smirked.

Thrilled that he was playing along-I grabbed his hand and towed him up the stairs. He showed me where his room was and pulled me inside. I spotted a large maple wardrobe beside a desk and started for it-but he suddenly pulled me back to his chest and crushed his lips against mine.

My mind was blank. I didn't understand what was going on. My eyes started to droop and I suddenly felt exhausted, my body collapsed against him-I felt like I had been injected with a tranquiliser. He grabbed me by my hips and pushed me backwards, and then lips were on my neck-licking and sucking their way across my chest. My mind wasn't in sync with the situation, I felt tired.

It felt strenuous to think-so I let my eyes drift closed and I blacked out.

A/N

So who's confused? Can anyone guess what Demetri put in her drink?

I loved writing this chapter-I never had experience in the whole hallucination department, but if I did-it would probably end with me thinking I'm Aslan or Harry Potter or Spiderman...

So up to 300 reviews and I'll update.

-Cosmic Monster.